Tony was so wrung out from that marathon
sex session that the rest of the day
passed in a kind of a haze. He was dimly
aware of them taking a long, slow
shower, and of Gibbs getting dressed
again. Then he followed Gibbs around the
house while his dom banged in hooks
seemingly everywhere - in ceilings and
walls in every room in the house. Tony
thought he remembered eating a Chinese
takeout on the couch in front of a DVD.
Then he just stretched out, exhausted,
his head in Gibbs's lap, gazing blankly
at the TV screen.
Gibbs stroked his hair, and Tony looked
up at him, still in a kind of shock.
He'd never known sex like he'd
experienced today. It was as if Gibbs
had fucked him all the way down to his
soul. His body ached all over. He could
feel the scratches on his back from
where Gibbs had fucked him against the
wall, and the bruise marks on his hips
from where Gibbs had fucked him over the
back of the couch. His nipples were
sore, his ass was tender from the
spanking, and his hole ached from being
so well stretched – but he loved every
single ache and pain.
He didn't protest when Gibbs dragged him
off to bed at some far too early hour.
He just got into the bed and offered up
his hands for Gibbs to buckle his wrists
into the soft leather cuffs that hung
from the bed post.
Gibbs clipped his collar to the chain
that was also attached to the bed post,
and Tony rolled onto his side in his
bondage, feeling like he was exactly
where he wanted to be.
He felt Gibbs get into the bed behind
him. Then the lights were turned off,
and Gibbs pressed up against him in the
darkness.
His dom held him close, and Tony closed
his eyes. This shouldn't feel so good.
He couldn't get his head around it.
Surely this couldn't end well? Usually
whenever the word 'love' was raised in
any relationship he'd been in, it was
the beginning of the end. Tony had never
been comfortable either offering the
sentiment or hearing it – so why was
this so different? He wasn't sure, and
he was too tired to think about it, so
he just closed his eyes and fell fast
asleep.
He slept for ten hours straight and was
woken by the now familiar sensation of
Gibbs opening up his butt cheeks and
sliding his hard cock between them. He
hissed a little as Gibbs went in – all
that fucking had loosened him up, but it
had also rubbed him sore in places too.
The burn soon went away though, and he
lay there, feeling boneless and content
as Gibbs fucked him lazily into
consciousness.
Tony didn't care that his hands were
bound, and he couldn't reach his cock to
bring himself off. There was something
so peaceful about allowing Gibbs to pump
into him while he just enjoyed the ride.
They passed Sunday much like the
previous day, and Tony realised he had
spent pretty much the whole weekend his
own sub space. He was loving it so much
that he didn't want it to end, and he
started to feel anxious about what would
happen when they went back to work the
next day.
After lunch, Gibbs took Tony down into
the basement and clipped him to the wall
again. Tony watched as Gibbs began work
on some new project.
"You're quiet," his dom said a couple of
hours later. “Usually you like to talk
at me when I’m working.” He stepped back
to survey his handiwork. Tony had no
idea what this one was – it looked
nothing like anything you'd need on a
boat, but it was also nothing like the
St Andrew's Cross, either.
"Hmmm," Tony replied. "What *is* that
you're working on there, Boss?"
"Spanking bench."
"How many things do you need to tie me
to just to spank my ass?"
Gibbs grinned at him. "Helps to have
some variety. Besides, I like making
stuff for you."
Tony hadn't viewed it that way. "How
does it work?"
Gibbs beckoned him over, and Tony
unclipped himself and approached the new
device apprehensively.
"You place your knees here…" Gibbs
helped him put his knees onto two little
shelves, and then propelled his body
forward so that it was resting on the
beam. This had the effect of raising his
ass high in the air and forcing his head
down. "I'll add some restraints so you
can't move. Good thing about this one is
that when I'm done spanking you, I can
fuck you while you're still tied to it,"
Gibbs pointed out.
Tony gave a shiver of anticipatory
pleasure at that thought.
"But not now," Gibbs laughed, hauling
him back. "It's not finished for a
start, and I don't have the materials to
finish it, either. It needs padding or
it'll be uncomfortable – to say nothing
of the splinters."
"Hmmm." Tony gazed at the bench, lost in
thought. Gibbs tapped his forehead.
"What's going on, Tony?"
"Nothing," Tony shrugged, walking back
towards his cushion on the floor and his
now familiar bondage.
He was startled, a second later, when a
firm arm went around his waist, and an
equally firm hand began laying swats on
his ass. Gibbs spanked him – hard - a
few times, then released him and swung
him around. Tony rubbed his sore ass.
"What was that for?"
"What's rule number two?" Gibbs
demanded.
"Don't lie to you," Tony muttered.
"Then don't damn well lie to me. Now
what's going on?"
"I was just thinking about work. How's
that gonna be now, Gibbs?"
Gibbs raised a confused eyebrow. "No
different to how it was last week,
Tony."
"But…" Tony wasn't sure he could explain
it. Gibbs might have spent the week
training him, but nothing could ever
have prepared him for how he felt now
that Gibbs had collared him and fucked
him. It changed *everything* in some
deep, subtle way that he couldn't put
into words.
"I just…what we've been doing…it's…" He
floundered. Last week he felt as if he'd
just been playing at it, but now it had
become real. He had no idea if he could
go back to being work Tony again after
being *this* Tony. "How can I be your
sub at work and not be your sub like
*this*," he said at last, gesturing at
his naked body, the chain on the wall,
and the half-finished spanking bench. "I
want to be this all the time, and that's
not gonna happen."
"You'll be fine," Gibbs grinned at him.
"You're deep in your own sub space this
weekend, Tony, but you'll come up again
when you get back to work. Habit and
routine will kick in. Just remember that
I own your ass now, and if I want to
fuck you in the elevator, or the van, or
the men's room, then I will."
"Trust me, that's not the problem," Tony
said, with a wry grin. "The fucking is
definitely never a problem. But you said
that once you fucked me, you wouldn't
give me up easily, and you said this was
a 24/7 deal…" Tony trailed off.
"So?" Gibbs frowned.
"Does that mean I live here now?" Tony
asked. "Or are you gonna send me back to
my apartment? I mean, I'm running low on
clothes and…"
Gibbs silenced him with a glare. "Tony –
when I said 24/7 I meant it, and there's
no way in hell I'd tolerate having to
*phone* my sub in the middle of the
night when I want to feel his mouth
around my cock. So yeah, you're living
here now. You have a problem with that?"
Tony heaved a sigh of relief. "No.
Just…usually people date for awhile
before moving in together."
Gibbs shrugged. "So? That's people – not
us. What we have is different. You're my
sub – no point keeping a 24/7 sub if you
can't fuck him when you're in the mood."
Tony chewed on his lip, gazing at his
dom thoughtfully.
"What now?" Gibbs sighed.
"Just…me and you, we're both commitment-phobes…"
he began. Gibbs raised an eyebrow. "Oh
come on – you so are! I don't care how
many damn times you've been married,
there's a reason why they all left you."
He was surprised to see the little wince
cross Gibbs's face. He thought he knew
all the man's sensitivities by now – and
God knows there weren't many – but he
was wrong.
"They did all leave you, didn't they?"
Tony asked quietly. "You didn't leave
them."
"Nope. I didn't leave them." Gibbs shook
his head moodily.
"And Stan?"
"Yeah – he left too. They all left, and
they were right to leave. And yeah, they
left because I didn't commit to any of
them – no matter how many rings I pushed
on fingers. I wasn't ever really in any
of those relationships."
"Because of…" Tony hesitated. This was
the most vulnerable of Gibbs's
sensitivities – and the only one that
truly mattered to his dom. He knew that.
"Shannon and Kelly?" he asked
tentatively.
Gibbs stared at him. He looked as if he
was struggling with the answer to that
one.
"I'm not prying," Tony said hastily.
"Just…it seems to me that if you and
I…if what we have here is real…I need to
know that I'm not like one of your
ex-wives, or Stan. I need to know you're
as in this as I am."
Gibbs shook his head, laughing softly.
"Hell, Tony, you don't even need to ask
that question," he said ruefully. "What
I've got with you is more real than
anything I've had in eighteen years. You
and me – commitment isn't an issue here.
Not for me anyway. You?"
"No." Tony shook his head thoughtfully.
"Seems weird to say it, but no. I've
never lived with anyone else, Boss – not
as anything more than a roomie. This
should be freaking me out, but it isn't.
I just needed to know where I stood."
"Yeah – you did, and it's right you
asked. We'll figure it out at work as we
go along. As for your clothes - we'll go
over to your place tomorrow evening and
get everything you need."
"What happens to my apartment? I mean,
this has all been pretty quick, and…"
"Just leave it," Gibbs shrugged. "No
need for you to make any big decisions
now. You move in here – you live here –
and we'll see how it goes. I know this
is all new, and you might feel happier
knowing you have a bolthole."
"Hope I won't need one." Tony grinned.
Gibbs was serious as he moved in close
though. "Don't want to pressure you,
Tony. I want my sub to be here so I can
fuck him, but I know that's a lot to
handle. I know *I* can be a lot to
handle. You ever need space, you tell
me, and we'll figure something out."
"Oh, I don't think the fucking is going
to be the problem, Jethro," Tony said
quietly. "The problem is gonna be me and
my never-ending ability to screw things
up."
"Hey – I've been divorced three times –
don't talk to me about screwing things
up," Gibbs grinned. "Let's just take it
one day at a time. Yes?"
"Yes, Boss!"
Tony surrendered happily as Gibbs pulled
him close and kissed him. Then Gibbs
released him and returned to his
half-finished wood-working project.
“Hey Jethro!” Tony called him back. “For
the record – I’ve never had any trouble
handling you."
"Is that so?" Gibbs raised an amused
eyebrow.
"Yeah, I've been handling you for eight
years,” Tony smirked.
Gibbs laughed. “And doing a damn good
job of it too, Tony."
~*~
Gibbs went easy on his sub for the rest
of the weekend, as they were both wiped
out by all the truly fantastic sex.
Gibbs was astonished by how easy it had
been. He'd expected more problems,
especially as Tony was a newbie, but it
had all been so simple.
He hadn't anticipated that the sex would
be so good, or that he'd like having
Tony around as much as he did. He'd
expected Tony would be high maintenance,
but he wasn't. Gibbs was starting to
realise just how much Tony had always
put on a performance simply to get his
attention. Now that he had it, he was
much more laid-back.
Gibbs didn't have any of Tony's
anxieties about going back to work. He
didn't over-think situations, the way
Tony did; there was no point looking for
problems where none existed.
They were both so exhausted that they
went to bed early. Gibbs finished up in
the bathroom and returned to the bedroom
to find that his sub was already fast
asleep. Gibbs's heart skipped a beat. He
had a beautiful, naked, collared
submissive tied up in his bed. If
someone had told him about this a couple
of weeks ago, he'd have slapped them
upside the head.
He got in beside Tony, wrapped his arms
around him, and held him tight. Tony was
dead to the world and didn't even
murmur. Gibbs kissed the back of his
sub's neck, thinking about Tony's
various declarations of love. Gibbs had
never found it easy to say those words,
even to Shannon. He felt the emotion,
but the words always got stuck in the
back of his throat. They seemed too big
to say, but too small to sum up how he
felt.
He kissed his sub's shoulder. "Love you
too, Tony," he muttered.
He was glad that Tony wasn't awake, so
he couldn't hear how paltry the words
sounded.
~*~
Tony didn't want to get up the next
morning. He didn't want to leave the
hazy peace of sub space behind and
return to work. He lay in bed, still in
his bondage, enjoying the last few
moments before he had to put this
amazing weekend behind him.
Gibbs had fucked him awake as usual, and
his thighs were sticky with the semen
that was gently seeping out of his ass.
He liked the way his hole still throbbed
from taking his dom's big cock, and the
sense of sexual satisfaction thrumming
through his veins.
Gibbs was singing loudly and tunelessly
in the shower. Tony closed his eyes and
dozed off to the sound. He didn't want
to move. He didn't want to venture back
into a world where he had to be anything
other than Gibbs's naked, compliant sub.
Gibbs returned to the bedroom a few
minutes later, drying himself. Tony
rolled onto his side and watched his dom
getting dressed. Gibbs finished up and
glanced at him.
“I’m leaving. You should get your lazy
ass moving, or you’ll be late," he said,
bending over to kiss Tony's hair.
"Like I'd dare. My boss has this weird
time management obsession." Tony
grinned.
"Yeah, and also he doesn't like
excuses.” Gibbs glared down at him
meaningfully.
"So you don’t think he’d go for; ‘I'm
late 'cause my dom was taking so long
fucking me into the mattress this
morning’?" Tony smiled sweetly.
Gibbs rubbed his chin thoughtfully.
“Well, I don’t know, Tony. But you’re
the one who keeps boasting that you can
handle this bastard boss of yours, so if
you want to go ahead and try that one
out then be my guest.”
Tony groaned. “On it, Boss.” He sat up
and began unclipping his collar from the
chain tethering him to the bed. “Hey –
Boss!” He called Gibbs back as he got to
the door. “Can I wear my collar to
work?”
Gibbs shook his head. “Nope. Too
obvious.”
“But Abby wears a different collar every
day!” Tony protested.
“Abby’s a Goth – she’s always had
eccentric dress tastes. You haven't.
Besides, the collar's private – it's
between you and me, nobody else."
“But Boss…”
“I said no, Tony. Now, get your ass up
and get dressed because I can promise
you something a hell of a lot worse than
a time management class if you’re late
this time.”
“Yes, Boss,” Tony sighed.
He showered, shaved, cleaned his teeth,
and then surveyed the collar on the
nightstand regretfully. A thought
occurred to him: Gibbs’s objections had
been to do with the collar showing – but
supposing he could fix it so that it
didn’t?
He pulled out his sharpest suit – the
grey pinstripe with the waistcoat – and
the high collared white shirt and
extravagantly full grey silk tie that he
liked to wear with it. This was his
special occasion outfit – it was the one
he’d worn to work the day he’d hoped to
go up to Stillwater with Gibbs to meet
his dad. Okay, so Gibbs hadn’t let him
go on that trip that day, but Tony
hadn’t known that when he got dressed.
Tony buckled his black leather collar
around his throat, relieved to have it
back where it belonged, and then he
pulled on his white shirt and buttoned
it up. It was tight, but it did cover
the collar completely. You could just
about make out the outline of the collar
through his shirt, but when he knotted
the grey silk tie over it you couldn’t
see it at all.
“Hey presto!” Tony pulled on the rest of
his outfit and admired himself in the
mirror. “Not bad, Anthony,” he mused. At
least this way he got to wear the collar
*and* look pretty damn fine into the
bargain. He looked at himself intently.
He was different now. He might look the
same, but when he went in to work today
it would be as a collared sub. His whole
life had changed in the course of one
weekend.
He arrived at work with two minutes to
spare – to find that Gibbs had already
gone into a meeting with Vance. He had,
however, left a long list of tasks on
Tony’s desk which he wanted completed by
the time he returned.
Tony worked on them for a couple of
hours and then took the elevator down to
Abby’s lab, whistling to himself as he
went. Abby turned to glance at him as he
entered, turned back to her work
station, and then twirled around again
and did a double take.
“Oh my God!” she breathed.
“What?” Tony put his hand up to touch
his tie. She couldn’t possibly see the
collar underneath his shirt, could she?
“You, Tony!” She stared at him, a
curious expression on her face. “Did you
have plastic surgery over the weekend?”
“What? No!”
“You sure?” She came over and peered at
him suspiciously.
“Definitely! I spent the weekend doing
something much more fun than that.” He
winked at her, and she laughed out loud.
“So that’s it! I knew it was something!
You’ve been having hot sex all weekend,
haven’t you, Tony?”
“Yes, Abby, I have.” He didn’t even try
to hide the smug expression on his face.
“Not just hot sex – the best sex of your
entire life! Nobody looks that good
unless it was really incredible,
mind-blowing,
swinging-from-the-chandelier type sex!”
“There were no chandeliers.” He grinned.
“But you’re right about all the rest.”
“Tony!” She launched herself at him for
a hug. “I’m so happy for you! It’s about
time you found someone who’s right for
you. You’re too nice to be alone. Well,
annoying too, but mainly nice.
Oh…wait…what’s this…?” She traced her
fingers around the collar of his shirt
and prodded at it. “Are you wearing a
collar, Tony?”
“Well yeah – that’s my shirt collar,” he
deflected quickly. “So – are you nearly
done with the evidence for the McElroy
case? ‘Cause that’s due in court soon
and...”
Abby thumped his arm. “No, are you
wearing a collar *under* your shirt
collar, Mister? I think you are. Here,
let’s see it.” She began tugging at his
tie.
Tony gave in with a sigh – he knew Abby,
and he knew there was no way she was
going to let this one pass. “Okay – but
you have to promise you won’t tell
anyone.”
“Oh right – who am I gonna tell? Gibbs?”
Abby smirked.
Tony grimaced. “Don't tell *anyone* –
but definitely not Gibbs.” He pulled his
tie open and undid the top buttons of
his shirt so she could see the collar.
“Oh man, that’s one beautiful collar.
Your top must really love you, Tony!
Feel the leather…it’s so soft!” She ran
her fingers over it appreciatively.
“Now, don’t deny that you have marks on
your wrists from the handcuffs *this*
time,” she said reprovingly.
Tony pulled up one of his shirt sleeves
a fraction and glanced at the faint red
mark on it. Abby grinned.
“Knew it! Wow – this chick must be GOOD
if she’s got you wearing her collar to
work. What’s the penalty for taking it
off, Tony? As bad as the penalty for
buttoning up your shirt that time to
hide those bite marks?”
“Uh…no. I mean…that is, I’m not supposed
to be wearing the collar to work, Abs,”
Tony confided.
“And if your top finds out she’s gonna
have your ass, isn’t she?” Abby asked
sympathetically.
Tony winced. “Let's not even talk about
it.”
Abby raised an eyebrow. “Yikes, Tony,
you really do like living dangerously.”
“I know,” he sighed.
“I love it!” Abby clapped her hands
together excitedly. “You wanted to wear
her collar so much that you risked it?
Wow! She’s got you looking ten years
younger and acting like the most
lovestruck of subs – she must be one
hell of a good top, Tony.”
“She is.” Tony grinned. “She really is.”
“Who is what, DiNozzo?” a voice said
behind him, and he quickly buttoned up
his shirt and straightened his tie.
“Uh, nobody…nothing, Boss!” he said
hastily, shooting a glance at Abby. She
nodded and zipped her fingers across her
lips. “Just…talking to Abby about the
McElroy case. It was on your list of
things for me to check up on.”
Gibbs sauntered past him and then
stopped, and, like Abby, did a double
take. Tony held his breath. He was sure
the collar wasn’t visible, but even so,
Gibbs had eyes like a hawk.
“You going to a wedding, DiNozzo?” Gibbs
asked, looking him up and down.
“No, Boss.”
“Celebrating some other occasion?” Gibbs
raised an eyebrow.
Tony grinned at him. “Just happy to be
alive, Boss. It’s a fine day,” he said,
beaming at his dom. Gibbs rolled his
eyes and turned back to Abby, handing
her a caf-pow.
“So where are we on the McElroy case?”
he asked her. “It’s going to court in a
couple of weeks, and I want the
forensics to be watertight. The entire
case hangs on your evidence, Abby.”
“I know, and I’ve gone over everything,
like, fifty times, Gibbs!”
“Well – make it fifty-one.” He leaned
over and kissed her cheek. If it had
been anyone else but Abby, Tony knew
he’d have felt a surge of jealousy. But
it was impossible to be jealous of
Gibbs’s relationship with Abby. She was
like the grown-up daughter that Kelly
had never had the chance to be, and he
knew that Gibbs loved her in exactly
that way.
Abby made a face. “I hate it when I have
to wear that stupid court suit.”
“I know – but take a leaf out of Tony’s
book – he seems to love dressing up.
C’mon, DiNozzo, we have work to do.”
He made an impatient gesture with his
head and began walking in the direction
of the elevator. Tony waggled his
eyebrows at Abby and then ran to catch
up.
“Hey, Gibbs!” Abby called after them.
Gibbs turned. “Did you have plastic
surgery over the weekend?” she asked.
Gibbs looked completely and utterly
bemused. “What?”
“Nothing. Maybe I’ve been drinking too
many caf-pows.” She put the drink down
as if it was poison. “Or maybe there's
some kind of rejuvenating element in the
Navy Yard water. I should run some
tests,” she mused to herself, already
oblivious to their presence.
Tony grinned and followed Gibbs into the
elevator. It had barely started to lurch
upwards when Gibbs slammed his hand on
the emergency stop button and turned to
Tony with a look of intent in his eyes.
Tony took a step back, and then another,
until he was pressed up against the wall
of the elevator. Gibbs couldn't possibly
see the collar showing under his shirt –
could he? Gibbs gave him one of his
predatory grins, then reached out,
grabbed Tony’s tie, and pulled him
towards him. Tony gave a squeak of
terror, certain that Gibbs knew about
the collar - but then Gibbs flipped him
around and thrust him face forwards
against the mirror.
“I want you to watch me fucking you,” he
said, nuzzling the hair on the back of
Tony’s head. Tony breathed a sigh of
relief. Gibbs reached around and undid
his belt, then his fly. He yanked Tony's
pants and boxers down forcefully,
releasing his hardening cock. “Hope you
remembered to keep yourself lubed for
me,” Gibbs purred in his ear.
“I did, Boss!"
Tony placed his hands on the mirror to
brace himself, and then he watched their
reflections as Gibbs undid his own fly.
A second later, he felt that monster
cock being pushed into his hole, and he
gave a little panting gasp. He was
getting used to taking it into his body,
but even so, it still made his eyes
water a little as it went in.
He could see the look of pleasure and
concentration on Gibbs’s face reflected
in the mirror as he sheathed himself
completely in Tony's body. Tony was even
more fascinated by his own reflection.
He was moaning softly, looking more
wanton and sexual than he was used to
seeing himself. This must be how Gibbs
saw him, and his cock swelled in
appreciation at that thought.
He watched as Gibbs began fucking him
with slow, even thrusts that hit his
prostate every single time. He didn’t
think he’d ever get used to all the
fireworks that went off in his
nerve-endings when Gibbs fucked him like
this. Gibbs always seemed to know how to
angle his big cock in order to set off
the sparks in Tony's body. Tony
desperately wanted to take his own
leaking cock in his hand, but he knew
that was forbidden.
“Please, Boss!” he begged, and then he
nearly laughed out loud as he saw
himself in the mirror, pleading so
pathetically. Christ, he looked an
idiot! No wonder Gibbs found him so
amusing half the time. His face was
flushed, there were little beads of
swear forming along his hairline, and he
was licking his lips eagerly as Gibbs
picked up his pace.
"Please…please…please…” Tony whimpered
frantically.
Gibbs looked straight at him in the
mirror. “Yeah, Tony? You want
something?”
“You gotta let me…please touch me!” Tony
begged. “Please, please touch me! Bring
me off, Boss…I’m dying here…Touch
me…touch me…touch me…please...”
It was almost comical to watch himself
begging, and Gibbs’s reaction in the
mirror. Gibbs continued his effortless
thrusting, and then, just when Tony
thought it was too late, he felt his
top’s firm hand wrap around his cock.
Tony gave a hoarse shout of pleasure and
started bucking eagerly into that hand.
Gibbs rode him hard, caressing his cock
equally hard at the same time. Tony
couldn’t believe how debauched he looked
as he writhed in sexual ecstasy under
Gibbs’s forceful touch.
Then he was coming – he’d never watched
himself come before, and he gazed at
himself in fascination. His face was
contorting, and his mouth was opening
and closing but no sound was coming out.
Then it was over. He came in Gibbs's
hand and then slumped forward and rested
his head against the cool surface of the
mirror. Gibbs pumped into him a few more
times, and then he reached his own
orgasm, making that low, familiar roar
of pleasure.
They stood there, panting together for a
minute or two, and then Gibbs withdrew.
He tucked himself back into his pants
and zipped up, then reached down and
pulled Tony’s pants and boxers up for
him. Tony fastened his fly, his hands
shaking in the aftermath of his orgasm.
Shit - that had been hot. Gibbs took a
handkerchief out of his pocket and wiped
Tony's come off his hand. Then he
glanced around the elevator to make sure
that it was clean.
Tony finished zipping himself up and
resumed his place at Gibbs’s side,
staring up at the numbers above the
elevator door. They both looked
completely innocent, like nothing had
just happened. If it wasn’t for the grin
on Gibbs’s face, and the happy glow in
Tony’s eyes, there would be no clue at
all.
“Oh – just one more thing, Tony.” Gibbs
turned to glance at him.
“Hmmm?” Tony was still lost in a
post-orgasmic haze.
Gibbs moved so fast that Tony didn’t
have a chance to stop him. He swiped
Tony's tie open and undid the top few
buttons of his shirt, revealing his
collar.
“Y’know, I could have sworn I told you
not to wear this.” Gibbs raised an
eyebrow.
Tony made a face. “Sorry, Boss. I just,
that is, I thought that…oh damnit – I’m
busted. I have no excuse. How the hell
did you know?” he asked, as he did up
his shirt and knotted his tie again.
“Did you see it when you were fucking
me?”
Gibbs grinned. “Nope – knew the minute I
walked into Abby’s lab and saw you
wearing that fancy outfit."
"The collar doesn't show, Boss – I made
sure of that. Look – see." He half
turned and gestured at himself in the
mirrored elevator wall.
"Yeah – you're a smart boy – you can’t
see the collar under it," Gibbs agreed.
He snapped his hand back on the
emergency button, and the elevator
lurched back into life.
“But you’re gonna punish me for
disobeying you anyway, aren’t you?” Tony
sighed.
Gibbs shot him one of his completely
feral grins. “Oh yeah. You bet your ass
I am. I’ll see you in interrogation room
one at three p.m.”
“Three? That’s hours away!” Tony didn't
like the idea of having to wait that
long to find out what his punishment
would be.
“I know.” The doors opened, and Gibbs
turned to glance at him before he got
out. “It’ll give you a nice long time to
sit and think about your fate.”
And with that he strode away, chuckling
to himself.
Tony made a face after him, but he was
grinning to himself as he walked back to
his desk. He was being kept well fucked,
and he was loving every single second of
it. There was something about Gibbs's
sexual dominance that turned him on like
crazy, and his own sexual submission
came as easy to him as breathing. Surely
it shouldn’t be *this* easy?
He sat down at his desk, clicked onto
his emails – and froze.
The name leapt out at him: D. Grasso.
And the subject line was "Five Weeks".
"No reply to my last email. Don’t
think you can ignore me. I’ll be back in
five weeks. You won’t be able to ignore
me then.”
Tony glanced over at Gibbs, who was
sitting at his desk reading through some
paperwork. He could print out the email,
take it over there, ask Gibbs to go into
the conference room and explain the
whole damn thing to his dom – but he
wasn't ready to do that. Christ, what
kind of basket case would Gibbs think
he'd taken on if he told him about that
whole fucked up deal with Grasso? What
he had with Gibbs was too new and too
good for him to screw it up so soon
after it had started.
Tony clicked on the 'delete' button.
Five weeks – that was a long time. He'd
figure out a way to deal with it by
then.
~*~
Gibbs entered
interrogation room one on the dot of
three p.m. to find Tony standing there,
staring at himself in the mirror,
tracing his hand over his shirt collar
and peering at it intently.
"You can't see it," Gibbs told him,
shutting the door behind him and locking
it in one smooth move. Tony whirled
around to face him, a guilty expression
on his face.
"I know. That's what I told you! I just
wanted to find a way to wear it, Boss.
So really, you should reward me for my
ingenuity, rather than punish me." Tony
gave him his brightest and most winning
smile.
Gibbs snorted. "Yeah - because I've
totally given you the impression that
I'm one of those indulgent doms who
doesn't give a damn about his sub
obeying him. Oh wait – remind me again –
what's rule number one?"
"Always obey you, Boss," Tony sighed.
"Yup." Gibbs walked over to him and held
out his hand. "Now give."
"But it doesn't *show*!" Tony protested.
Gibbs raised an eyebrow. "Yes, Boss,"
Tony sighed. He undid his shirt,
unbuckled the collar from around his
neck, and handed it over to his dom.
"It's not about the semantics of whether
it shows or not," Gibbs told him. "It's
about obedience."
He sat down at the interrogation table,
his back to the mirror, and gestured
with his head that Tony sit opposite
him.
"You're going to interrogate me?" Tony
asked, sitting down as ordered.
"Yes." Gibbs put the collar on the table
between them.
"Just because I wanted to wear my collar
to the office?"
"Yes."
"Uh…is anyone watching this?" Tony
glanced at the camera to make sure the
light wasn't on.
"Don't be an idiot." Gibbs rolled his
eyes. "The door to the observation room
is locked – as is this one."
Tony's gaze darted towards the door and
then back towards Gibbs.
"So what's going on?" Gibbs asked.
"Seriously, Tony – the one thing you've
never had a problem with all these years
is obedience."
Tony shrugged. "Just like wearing the
collar."
Gibbs sat back in his chair, crossed his
arms over his chest, and gazed at him
steadily. Tony gazed back, a hint of
defiance in those green eyes. Gibbs
grinned.
"Nah. That's not it."
Tony flushed. He glanced at the collar
sitting between them on the table and
then up at Gibbs again.
"I *do* like wearing the collar," he
insisted. "This is new to me, Gibbs, and
we’ve only had a couple of days of it –
I mean, doing it properly anyway – and
you don't know what it means to me to
wear the damn thing. After eight
years…then what happened over the
weekend. That was big. Intense. I didn't
want it to end."
"Didn’t end." Gibbs shrugged. "I told
you, what we have is 24/7, and whether
you're wearing the collar or not doesn't
make a damn bit of difference."
"I know – but what I didn't know was how
it would feel to wear it – how it would
make me feel."
"And how do you feel, Tony?"
Tony looked uncomfortable, but Gibbs
figured that his sub had seen enough
interrogations to know that he didn't
stand a hope in hell of holding out
against Leroy Jethro Gibbs in this room.
"Like I belong," Tony said quietly.
"You do belong." Gibbs shrugged. "You
belong to me. The collar doesn't make
that so – it is so. Although it looks
damn good on you, especially when it's
all you're wearing." He gave a leering
grin at that thought. Tony flushed even
more wildly.
"I know," he said eventually.
"Yeah. I figured you did. So it isn't
about that – like I said."
Tony raised an eyebrow. "You seem to
have all the answers. You gonna tell me
what it IS about then?"
"Yup. Like I said, obedience has never
been a problem for you – you've always
followed any order I've ever given you.
Sometimes I've thought I could tell you
to jump off a cliff and you would. So,
if you're going to disobey me then it's
a deliberate act, designed to elicit a
deliberate reaction."
Gibbs sat back and gazed at Tony.
"You think I want you to punish me?"
Tony asked uncertainly, chewing on his
lip.
Gibbs shook his head. "No - I think you
wanted my attention, and you were afraid
you weren't gonna get it now we're back
at work, so you engineered it so that
you would. And you and I both know that
you don't give a damn whether the
attention is negative or positive. You
prefer the positive, but you'll take the
negative over nothing at all."
"I didn't know you'd figure out I was
wearing the damn collar!" Tony
protested. "I didn't want you to figure
it out."
Gibbs reached out, plucked the collar
off the table, and put it in his pocket.
"If I hadn't, you'd have found a way to
make me notice it at some point during
the day." He leaned across the table and
grinned at his sub. "It's been eight
years, Tony – and this little dance
we've been doing all that time wasn't
choreographed by me. You always set the
pace and led the way, although I don't
deny that I've been a willing
participant."
It was Tony's turn to sit back in his
chair now, a stunned expression on his
face. Gibbs could see he knew that he'd
been out-manoeuvred, and that he hadn't
expected his dom to see through his
antics quite so easily. Why would he?
Gibbs had never called him on it before.
"And I was always happy to let you,"
Gibbs chuckled. "Only difference is –
we're not dancin' around it any more.
It's for real now, and the rules have
changed. You're mine now, Tony – and
I'll set the pace and lead the way from
now on. So if you need anything, you
have to tell me rather than playing
around to provoke a reaction. Got that?"
Tony swallowed hard. "Got it," he said
faintly.
"Not that I want to cramp your style."
Gibbs grinned. "You're always fun when
you're playing, and I have no objection
to reeling you back in when you go too
far. Like today. So, as long as you
understand that the consequences will be
a damn sight more painful than a
headslap, then go for it." This time his
grin was more of a challenge than
anything else.
"And what are the consequences?" Tony
asked with a little grimace. "Although I
think I know."
"Yeah. You do." Gibbs got up. "And for
what it's worth – you *have* my
attention, Tony. 24/7 remember? It works
both ways."
The expression in Tony's eyes took him
by surprise, although it shouldn't have
– he knew Tony's insecurities all too
well. He leaned down, put a finger under
Tony's chin, lifted his face, and kissed
him gently on the lips. Then he stood
back.
"Okay. Let's deal with this. Get up,
Tony."
Tony got to his feet, a look of nervous
anticipation on his face.
"This won't be like it was on Saturday,"
Gibbs warned him. "No warm-ups, no
stoking it up to give you the high and
make it feel painless – just flat, hard
punishment. You get the good stuff when
you follow the rules – and the bad stuff
when you don't."
"Yes, Boss. Where do you want me?"
"Over the table." Gibbs gestured with
his head. "Facing the mirror. You
watched yourself being fucked earlier -
now you can watch yourself being
punished."
Tony nodded grimly and began bending
over.
Gibbs snorted. "For the record, Tony – I
only ever punish on bare skin."
Tony grimaced. He pushed himself upright
and fumbled with his belt and fly. Then
he shoved his pants and boxers down to
his ankles and leaned forward over the
table again. His hands went
automatically to the sides, and he held
on tight.
Gibbs moved in behind him and nudged his
legs further apart – more to reinforce
his own dominance than because Tony
wasn't correctly positioned. He made
sure to press his clothed body against
Tony's naked butt, enjoying the way Tony
shivered at the contact.
Then he moved around to the front of the
table. He waited until Tony lifted his
head to watch him, and then he began
slowly – very slowly – unbuttoning one
of his shirt sleeves and folding it back
to the elbow. Tony watched, transfixed.
Gibbs moved onto his other shirt sleeve
and did the same. Then he moved his
hands to his belt, pleased to see Tony
swallowing apprehensively as the
implications of that sank in.
Gibbs unbuckled his belt and drew it out
from its loops in a fast motion that
made a little whooshing sound. Tony
swallowed again, but Gibbs didn't miss
the dilation of his pupils; Tony might
be scared, but he was also excited.
Gibbs decided that his sub needed to
really understand what punishment meant.
So he placed the belt on the table,
right under Tony's nose.
"Think about why you're here, and think
about how my belt will feel like on your
bare ass," he instructed. "When you've
thought about it enough, I'll come back
and give you the punishment you've
earned."
Tony looked up in alarm. "You're leaving
me in here? Like this?"
"I'll lock the door." Gibbs shrugged.
"Don't break position. And Tony?" Tony
glanced up at him. "Use the time
wisely," Gibbs advised.
Then he left the room. He locked the
door behind him and went into the
observation room next door, locking that
too. He was pretty sure that Tony would
obey him *this* time, but he had no
intention of leaving his sub completely
alone in that vulnerable state.
He was the dom, and he took that
responsibility very seriously. He was
flexing muscles he hadn't used in a very
long time – and he was getting the
opportunity to really go for it, rather
than having to hold himself back as he'd
always done before. It was so rewarding
with a sub as exciting and responsive as
Tony though.
Tony might not like it right now - but
Gibbs was giving him exactly what he
needed.
~*~
The edge of the interrogation room table
was hard, digging into his thighs. Tony
eased up a bit and rested his elbows on
the table. He was acutely aware of two
things: his bare bottom, exposed and
ready for punishment, and the implement
right in front of his nose that would
deliver that punishment.
Gibbs's belt was so close he could smell
the leather, warmed as it was by Gibbs's
recent body heat. It was an old belt –
soft and comfortable. It wasn't sleek,
and it didn't come with a designer label
like so many of Tony's belts. That
didn't make it any less an offensive
weapon though. Tony could see dozens of
tiny cracks in the leather and could
tell by the faded brown colour that this
was a well-worn belt. He wondered how
long Gibbs had owned it, and if he'd
worn it in the Corps. Was it *that* old?
Maybe. That made him think of Gibbs in a
Marine Corps dress uniform, and his cock
hardened appreciatively at the thought.
He pushed it away. He had a feeling that
he wouldn't feel remotely turned on
after this punishment. Gibbs had been
pretty clear on the difference between
punishment and play – and Tony knew that
he could expect no mercy after his
disobedience today. He clenched his ass
tightly in anticipation. This was going
to hurt.
He wished he could stand up, but Gibbs
had ordered him not to, and he didn't
dare disobey his dom – not considering
what had led him to this position in the
first place. He wondered if Gibbs was in
the observation room next door,
watching, and was pretty sure he was. He
glanced up at the mirror and managed to
squeeze out an insouciant grin for his
dom. Gibbs might be in charge, and Tony
might be in deep shit, but he was still
*Tony* after all.
He shifted, feeling the cool breeze from
the air conditioning unit wafting across
his bare buttocks. The belt in front of
him was such an innocuous little object,
sitting there, but soon he knew it would
strike a blaze across his ass that would
make him welcome that cool breeze.
All this over one small act of
disobedience – and yet it meant so much
more. Curiously, Tony wasn't upset to be
in this position right now. He was
Gibbs's sub, and he would have been more
upset if Gibbs hadn't taken the time to
sweat the small stuff. He might be
dreading the punishment that was shortly
to come his way, but he was glad Gibbs
was enforcing his dominance.
Any dom/sub relationship depended on the
willing participation of both partners.
They had created a set of rules they
both wanted to live by. They didn't have
to – they wanted to – and it might not
always be convenient, comfortable, or
even nice, but Tony wouldn't have had it
any other way.
Tony lowered his head, resting his cheek
sideways on the table, offering himself
up to his dom's will. However hard it
was, it felt good inside. It felt right.
He was ready. He had disobeyed his dom,
and now he was willing to accept the
penalty.
The door opened a few seconds later, and
he heard it being closed and locked
again. Then he saw Gibbs pick up the
belt.
He felt Gibbs's hand on his back,
pushing his shirt further up his body,
and then he felt the belt resting on his
naked bottom.
There was a long pause – so long that it
almost took Tony to breaking point. He
wanted to yell at Gibbs to get on with
it and put him out of his misery. The
palms of his hands were sweating and his
buttocks were clenching in anticipation.
Then there was a sudden movement, a
whooshing noise, and the sound of
leather hitting skin with a hard crack.
He couldn't feel anything at first, but
then the pain ripped through him in a
blaze of heat.
"Shit!"
"What's your safe word?" Gibbs asked.
Tony lifted his head and looked at
himself blankly in the mirror ahead.
"Uh…" He tried to collect his thoughts
as the after-shock of that first stroke
continued to make itself felt.
"Um…Magnum," he said at last. "You're
going to let me use it? Even for this?"
"Yes, Tony. Even for this. I've told you
before," Gibbs said firmly. "Not that
you'll get out of being punished – just
that we'll do it differently. Might take
longer, but if you can't get through
this in one go, then I want you to use
your safe word. Got it?"
"Yes, Boss." Tony blinked at himself in
the mirror. His face was red, and he
looked stunned by the pain of that first
stroke. "How many are you going to give
me, Boss?" he asked, wondering how many
he could take, or if he could find a way
of pacing himself.
"Oh, I'll just keep going until I think
we're done," Gibbs told him unhelpfully.
"Or until you say your safe word."
Tony wasn't sure if it was better or
worse not to know how many he had to
take. He rested his face back on the
table again with a resigned sigh. The
next stroke was just as agonising as the
first, and he wanted to put his hand
back to rub away the terrible sting.
That wasn't an option though. Gibbs
threw down another stroke, making Tony
gasp. Then he felt Gibbs's hand in his
hair, pulling his head back.
"Watch," Gibbs ordered, and Tony did,
fascinated by the sight of himself,
lying half-naked and prone over the
table, with his dom standing behind him.
Gibbs looked implacable as he stood
there, one hand holding Tony in place
while he laid on the strokes with his
other hand with perfect precision.
He covered Tony's ass repeatedly with
strong, hard strokes, until Tony was
writhing and whimpering. Then, without
warning, he moved onto Tony's thighs,
laying on a hard stroke that literally
took Tony's breath away. Tony half stood
up, unable to control himself, and then
caught sight of himself in the mirror
again. His face was red and there was
sweat beading his forehead.
Gibbs paused. "Want to say your word,
Tony?"
Tony gazed at himself in the mirror,
thinking very seriously about the
question. This was so hard! He would
give anything for the onslaught to stop,
but at the same time he knew that it
wasn't more than he could take. Hell,
he'd taken far worse in his time, albeit
in a different way.
"No, Boss," he whispered, hanging there
anyway, halfway between standing and
bending, wanting to prolong the respite
for as long as he could.
"Then get back down," Gibbs ordered.
"I'm not done yet."
Tony fought an internal struggle as he
gazed at himself in the mirror. He could
see the thoughts buzzing through his
mind. He had to force himself back down,
because he was the sub, and Gibbs was
the dom, and unless he said his safe
word this was the only way it could be.
He dimly remembered Mulder telling him
that it wouldn't always be easy, and he
guessed this was one of those times his
fellow sub was talking about. It
*wasn't* easy to accept Gibbs's
punishment, but it was the foundation
their relationship was built upon. He
liked Gibbs's dominance over him – it
excited him, turned him on, and he
craved it. In return, all he had to do
was submit.
*All* he had to do – and yet it was so
hard. He saw Gibbs watching him struggle
with himself, a curious look in his
eyes, as if he was unsure which way it
would go, and what Tony would do next.
"Tony," Gibbs said quietly. "You either
say your safe word, and we talk about
it, or you bend over and take the rest
of your punishment. What's it gonna be?"
Tony took a deep breath, gripped the
sides of the table firmly with his
hands, lowered his head, rested his
cheek on the surface of the table, and
closed his eyes. He was willingly giving
himself up to Gibbs's domination because
it was what he wanted, however hard it
was.
He breathed through the pain as the next
few strokes whacked down hard across his
upper thighs. He was sobbing quietly
into the table, but he wasn't struggling
with himself any more. Gibbs was right –
he had wanted his attention, even if it
was negative, and he sure as hell had
that negative attention right now.
Then, suddenly, the hard strokes
stopped. He lay there, watching, as
Gibbs looped his belt back into place
and fastened it. Then he unfolded his
shirt sleeves and buttoned them at the
wrists again. Tony felt his breathing
coming in loud, laboured gasps as he
tried to recover from what had been the
hardest spanking Gibbs had ever given
him.
He felt his dom's hands on his boxers
and pants, and then they were gently
pulled up his legs. He gave a hoarse cry
as his boxers made contact with his sore
bottom. Gibbs guided him up so that he
was standing and fastened his pants for
him. Then he looked straight into Tony's
eyes.
"Okay?" he asked softly. Tony couldn't
speak. He just stood there,
shell-shocked. Gibbs put a hand on his
shoulder and squeezed affectionately.
"Not what you wanted, but what you
needed – yes?"
Tony's breathing hitched, and he nodded.
"Yes," he sighed. "How did you know?"
"Eight years." Gibbs shrugged. "C'mere."
He pulled Tony close and held his
shaking body against his own warm, solid
one. Tony thought the punishment was
worth it for this moment alone. Gibbs
smelled so familiar and so reassuring.
Tony rested his cheek on his dom's
shoulder.
"Really hurt," he muttered.
"I know."
Gibbs's hands made soothing patterns on
his back. He held Tony until his ragged
breathing steadied, nuzzling Tony's jaw
with his lips the entire time. Then,
when Tony had calmed down, he eased him
away, turned his face towards him, and
kissed him gently on the mouth.
Tony felt his body starting to thrum
with the now familiar sensation of
endorphins flowing through his
bloodstream. It might have been a
punishment, but he could feel the high
starting to kick in all the same.
"There's always an upside." Gibbs
grinned, looking at him intently when he
released him.
"Yeah." Tony grinned back, stupidly.
"I need to get back to work. You can do
my filing."
Tony sighed. "Okay, Boss," he agreed
reluctantly. He didn't like filing, but
at least it was a standing up job. He
didn't think he'd be sitting easily any
time soon. He watched as Gibbs walked
towards the door, and then he remembered
something. "Boss…"
Gibbs turned, one eyebrow raised
questioningly.
"I should have told you this before.
Probably thought I could get away with
it and that's why I didn't." Tony gave a
rueful grin.
"What is it, Tony?"
Tony took a deep breath. "It's Abby. She
knows I'm subbing to someone – although
she hasn't figured out it's you yet.
And…" He made a face. "She knows about
the collar. She was hugging me earlier
and felt it. I showed it to her. So…you
were right about me not wearing the
collar under my shirt today. I was the
idiot who thought I could get away with
it."
He looked at Gibbs in trepidation.
"You want me to bend over the table
again?" he asked, his hands going to his
fly.
"No." Gibbs shook his head, forestalling
him.
"But I screwed up…"
"Yeah – but I already punished you for
that." Gibbs gazed at him, a curious
expression on his face. "How do you feel
about her knowing, Tony?"
"Uh…well, it's Abby, so…I don't
mind…but…" he hesitated.
"Go on," Gibbs prompted. "I noticed last
week that you let McGee and Ziva think
your new relationship was with a woman."
"Yeah. It's not that I'm ashamed of you
- or us - or anything, Boss – wouldn't
have worn the collar today if I was.
It's just that…I suppose I'd like a
little more time before we come out to
everyone. It's still so new. I want time
to get used to it before I have to start
explaining it to anyone else."
Gibbs nodded. "I feel the same way."
"You do?" Tony felt a wave of relief.
"Yeah. So, we keep it between ourselves
for now. Yes?"
"Yes." Tony nodded.
"And Tony?"
Tony looked up at his dom.
"I'm not ashamed of you, or us, either.
Feels like the best thing I've done in
eighteen years. I just want the privacy
to enjoy it without any additional
pressures."
Tony smiled, understanding the reference
to eighteen years immediately. He was
tired, wrung out, and his ass hurt like
crazy, but none of those things mattered
right now.
Gibbs strode over to the door and
unlocked it. “With me, DiNozzo. We have
work to do.”
“On your six, Boss!” Tony said happily,
following on behind.
~*~
There was something soothing about
having Tony doing his filing for the
rest of the afternoon. Maybe it was
because Tony was uncharacteristically
silent and serene while he worked –
causing Ziva and McGee to exchange
startled glances across the room. Gibbs
ignored them. He assumed they thought he
was making Tony do the filing as a
punishment for some misdemeanour – if
only they knew that the punishment was
over and had been a much more intimate
and painful affair. Gibbs was being
merciful in giving Tony the filing – it
would be excruciating for Tony to sit at
his desk all afternoon after such a hard
spanking.
When he had cause to pass by where Tony
was working, Gibbs paused and spoke to
him, making sure to touch his shoulder
or arm every time. A sub like Tony
needed reassurance after being punished,
and Gibbs knew from experience how well
Tony responded to even the smallest of
affectionate gestures.
After work, he drove over to Tony's
apartment to find the front door ajar,
and his sub already there. Tony was
standing beside the bed which was
covered to groaning point with suits,
shirts, sweaters and other items of
clothing. Tony turned when Gibbs walked
into the room and pointed at the bed in
despair.
"Not sure what to bring, Boss. I can't
bring it all – there's no way you have
room for all this stuff at your place."
"Christ, Tony, how many suits does one
guy need?"
Tony grinned at him. "More than three,
Boss – which is all I've seen hanging in
your closet."
"Weddings, funerals, and court," Gibbs
grunted. "No need for more than three."
Tony looked at him as if he'd just said
something sacrilegious. "I can see I'm
gonna have to take you out shopping,
Boss."
"Over my dead body," Gibbs growled.
"Shopping for clothes comes in at around
number 197 on my list of fun things to
do – just above getting married."
Tony looked intrigued. "You have a list
of fun things to do?"
Gibbs grinned; his boy was irrepressible
– which was just the way he liked him.
Being around Tony had been top of his
list of fun things for years - Tony
could make anything fun.
"If you hurry this along, then we might
have time to do a couple of the top
items on the list before we hit the
sack," Gibbs said, glancing at the
massive mound of clothes on the bed.
"Really? Then consider me incentivised!"
Tony gave him a lascivious wink and
began picking up various items, folding
them neatly and putting them in a
packing case.
"You don't need both of those." Gibbs
pointed at the two suits Tony was busy
packing. They were both navy blue, and
they both looked identical to Gibbs.
Tony gazed up at him, aghast. "You can't
make me choose between the Armani and
the Versace, Boss. That would be cruel."
Gibbs raised an eyebrow. Tony sighed.
"Yes, Boss," he said mournfully,
discarding one of the suits.
Gibbs suspected it was a good thing he
was here, or the whole operation would
have taken five times as long and
resulted in Tony bringing five times as
much. As it was, Gibbs sorted through
all the clothes on the bed, discarded
anything that looked like duplicates of
anything else, dumped the resulting
items into one of the open packing cases
lying on the floor, and zipped it up.
Then he moved on to the next case.
"Don't believe in folding stuff, huh,
Boss?" Tony said, wincing as Gibbs
crushed one of his suits into the case.
"It's a fifteen minute journey, DiNozzo.
And I have an iron. You're coming to
live at my place, not Outer Mongolia. If
you want anything else, you can always
swing by and pick it up another time."
He finished packing and turned to see
Tony carefully folding various items of
underwear.
"Leave those," he ordered. Tony glanced
up at him with a questioning look.
"You're gonna be naked most of the time
when we're alone, and shorts under your
work clothes will just slow me down when
I wanna get my hands on your ass." Gibbs
shrugged. "So you won't be wearing any
from now on."
Tony paused in folding the garments, his
mouth slightly agape at this news. "You
don't want me to wear underwear?" he
queried breathlessly. "Ever?"
"Yup. I'll enjoy looking at you in the
office and knowing you're naked under
those fancy-assed suits of yours. And
the fewer layers between me and your ass
the better when I want to fuck you."
Tony continued staring at him. Then he
threw the underwear back in a nearby
drawer, stood up, and grabbed a case.
"We're done," he said. "Let's get
moving."
"Something I said?" Gibbs raised an
amused eyebrow.
"Hell, Boss, you can't just stand there
and talk about fucking me and not expect
me to get turned on." Tony nodded his
head in the direction of the very
promising bulge in his pants.
Gibbs chuckled as he picked up a couple
of the cases. Tony reached for a box
full of DVDs and then charged towards
the front door, with barely a glance
back as he left his apartment.
"You still okay with this?" Gibbs asked,
as they loaded the stuff into the car.
"It's a big change, Tony."
Tony shrugged. "Like you said – the
apartment's still here, and a 24/7
arrangement doesn't work so well if
we're not sleeping in the same room at
night. I'm cool with it. Doesn't feel
like it did when Jeanne wanted me to
look at cottages with roses around the
door or any of that shit. Feels…" He
paused, frowning.
"What?"
"More real somehow. Less about the big,
scary words like 'commitment' and, you
know, 'marriage'. I'm with you on that
one, Boss – that's pretty low down on my
list of fun things to do too."
"But it is a commitment," Gibbs pointed
out. "I'm not a short-term kind of guy,
Tony. No pressure – like I said, we'll
take it one day at a time and see how it
pans out – but you gotta know what my
expectations are, and that I take it
seriously."
"I know." Tony nodded. "And I take it
seriously too, Boss. I have no idea why
it doesn't scare me like it always did
before – maybe because it was always
wrong before but this feels right. Or
maybe because all the hot sex has fried
my brain. I dunno." He grinned at Gibbs.
"Talking of which - c'mon, let's go back
to your place, so we can do some more of
that."
~*~
Tony lugged a couple of heavy cases up
the stairs, following on behind his dom.
He was surprised when Gibbs turned left,
instead of right, at the top of the
stairs.
"Where we going, Boss?"
"Spare room."
Tony's heart flipped. "You’re not going
to make me…"
Gibbs turned to him with a sigh. "No,
you're not sleeping in there, Tony. It's
where we're going to dump all your
stuff. It's clearly not all gonna fit in
my closet, so you can use the closet and
drawer space in the spare room. Makes
sense."
Tony liked the sound of this
arrangement. Gibbs didn't have a lot of
clothes but even so, Tony had already
pretty much filled up the closet in the
main bedroom with the first set of
clothes he'd brought over.
Gibbs opened the closet in the spare
room to reveal a completely empty rail
which would provide plenty of space for
all his stuff. At the bottom of the
closet was a large wooden chest. Tony
crouched down to look at it, intrigued.
"What's in here?" He fingered the carved
lid. It was an elegant piece of work,
beautifully done.
"You'll find out later," Gibbs said.
"Now get this stuff unpacked. You've got
half an hour."
"And then what?" Tony glanced up at him,
still crouching by the wooden chest.
"You'll find out in half an hour," Gibbs
said, deadpan. He walked over to the
door, paused, and looked back. "Oh – and
Tony? Don't try and open the chest."
"I wasn't going…" Tony began. Gibbs
raised an eyebrow. "No, Boss," Tony
said, flushing, because that was exactly
what he'd been going to do. Not now
though. His ass was still sore from
earlier, and there was no way he was
risking another punishment tonight.
He hurried to get all his stuff stashed
away and was just about finished when
Gibbs returned half an hour later –
carrying two cups.
"You brought me coffee?" Tony reached
out a hand to take one of the cups.
"Nope." Gibbs batted his hand away and
put the cups down on top of the dresser.
"I brought *me* coffee."
"And you brought me…ice cubes?" Tony
glanced into the other cup.
Gibbs grinned. "I did, Tony, yes. Now
strip."
Tony didn't hesitate – his hands went
automatically to his tie, and he began
undressing. Gibbs sat down on the side
of the bed and took a sip of his coffee,
watching as Tony took off his clothes.
When he was naked, Gibbs beckoned him
over to stand between his open legs.
Tony's cock immediately showed some
interest, but Gibbs ignored it as it
rose to half mast.
Gibbs looked over his sub's body with
that intent look he always got when
examining a dead body at crime scenes –
which wasn't such a good thought so Tony
pushed it away. Then Gibbs made a
twirling motion with his finger, and
Tony turned around so that his ass was
facing his dom.
He felt Gibbs's fingers stroke it
lightly – and he tensed. The skin felt
incredibly tender from its recent
encounter with Gibbs's belt.
"Still feels hot," Gibbs commented. "But
I know a good way to cool it down."
Tony had a suspicion that he was soon
going to find out exactly why Gibbs had
brought those ice cubes with him.
"Go over to the chest," Gibbs ordered.
Tony did as he was told, and Gibbs
opened the nightstand drawer and tossed
Tony the small key that was in there.
Tony caught it expertly and then gave
his top a questioning look. "You can
open it now," Gibbs said, taking another
sip of his coffee.
Tony crouched down, unlocked the box
with the key, and then opened the heavy
wooden lid. Inside, in neatly ordered
piles, were all the sex toys Gibbs had
bought at that shop.
"These are your responsibility now,
Tony," Gibbs told him. "You make sure
they're washed properly after use and
put back in there. If I go looking for
something, and it's not there, then that
goes up on the chalkboard. Got it?"
"Got it, Boss." Tony gazed down on the
toys with appreciation.
"Choose one," Gibbs said. "And I'll use
it on you tonight. Just one – I'll
choose the other things I want to play
with."
Tony sorted through the contents of the
box eagerly. He considered the
adjustable nipple clamps. He knew they
hurt, but he also liked the kind of pain
they produced – and he especially liked
what Gibbs did with that pain, and how
he stoked it up. He fondled a set of
anal beads – they looked interesting,
and he'd never experienced them before.
He rejected the paddles, straps,
floggers, whips, and (shudder) the
canes. His ass was in no state to handle
any more punishment this evening. He
paused on various items of bondage,
including a leg spreader and the cock
gag, before moving on to the variety of
butt plugs, dildos, and vibrators that
were nestled at the bottom of the chest.
He decided to go for something simple
for tonight – and handed Gibbs the
vibrator. Gibbs took it without comment
and put it on the nightstand. Tony sat
back on his haunches and ran his hand
over the wooden chest.
"Nice – bet the store you bought it from
had no idea you'd be using it for this
kinda stuff," he joked.
"Didn't buy it from a store," Gibbs told
him. "Made it."
Tony looked up in surprise.
"I don't just make boats, Tony."
"Yeah – the St Andrew's Cross and the
spanking bench kinda clued me in to
that. When did you make it?"
Gibbs gave him an inscrutable look, as
if he knew where this conversation was
heading, which was weird because Tony
sure as hell didn't.
"A few years back."
Realisation kicked in, belatedly.
"For Stan? For the toys you used on
him?" Tony felt an irrational surge of
anger. He stood up, his jaw tightening.
"Christ, Gibbs! Did you use any of this
stuff on him?" He picked up the vibrator
on the night stand. "This? 'Cause if you
used this on him, then I don't fucking
want you using it on me." He threw the
vibrator on the bed.
Gibbs gazed at him impassively. "I
cleared it out the night I brought you
back from Murray's Bar," he said. "Threw
the whole lot out. I'd never use
anything on you that I'd used on anyone
else, Tony."
"What about that whip you used on me
that night at Murray’s?" Tony asked,
heatedly.
"Never used until that night." Gibbs
shrugged. "Still in its wrapper. It's
the only thing I kept from my time with
Stan."
"Oh. Right. Okay then." Tony bit on his
lip.
"Feel like an idiot now?" Gibbs asked
him, one eyebrow quirked upwards.
"Oh hell, Gibbs, I pretty much always
feel like an idiot," Tony sighed. "It's
Stan. I know he's a nice guy, and I know
you had a thing with him before you even
met me and there's nothing wrong with
that but…"
"But?" Gibbs leaned back on the bed.
"But I still feel like he's competition.
He's the golden boy, the perfect sub who
got everything right."
"And?"
"And if he came back tomorrow then you'd
dump me and take him back," Tony
admitted.
Gibbs didn't reply. He just remained
there, sitting on the bed, leaning back,
watching his sub.
"Aren't you going to say something?"
Tony asked.
"Nope." Gibbs shook his head. "I already
told you how it was with me and Stan. I
never moved him in, or gave him a
collar, or asked him to be my 24/7 sub.
You know all that. No point me saying it
again. You just have to learn to believe
it - and I figure that'll take time.
Nothing I say will speed it up."
Tony felt more of an idiot than ever
now. "Sorry," he muttered.
Gibbs shrugged. "You'll get there, Tony.
One day. Now come here."
He got up off the bed, reached into his
pocket, and drew out Tony's collar.
Tony's eyes lit up.
"You can wear this when we're alone
together – but you don't wear it to work
again unless I give my express
permission. Understand?"
"Yes, Boss."
Gibbs fastened the collar around his
neck. It felt like an old friend; warm
and snug, back where it belonged.
"And like I said – the toy box is your
responsibility now, DiNozzo – so I
figure you should keep the key." Gibbs
held up the small metal key. Tony
reached for it, but Gibbs palmed it.
"You can't wear the collar to work – but
I don't see any reason why you can't
wear this key."
He pulled a long, narrow strip of black
leather from his pocket, threaded the
key through it, and tied a knot at the
end. Then he slipped the looped leather
necklace over Tony's head. It hung down
low – it wouldn't even be visible under
an open-neck shirt.
"Yes?" Gibbs was looking at him
intently. “Will that be enough to remind
you who you belong to when you’re at
work?”
"Yes, Boss. Thank you, Boss," Tony told
him, fingering the key. It was perfect.
The cool metal of the key, nestled
amongst his chest hair, would provide a
little kick when he was at work. Not as
much of a kick as wearing Gibbs's
collar, but it'd do.
Gibbs grabbed his chin and kissed him,
and Tony wrapped his arms around his dom
and kissed him back, relishing the feel
of Gibbs's clothed body against his own
naked skin. Gibbs's kisses were usually
pretty forceful and this one was no
exception. He kissed Tony until he was
breathless and then drew away.
"Go stand in front of the mirror – under
the hook," he ordered. There was a
free-standing mirror in the corner of
the room and a hook fixed into the
ceiling in front of it. Tony did as he
was told, shivering in anticipation,
wondering what was coming next.
He gazed at himself in the mirror. The
black collar was fastened firmly around
his throat and the leather thong with
the key on the end hung much lower. He
liked how they both looked on him. He
heard Gibbs sorting through the toy box,
and then his dom came over and threw a
couple of wrist cuffs at him.
"Put them on.”
Tony did as he was told and then looked
at his reflection again. Collared and
cuffed, he looked every inch the sub
now. His cock clearly liked the look, as
it was now hard and sticking out
hopefully in front of him.
While he buckled on the cuffs, Gibbs
crouched down and fastened a leg
spreader between his ankles, forcing his
legs wide apart.
Gibbs stood up, fastened Tony's wrist
cuffs together, ran a chain through
them, and connected it to the hook in
the ceiling. Then he pulled on it so
that Tony's arms were suspended high
above his head. Now Tony could see
himself in total bondage, completely at
his dom's mercy. His arms were bound and
his body was helpless – and exposed to
whatever Gibbs wanted to do to it. Gibbs
seemed to sense his thoughts because he
gave one of those feral grins.
"Gonna make you watch," he growled.
"Just like in the elevator and the
interrogation room. I want you to see
your own submission, Tony." He took hold
of Tony's chin and made him look
straight at the mirror. "What are you?"
"Your sub, Boss," Tony replied, gazing
at himself. He was bound tight, his legs
spread wide, making him acutely aware of
how open and vulnerable his hole was.
"Yours."
"Damn right you are. And what can I do
to you?"
"Whatever you want, Boss," Tony replied,
his cock swelling and aching. He could
feel himself sinking down into sub
space, and it felt warm and welcoming,
like diving beneath a blanket on a cold
night.
"Good. Watch me own you, Tony. Watch
every single whimper and scream."
He moved away, but Tony didn't see where
he was going – he was too intent on
looking at himself, trussed up, ready
and waiting.
Gibbs moved into his line of vision
again, holding a cup. He scooped up a
handful of ice cubes and warmed them in
his hand, rubbing the hard edges off
them. Tony braced himself.
Next thing he knew those cold cubes were
being pressed against his hot ass cheeks
- and it felt so good. He gave a happy
sigh and relaxed in his bonds.
"You like this?" Gibbs asked as he
rubbed the icy cubes against Tony’s sore
skin.
"Yes, Boss."
"How about this?" Gibbs slid one of the
ice cubes between Tony's buttocks, and
Tony gave a strangled yelp as he felt it
press against his hole.
"I dunno…feels cold there," Tony
whimpered.
He watched the expressions on his own
face as Gibbs played with the cube,
holding it against his hole, teasing him
with it – and then, without warning,
Gibbs pushed it into his body. Tony saw
himself contort, his face scrunching up
and his arms flexing pointlessly in
their bonds as the freezing intruder
entered his body.
Gibbs kissed the back of his neck. "Want
to say your word?"
"No, Boss." Tony shook his head. He
could feel the ice cube, lodged inside
his hole, and knew that he was powerless
to remove it – and that turned him on.
Gibbs ran another cube over Tony's
burning ass cheeks, soothing them, and
then, as before, he slid it into Tony's
hole. Tony hung there, whimpering.
Another one followed, and then another,
until the ice cold was freezing him from
the inside out.
"Let's keep ‘em there," Gibbs told him,
in a voice of pure evil. Tony watched in
a state of nervous apprehension as Gibbs
picked up a small butt plug from the
bed, covered it in lube, and then pushed
it into his hole, forcing the ice cubes
deeper into his body.
"No…please…" Tony begged, but Gibbs
didn't listen to begging. Never had,
never would.
Now Tony was acutely aware of the
juxtaposition of his own burning ass
cheeks and the freezing cold cubes
melting inside him, held in place by the
butt plug. He could feel ice water
seeping out of his buttocks and dripping
down his thighs.
"You wanted me to use this?" Gibbs held
up the vibrator. Tony nodded eagerly;
that looked much less threatening. Gibbs
grinned and thrust the vibrator into the
cup of ice cubes. Tony could tell by the
clinking sound that there were still
several in there, and he groaned. "While
we wait for that to cool down, I know
something else we can do," Gibbs told
him, with an evil grin.
He picked up an ice cube, put it in his
mouth, and swirled it around. Tony
watched the bulge in his dom's cheek,
fascinated, wondering what he was going
to do next. He soon found out. Gibbs
suddenly leaned down, grasped Tony's
hips firmly in his hands, and swallowed
his cock whole in his mouth – with the
ice cube still in it.
Tony shrieked as all that coldness made
contact with his hard cock. Then he
screamed as Gibbs worked his cock
against the cube he was holding in his
mouth. Half Tony's cock was pressed
against the ice, while the other half
was being warmed by Gibbs’s mouth; the
sensation was indescribable.
Gibbs sucked him for awhile, and then he
stood back and spat out what was left of
the cube into his hand. He ran the cube
along Tony's cock, making Tony whimper.
Just when he thought he was getting used
to it, and he could handle it, Gibbs
took a step back, gave another of those
truly evil grins, and took a gulp of his
coffee. He swirled it around in his
mouth and then swallowed it. Tony gazed
at him, horrified, realising what he was
going to do.
"No…no…noooooooo!" he yelled, as Gibbs
dipped his head and swallowed his cock
whole a second time. The sensation of
the warm interior of Gibbs's mouth
against his cold cock made Tony scream
in earnest. It felt so intense – and he
ached with the desire to come.
Gibbs sucked him for a little while,
warming Tony's freezing flesh in his
mouth, and then he moved back.
"How ya doing, DiNozzo?" He grinned at
his sub.
"I…I…" Tony just hung from his bonds,
speechless. "You…you're…"
"You're welcome.” Gibbs patted his cheek
affectionately. “Now…this should be nice
and cold."
He removed the vibrator from where it
was nestled among the ice cubes and
turned it on. Then he held the cold,
buzzing device against one of Tony's
nipples, making him squeal and try to
twist away from it.
"Stop that." Gibbs slapped his ass
reprovingly. "Who do you belong to,
Tony?"
"Y…you, Boss."
"Then take what I hand out."
Tony forced himself to stay in position
as Gibbs moved that freezing cold
vibrator over his nipples, making them
stand up in hard points. Then Gibbs
stuck the vibrator back into the cup of
ice cubes.
"Want to cool it down again. Have
something else planned for it," Gibbs
told him. “But while we wait…”
He scooped another one of the ice cubes
from the cup and placed it on one of
Tony's nipples. He held it in there –
and, at the same time, leaned in and
took Tony’s other nipple into his mouth.
It was a special kind of torture; Tony
held as still as he could while Gibbs
alternated the ice cubes and his own
warm mouth on Tony’s nipples. He waited
until the ice had thoroughly frozen one
nipple before switching around and
warming it up while simultaneously
cooling the other.
Tony was deeply into his sub space now,
and he’d been played with in this
excruciatingly arousing way for so long
that he was starting to zone out.
Gibbs toyed with him until Tony's arms
were tired and aching from having been
bound above his head for so long, and he
slumped against his bonds wearily. The
ice cubes inside his body were now
melting in earnest, cold water flowing
freely out of his hole and down his
thighs.
Tony gazed at himself blearily in the
mirror, watching Gibbs’s head as it
moved against his chest. Oh God…he
couldn’t hang on…he needed to come, and
he needed to move his aching arms, and
he needed…he wasn’t sure what he needed.
He just knew that he loved being the
object of Gibbs's totally focussed
attention.
Gibbs finished tormenting his nipples
and stepped back. He ran the back of his
hand gently over Tony’s cheek and leaned
in for a kiss. Tony opened up eagerly,
moaning as Gibbs kissed him.
Gibbs pulled back, went around behind
him, and removed the butt plug. He eased
what was left of the ice cubes out of
Tony’s hole, and Tony breathed a sigh of
relief.
Gibbs put a strong arm around his body
and held him up while he released his
wrists from the hook in the ceiling.
Tony slumped down onto his dom with a
sigh, grateful to be allowed out from at
least part of his bondage.
Gibbs helped him onto the bed, placing
him on his front on a pile of pillows
that forced his ass high into the air.
His legs were still held wide open by
the spreader bar – exposing his hole.
He felt the mattress give behind him,
and then the sensation of Gibbs's warm
breath on his buttocks, and he gave a
sigh of pleasure as Gibbs dipped his
tongue into his hole. It felt hot after
the ice cubes, and he loosened up as
Gibbs rimmed him expertly. He longed to
come, but he knew that wasn't an option
until Gibbs chose to sink his hard cock
into him.
The rimming was fantastic, the warmth so
welcome after the intensity of the cold,
and Tony felt himself thawing out. He
relaxed against the mattress, feeling
hazy and happy.
Gibbs finished rimming him, and Tony
watched his dom go over to the
nightstand and remove the vibrator from
the ice cubes. Gibbs held it up with a
grin and returned to the bed with it.
"No, Boss…no, no, no," Tony whimpered,
but Gibbs took no notice. He lubed the
vibrator and then inserted the tip into
Tony's hole. "NO!" Tony shrieked. It was
so cold after the soothing warmth of
Gibbs's expert tongue. Gibbs worked the
vibrator deep inside Tony's body,
chilling him all over again, and then he
turned it on to full speed and began
fucking Tony with it, slowly. It purred
and buzzed in Tony's body, freezing him
and making him tingle with pleasure at
the same time. Gibbs pushed it back and
forth relentlessly, until Tony was
moaning incoherently.
Just when Tony thought he couldn't take
any more, Gibbs removed the cold, hard
vibrator and replaced it with something
so beautifully familiar and welcome that
Tony could have cried.
Gibbs entered his pulsing cock into
Tony's frozen hole with one powerful
thrust. It was warm and powerful where
the vibrator had been freezing and
mechanical. It heated Tony's icy flesh
from the inside out, and he screamed his
pleasure uncontrollably as his body
slowly, achingly, began to warm up.
Gibbs fucked him hard, his hands heavy
on Tony’s hips, and now he was hitting
Tony’s prostate with each inward thrust.
Tony pushed his own hard cock into the
pillows, allowing the friction to work
its magic, and before long he was coming
in one long pulse after another, white
lights exploding in his head.
He was dimly aware of Gibbs still riding
him, and then he felt a surge of warmth
as Gibbs shot his load deep into his
body. Gibbs moved down on top of him,
his warm cock still lodged inside him,
and rested there for a moment, kissing
the back of Tony’s neck, just above his
collar.
Then he withdrew, and Tony whimpered at
the loss of all that warmth. He felt
hands on his ankles, unfastening the
spreader bar, and then, at last, he was
released. He moved his legs
experimentally, relieving the minor
cramps that had set in, and then turned
over to look at his dom. Gibbs sat down
beside him on the bed and stroked his
hair back from his head.
“Good?” he asked.
“Evil,” Tony replied. “And good,” he
added, with a tired grin. Gibbs laughed
out loud and pressed a kiss to Tony’s
temple.
“Glad to hear it. Clean up and put the
toys away. I’m gonna go order takeout.
There’s no way I’m going to bed on an
empty stomach. Come down when you’re
done.”
Tony had forgotten they hadn’t eaten.
Gibbs left the room, and Tony remained
on the bed, gazing dreamily at the
ceiling. He couldn’t believe how good
that had been. He re-lived the whole
thing in his head, savouring it – and
wondered whether he could persuade Gibbs
to do it all over again tomorrow night.
He finally forced himself up and began
tidying the room. He wiped down the
cuffs and leg spreader and replaced them
in the wooden chest in the closet, and
then he took the vibrator along to the
bathroom and washed it thoroughly. He
cleaned himself up too while he was at
it, relishing the soothing warmth of
warm water after so much coldness.
He returned the vibrator to the wooden
chest and then stripped off the pillow
cases and threw them into the laundry
hamper. He tidied away the lube into the
toy box too and closed the lid. He felt
a little surge of pleasure as he removed
the leather thong from around his neck
and locked the toy box with the key.
He replaced the thong around his neck so
that the key was nestled against his
chest again, and then he wearily turned
out the light and left the spare room.
He walked down the stairs – still naked
- and found Gibbs sitting on the couch
in the living room. His dom was watching
the news on TV with boxes of Chinese
takeout on the coffee table in front of
him.
Gibbs glanced up and patted the seat
next to him on the couch, and Tony sat
down with a weary sigh. He was hungry,
but he honestly felt too tired to eat.
Gibbs seemed to sense that. He twisted
his fork in the noodles and then held it
out to Tony. Tony ate without protest.
The noodles felt so warm going down – he
hadn’t even realised that he was hungry.
He sat there and let Gibbs feed him for
the next ten minutes, too wrung out to
feed himself. When Gibbs was done
feeding them both, he sat back on the
couch, and Tony crawled into his lap
without even thinking about it. He zoned
out to the happy sensation of his dom's
warm thighs beneath his head, and his
gentle fingers combing through his hair.
~*~
Walter Skinner sat with one hand wrapped
around a beer and the other wrapped
around his slave’s shoulders at Murray’s
Bar.
“Think they got held up?” Fox asked him,
glancing at his watch. Skinner grinned
at him.
“Oh yeah,” he said, with a wink. “How
long’s it been? Two weeks since I fished
Jethro out from under his boat, while
you gave Tony that much needed kick up
the ass? Two weeks into *our*
relationship, I could hardly keep my
hands off you.”
“Still can’t.” Fox glanced meaningfully
at the hand on his shoulder. Skinner
grinned again. He moved his hand and
tousled his slave’s hair.
At that moment, there was movement at
the top of the stairs, and the two men
they had been waiting for appeared.
“Oh my God,” Fox breathed, gazing at
them.
“Oh yeah. They *definitely* got held
up,” Skinner snorted. He got to his feet
and waved. “Over here, Jethro.”
Tony and Gibbs walked down the stairs
together, side by side, their steps in
perfect sync. Skinner couldn’t help
smiling to himself; they walked like a
couple who were having lots of great
sex. There was something about how their
hips almost touched with each stride,
the loose set of their shoulders, and
that indefinable glow on their faces.
“Wow – you look fantastic,” Fox
commented when they got close.
They did. Gibbs was wearing a pair of
classy black chinos and a vivid blue
shirt that matched the colour of his
eyes. Skinner had never known Gibbs to
give a damn about his clothes, so he
suspected the outfit was all Tony’s
doing. Tony looked as well groomed as
always, in fashionable blue jeans and a
loose green shirt that was open at the
neck.
“Thanks – I took his measurements while
he slept and went out and bought him the
clothes,” Tony told them as they all
shook hands.
“Apparently my Sears sales items aren’t
good enough for my sub,” Gibbs grunted.
“Hey – if I’m gonna be seen out with you
in a place like this, I want people
envying me my good taste in tops,” Tony
grinned. “And you scrub up pretty well,
Boss.”
Gibbs slapped the back of his head
without missing a beat, and Tony’s grin
widened. Skinner gave a little smile –
he knew just how much those head-slaps
meant to Tony.
“Actually, I wasn’t talking about the
clothes,” Fox said.
“Fox is about as interested in clothes
as you are, Jethro.” Skinner sighed. “He
wouldn’t have noticed if you’d walked in
here stark naked.”
“I might have noticed that.” Fox
grinned. “And it makes no difference if
I’m interested in clothes or not, seeing
as how my master gets to dress me up in
whatever the hell he likes.”
Skinner laughed. “Hey – take a seat,” he
said, waving his hand at the empty
chairs opposite. “What d’you want to
drink?”
They placed their orders, and Skinner
dispatched Fox to the bar to get the
round of drinks. Gibbs sent Tony with
him – and Skinner had no doubt that was
an intentional move on his part.
“So, how are things going?” he asked
Gibbs when they were alone. “Pretty well
I’d say looking at the pair of you
tonight. You guys even leave the house
these past couple of weeks?” He raised
an amused eyebrow.
“Still have a job to do, Walter,” Gibbs
grunted.
“Yeah – you have two jobs now though.
The day job at NCIS, and the other job
keeping that sub of yours well fucked.
‘Cause trust me, that’s one well fucked
sub.”
Gibbs gave him his death glare, but
Skinner ignored it as usual. Leroy
Jethro Gibbs didn’t scare him – although
he knew that the man scared the rest of
the world. That wasn’t such a bad thing.
Walter Skinner knew exactly what Gibbs
was capable of, and how right people
were to be afraid of him. He wondered
how Tony was handling a top as intense
and frankly terrifying as Gibbs could be
on a bad day. Then again, Tony had been
handling Gibbs for eight years and had
survived thus far. He was probably one
of the few people in the world who
*could* handle Gibbs.
Gibbs’s death glare turned into a tight
little grin as he glanced over at his
sub, who was standing at the bar
chatting to Fox.
“Yeah,” Gibbs muttered at last. “Christ,
Walter – it’s either a famine or a
feast. Went a long time with nothing at
all and now…” His grin widened, and he
looked like the kid he’d been when
Skinner first met him. “Now I feel like
a teenager again.”
Skinner laughed. “I hope that doesn’t
mean you’re gonna start acting like you
did back in boot camp all over again,”
he said, with a wink. It was Gibbs’s
turn to laugh now.
“Wouldn’t dare, Walter. There’s no way I
ever want another taste of your belt.”
“So it’s good?” Skinner took a sip of
his beer, gazing at Gibbs searchingly.
“Oh yeah. It’s good. *He’s* good,” Gibbs
replied. “I always knew there was
something there – some kind of
attraction, chemistry, whatever the hell
you wanna call it. But I had no idea
we’d be this compatible.”
“I did,” Walter shrugged. Gibbs raised
an eyebrow. “What? It was obvious, just
looking at the pair of you, pining away
for each other like damn idiots,”
Skinner grinned. “Anyone could see that
when you two finally got together the
result was gonna be pretty explosive.”
“Yeah,” Gibbs chuckled. “Explosive is
the right word for it.” He leaned across
the table. “But it’s been so damn easy,
Walter - once we finally stopped dancing
around each other and got down to it.
It’s been a pretty smooth ride. Knowing
he was a newbie – hell not just to the
submission thing but also to men – I
thought he’d have more trouble with it.”
“And he hasn’t?”
“Not as far as I can see. He’s taken to
it like a duck to water. I never knew
Tony DiNozzo would be able to go from
womanising frat boy to gay submissive
without even blinking, but he has.”
“I think you need to give the boy more
credit for knowing what he wants,”
Skinner said, glancing over at the bar,
where Tony and Fox were deep in their
own conversation. He was glad about
that. Tony didn’t have any submissive
friends on the scene, and Skinner
thought he needed some kind of mentor.
Fox could be unpredictable and off the
wall, but Skinner had no doubt that any
advice he gave Tony would be both useful
and sincere. “What he’s wanted for a
very long time,” Skinner added.
“Was it like this with you and Fox?”
“Hell no! Most of the first year was a
struggle if I’m honest,” Skinner
admitted. “A fantastic struggle, and one
I relished, but there were times when
I’d have been tearing my hair out in
despair if I had any.” He gave a
self-deprecating grin. “But Fox is a
very different personality to Tony – and
you’re a very different personality to
me, Jethro.”
“Just keep waiting for the other shoe to
drop,” Gibbs grunted. “Can’t be this
easy forever.”
“You find out what it is he’s hiding?”
Skinner asked.
Gibbs glanced up sharply. “Nope.
Whatever it is he thinks it’s big, but
whether it is or not – I have no idea
because he never even gets close to
letting me in.”
“That what’s bothering you?” Skinner
asked.
Gibbs glared at him again, but Skinner
knew how Gibbs used that glare to get
people to back off when they asked
anything too personal. He had no
intention of backing off, so he just sat
back with a raised eyebrow.
“Something’s bothering you, Jethro – and
it isn’t how damn easy or how good it’s
been since you claimed that boy.”
He studied Gibbs intently. His friend
liked to keep himself all locked up, but
Skinner had always been able to see
beneath the surface. As a kid, Gibbs had
always allowed the heat of his emotions
to over-ride all good sense. He’d had to
learn how to master his wild streak the
hard way. Tony was a different kind of
man entirely. He hid things like he’d
been hiding them all his life. Maybe he
had - Skinner hadn’t got an entirely
good handle on the kid yet. But Gibbs
had been one of his Marines – Gibbs was
*family* - and Skinner knew him inside
out.
“He never says his safe word,” Gibbs
confided at last.
Skinner frowned. Gibbs looked up,
straight at him. His blue eyes were
usually steely, the forbidding
expression in them designed to keep
people out. But right now he had his
guard down, and Skinner could see that
he was genuinely concerned.
“Maybe you haven’t done anything that’s
made him feel like he needs to say it.”
“Maybe.” Gibbs shrugged. “I can read him
well. I know when he’s at the edge, and
I’ve never given him more than I think
he can handle – but…” He shook his head.
“I think he’d take it if I did. I think
I could shove him right off the edge and
put him in freefall, and he’d take it
without saying that word. Question is –
why?”
“Because he doesn’t want a safe word?”
Skinner suggested. “He wants to
surrender to you, Jethro. He doesn’t
want to know that he has any control
over what you do to him. He wants the
thrill. Hell, that’s not unusual. Lot of
subs feel that way.”
“I guess,” Gibbs conceded, but his
shoulders were hunched.
“You think it’s more than that?”
“I don’t know – because I can’t get
under the surface. I get close
sometimes, but then he slips away from
me. That’s Tony – he’s always been kind
of slippery.”
Skinner grunted. Gibbs was a direct kind
of guy. He might be intensely private,
and solitary to the point of paranoia,
but he wasn’t a complicated man. His sub
was though – Skinner had no doubt about
that. Tony was all kinds of complicated.
“You can’t trust him then?”
Gibbs gave him a dour kind of look.
“Hell yeah – I can trust him, Walter. I
can trust him not to cheat on me, I can
trust him to be a willing, obedient sub,
and I can trust him to have my six in
any given life or death situation. But
can I trust him not to let me hurt him?
No – I don’t think I can.”
“Because he *wants* to be hurt,” Skinner
said softly.
“Yeah. Or at least he wants something I
won’t give him. Something dark. Right
now, we’re in the honeymoon period – but
there’s a side of him that hasn’t gone
away. It’s just in cold storage right
now while I keep him distracted with
other stuff.”
“Then you wait.” Skinner sat back in his
chair. “You wait, Jethro. You wait for
him to trust you enough to tell you
what’s going on. That’s all you can do.”
“No – it isn’t.” Gibbs gazed at him
intently.
“What d'you mean?”
“I have a dossier on him – haven’t
opened it,” Gibbs said quickly as
Skinner reacted to that statement. “Had
it for a few years, and I’ve never been
tempted to open it. I didn’t ask for it
– I just came by it. I know there are
some answers in there, but…”
“But you’re worried you’ll ruin any
trust you’ve built up between you if you
read it?”
“Yeah. I want him to tell me himself – I
don’t want to find out about it from any
damn file.”
“Then give him time,” Skinner advised.
“It’s only been a few weeks, Jethro.
Give him some more time.”
“And what if he lets me put him in a
situation of real distress in the
meantime, and all because I don’t know
what’s going on with him?”
Skinner shook his head. “You’ll just
have to watch him closely, Jethro – and
trust that famous gut of yours.”
“Yeah. I guess that's all I can do.”
Gibbs leaned back in his chair. He
glanced over towards the bar, and
Skinner saw the look of naked
vulnerability in his eyes. He doubted
anyone else would have seen it but him.
Gibbs’s gaze was fixed on his sub – and
it told Skinner everything Gibbs would
never say.
Skinner wondered if Tony knew. Probably
not. Gibbs never liked telling anyone
how he felt – Skinner was pretty sure
that was why both Jenny and Stan had
left him, to say nothing of his three
wives.
Skinner suspected that the kid standing
over there by the bar had absolutely no
idea just how hopelessly in love with
him his dom was.
~*~
"So – how's it going?" Fox asked, as
they waited for their drinks.
Tony grinned at him. "Oh it's good. Very
good." He waggled his eyebrows
suggestively.
"Yeah – I can see that. You look like a
different person. Being submissive makes
you happy, huh?"
Tony considered that for a moment. If
anyone else had asked it, he thought it
would have made his hackles rise, but
this was Fox he was talking to – a man
who called his lover "Master". And a
man, also, who was about as
independent-spirited as anyone he'd ever
met. Nobody would ever call Fox Mulder
weak or needy – his need for sexual
submission clearly didn't diminish the
strength of his personality.
"Yes, it does," he replied honestly.
"But then again, submitting to Gibbs is
easy. I've been doing it since I met
him. The sex part just makes it fun. I
already know how to be his sub – I've
been that for years in a way."
"You struggling with any of it?" Fox
pulled on that full lower lip of his.
Tony shook his head. "Nope. I'm not
saying it's always easy, but you warned
me about that."
"Which bits aren't easy?"
Tony sighed. This was typical Fox –
always wanting to know the things that
Tony didn't necessarily want to tell
him.
"Taking punishment." Tony winced
inwardly as he remembered the spanking
he'd received a couple of weeks
previously in the interrogation room.
Man, that one had hurt. He hadn't sat
comfortably for days. Luckily for him,
Gibbs had gone easy on him for a few
days afterwards, so he'd had time to
recover.
"Really?" Fox continued tugging
thoughtfully on his bottom lip.
"Wouldn't have thought punishment would
be a problem for you, Tony. Thought it
was what you wanted."
Tony was saved from having to come up
with a suitably deflective answer to
that question by the sound of his cell
phone ringing. He gave Fox an apologetic
smile and fished his phone out of his
pocket. He glanced at the caller ID – he
didn't know the number, but he would
prefer to talk to just about anyone in
the world except Fox Mulder right now,
so he answered the call.
"DiNozzo."
"Hey, motherfucker."
Tony's stomach did a flip as he heard
the old, familiar voice. The irony
wasn't wasted on him though. Chief Petty
Officer Dale Grasso was the one person
in the world he wanted to talk to even
less than he wanted to talk to Fox
Mulder.
"I think you have the wrong number," he
said smoothly. He made a face at Fox and
pointed to the phone, rolling his eyes.
"You didn't answer any of my emails,
motherfucker, so I thought I'd call.
Took me some time to track down your
cell phone number...but it's worth it to
hear your whiny-assed voice again."
"Well, I can't help you. You're speaking
to the wrong person."
"I’ll be back in three weeks, DiNozzo."
"Sorry I don't know who that is."
"You ran out on me. That pissed me
off. I liked our little arrangement. I'm
comin' to get you, DiNozzo.”
"I don't fucking think so," Tony said,
more forcefully than he'd intended. He
saw Fox raise an eyebrow and turned away
to try and get some privacy.
"I don't give up so easy. You and me
– we have some unfinished business to
take care of."
Tony felt himself grow cold inside.
"Yeah, well, good luck finding someone
who can help you. You sure as hell need
it. *Motherfucker*."
He snapped the phone shut and turned
back with his bright, shiny smile
plastered into place.
"Wrong number," he said cheerfully.
Fox laughed out loud. "Yeah. Right.
Sounded more like a wake-up call to me,
Tony."
"What the hell is that supposed to
mean?"
Fox shrugged. "Voice from the past
maybe?"
"No. Like I said – wrong number," Tony
replied firmly.
"And does Gibbs know about this wrong
number of yours?" Fox's hazel eyes were
glowing intently. He had this really
irritating habit of being able to get
under Tony's skin, and he never failed
to pick up on all the things that
everyone else missed.
Tony changed tack, turning deadly
serious. "No – and he doesn't need to.
This is nothing to do with him."
Fox shrugged. "Sure. Right." He leaned
in. "Gibbs is your *master*, Tony.”
“I don’t call him that…” Tony began.
Fox laughed. “You might not use the
word, but that’s what he damn well is,
Tony. And if I kept a call like that a
secret from Walter, he'd string me up by
the balls and whip my ass until I
hollered for mercy."
"You've been with Walter for ten years –
it's different," Tony snapped.
"No – it really isn't. If this had
happened to me on day two of my slavery,
then Walter would have reacted the exact
same way."
"I can handle this by myself. It's my
mess – I'll figure it out. Nothing for
you to get involved with," Tony told
him, in a low, urgent tone. "Nothing for
you to tell Gibbs about, either –
understand?"
Fox gave him a hard stare. "Tony –
there's no question of me telling Gibbs
shit. You're the one who should do that.
Give the guy some respect. You're in his
life, and he's in yours. That means you
have to damn well make room for him."
"Like I said – this is nothing. I can
handle it. It's just a little…" Tony
hesitated. "Local difficulty."
"Were you seeing someone before Gibbs,
Tony?" Fox asked. "Is that who that guy
is?"
"No." Tony shook his head. "There was
nobody before Gibbs. There has never
been any guy except Gibbs. Ever."
Fox nodded thoughtfully. "I believe you.
But then who is that guy – and why is he
hassling you?"
Tony wondered how much of the
conversation Fox had overhead. "He's
nothing. Seriously."
Fox sighed. "Look, Tony, I've been where
you are right now, and it didn't end
well." His hand went unconsciously to
his chest as he said that, and Tony saw
him fingering the outline of his scar
through the thin fabric of his shirt. "I
nearly fucked things up for good between
me and Walter because I didn't trust
him. Took me a long time to earn back
his trust after that – because he HAD
trusted me, poor damn idiot." Fox
glanced over to the table in the corner,
where their Walter and Gibbs were
engaged in an intense-looking
conversation.
"You don't know Gibbs," Tony said. "I
could tell him about this guy, but if I
do, it doesn't end there. It leads on to
a whole lot of other questions –
questions I don't want to answer. And
Gibbs isn't someone who lets things lie.
So if I don't answer them, he'll find
out another way."
"Right." Fox nodded. "So this is the tip
of the iceberg, huh? If Gibbs knows
about this stalker person you've somehow
acquired, then it opens up a whole can
of worms for you, does it?"
"Yes." Tony nodded. "It does. And it's
not a can I want opened any time soon."
Or ever.
"Interesting." Fox gazed at him
musingly. Then he sighed. "Okay, Tony.
You play this your way. Let me just say
this: You're wrong. No matter what it is
that you're hiding, Gibbs *will* find
out, one day. If you're lucky, he'll
hang on in there and stick with you
while you both figure it out – but you
can bet it won't be pretty, and you'll
pay for lying to him."
"And if I'm not lucky?" Tony raised an
eyebrow.
"Then Gibbs will throw your sorry ass
out onto the street and have nothing to
do with you ever again," Fox said with a
shrug. "And I think that's pretty much
your worst nightmare, Tony. Rejection,
abandonment - they press all your
buttons, don't they? You'd rather he
kicked you like a dog but kept you tied
up at his side than that he threw you
out. So think about it."
He leaned forward and patted Tony's arm.
"C'mon – time to take these drinks back
to the table. Our masters will be
thirsty, and we don't want to piss them
off, do we?"
~*~
Gibbs was surprised by how much he
enjoyed spending an evening out with his
sub. He wasn't usually a very sociable
man. He'd spent the past few years
working all hours, and any down time he
got to himself he spent on his boat. He
occasionally went to a bar for the sole
purpose of getting drunk, but he didn't
use it as an opportunity to talk to
people. He was used to his own company.
Tony was different though. Tony *was* a
sociable person, and Gibbs knew they had
to strike a balance between evenings
spent working on the boat and evenings
spent going out with friends. The
evenings spent having sex were a given.
Tony could make any social situation go
with a swing, and Gibbs enjoyed taking a
back seat and watching his sub shine
with a series of amusing and frankly
implausible stories. Fox was a good
match for Tony in the implausible
stories stakes, and Gibbs and Walter
were soon laughing heartily at tales of
spring breaks gone wrong, and alien
bounty hunters who turned up in the most
unlikely of places. Gibbs was never sure
how to take Fox, but when Walter's
unusual sub relaxed he could be almost
as much fun as Tony.
They were having such a good time in the
bar that Gibbs didn't hear his cell
phone ringing just before midnight. He
did feel the vibration though. He
reached into his pocket and glanced at
the caller display, wondering who was
calling him this late on a Saturday
evening. His heart skipped a beat when
he saw the name: Abby.
He flipped open the phone, his body
tensing in anticipation of some kind of
trouble. Tony sensed the change in his
body language immediately and stopped
talking in mid-sentence, turning towards
him with a questioning look in his eyes.
"Abs…" Gibbs answered the call, but he
didn't get any further than that as a
torrent of words assaulted him. Abby's
voice was high and frightened, and he
could only make out every third or
fourth word.
"…came back…been
here…apartment…Gibbs, oh
Gibbs!...shit…oh God, what did I tread
in…?" He heard the sound of crunching
glass.
"Abby!" he bellowed into the phone.
There was a startled silence.
"Sorry, Gibbs. I just…" She
sounded close to tears.
"Where are you?"
"At my place, like I said. I just got
in…"
"Stay there. We'll be there in ten,"
Gibbs told her firmly. He snapped the
phone shut and got to his feet. "We have
to go," he told a startled Walter and
Fox, and then he was off, running
towards the staircase. He didn't even
have to look around to know that Tony
was behind him, matching him stride for
stride.
Gibbs ran up the stairs and out into the
parking lot without pausing. Tony jumped
into the car beside him, and Gibbs drove
them towards Abby's place at a breakneck
pace. For once, Tony didn't comment on
his driving – he just clung onto the
passenger side of the car. Gibbs hadn't
consumed anything stronger than coke all
evening, but he knew he was driving as
if he'd downed a dozen whiskies.
"What did Abby say?" Tony asked as Gibbs
tore along the highway. "What's
happening? Is she okay, Boss?"
He sounded worried. Gibbs knew that Tony
felt the same way about Abby as he did.
She meant more to them than any other
member of the team, even Ducky. Abby
was, quite simply, special, and they
both loved her fiercely.
"She's upset. I couldn't figure out what
was going on, but it didn't sound good.
I don't think she's in any harm, but…"
Gibbs slammed his foot down even harder
on the accelerator, and the rest of that
sentence remained hanging between them.
He pulled up outside Abby's apartment
with a screech of brakes, and he and
Tony were both out of the car the second
he turned off the engine. They ran into
the apartment complex and up the two
flights of stairs to Abby's
apartment…and then paused. Her apartment
door was hanging half off its hinges.
Gibbs put up his hand, and he and Tony
both drew their guns at the same time.
"Abby – you there?" Gibbs called,
pushing open the ruined door cautiously
with his foot.
"Gibbs!" A second later a blur of black
and red jumped into his arms, and he
held Abby close, relieved beyond belief
that she was alive and well. He hugged
her for a few seconds, glancing at Tony
over her bushy black hair, which was
free of its normal pigtails.
Tony located the light switch and turned
it on – and Gibbs winced. Abby's
apartment had been trashed. Her TV set
had been smashed to smithereens and
there was glass all over the floor. The
sofa was upturned, and the contents of
her fridge seemed to have been strewn
everywhere.
"Abby – what the hell happened here?"
Gibbs asked, holding her at arm's length
so that he could look into her
mascara-stained eyes.
"I was so scared, Gibbs," she whispered.
"I just got back – I was at a party, and
I'd had a really good time…I met this
really nice guy and…anyway…" She pulled
herself together as she caught the
expression in his eyes. "It was just a
normal Saturday night out. I came home –
alone," she said firmly. "And I walked
in to find this." She gestured around
the room with her hand. "I was scared
that whoever did it was still here! I
turned off the light and hid behind the
door and called you straight away."
"Burglary?" Tony asked, looking around
the place.
"Tony!" Abby seemed to see him for the
first time. She launched herself into
his arms, and he held her as tight as
Gibbs had, kissing her hair gently as
she sobbed into his shoulder.
"Uh, Gibbs thought he might need back up
so he brought me along," Tony said. It
sounded lame to Gibbs, but Abby was
clearly too distraught to think anything
of it.
Gibbs took the opportunity to look
around the place himself. His gun still
drawn, he kicked open each door
cautiously. All the rooms were trashed,
but the place was at least empty. He
holstered his gun and returned to the
living room.
"It's okay, Abby – there's nobody here,"
he told her softly. "Might have been
better if you'd run back out into the
street than stayed in here though if you
were scared whoever did this might still
be here."
"But you told me to stay here! And I was
too scared to move anyway," she
admitted, her entire body shaking. She
disengaged herself from Tony and turned
back to him. "And I knew you were on
your way, Gibbs, and that everything
would be okay when you got here."
Gibbs thought it was lucky they'd been
at the bar – if he'd come from his house
it would have taken an extra fifteen or
so minutes to get here, and he didn't
like to think of Abby crouching behind
the door in terror for that length of
time.
"Boss!" Tony called from the direction
of the bedroom. "I’ve found something."
Gibbs took hold of Abby's hand and
walked her into the bedroom with him.
Her famous coffin bed was standing on a
plinth in the centre of the room, same
as always, but Gibbs didn't like the
expression on Tony's face as he looked
into the coffin.
"In here, Boss." Tony gestured with his
head at the interior of the coffin.
Gibbs walked over to the coffin, still
holding Abby's hand, and he heard her
breathing hitch as she looked inside.
There was a skeleton in the coffin –
Gibbs recognised it immediately as the
piece of "art" that Abby usually kept
hanging from the bookcase in her living
room. It had been dressed, ghoulishly,
in one of her black tee shirts and a
plaid skirt. Its bony legs had been
placed inside a pair of Abby's big,
black, leather boots. There was even a
spiky collar fastened loosely around its
neck.
There was a piece of paper lying on the
skeleton's tee shirt – right above where
a real life person's heart would be. The
paper was held in place by the sharp
point of a kitchen knife which was
embedded in the coffin-shaped mattress.
On it was some writing:
Next time, the dead body lying in a
coffin will be yours, Abigail Sciuto
~*~
Within half an hour, Abby’s apartment
was full of people. She clung onto
Gibbs’s hand as he walked from room to
room, directing his agents to take
photos and sweep the room for prints and
any kind of evidence. Abby might have
been a forensics expert, but she wasn’t
a crime scene expert, so she allowed
Gibbs, McGee, Ziva and Tony to do their
jobs. The one thing she couldn't do was
let go of Gibbs's hand. Not yet. And he
didn't seem to mind. His fingers were
warm and firm wrapped around hers, and
she knew he'd let her hold on for as
long as she needed.
“DiNozzo!” Gibbs called his second in
command over. “You’re in charge of the
crime scene. We’re gonna take this first
box of evidence back to NCIS and start
working on it.” He gestured to the box
of evidence sitting on the table, which
included the note that had been in the
coffin.
“Right, Boss.”
“We’re going to NCIS now? In the middle
of the night?” Abby asked.
Gibbs turned to glance at her. “Someone
has made a death threat against you,
Abs. No telling what might have happened
if you’d stayed home tonight instead of
going to that party. Sooner we start
analysing the evidence, sooner we can
figure out who is trying to get you.”
She nodded, her eyes big and scared,
glad of his solid, reassuring presence
beside her.
“It’s okay, Abby,” Gibbs told her
gently, squeezing her hand. “Nobody is
going to get near you. You know that,
don’t you? Me or Tony – or both of us -
will be with you at all times.”
“Yes, Gibbs.” She nodded, squeezing his
hand in return.
“Good – then let’s get moving.”
He strode towards the door, and she
scurried along beside him, still
clutching his hand like a frightened
child.
“DiNozzo – when you’re done here, call
for clean up and get your ass back to
NCIS with the rest of the evidence,”
Gibbs snapped.
Tony nodded – Abby gave him a scared
smile, and he gave her his big, bright
Tony grin in return, and then made a
thumbs up sign in a clear attempt to
reassure her. It worked.
“Oh – Tony – if you find any…uh, stuff,
you know, private stuff…just um…well,
don’t look at it,” she told him. His
grin broadened into something more
suggestive.
“What kind of stuff, Abs?”
“DiNozzo,” Gibbs said, in a warning
tone. Tony’s smile vanished instantly.
“On it, Boss!”
Abby felt a little better after that
exchange.
~*~
It was nearly 4 a.m. by the time Tony
returned to NCIS with the last of the
evidence. He had sent Ziva and McGee
home – no point them all staying up. He
found Abby in her lab. She looked
terrible; her face was even paler than
usual, and her mascara had run down her
cheeks. Her hair was a sticky mess from
where she'd been running her
tear-stained fingers through it all
evening.
“Hey – how you doing?” He put a gentle
hand on her shoulder and squeezed. She
smiled at him.
“I’m fine, Tony. But look at you! I
didn’t notice earlier, but you’re all
dressed up. Sorry if I spoiled your
evening.”
“Nah.” Tony shrugged. “It’s fine.
Just…you know, out for a few beers with
some friends.”
“I think the bossman might have been on
a date when I called,” she whispered,
glancing furtively at where Gibbs was
sitting at her work station behind the
glass dividing doors, flicking through
some of the evidence in the box they’d
brought back earlier.
“What makes you say that?” Tony put his
head on one side and surveyed their boss
with mock-curiosity.
“Because he’s just as dressed up as you,
Tony! And Gibbs never dresses up like
that. Whoever she is, she’s got really
good taste in clothes too – because
there is no way the bossman bought that
shirt himself.”
Tony couldn’t help laughing out loud at
that. “You could be right, Abs.”
“Dare you to ask him about it,” Abby
said, her face brightening.
“You’re on!” he said, a grin creasing
his face at the hint of mischief. He
figured he could handle the head-slap –
or worse – that would come his way if it
got her smiling again; and he so
desperately wanted her smiling again.
Gibbs glanced up at that moment and saw
him through the glass dividing door. He
flipped whatever he was looking at back
into the box and stepped into the main
area of the lab.
“What did you find, DiNozzo?”
“Nothing really, Boss. We swept for
prints, like you said, but I’m betting
the ones we found will turn out to
belong to Abby or her friends.”
Gibbs looked pretty grumpy as he peered
into the boxes Tony had brought with
him.
“I called for clean up like you said,
Boss. So it should be nice and shiny and
ready for you when you go home again,
Abby.”
Abby gazed at him with those luminous
eyes, and he winced. That had been the
wrong thing to say. Of course she was
scared of going home again after what
had just happened!
“Uh – so, Boss…were you on a hot date?”
Tony grinned, nodding at Gibbs’s blue
shirt. Gibbs turned slowly towards him,
one eyebrow raised, his face set in its
death glare expression.
“Uh…because…usually you don’t dress like
that – not that there’s anything wrong
with the way you usually dress – y’know,
all those Sears sale items are just fine
for work – but you don’t usually…”
Gibbs’s death glare deepened. Tony
trailed off and pointed his finger
sideways at Abby. “She made me ask,
Boss! It was a dare!”
“Tony!” Abby bashed his arm with her
fist, and he winced theatrically. Then
her eyes sparkled again as she looked at
Gibbs. “*Were* you on a hot date,
Bossman?”
“Yes, as you’re so interested, I was,”
Gibbs replied, glancing at Tony with a
deadpan expression. Tony grinned at him.
Gibbs reached out and slapped the back
of his head soundly. “And that’s for
being unable to resist a dare, DiNozzo.”
“Yes, Boss. Thank you, Boss. Won’t
happen again, Boss.”
Tony gave Abby a delighted grin, and
they exchanged a surreptitious high five
behind Gibbs’s back. Tony was relieved
to see that she was starting to look
more like the old Abby again.
“Okay – so we need to figure out who
would want to make a death threat
against you, Abby,” Gibbs said.
“It could be McElroy,” Tony replied,
clicking his fingers in the air. “Aren’t
you due to start giving evidence against
him in court next week, Abby?”
She nodded. “Yes – on Monday.”
“We already know that McElroy’s a
bastard, Boss. He’s been up on charges
at least half a dozen times before, and
he always gets off. Nobody’s been able
to pin anything on him, but it’s
rumoured he’s intimidated a few jury
members – and even a couple of expert
witnesses. And Abby’s evidence is
particularly incriminating. He could be
trying to scare her off testifying.”
“Sounds plausible, but nothing a judge
will sign off on without more evidence.
Did you come up with any prints on the
note or knife?” Gibbs asked Abby.
She shook her head. “Nothing, Gibbs.”
“Okay.” Gibbs looked at them both. “I
think we’re done here for tonight. It’s
late, and you look wiped, Abby. We'll
figure it out – but for now, we could
all use some rest so let's go home.”
Abby’s eyes were wide and scared as she
looked at Gibbs. “Go home…?”
“Not your place, Abs. No way I'm letting
you go back there until this is
resolved.” Gibbs shook his head firmly.
“No – you’re coming home with me. You’ll
be staying at my house under close
protection detail until we figure out
what the hell's going on here.”
She threw herself at him and hugged him
tight. “I was hoping you’d say that,
Gibbs! I’m so scared!”
“I know, Abs – but we won’t let anything
happen to you,” Gibbs told her, glancing
at Tony over her shoulder.
“Okay then, should I go…?” Tony pointed
uncertainly at the door. He didn’t want
to go back to his own apartment, but he
wasn’t sure what Gibbs had in mind.
Having Abby stay with them would cramp
their style, but Tony didn’t care about
that if it kept her safe.
“You’re coming with us, DiNozzo,” Gibbs
told him firmly, much to Tony’s relief.
He raised an eyebrow at Gibbs who was
still being consumed in an Abby bear
hug. “I want to keep Abby safe around
the clock, and two of us will be better
than one while we still don’t know what
we’re facing.”
“Where will we all sleep?” Abby asked,
finally releasing Gibbs and glancing at
Tony. “Just – there are only two
bedrooms in your house, Gibbs – well,
there *are* three, but one of them
hasn’t got a bed in it – just planks of
wood and stuff.” She grinned at him.
“We’ll figure something out.” Gibbs
shrugged. “You can have the spare room,
Abby.”
She gave a happy smile, and Tony’s heart
thudded painfully in his chest. He
exchanged a glance with Gibbs and knew
exactly what his dom was thinking. Abby
was special to them – and neither of
them wanted to think about what might
have happened if she’d been at home this
evening when whoever was gunning for her
had dropped by.
~*~
Abby groaned and stretched – and was
surprised when she didn't feel the hard,
wooden edge of her coffin. She came to
with a start as the events of the
previous evening came rushing back to
her. She was at Gibbs's house, in
Gibbs's spare room. She had crawled into
bed at around 5 a.m. in her panties and
tee shirt; she didn't have a change of
clothes – she didn't even have a
toothbrush - but she'd been so tired and
wrung out that she didn't care. She'd
fallen asleep immediately. Now it must
be nearly noon judging by the sunlight
flooding in around the drapes.
She got up and went to the bathroom,
sighing when she saw her reflection in
the mirror. God, she looked like crap!
She washed her face and wiped toothpaste
around her mouth which was the best she
could manage without a toothbrush. It
helped a little.
She wasn't sure what to do next, but
then she smelled coffee, so she followed
her nose down the stairs and into the
kitchen. She found Tony standing there,
in a bathrobe, pouring two mugs of
coffee.
"Ah – just in time, M'lady," he told
her, with a mock bow in her direction.
"Consider me your personal butler for
the day." He handed her a cup of coffee,
and she took a sip with a happy sigh.
"Oh man, that's good. Thanks, Tony.
Where's the bossman?" She glanced around
as if she expected Gibbs to materialise
from one of the kitchen cupboards.
"He went back to the office a couple of
hours ago."
"Really? Already? Feels like we just
came from there."
Tony shrugged. "Yeah, well, you know
Gibbs. He thinks anything more than four
hours sleep is for pansies – or, you
know, officers." He grinned at her.
"Besides, his favourite is in trouble –
and there's no way Gibbs can sleep easy
knowing someone out there is trying to
hurt you, Abs."
She chewed on her lip, not wanting to
think about that. "I'm sorry, Tony," she
sighed.
"For what?" He raised an eyebrow and
took a sip of his own coffee.
"For ruining your night and making you
sleep on Gibbs's couch last night." She
glanced through the open kitchen door
into the living room next door. The
couch was old and worn but kind of
comfy-looking all the same. "He did give
you pillows and blankets and stuff,
didn't he?" she asked anxiously, seeing
no evidence of them on the couch.
"Relax. It was fine."
He kissed her cheek and then led her
into the living room. He sat down on the
couch, and she sat down beside him. She
nestled against him for warmth, wishing
she had a bathrobe or something to wrap
around her. The house was chilly, and
she knew from experience that Gibbs
didn't seem to believe in central
heating. Luckily, Tony was one of those
men who radiated body heat, so she
snuggled up to him like he was her own
personal furnace.
"Hey – did Gibbs lend you his bathrobe?"
she asked, tugging on Tony's sleeve. "Or
wait – did you steal it after he left?
Does he *know* you're wearing his
bathrobe? Hmmm." That led her
immediately onto another thought. "I'm
surprised Gibbs even OWNS a bathrobe.
Somehow I can't see him wearing one –
and definitely not a fancy one like
that."
"You think he lives in old wood-working
sweats or grungy work stuff?" Tony
grinned.
"Well, he's Gibbs – so yes!" She settled
down beside him again, and he raised his
arm so she could tuck herself under it.
"While we're on the subject of
appropriate clothing – Gibbs better not
come back and see us like this." Tony
nodded at her scantily clad form. Abby
laughed. "Hey – it's okay for you!" Tony
protested. "It's me he'll cut up into
pieces so small that not even Ducky will
be able to stick them back together
again."
Abby giggled again, and then her good
mood faded as she remembered why she was
here. Last night had been so horrible,
and she couldn't shake the queasy
feeling in the pit of her stomach.
"Gibbs thinks of you like a daughter,
Abs." Tony squeezed her gently. "That's
why, whoever this guy is, he won't get
close to you. Gibbs won't let it
happen."
"He couldn't save Kelly…" Abby began.
Tony squeezed her again.
"Which is precisely why he won't let it
happen again. He knows he won't survive
it happening twice. You're too important
to him. And to me."
She glanced up at him and saw the
sincerity radiating from his eyes. Tony
was frequently nosy, often annoying, and
usually hid his true self behind a
variety of idiotic pranks and jokes.
However, Abby knew very well that the
man inside cared deeply about the people
in his life and would do anything for
them. She had never been fooled by the
mask he wore, as she knew so many other
people were. Even Ziva and McGee often
failed to see the big heart he tried –
and succeeded – in hiding. She sometimes
wanted to slap them and remind them that
Tony's deeds always spoke louder than
his words.
He might tease them mercilessly and
drive them to distraction with his
antics, but it was Tony who had been
there for McGee when he'd shot an
off-duty police officer. It was Tony who
had stepped up to take the brunt of a
bomb blast for McGee and Kate the very
day he'd returned from work after his
bout with the plague. It was Tony who
had taken a beating during an undercover
op with Ziva and still come up with a
plan to save her life – knowing it
probably meant sacrificing his own in
the process. Abby sometimes wondered how
Ziva and McGee managed to forget all
these things. Working with Tony could be
annoying, but at least it was never dull
– and he would always have your six.
She smiled at him and then noticed that
his bathrobe had fallen open to the
waist, revealing a leather thong hanging
around his neck. There was a little key
dangling on the end of it.
"Hey – what's this?" She fingered it
gently. "You don't usually wear any
jewellery, Tony."
"Not exactly jewellery, Abs," he said,
flushing slightly. Realisation kicked
in, and she grinned.
"It's from her, isn't it? The hot
mystery top who has you totally under
her thumb! What does the key open?" she
asked curiously. He flushed a much
deeper shade of red.
"My heart," he told her smoothly,
capturing her hand in his and removing
it from the key hanging around his neck.
"It's the key to your heart? Oh man!
That is so romantic! You're totally in
love with this chick, aren't you?"
She gazed at him thoughtfully. In all
the time she'd known him, she'd never
seen him in love – not really. She knew
he'd fallen for Jeanne, but as he'd been
undercover at the time she'd never been
entirely convinced that was really love.
It had always seemed more of a fantasy
kind of love to her - a 'what might have
been if I was someone else' kind of deal
for Tony. Tony had commitment issues up
to his eyeballs – so she was intrigued
as to what kind of woman had succeeded
where so many others failed.
"Yeah, I am," he admitted. "Don't tell
anyone though, Abs. It'll ruin my
reputation as a player."
She snorted. "Yeah. Right. But…Tony - is
she good enough for you, this chick?
Does she *get* you?" She suddenly felt
anxious. This was the first time he'd
ever been in love like this – she
couldn't bear the thought of him
genuinely giving his heart to someone
and then being hurt. It was too horrible
to contemplate. Tony seemed to sense her
anxiety.
"It's okay, Abs. She totally gets me.
Nobody else ever got me like this." He
smiled down at her, and he seemed so
relaxed about it, and so totally
convinced, that she felt reassured.
"Good. She must hate me for dragging you
away from her last night." She made a
face.
"Oh, she understands. Like I said – she
gets me – and I get her – so she totally
understands. Now – d'you want breakfast?
Gibbs muttered something about bagels
before he left. They look about three
days old, but they're probably okay."
"Or we could go out and grab something,"
Abby suggested.
Tony shook his head. "No, Abs. The house
is secure, but you're not going out
anywhere without two agents at all
times. You're on close protection
detail, remember."
She sat up suddenly, her earlier
queasiness returning. She leaned over
and patted his bathrobe pocket – on the
opposite side to where she was sitting.
His eyes flickered.
"I take it that's your gun, and not, you
know, that you're really pleased to see
me," she sighed.
He gave her a tight little smile. "Go
take a shower, Abby. Then let's both get
dressed and eat something before Gibbs
comes back, finds us still lounging
around like this, and slaps me stupid."
She laughed. "Hey – does Gibbs know he
has to ask your new top's permission
before whacking you around from now on?"
Tony gave a little snort. "Yeah, right,
like Gibbs would give a damn about that.
Now go!"
She ran off up the stairs, still
giggling to herself.
~*~
Gibbs returned home to find Abby and
Tony sitting at the kitchen table, up
and dressed. Tony had a large pad of
paper in front of him and was busy
writing on it.
"Gibbs!" Abby threw herself at him and
enveloped him in her usual bear hug.
"Tony was just making me go through a
list of anyone who might want to hurt
me."
"Not a very long list." Gibbs glanced at
it over Tony's shoulder. "Or maybe you
only just scuttled to it the minute I
walked through the door?"
They both gave him seraphic smiles,
which only served to convince him that
he was right.
"Be honest about the list, Abby." Gibbs
gestured with his head at it.
"Gibbs! Of course I'll be honest!" Abby
protested. "I always am!"
He raised an eyebrow. "No, you're not,"
he said meaningfully. "Michael?" he
reminded her. "Any more deadbeat
boyfriends out there that we should know
about?"
He saw the deadly serious look on Tony's
face - they'd both been disappointed in
her failure to confide in them over the
whole Michael fiasco. Abby had the grace
to look chagrined.
"No, Gibbs. I haven't dated anyone in a
while. Hard to trust guys again after
that whole thing with Michael."
"Any luck at your end, Boss?" Tony
asked.
"Nope." Gibbs shook his head. "McElroy's
trial started last week, and Legal won’t
let me bring him in for questioning
without more evidence. We have no clear
link between him and what happened at
Abby's apartment last night. We'll keep
working it though. Tony – I want you to
be Abby's personal bodyguard throughout
the court case – you can have access to
a rota of agents – I want two NCIS
agents with her at all times, and I want
*you* to always be one of them."
"Yes, Boss."
"I'll keep McGee and Ziva working on the
death threat with me back at NCIS. You
keep me informed of *anything* that
happens. Now – are you ready, Abby?"
"For what?" she frowned.
"I figure you'll need to go get some
stuff from your place – unless you want
to give evidence in court tomorrow
looking like that?" He surveyed her
black leather pants, skeleton tee shirt,
and multiple black studded necklaces and
belts with a raised eyebrow.
She grinned. "I take your point, Bossman!"
~*~
They exited the house in unison, Tony
and Gibbs shrouding her from the sight
of anyone who might be watching. Abby
shivered: this was *serious*.
Tony unlocked the car and got into the
driver's seat. Abby started to get in
beside him, but Gibbs pulled her arm and
gestured her into the back.
"Person being protected always rides in
the back, Abby," he told her as she got
in.
"Why?" she asked blankly.
"Harder for someone to take a shot
through the car windows," Tony
explained, gesturing with his hand. She
could see his point. If she was sitting
next to him in the passenger seat, then
someone could target her from head on.
She presented a much harder target
sitting in the back.
She shivered again as Gibbs got in
beside her. She was already scared but
felt even more freaked out by how
seriously the two men in her life were
taking it. Gibbs was like a second
father to her, and Tony was like the
annoying big brother she'd never had.
She mulled over the conversation about
Michael. Much as she loved Gibbs and
Tony, she could never date either of
them. They were dangerous men – much
more dangerous in their own way than
Michael had ever been – and while she
loved them both dearly, she suspected
they'd make lousy boyfriends. Tony's
commitment issues and roving eye, and
Gibbs's shattered heart and inability to
let people in, meant they both came with
too much baggage. She hoped there was
someone out there for them though. Tony
certainly seemed to think he'd found the
right person, and Gibbs had admitted
he'd been on a hot date last night so
maybe there was someone for him too.
They drew up outside her apartment
complex, and Gibbs inspected the
perimeter before allowing her out. They
started walking inside – but Abby
noticed Tony wasn't with them. She
glanced back.
"He's staying in the car, Abs. Someone
always has to stay with the car – if
it's left alone at any point, then
someone could get in and plant a bomb,"
Gibbs told her.
"A bomb?" She tried to process that.
"You really think someone would do that?
I mean, I thought this was someone just
trying to scare me..."
He silenced her with a look of pure ice.
"Abby, someone dressed up that skeleton
in your clothes, put it in the coffin,
stuck a kitchen knife through the ribs,
and left a note on it, saying you'd be
next," he growled. "You think there's
any way I'm not gonna take that
seriously?"
When he put it like that…Abby felt
herself shaking again. Gibbs put an arm
around her, but she noticed that he kept
his hand resting on his gun butt as they
walked up the stairs.
Her apartment looked dazzling. "Wow – I
should hire those guys as a maid
service," she joked. "My place never
usually looks this clean. How did you
get them to come out so soon anyway?
Usually it takes a few days."
"DiNozzo's doing." Gibbs shrugged. "He
can be pretty hard-assed when he tries."
"Oh yeah. I know." She'd seen several
people under-estimate him - and live to
regret it. Tony's goofy exterior often
fooled people into thinking he was an
idiot – and they got the shock of their
lives when he suddenly turned deadly
serious.
She gathered up some clothes and
toiletries, stuffed them into a bag,
took a sad look around, and then turned
and left with Gibbs by her side.
When they got back to Gibbs's house, she
took her bag upstairs and unpacked in
the spare room. She opened the closet
and found that it was already nearly
full to bursting with clothes – mainly
an array of exquisitely tailored suits.
"Wow, Bossman – if you've got all this
nice stuff, how come you never wear it?"
she whistled, fingering the sleeve of
one particularly beautiful suit.
She hung up her court suit with a
grimace – God she hated that thing! She
threw her court shoes down into the
bottom of the closet - where they hit
something. She crouched down and saw
that it was a large, hand-carved, wooden
chest. She ran her hand over it – it was
beautiful work. She knew immediately
that Gibbs had made it – it had his
hallmark of practicality combined with
elegant simplicity. She wondered what
was in it. She knew she shouldn't look
but her natural curiosity got the better
of her, so she tried to lift the lid –
only to find that it was locked.
"Hmm, hinkey," she muttered to herself.
"A closet full of smart suits he never
wears and a locked chest. What does it
all mean, Bossman?"
She spent the rest of the afternoon and
most of the evening going through a list
of people who might want to kill her.
Gibbs had brought back a box full of her
old case files, and they went through
each one, case by case.
Gibbs was as relentless and thorough as
ever and as the evening wore on her head
started to ache. It was such a
depressing way to spend a day. She
thought it was entirely possible that
Gibbs would make her stay up all night,
until they'd been through every single
case file in exhausting detail.
Abby felt herself going quiet. She was
anxious about having to give evidence in
court the next day. She hated court
enough as it was, and now there was
another layer of pressure on her. She
didn't want to walk into that courtroom
and sit opposite the man who was
probably trying to kill her. She gazed
into space as Gibbs took yet another
file from the box.
"Abby!" he rapped out, and she came to,
realising he'd asked her something.
"Uh?" She looked at him blankly, and he
made an impatient gesture with his hand.
"Concentrate, Abby! I asked if…"
"You know," Tony interrupted smoothly.
"I think we're done for the night. How
about I call for take out, and we watch
a movie?"
"We're not done. I'll say when we're
done," Gibbs growled.
Tony turned to gaze at him thoughtfully.
Then he gestured with his head towards
the living room. "Can I have a word,
Jethro?"
Abby was startled; she didn't think
she'd ever heard Tony call their boss
that before. It seemed to startle Gibbs
too, because he gave a little grunt but
acceded to Tony's request.
She watched, weary beyond belief, as
they went into the next door room. She
could see Tony talking rapidly to Gibbs
in a low, earnest voice. Gibbs crossed
his arms over his chest, looking
furious, but that didn't stop Tony. She
tuned into their conversation.
"We've done enough for today. Look at
her - she's exhausted."
"We're all damn well tired, Tony! But I
have to find out who is trying to hurt
her."
"I know." Tony's tone was placating.
"But she's already scared. You growling
at her doesn't help."
"She had a death threat! I don't care if
she's dead on her feet – better that
than dead for real."
"You're freaking her out!"
"I'm trying to protect her!"
"By working her into the ground?" Tony
raised an eyebrow. "Just because you
lost Kelly, doesn't mean you're going to
lose Abby too, Jethro. Now cut her some
slack."
Abby took a sharp intake of breath.
Gibbs looked like he was about to snap
Tony's head off. Tony held his ground,
his gaze firm. Then, suddenly, all the
tension seemed to go out of Gibbs, and
he deflated like a balloon. He ran his
hand through his hair with a weary sigh.
"You're right, Tony," he grunted.
"Always know I can rely on you to get in
my face when I need it."
Tony smiled, and Abby felt as if she was
intruding on an intimate moment. Tony
rested his hand lightly on Gibbs's arm
and squeezed. They shared a look and
then the moment was over. Tony removed
his hand and returned to the kitchen.
"So, Abby – what d'you wanna eat?" he
asked. "Pizza, Chinese, pizza, Thai,
pizza, Indian, or, you know, pizza? Not
that I want to influence your choice at
all, Abs." He shot her his most charming
grin, and she laughed, the queasiness in
her stomach subsiding.
They ate the pizza sitting on the couch
in front of "Stardust", a movie that
Gibbs claimed not to remotely
understand, but which she and Tony
giggled through. Gibbs sat in the middle
on the couch, and it was a tight squeeze
fitting them all on.
Abby did what she had with Tony earlier
and snuggled into Gibbs. She loved the
warm, solid scent of him. He always
smelled of safety to her – of sawdust
and coffee and something utterly
dependable. No matter how dangerous he
was, and how scared of him everyone else
was, she knew that he would always
protect her. He put an arm around her
and let her nestle in close.
She got up when the film ended and said
good night to them both. She was
dreading going to court the next day and
wanted to get to bed and hopefully get
some sleep, although she didn’t *feel*
like sleeping at all.
She paused in the doorway and glanced
back. Tony and Gibbs were still sitting
on the couch, side by side, shoulders
touching, and there was something
puzzling about their body language –
something she couldn't wrap her tired
brain around. She dismissed it and went
upstairs to bed.
Much to her own surprise, she was so
worn out that she fell asleep
immediately and slept straight through
until 5 a.m. when her cell phone
bleeped. She lifted her head blearily,
wondering who could be sending her a
text message at this time of night. She
sat up in bed, turned on the light,
reached for her phone, and clicked on
the message without even thinking.
"I see you've gone into hiding.
Afraid? You should be. I'm coming to get
you, Abigail Sciuto."
She jumped out of bed. He knew where she
was! When he said he was coming to get
her, did he mean right now? Was he
already in the house – or even standing
outside her bedroom door at this very
moment? Who the hell was this bastard,
and why was he trying to scare her like
this?
She grabbed her hairbrush to use as a
weapon and cautiously pulled open the
bedroom door. There was nobody there.
She ran down the hallway towards the one
person she knew would always keep her
safe, no matter what.
"Gibbs!" she yelled, running into his
bedroom, still clutching the cell phone.
She paused, frozen in shock. Gibbs was
half out of bed, reaching for his gun –
and he wasn't alone. Behind him, on the
other side of the bed, the side furthest
from the door, was someone else.
Tony.
Tony's head was lifted in sleepy shock,
and he was blinking blearily. He was
wearing black leather cuffs on his
wrists - and they were attached by a
chain to the headboard. He was also
wearing the black collar she'd seen
around his neck a couple of weeks ago,
and that, also, was attached to the
headboard.
Abby stared, a dozen different things
running through her mind at the same
time.
Gibbs was Tony's 'hot top'. Gibbs was
the one who 'got' Tony, the one Tony was
so crazy in love with.
Gibbs.
It should have been shocking, but
somehow it wasn't, and she wasn't sure
why. In fact, there was something almost
ordinary about it. It felt so *right*,
as if it was the way the world should
be.
Everything fell into place; the suits in
the closet belonged to Tony. That fancy
bathrobe he'd been wearing also belonged
to Tony. Then there was the presence of
that mysterious locked chest in the
closet – she suddenly knew, without a
shadow of a doubt, that the key she'd
seen hanging around Tony's neck opened
it. And there hadn't been any pillows
and blankets on the couch because Tony
was sleeping here, in Gibbs's bed, where
he so clearly belonged.
Then time speeded up again, and Gibbs
had turned on the light and was by her
side, gun in hand. Tony unclipped
himself from his bondage in a matter of
seconds, with an ease that spoke of
frequent practice, and then he was by
her side too, also holding a gun. She
was relieved that they were both wearing
boxers and tee shirts, or she thought
she'd have expired on the spot and saved
her mystery stalker the effort of
killing her.
"Abby?" Gibbs grabbed her arm. "What is
it? Are you okay?"
"He sent me a text message," she said,
handing him the cell phone with
trembling fingers. Gibbs grabbed it, and
his jaw tightened as he read the
message.
"Tony – check the outside agents," he
rapped out.
Tony was pulling on a pair of sweats and
some sneakers, and he seemed to have
lost the cuffs and collar somewhere
along the way.
"On it, Boss," he said, disappearing out
of the door.
"Outside agents? What outside agents?"
Abby asked blankly.
"The ones I assigned to watch the house
when we're in it," Gibbs told her
tersely. He pulled on his jeans, a
shirt, and a pair of boots and then
threw her Tony's bathrobe. Looking down,
she realised she was dressed only in her
panties and tee shirt, and she flushed
and pulled on the bathrobe. "Downstairs.
With me. Now," Gibbs ordered, leading
the way.
~*~
Gibbs took Abby into the
living room, sat her down on the couch,
and then went over to the window. He
twitched aside one of the drapes and
looked out to see Tony leaning into a
car parked in the street.
"How come you didn't tell me about the
outside agents?" Abby asked.
"Tony's call. He said you were freaked
out enough as it was."
Gibbs had been sure the outside agents
were just a precautionary measure, but
he wasn't taking any chances with Abby's
safety. There was no way he'd have let
Tony sleep in bondage if it weren't for
the fact that Abby had three other
agents assigned to her – the two outside
and himself.
"When did you get the text?" he
demanded, returning to where she was
sitting on the couch.
"About five minutes ago – I ran straight
in to tell you, Gibbs."
Gibbs examined the text again. "No
specific threats about the court case,
but that doesn't mean it's not McElroy.
Sending a text like this on the morning
you're due to give evidence against him
is a good way of scaring you off."
"He can't damn well scare me off!" she
said hotly. "I spent weeks on that
forensic evidence, Gibbs. No way he's
gonna stop me presenting it in court."
"Then I guess that bastard doesn't know
Abby Sciuto very well if he thinks he
can try." Gibbs grinned.
At that moment Tony returned to the
house. "All's quiet. Reynolds and Smith
say nothing suspicious has happened all
night. Could just be a scare tactic,
Boss."
Gibbs threw him Abby's cell phone, and
Tony caught it easily, one-handed. "Get
McGee up - see if he can find out where
the text came from."
"On it, Boss." Tony disappeared again.
Abby watched him go. Then she turned
back to Gibbs.
"He looked good in your collar, Bossman,"
she said. Gibbs's jaw tightened.
"Uh…sorry." She clapped her hand over
her mouth. "I always say these really
inappropriate things in life or death
situations. Like that time when Ari was
shooting at me, and for some reason I
totally started admiring Tony's butt,
and…" she trailed off as she saw the
expression on Gibbs's face.
"This gonna be a problem for you, Abs?"
"What kind of problem?" she asked
blankly.
Gibbs made an impatient motion with his
head. "DiNozzo and me."
"What – you mean you being his top?" she
frowned. "Why would that be a problem? I
was kinda surprised, but only for maybe
a second because you two guys totally
rock together. I always thought you and
Stan looked kinda hot together too, but
that's nothing compared to the total
hotness that's been between you and Tony
all these years. It was dumb of me to
think that Tony was being topped by some
chick. I mean, firstly, there's no way
Tony would ever let a woman top him –
he's always gotta be in control around
the ladies – and secondly, there's no
way Tony would let *anyone* top him but
you." She ran out of steam and sat
looking at him expectantly.
"Uh-huh," was all he found to say.
Abby grinned. "So I'm right?"
He gazed at her, startled. He had no
idea that they were both so transparent.
Then again, Abby was Abby, and she saw
things nobody else did. "Uh-huh," he
said again.
"I won't tell anyone."
"It's not your secret to keep, Abby. I
won't put that on you."
"Well, I won't tell anyone all the same.
I figure it's still pretty new, and you
guys need some time to see how it pans
out, so…" she shrugged.
At that moment, Tony returned to the
room. "No luck on the text. Burn phone.
Probably been dumped by now. Can't even
get a fix on where the text came from.
What next, Boss?"
Gibbs glanced at the sunlight starting
to creep in around the drapes. "Next –
we help Abby keep that appointment in
court."
~*~
Abby walked into the courthouse a few
hours later with her head held high. She
might be scared shitless, but she wasn't
going to let anyone see that. Gibbs and
Tony flanked her, and she knew that as
long as they were nearby she'd be safe.
They saw McElroy talking to his lawyer
in the hallway, and Abby faltered, her
steps slowing. Gibbs put a hand on her
shoulder. McElroy and his lawyer walked
towards them, and she took a panicky
intake of breath. Gibbs squeezed her
shoulder hard for reassurance. McElroy
started grinning at her as he got close,
a slow, threatening kind of grin. He
didn't say a word – he just inclined his
head sardonically at her as he walked
by.
Abby released a deep breath, her heart
racing.
"Think that's him, Boss?" Tony asked, as
they all stood there, watching McElroy
disappear into the courtroom. "Is he the
one who's been threatening Abby?"
"It's him," Gibbs grunted. "I can feel
it in my gut."
Abby gave evidence for the next three
days. Gibbs escalated her protection,
moving her to a different safe house
every night, just to be sure, but either
he or Tony was with her at all times.
"You do know we have this really big
thing to talk about, don't you?" Abby
said to Tony as they sat in the safe
house after her first day in court. Tony
glanced at the agent standing guard by
the door and then glanced back at her
warningly.
"When this is all over, Abby, I promise
to answer all your questions."
"All of them?" She raised a teasing
eyebrow.
"Well…most of 'em." He grinned back.
"For now…" He zipped his finger over his
mouth and she nodded her agreement.
"I hate this," she sighed.
"I know." He gave her a sympathetic
look. "All the moving around, the
escorts, the different house every
night, the constant surveillance..."
"Oh not that!" she laughed. "That's all
kinda fun - like being in the movies or
something. No – I hate this." She
gestured at the court suit she was still
wearing. It was duck egg blue and ugly
as all hell. "I miss wearing my real
clothes," she said mournfully. "My
boots, my rings – my *stuff*, Tony."
Tony grinned. "You miss wearing your
collar too?"
"Sure." She waggled her eyebrows at him.
"Don't you?"
And they both burst out laughing.
~*~
Tony was with Abby every day she was in
court. Gibbs dropped by frequently, but
he spent most of his time at NCIS,
looking for evidence that McElroy had
tried to scare off NCIS's expert
witness.
Tony missed his dom intensely, but they
were both too pre-occupied to do more
than exchange the occasional smile in
passing – although Gibbs managed to
sneak in a head-slap every time they
met, which made Tony feel better.
Being threatened seemed to bring out
Abby's fighting spirit, and Tony watched
in admiration as she presented the
forensic evidence against McElroy with
devastating accuracy in court. Then she
answered the defence lawyer's hectoring
questions without hesitation, completely
confident in her findings. Tony almost
wanted to burst into applause when she
was done, and the judge allowed her to
leave the witness stand for the last
time.
A few hours later, they were in court to
watch McElroy being convicted – in no
small part due to Abby's evidence.
"We did it! We won!" Abby whooped,
throwing herself at him and jumping into
his arms. He hugged her tight, and they
did a stupid little victory dance in the
courtroom hallway. Then they walked
towards the parking garage together, her
hand tucked into his arm.
She was talking non-stop through sheer
relief. "I'm free! I can go home! And
you and I need to have a long overdue
chat, Mister," she said, with mock
severity, thumping his arm. "But do you
know what I'm gonna do first?"
"Get drunk?" he suggested. "Leap into
bed with Ziva? If so, can I watch?" He
gave her a sly wink.
She thumped him again. "No – this!" She
took off her shoes and dumped them in
the trash as they walked past. "They
were killing me! I can't wait to get
into my boots!"
They went down into the parking garage,
her barefoot, both of them still
laughing, and Tony dismissed Reynolds
and Smith who had stayed with the car.
Tony got in, and Abby got in beside him,
still talking. Tony drove off with
Reynolds and Smith following on behind
in their car.
"First we're going back to NCIS – I told
McGee to have champagne ready to
celebrate – and then I'm gonna go sit in
my lab and just *fondle* things because
you have no idea how much I've missed my
babies! Major Mass-Spec, and Bert, and
everyone! And I'm gonna get changed out
of this horrible suit and get into
something normal. And you, Tony, are
going to tell me what kind of a dom
Gibbs is, and whether he lets you get
away with anything, and…"
"He's Gibbs, Abs! Do you seriously think
he lets me get away with anything?" Tony
raised an eyebrow.
"And how you two first got it on and all
that stuff," she said without pausing.
"And then…"
Tony turned to glance at her and saw the
red dot on her head. Time slowed down.
He swerved the car to one side, pushing
her down with his hand at the same time,
and at that moment the windscreen
shattered and suddenly there was glass
everywhere. At first, all he could hear
was the sound of screeching brakes, and
then the wrenching of tearing metal, and
then, finally, a loud bang as the car
rolled over, hit something, and came to
rest by the side of the road.
Then there was just a shocking silence.
"Abby!" Tony rolled over, looking for
her desperately in the wreckage of the
car. She was lying on her side next to
him, her eyes closed, blood pouring from
her head, staining that duck egg blue
suit a dark shade of crimson. "ABBY!"
His legs were trapped, but somehow he
managed to wrench them free. He could
smell burning, and he had no idea if the
shooter was still nearby. If he was,
they were sitting targets. He had to get
Abby out of the car.
He had no idea if she was dead or alive,
and he couldn't give himself time to
think about it. He kicked what was left
of the glass out of the side window,
slid out, then reached back in, grabbed
her, and pulled her out after him. He
picked her up and carried her away from
the car, stumbling as he half-ran,
half-walked, desperate to get her to the
safety and cover of the trees by the
side of the road before the car blew up.
He placed her on the grass and shielded
her as he scanned the surrounding area
for whoever had shot at them. Then there
was a massive roaring bang and their car
exploded in flames behind him. He threw
himself on top of Abby, feeling the
searing heat on his back as he protected
her body with his own.
"Abby…" He patted her face desperately,
but she was as cold and white as ice.
"Abby!"
He heard footsteps and reached for his
gun, turning…to see Reynolds and Smith
running towards them.
"DiNozzo? Are you okay?" Reynolds
yelled, while Smith reached for his cell
phone and called for back up and
paramedics.
"Sniper," Tony panted. "Got a shot at
us. Abby's hurt…don't know how bad…don't
know if it's from the crash or if he got
a bullet in her…"
He stroked Abby's dark hair away from
her face, her blood pooling on his
fingertips.
"Abby?" he whispered.
~*~
Gibbs strode into the hospital waiting
room, and his heart did a little flip as
he saw Tony sitting there, leaning
forwards, arms resting on his knees. His
sub looked up, saw him, and got to his
feet. He stood to attention as Gibbs
came over to him, and he wouldn't meet
Gibbs's gaze. His eyes were flat, dull
and…guilty. He looked just like he had
after Jenny had been killed.
"Sit rep," Gibbs rapped out, standing in
front of him, too close, getting into
his space. He knew it was the best way
to handle Tony in this kind of
situation.
"Abby's still in the ER – I don't know
how she's doing because nobody will tell
me anything. Wasn't an accident though,
Boss. We took fire – at least one
bullet, maybe more. Not sure if she got
hit, or if she was injured when the car
went over."
Gibbs listened intently, using the
opportunity to assess Tony's condition
at the same time.
His sub had some minor cuts on his face
and hands, and his shirt was torn and
covered in blood that Gibbs suspected
wasn't his, but apart from that he
looked unharmed.
Gibbs moved his hand up to Tony's head,
but Tony flinched and ducked away as if
expecting a blow. Gibbs tried again,
moving his hand more slowly so that Tony
could see it coming. This time, Tony
held still and allowed Gibbs to roll
back his eyelids and check for any sign
of head trauma.
Gibbs dropped his hand and scrutinised
his sub. Tony was deeply distressed – no
doubt about it. Gibbs's over-riding
impulse was to hustle Tony home, examine
every inch of him to make sure he was
okay, and then chain him to the bed and
never let him out of his sight again. He
fought the impulse down – he had a job
to do.
"It's my fault, Boss," Tony told him,
still unable to meet his gaze, staring
at a point just over his left shoulder.
"Abby's fighting for her life in there
because of me. I screwed up again. It's
all my fault."
Gibbs raised an eyebrow. "How?"
"I was stupid. I didn't follow close
protection protocol – I let Abby sit
next to me in the car. I was so sure
McElroy was our perp that when he was
sent down, I thought the danger was
over." He shook his head. "That sniper,
whoever he was, had a clear shot at her,
Boss. I saw the red dot on her head, and
I pushed her down but then the window
shattered, and I lost control of the
car…It was all my own damn fault."
"DiNozzo!" Gibbs rapped out. Tony winced
at his tone of voice. "I'll let you know
where I'm assigning blame when I get all
the facts. Until then, don't piss me off
by speculating."
Tony bit on his lip. "Yes, Boss."
"Go back to NCIS and write up your
report," Gibbs ordered. There was no
point Tony staying at the hospital
waiting for news of Abby – Tony handled
difficult situations by doing things,
not sitting around twiddling his thumbs.
His sub was a lot like him in that
respect. "When you're done, call me, and
I'll give you new orders. Clear?"
"Yes, Boss." Tony started walking
towards the door without hesitation.
"DiNozzo!" Gibbs called him back. Tony
paused, looking at his feet, still
unable to meet Gibbs's gaze. Gibbs
grasped Tony's jaw firmly, forcing Tony
to look straight at him. "I'm glad
you're alive, Tony," he said softly.
Then, in a harder voice, "Because you
don't damn well have my permission to
die. New rule. Understand?"
"Rule number seven, Boss. Not to die
without your permission. Got it." Tony
managed a faint smile, but Gibbs thought
he needed to hear it.
"And get Ducky to look at those cuts."
Gibbs gestured to the lacerations on
Tony's hands and the side of his face.
Tony nodded and left the room. Gibbs
followed him – but only to grab hold of
one of the medical personnel and force
her to go check on Abby.
A few minutes later, a doctor appeared
in the waiting room.
"Special Agent Gibbs? You were asking
about Ms Sciuto's condition?"
"She okay?"
"Are you a family member?" the man
asked, with a frown, looking down at the
clipboard he was holding.
"I'm down as her next of kin, along with
her mom," Gibbs replied brusquely. "Now
tell me how she's doing."
"She's going to be fine. She has a
concussion, and she's lost a lot of
blood, but we stitched up the head
injury – it probably looked worse than
it is."
"Was there a bullet?" Gibbs demanded.
The doctor looked bewildered. "No
bullet, Agent Gibbs. Her injuries are
consistent with a car accident. She's
got some minor lacerations and a badly
bruised wrist, but I'd say she was
lucky."
Gibbs allowed himself just a moment to
let the relief wash through him. Then he
was back to business again. "Can I see
her?"
The doctor nodded and led him down the
hallway to a room. Abby was lying on the
bed, looking deathly pale, a bandage
wrapped around her head.
Gibbs paused in the doorway. There had
been no hospital bed for Kelly. She'd
died instantly in that car wreck all
those years ago. They had told him not
to see the body when he arrived home
from Iraq, but he had wanted to. He'd
needed to know that it really was her,
and that she really was gone. Last time
he'd seen her, she'd run after him,
tears in her eyes, begging him not to
go. He'd smiled to cheer her up and
waved goodbye. He hadn't known that was
the last thing she would ever ask of
him. Damn it, *he* had been the one
going into combat. He was the one who
should have died, not his family.
They had been right to tell him not to
look at the body. He'd seen plenty of
dead bodies in combat, but nothing
prepared him for seeing her, looking
like a mangled doll. She'd been badly
smashed up in that car wreck – too badly
for him to believe she was "sleeping",
or "at rest" or any of that crap people
spouted. She looked exactly like what
she was – dead.
Abby didn't look dead. She looked pale,
and tired, and hurt, but he could see
her chest rising and falling, and the
faint pink tinge on her cheeks. Gibbs
sat down in the chair beside her bed and
took her hand in his own. She moved her
head, and her eyelids fluttered open.
"Hey, Bossman…" she whispered.
"Hey Abs. What you got for me?" he asked
gently, with a little grin. She smiled
too, in response to the familiar
question.
"Jus' a conc'ss'n," she muttered,
squeezing his hand. "No need f'you
t'worry, Gibbs."
"Is that so?" He raised an eyebrow.
"Yeah." She grinned at him, her pale
green eyes hazy from the pain meds.
"Where's Tony? He okay?"
"He's fine. I sent him back to the
office to write up his report."
"Meanie," she muttered.
"Yeah," he chuckled. "I am."
"Saved my life," she whispered. "Tony –
saved me. Pulled me outta car 'fore it 'sploded."
He squeezed her hand again. It seemed
that she and Tony had very different
versions of what had happened.
"Abs – I need to find out who did this
to you. I've called for your mom, and
she's on her way. I'm going to leave you
to get some rest now, but I'll come back
later.”
"Mmmm," she muttered, her eyelids
closing. He leaned over and kissed her
forehead gently, but she was already
fast asleep by the time he left the
room.
~*~
Tony had just finished writing up his
report when Gibbs called.
"She's fine," Gibbs told him
before he even had a chance to open his
mouth. "She has a concussion, but she
wasn't hit by the bullet."
"Then it could still be in the car,"
Tony said quickly. "We need to bring it
in and…"
"I'm already on it, DiNozzo!"
Gibbs told him firmly. "Tell McGee to
get the evidence garage ready for it. I
want him and Ziva crawling all over the
wreckage to see what they can find."
"What about me?" Tony asked helplessly.
"What do you want me to do?"
"You finished that report?"
"Yeah."
"Then leave it on my desk and go
home."
Tony frowned. "Home?"
"Go back to the house and get some
rest, Tony. I'll be there when I'm
done."
"But Abby…"
"She's sleeping. You can see her
soon."
"She's really fine?" Tony asked quietly.
"Yes. I posted a couple of agents
outside her door, just in case that
bastard comes back to finish the job,
but my guess is he's already on the
run."
"I don't want to go home, Boss. There
must be something I can do. I could help
Ziva and Tim…"
"Tony, there is no way I'm letting
you work on the wreck of the car that
you were driving! I've given you your
orders – go home and get some rest.
What's rule number one?"
"Obey you," Tony said reluctantly.
"Then do it. I don't have time to
argue." And with that, Gibbs ended
the call.
Tony didn't remember the drive home. He
was on auto-pilot. Gibbs's house was in
darkness when he got there, and he
didn't turn on the lights. He walked
into the living room, sank down on the
floor with his back against the wall,
and sat there, staring into space.
Gibbs had told him to get some rest, and
he wanted to obey Gibbs, but he couldn’t
do that. He couldn't do that because if
he closed his eyes, for even a second,
he saw them.
He saw Abby, lying on that grass verge,
so white and cold and still. His fault.
And he saw Jenny, hazel eyes wide open,
lying dead in a pool of her own blood.
His fault. And he knew that if he kept
his eyes closed for even a fraction of a
second longer then he'd see someone
else. Also his fault.
"Always your fucking fault, DiNozzo."
He drew his knees up to his chest,
rested his chin on them, and kept his
eyes wide open as he sat there in the
dark.
~*~
Gibbs was bone weary by the time he
finally got home, many hours later. He
walked into the living room, flicked on
the light…and stopped. Tony was sitting
on the floor with his back against the
wall, his arms wrapped around his legs.
He glanced up when Gibbs came in,
blinking rapidly in response to the
sudden burst of light. Gibbs sighed. He
had hoped that Tony would be lying fast
asleep in bed, but instead he could see
that Tony's penchant for sitting on his
own in the dark had asserted itself
again.
"Thought I told you to get some rest,
Tony," he said in a gentle tone.
"Am, Boss. Just resting here," Tony
replied.
"That's not resting - as you damn well
know." He crouched down in front of Tony
and finally was able to do what he'd
wanted to do all day – caress his sub.
He reached out to stroke his sub's hair,
but Tony jerked away from him. "You
okay?" Gibbs asked, frowning.
"Me? I'm fine. How's Abby?"
"She's fine too. I just came from the
hospital. She's sleeping like a baby.
Her mom just arrived – she's built some
kind of shrine in the room with candles,
flowers, cards, and cake."
"Cake?"
"Must be a Sciuto thing." Gibbs
shrugged. "How long you been sitting
there like that?" Tony didn't reply.
"Since you got home?"
"Yeah."
Gibbs rocked back on his heels and
surveyed his sub. This was a crisis – no
doubt about it – and while he was
usually pretty good in a crisis, this
one was outside his usual remit.
"We found the perp," he said.
Tony's head shot up. "Who was it?"
"Guy named Luke Thurle."
"Thurle – wasn't he in one of those
files we went through?"
Gibbs nodded. "Released from prison a
couple of weeks ago. Blames Abby's
forensics for putting him there. Still
claims he's innocent – says she tampered
with the evidence, that she's some kind
of devil-worshipper out to get him.
Guy's a fruitcake."
"You found him? You brought him in?"
"Yeah – the idiot was seen firing the
gun then driving off in a hurry. We got
a call, went to his place, and found the
gun. I interrogated the bastard myself.
Ballistics match the bullet we pulled
from the car with the gun we found in
his house. It was definitely him."
"Nothing to do with McElroy then?"
"Nope." Gibbs shook his head.
"Shit. We got it wrong, Boss."
"Yes. We did." Gibbs gazed at his sub
intently. "All of us, DiNozzo, not just
you. I got it wrong – felt in my gut
that it was McElroy and allowed you and
Abby to believe it too - but I was
wrong."
"But if I hadn't let Abby…" Tony began.
"Back half of the car is all crushed,"
Gibbs interrupted him. "If she'd been
sitting in the back she'd be dead."
"If she'd been sitting in the back he
wouldn't have had a clear shot at her,
so he might not have pulled the trigger
at all," Tony retorted.
"Spoke to Reynolds and Smith. They were
right behind you on the road. They say
you reacted fast, got Abby to safety,
did all the right things."
Tony gazed at him blankly.
"You got her out of the car before it
blew, Tony!" Gibbs said forcefully.
"But I screwed up," Tony repeated
insistently.
"Yes, you did," Gibbs replied, because
Tony could see through bullshit, and he
needed his boss – his dom – to be honest
with him. "And so did Abby – she knew
the rules about where to sit. And Smith
and Reynolds fucked up too – they didn't
stop you. And I screwed up, Tony – I was
going after the wrong guy."
"No. I was the lead protection officer
on duty. I screwed this up, like I
screwed up with Jenny. You know I
screwed up with Jenny, Boss."
"Yeah." Gibbs nodded. "You did. But
Jenny knew what she was doing. She
didn't allow you to protect her – she
sent you away. And d'you know why she
did that?"
Tony shook his head.
"Because she knew she screwed the pooch
years ago, and it had come back to bite
her. She didn't want it biting you, or
Ziva, or me. She got you out of the way
on purpose to keep you out of the firing
line. She died, but that was a success
as far as Jenny was concerned. Hard for
us to live with, but she got what she
wanted – she kept us safe."
Tony dropped his gaze.
"There's plenty of blame to go around,
Tony. Today, and when Jenny died. You
can have a share of it, but you can't
claim it all."
Tony stared moodily at the ground. Gibbs
stroked his cheek gently, but Tony moved
his head away. Gibbs sighed – it looked
like Tony wasn't ready to forgive
himself just yet, and he didn't want
anybody being nice to him right now.
His sub looked beat – his face was pale
and there were dark rings under those
haunted green eyes. Gibbs didn't think
he stood a hope in hell of getting Tony
to sleep unless he could make it an
order that Tony had to obey. Clearly, it
was time to get tough.
Gibbs stood up. "Strip," he said, taking
off his jacket and throwing it on the
couch. He turned back to see Tony
sitting there, gazing at him with a
shocked expression on his face. "I said,
strip," Gibbs snapped.
"You want me naked?" Tony queried in a
disbelieving tone. "Now?"
"Yup. See, my sub was in a serious
accident, and as his body belongs to me
I want to check it for damage. And I
don't expect to have to explain my
orders. So strip. Now!" He snapped that
last word out hard. If Tony wasn't going
to respond to him as his boss or his
lover, then he'd damn well make sure he
responded to him as his dom.
Tony got up slowly. He undid his shirt
and eased himself out of it with a
wince, then removed the rest of his
clothes. Gibbs beckoned him over, and
Tony came, wearily.
Gibbs grasped Tony's chin and turned his
face to one side so he could examine the
cuts and bruises on it. "Did you get
Ducky to look at these like I ordered?"
"No."
"What's rule number one?"
"Obey you," Tony muttered unwillingly.
"There will *always* be punishment for
disobedience, Tony."
Tony's green eyes were sullen. "So
fucking spank me. I don't care."
"Punishment doesn't always mean
spanking," Gibbs reminded him. "And drop
the attitude, DiNozzo."
The sharp words acted like a head-slap,
jolting Tony out of himself. "Sorry,
Boss."
"Who's in charge here, Tony?"
Tony gazed at him mulishly. "You are,"
he said finally.
"Damn straight! Now stop fighting me and
give it up, Tony."
Tony's shoulders sagged slightly, and
Gibbs knew he was winning, slowly but
surely.
"Turn around." He put a hand on Tony's
shoulder and turned him – and his jaw
tightened angrily at the sight of his
sub's back. It was puffy and red in
places, and when he put his hand on it
he could feel the heat. "You got burned
here, Tony. Did you get any medical
treatment at the hospital?"
"No, Boss." Tony shook his head. "Didn't
ask for any. Didn't realise I was
injured."
Gibbs pressed his fingers gently against
Tony's reddened back. "You can't feel
this?"
A flicker of a wince crossed Tony's
face. "Yes, Boss. I can now. Just…didn't
feel it earlier. Must have happened when
the car exploded. Had my back to it. Was
trying to shield Abby."
Gibbs took a good look at Tony's back.
It wasn't serious, but it had to hurt.
He went into the kitchen and got a bowl
of water and his medical kit.
He returned to the living room, opened
the kit, and fished out a tube of gel.
It was the kind of heavy duty,
medicated, skin cream he'd used on
combat burns in Iraq, so he knew it
would work on Tony's injury. It
contained a good dose of antiseptic and
a light anaesthetic, and he could
testify to its pain-killing properties
himself. He soothed it into the burned
skin gently, taking his time.
Tony was shivering slightly which wasn't
a good sign. Gibbs suspected it was a
post-traumatic response, but Tony's
feelings of guilt clearly weren't
helping. Something didn't feel right
though. Tony was a trained agent, and
he'd been in worse situations. He'd
definitely had some near-death
experiences before, and he'd rescued
team members he cared about from them
too. Christ, Tony hadn't reacted like
this when Kate had been killed, so what
was going on here?
Something specific about this incident
had clearly triggered something for him
– but Gibbs didn’t know what. There was
no point in asking Tony about it right
now though; his sub was dead on his
feet. What he needed was rest and
someone to take care of him – and Gibbs
would make sure that he got both.
Gibbs washed Tony's cuts and patted them
dry, applying ointment and dressings
where required. When he was done, he ran
his hands over every inch of his sub's
body, examining it in minute detail.
Tony shifted restlessly.
“Stop that,” Gibbs ordered sharply. “As
I can’t trust you to *know* if you’re
injured anywhere, I’m just gonna have to
check you out until I’m satisfied. Now
stand still.”
“I’m fine,” Tony muttered.
“Not your call,” Gibbs snapped.
Gibbs resumed his examination, taking
his time. He noticed how Tony gradually
began to relax as he worked on him.
Words were useless with Tony right now,
but this method of taking his sub down
was proving to be extremely effective.
Tony always had responded to his touch;
whether it was head-slaps, or atta boys,
or just straightforward kisses - he had
always been able to reach Tony better
through touch than words.
"Hold still, boy," he said, running his
hands firmly over Tony's ribs. Tony gave
a little gasp. "That hurt?" Gibbs
pressed the spot again, with two
fingers, watching Tony's face. A little
flicker of pain creased Tony's features.
"Don't think they're broken – could be
cracked or just bruised," Gibbs said,
continuing to press around the sore
ribs. He moved on and found some bruises
on Tony's upper arm and an extremely
sore looking patch on his ankle, where
half the skin was scraped away.
"Legs were trapped in the car," Tony
told him. "Had to pull hard to get free,
so I could get Abby out."
Gibbs treated the injury and then stood
up, a grim look on his face.
"I'm not happy about this, Tony," he
growled. Tony blinked. "Your body
belongs to me, and you haven't taken
very good care of it. If you are *ever*
hurt, I expect you seek medical
attention. Got it?"
Tony nodded. "Yes, Boss. Sorry, Boss."
Gibbs thought they were getting there.
He could feel Tony sinking down into his
sub space with each growled order and
terse command. If Tony wouldn't accept
kindness right now, he would at least
accept tough love – and Gibbs had no
problem handing that out.
"With me," he said, turning on his heel
and walking out the door and up the
stairs. They got to the bedroom, and he
plucked Tony’s collar off the nightstand
and buckled it around Tony’s neck. Tony
gave an almost imperceptible little sigh
as it was fastened into place. It was
only then that he seemed to finally give
in and accept the comfortable
familiarity of his role as Gibbs’s sub.
"Gonna punish you - like I promised,"
Gibbs told him as he fastened Tony's
wrist and ankle cuffs onto his sub,
taking care to avoid his injuries,
buckling them loosely.
Tony nodded, his eyes glazed with
exhaustion.
"You'll sleep in tight bondage tonight,"
Gibbs said, gesturing with his head at
the bed. "Much tighter than usual. Get
in."
Tony slipped into bed and settled down
onto his side. Gibbs noticed that he was
still shivering.
He fastened Tony's hands together, and
then his ankles. Then he looped a piece
of chain between the two and fastened
that to the headboard. It wasn't very
tight, but he didn't think Tony would
notice that in the condition he was in
right now. Then, finally, he padlocked
the chains into place.
"You don't get to clip yourself in and
out of your bondage tonight," he said,
tapping Tony's head to make sure he was
listening. "I've locked you in – if you
need to piss, or move around, or you
have a problem – any problem - then wake
me."
Tony nodded. Gibbs tapped his head
again.
"Do *not* just lie there if you need
something. Wake me," he ordered.
"Yes, Boss," Tony said quietly.
"Good." Gibbs put his cell phone on the
night stand next to Tony, within reach
of his bound hands. "I will not leave
you alone when you're locked in bondage
– the phone is just a precaution." He
didn't feel he needed to spell that one
out. "You don't get to leave the bed
without my permission. Now sleep."
He got undressed and slipped into the
bed beside Tony. He noticed that Tony's
eyes were wide open, and his sub was
staring glassily at the wall. He was
also trembling again. Gibbs suspected
the trembling was caused by the effort
it was taking for Tony to keep his eyes
open. His body was exhausted and
desperately needed sleep, but for some
reason he wouldn't close his eyes.
Gibbs turned off the light and then
moved over so that his chest was against
Tony's back. He wrapped his arm firmly
around Tony's waist.
"Close your eyes," he ordered.
"Can't, Boss." Tony's trembling
intensified.
"It’s an order, DiNozzo!" he rapped out.
"Not a request. You really want to
disobey me on this?"
The breath left Tony's body with a sigh,
and Gibbs saw his eyelids flutter shut.
They opened again almost immediately.
Gibbs tapped the back of Tony's head.
"You will sleep," he said firmly. The
chains clinked as Tony moved his legs.
Gibbs ran his hand down Tony's body,
stilling him. "You are mine, and you
will do as you are told," he growled
into Tony's ear. He continued to slide
his hand confidently over Tony's body,
making it clear to his sub who owned
him. "Your body is mine – you can't
touch it right now, and you sure as hell
can't stop me touching it," he said, in
a low, commanding tone, straight into
Tony's ear. "It belongs to me, and it
will obey me. Now sleep."
"Yes, Boss."
Gibbs felt all the fight leave Tony's
body as his sub finally surrendered to
him. Tony closed his eyes, and Gibbs
kept on reminding him that he was there,
that Tony belonged to him, and that he
had no choice but to obey his orders. He
was tied to the bed, and Gibbs wasn't
going to let him go any time soon; the
only option was sleep. There was no
other choice.
The repetition – and the stroking that
accompanied it – seemed to work. Tony's
breathing slowed and deepened as sleep
claimed his weary body at long last.
Gibbs moved his hand to gently stroke
his sub's hair. Now he was finally able
to give in to the impulse he'd had all
day to hold Tony close. He pressed a
gentle kiss to Tony's shoulder, and
another, and then another. He had wanted
to be gentle with his sub, to hold him
and take care of him, but instead he'd
had to play the hard dom just to get him
to rest. He had never seen his sub like
this before, or experienced a Tony this
lost and scared.
"Christ, Tony," he sighed into his sub's
thick, soft hair. "What the hell
happened to you?"
~*~
Tony blinked. He was lying on his side
in bed, and he was aware that his back
hurt, his ankle ached, and he could feel
dozens of throbbing pains throughout his
body – there were little cuts and
bruises everywhere. The events of the
previous day came flooding back in, and
he remembered why he hurt – and why he
*should* damn well hurt. It was the
least he deserved, in the circumstances.
He’d got off lightly compared to Abby.
He moved his leg and heard the clinking
of chains.
“Hey. You with us finally?”
Tony turned his head to see Gibbs
sitting on the bed beside him, fully
clothed, a file open on his lap. He was
wearing his glasses and peering down at
Tony over the top of them.
“Yeah. How’s…” Tony swallowed – his
mouth was incredibly dry. “Abby?” he
finished in a croak.
“She’s fine. I called the hospital, and
she’s doing well. They’re going to keep
her in another couple of days for
observation, but they’re not worried
about her.”
“You speak to her?” Tony asked
anxiously. “She okay? I mean, really
okay?”
“Yeah. She sounded just like Abby. She’s
fine, Tony. No need to worry about her.”
“Can I see her?”
“Not today.” Gibbs shook his head.
“She’s got a full quota of visitors
today – Ziva and McGee this morning,
Ducky and Jimmy this afternoon, and her
mom is with her. Also, you’re gonna be
in bondage all day, and I wasn’t
planning on letting you get dressed, so
unless you want to go to the hospital
naked and wearing chains…” Gibbs let
that hang with a shrug.
“Right.” Tony nodded.
Sweet-natured and forgiving though she
was, he was sure Abby wouldn’t want to
see him right now in any case. Besides,
this was probably part of whatever
punishment Gibbs had in store for him
today for the total screw-up that had
almost cost Abby her life. Tony wasn’t
looking forward to that punishment,
whatever form it took, but he deserved
it – no doubt about that. He remembered
how Gibbs had once punished McGee for
failing to protect Abby by making him
kneel at his desk. This was much bigger
than that, so Tony was expecting an
exponentially bigger punishment. Sore
knees and a certain element of
humiliation didn’t really cover this
situation.
“I told ya to get Ducky to look at your
injuries, and you didn’t. So I obviously
can’t trust you to take care of
yourself,” Gibbs said to him. “You were
in a serious car accident yesterday -
you have burns on your back, and cuts
and bruises all over. You’re gonna be
chained to either the bed or the couch
for the day, so I can make sure you get
some rest.”
“Yes, Boss,” Tony said quietly, without
protest. “What time is it anyway?” He
glanced at the bright rays of sunshine
stealing in around the sides of the
drapes.
“Nearly noon.” Gibbs went over to the
drapes and opened them, letting the
sunlight come flooding in.
“Shouldn’t we be at the office?”
“Nope. You’re on medical leave, and I’m
working from home.” Gibbs nodded in the
direction of the files on the bed. “I’m
processing the paperwork and reports on
Thurle. You can help me later.”
Gibbs returned to the bed and unlocked
Tony from his bondage. “You have fifteen
minutes in the bathroom – then get your
ass out here.”
Tony swung his legs over the side of the
bed, wincing as he became aware of a
dozen different aches in his body.
“Shit…” he hissed as he stood up, his
back protesting the movement.
“Like I said – serious car accident. You
can keep going on the adrenaline, but
the next day always hurts like a bitch,”
Gibbs chuckled. “You probably wrenched a
dozen muscles without even realising
it.”
Tony felt like an old man as he walked
slowly to the bathroom. Gibbs was right
– he felt like he’d been hit by a truck.
He pissed, showered, cleaned his teeth
and shaved and emerged exactly fifteen
minutes later feeling a bit more human.
Gibbs was waiting for him in the
bedroom, his medical kit open on the
bed. He examined Tony again, every inch
of him, just like he had the previous
night. There was something nice about
it. Tony couldn’t remember anyone ever
treating him with such careful precision
before, like he mattered. In other
circumstances he’d have enjoyed it, but
not today. Not after he’d almost killed
Abby through his own stupidity. Gibbs
should be throwing him over the damn
spanking bench in the basement and
whaling on his ass, not running gentle
fingers over his bruises and rubbing
soothing lotion into his burned back. It
was just wrong. He only submitted to it
because he had no choice, but he was
glad when it was over.
Gibbs fastened his cuffs and collar back
on him, and then Tony followed his dom
downstairs on the end of Gibbs’s leash.
There was something reassuringly
restrictive about it. Gibbs ordered him
to sit on the couch in the living room
and then chained his right wrist to his
right ankle, and his left wrist to his
left ankle. They were long chains,
giving him a full range of movement, but
it was, nonetheless, bondage. Gibbs
fastened his leash to a hook in the wall
beside the couch, securing it with a
padlock.
“You don’t think for yourself today,
Tony,” Gibbs told him. “You’re in
bondage all day. You’ll do exactly what
I say, when I say. If you want to use
the bathroom, or if you want anything to
eat or drink, then you ask me.”
Tony nodded. He wished it felt more like
punishment, but in reality it just felt
reassuring. He was so tired – he didn’t
want to have to think. It was nice to be
able to opt out and let Gibbs take
control.
“It’s restrictive because I want to make
sure your body gets a chance to rest and
recover,” Gibbs told him, crouching down
in front of him, a puzzled look in his
eyes as if he was expecting some other
kind of reaction from Tony. A protest
maybe?
“It’s okay. I get it. You want to get me
well so you can punish me,” Tony said.
Gibbs straightened up, slowly, an
assessing look in his eyes. “Punish you
for what, Tony?”
“For screwing up and nearly getting Abby
killed."
Gibbs ran a hand over his chin and gazed
down on Tony thoughtfully. “I’m not
gonna punish you for that, Tony."
“But I screwed up – big time.”
“Yeah, you did screw up, Tony. But did
you break any of the rules?”
“What?”
“The rules – recite them,” Gibbs
ordered.
“Rule number one: Obey you. Rule number
two: Don’t lie to you. Rule number
three: Don’t keep you waiting. Rule
number four: No attitude. Rule number
five: Nobody touches me but you. Rule
number six: No wheedling. Rule number
seven: Don’t die without your
permission. Cardinal rule: I’m yours,”
Tony fired off. He didn’t see how they
were relevant right now. This was much
bigger than the rules.
“And where does it say anything about
not screwing up?” Gibbs raised an
eyebrow.
“Oh come on!” Tony protested. “I made a
mistake that almost cost Abby her life.
I deserve to be punished, Gibbs. You
have to punish me.”
“The hell I do!” Gibbs retorted. He sat
down on the coffee table in front of
Tony and leaned forward to gaze at him
intently. “Yes, you made a mistake,
Tony, but so did I, and so did Abby –
and we’re all having to live with that.
I won’t punish you for it.”
“You should. You must.”
“Don’t tell me what I *must* do with my
own damn sub!” Gibbs responded angrily.
“Who is in charge here, Tony?”
Tony stared at him mutely.
“DiNozzo!” Gibbs rapped out. “Who is in
charge here?”
“You are,” Tony replied reluctantly.
“Who decides on your punishment? Who
decides what you get punished for, what
the punishment is, how long it lasts,
and how hard it is?” Gibbs demanded.
“You do.”
“Is any of this your choice?”
“No.”
“Then we’re clear,” Gibbs said firmly,
getting up.
“Are you going to throw me out then?”
Tony asked.
Gibbs looked stumped. “What?”
Tony looked straight at his dom. "It's
*Abby*, Gibbs. I know what she means to
you, and I don't expect you to forgive
me for almost getting her killed."
Gibbs stood in front of him, his hands
clenched into fists. Tony tensed,
expecting the inevitable blow – hell,
he’d expected it long before now.
“Do you remember what I said, during
that first week, about how it’d be if I
took you on?” Gibbs asked, in a
deceptively quiet tone of voice.
“You said a lot of things back then,
Boss."
“Yeah, but the one thing I told you to
be really clear about was that once I'd
fucked you I wouldn't give you up easily
after that. 'Cause you’d be mine, and
I'd fight for you if I had to."
“So?”
“So – tell me – have I ever been the
kind of man who gives up this easy?”
Gibbs asked in a deceptively soft tone
of voice.
“No, Boss. I guess not. I suppose I just
thought…”
“No, Tony, you didn’t ‘just think’ – you
aren’t thinking at all!" Gibbs roared.
"You’re being an idiot. You’re mine, and
there’s no way that I’m throwing you
out. I’m not done with you yet, boy.”
Tony stared at him, stunned by his
vehemence. “But if you’re not going to
punish me, and if you’re not going to
throw me out, then what *are* you going
to do?”
“So we’re back to your two dead-end
options again, are we?” Gibbs growled.
"Okay. I will do something. Not either
of those two things though; something
you'll find much harder to accept. You
won't like it, but I'll make you take
it, and you will take it, because you're
my sub. Wanna argue with me about that?"
Tony shook his head. "No, Boss. Whatever
it is, I’ll take it. I promise."
This was much more familiar ground.
Whatever Gibbs did, Tony could handle
it. However much it hurt and however
painful it was. Just as long as Gibbs
didn't throw him out.
"Good. Then start work on this while I
get you something to eat.” Gibbs threw a
file into his lap and then strode into
the kitchen.
Tony watched him go, wearily. He wished
he could get his hands on some alcohol
right now, but that wasn’t a possibility
in his current state of bondage and with
Gibbs watching him like a hawk.
What the hell did Gibbs have in mind
that was going to be so hard? It was a
relief to know that he had no choice.
Gibbs would make him take whatever he
wanted to hand out – so Tony would. No
way out. No safe word. No escape. He
doubted Gibbs would let him use his safe
word for this in any case.
Whatever it was, Tony could take it.
He'd make himself take it.
~*~
Gibbs went into the kitchen and paced
angrily. What the hell was going on in
Tony’s mind? Whatever it was, Gibbs
didn’t like the glimpse he was getting
into it. Sure, he’d always known that
Tony had some kind of weird fragility
that he was trying to hide – Gibbs had
known that for years, long before he had
taken Tony as his sub, and definitely
before Ziva had handed him that dossier.
He’d been aware of it since about the
first day he met Tony, but he’d never
tried to look into it because it hadn’t
been any of his damn business before. As
long as it didn’t interfere with Tony’s
work, then it was fine. He had enough
sore spots in his own personal life to
be able to respect other people’s. He’d
have kicked Tony’s ass if he’d ever once
asked him about Shannon and Kelly, and
it worked both ways.
That was before he took Tony as his sub.
Gibbs didn’t think he had the option of
letting it slide any more. For a start,
Tony had nowhere to hide now. He
couldn’t just slink off home, do
whatever it was he did to cope, and then
re-appear a couple of days later with a
bright, idiotic smile pasted to his face
and his happy, shiny Tony persona back
in place. Now that they were living
together, Gibbs was getting to see a
side of his sub that had always been
kept well hidden – and it was proving to
be pretty damn revealing.
Tony clearly needed something from him
right now, and he'd do his best to
figure out what.
He had decided not to allow Tony to
visit Abby today for two reasons;
firstly, because he wanted Tony to get
some rest; and secondly, because he
suspected that seeing Abby with that big
bandage around her head would only put
Tony in a worse state of mind.
Tony might *want* punishment, but Gibbs
had a feeling that he *needed* something
else – and that was a healthy dose of
affection. Unfortunately, Gibbs
suspected that affection was going to be
the hardest thing in the world for Tony
to accept right now.
He took Tony some breakfast and coffee
and then sat down on the couch beside
him and picked up his paperwork. He had
Tony do all the really dull stuff –
filling out the forms, cross-referencing
previous reports, checking back on the
precise quotes from what had been said
in interrogation. It was always long,
boring work processing a perp, but Gibbs
thought it was a good way of distracting
Tony.
After a few hours of hard work, Gibbs
glanced at his sub to see that he looked
exhausted. Gibbs knew from experience
that you could keep going for hours
after a bad trauma, but the minute you
allowed yourself to come down from it,
and really relax, then you crashed. Tony
hadn’t looked too bad when he’d first
woken up, but now he looked like shit
again.
Gibbs threw the files onto the coffee
table and unlocked Tony from the wall.
“Time for you to sleep,” he said,
putting out a hand to touch Tony’s head.
Tony flinched, and Gibbs sighed. This
flinching was becoming a theme, and it
was starting to piss him off. He
wondered if Tony was really expecting
him to slam his fist into his face – and
if he was, why? He’d never done anything
like that, and he never would. Tony had
to know that.
“Don’t,” he said, in a warning tone.
“You’re my sub – I can touch you if I
want.”
Tony looked surprised, but he nodded all
the same. “Sorry, Boss.”
Gibbs sat back down on the couch beside
Tony, put his hand on Tony’s head, and
pulled him down into his lap. They’d
rested like this dozens of times before,
but this time Tony was stiff as Gibbs
stroked his hair.
“Relax,” he ordered.
“Relaxing, Boss,” Tony said quickly, but
it took a long time for the tension to
dissipate from his shoulders. When it
finally did, he still remained with his
eyes resolutely open.
“What happens when you close your eyes
Tony?” Gibbs asked quietly.
“Everything goes dark, Boss,” Tony
joked.
Gibbs tapped his head firmly. “Don’t
bullshit me, boy. Why is it a problem
for you to close your eyes? What do you
see?”
“See Abby, Boss,” Tony admitted, still
staring straight ahead.
“See her like she was in the car?” Gibbs
had known enough men with PTSD to be
familiar with those kinds of flashbacks.
“Yeah.” Tony shuddered. “She’s lying on
her side, eyes closed, blood…” He
trailed off. “There was a lot of blood,
Boss.”
“I know.”
“She was so pale. Thought she was dead
for awhile until I felt the pulse. Then
I thought she’d die before the
paramedics arrived. Wondered how I’d
ever be able to face you again if that
happened. Know she’s like a daughter to
you, Boss, and you already lost Kelly.
Didn’t think you could stand to lose
Abby too. And for it all to be my
fault…”
Gibbs sighed and gently stroked Tony’s
thick hair. “Firstly, you screwed up,
yeah, but it’s not like it was *all*
your fault. Secondly, Abby’s not dead.
Don’t torture yourself with ‘what ifs’,
Tony. It goes nowhere. I should know.”
Tony glanced up at him, a question in
his eyes. Gibbs fought with himself for
awhile, struggling with his own
reluctance to open up, but he couldn’t
expect Tony to share if he didn’t give
him anything back in return, so he
forced himself on.
“Spent about three years after Shannon
and Kelly died torturing myself with how
I could have stopped it. Kelly begged me
not to leave that last day. I just
laughed - told her it’d be okay, I’d
write to her, and I’d be home soon.”
Tony was gazing at him with a look of
rapt attention, and Gibbs knew that
however hard it was he had to just
plough on and get the job done.
“Never did see her alive again – but I
kept thinking – suppose she was trying
to tell me something that day? I should
have damn well listened. If I had, she’d
still be alive.”
“And her daddy would have been tried for
going AWOL,” Tony pointed out. “That's
not who you are, Boss. You’d never have
deserted.”
“I know. Doesn’t mean I didn’t think
about it every day and curse myself for
being a stupid, stubborn, pig-headed
bastard who didn’t listen to his little
girl when she was telling him the most
important thing he ever had to hear.”
Don’t go, Daddy. Don’t go. He rubbed
a hand across his eyes. “She died. And I
regretted it every day for three years
until I realised there was no rewind
button. I didn’t get to live in a world
in which she lived. Wish it had been me
who died, not her. Would have gladly
taken her place. She had her whole life
ahead of her.”
“How did you learn to live with it,
Boss?” Tony asked quietly, and there was
an intent look in his eyes. “You said it
took three years – does that mean you've
found a way, or are there still bad
days?”
Gibbs didn’t think they’d ever had a
conversation this personal. It was
easier to do all kinds of intimate
things to each other’s bodies than open
up and talk like this. He didn’t find it
easy, but he had to admit it did seem to
be helping.
“Yeah, Tony. There are still bad days.”
He looked down on his sub. “For you
too?” Tony went very still. Then he
nodded. “You gonna talk to me about it?”
Gibbs asked softly.
Tony blinked a couple of times and then
shook his head. Gibbs thought that maybe
that was enough progress for one day.
“Abby’s fine, Tony, and you have to get
some rest. Close your eyes.”
Gibbs thought about blindfolding his sub
– Tony responded well to sensory
deprivation – but he didn’t want to lock
him in with the unpleasant images and
leave him with no escape. Tony closed
his eyes, but they flickered open again
a few seconds later. Gibbs tapped his
head.
“I told you Abby’s fine, Tony. Don’t
think about her in the car again.”
“Wasn’t.”
“Who?” Gibbs frowned.
“Jenny. What happened with Abby brought
that up again. Know you were close to
her, Boss.”
Gibbs thought there was something in the
way Tony seemed at least as concerned
about Gibbs’s reaction to losing Abby
and Jenny as his own distress. Gibbs
just couldn’t get a handle on what it
was.
“Jenny had cancer, Tony. You know that.
She chose to die in that diner instead
of letting the cancer take her. I kinda
respect that. You should too. Now close
your eyes and get some sleep.” A thought
occurred to him. “You know, when I was
injured in combat the first time, I was
confined to the house for a few weeks
after they let me out of the hospital.
Couldn’t go anywhere, or do anything -
weak as a kitten. Pissed me off. I was a
shitty patient; Shannon got sick of me
pretty quick.”
“Yeah, I can imagine.” Tony grinned.
Gibbs tapped his head.
“I hated having to sleep in the middle
of the day, but I needed the rest.
Shannon said I was irritating the hell
out of her – cutting into her reading
time – she loved reading. Started out as
kind of a joke, a way to kill two birds
with one stone, but she began reading to
me. Something about her voice and the
kind of boring books she liked too, I
guess. Used to help me relax and switch
off enough to get to sleep.”
“You’re gonna read to me, Boss?” Tony
asked incredulously.
“You ever read a book in your life?”
Gibbs grinned down on him.
Tony grinned back. “Sure – read 'The
Godfather' when I was eleven – one of
the kids passed it around at boarding
school. Everyone knew you had to read
page 27 – that’s where all the good
stuff was. Everything I know about sex I
learned from page 27 of 'The
Godfather'.”
Gibbs rolled his eyes. “Figures.”
He eased Tony’s head to one side, got
off the couch, and went over to his
bookshelves. He leafed through the books
until he came to one of Shannon’s old
favourites. He grinned; this one would
do. It had always sent him to sleep
pretty damn fast, back in the old days.
He returned to the couch, pulled Tony
back into position, and opened the book.
“'Great Expectations?'” Tony read the
title off the spine. “Charles Dickens?”
he winced. “Sounds a bit heavy, Boss.”
“It’s either this or one of those period
romances where everyone is polite and
dances a lot, and the feisty heroine
holds out for three hundred pages before
marrying some wealthy guy with a stick
up his ass,” Gibbs growled at him.
“When you put it like that…” Tony put
his head down again.
Gibbs opened the book and cleared his
throat. He wondered just how much of an
idiot he’d feel reading out loud, but
the point was to lull Tony to sleep, so
he figured it was worth making an ass of
himself.
He started reading and the years fell
away. He remembered lying here, on this
couch, his leg in plaster up to the hip,
an irritable growl on his lips that
faded when Shannon pulled up the rocker
beside him and began to read.
She had a beautiful voice, full of
expression, and she’d put on all the
different character voices, bringing the
book vividly to life. Gibbs had no
intention of going that far – but
looking down he saw he didn’t need to,
because Tony’s breathing had slowed and
deepened, and he was fast asleep.
Gibbs carried on reading out loud
anyway. The book was much better than he
remembered, and he started to enjoy it.
Maybe he’d been too young to appreciate
it back then, although he’d loved having
Shannon read it to him. Then again, he’d
have loved it if Shannon had read the
phone book to him. The fact she was
taking the time to do it, and the love
and warmth in her voice as she read –
those were the things that mattered.
He carried on reading out loud, stroking
Tony’s hair repeatedly the whole time.
It felt as if something had started to
mend – something that had been a long
time broken.
~*~
Tony was stiff when he
woke. It was dark outside, but a lamp
was glowing on the side table, and at
some point Gibbs must have slid out from
under him, as Tony could hear him moving
around in the kitchen. Tony couldn’t
believe how long he’d slept and how
tired he’d been.
“You awake? Good.”
Gibbs returned to the living room with a
tray full of food. Tony eyed it
suspiciously. Usually they ordered take
out, but Gibbs seemed to have actually
cooked a meal – involving what appeared
to be copious amounts of vegetables.
“Eat. It won’t kill you,” Gibbs
chuckled, seeing the look on his face.
Tony sat up and ate slowly, wondering
when Gibbs was going to do that thing
he’d told him about. The thing he’d find
hard to take. So far, Gibbs had just
been kinda nice to him – which wasn’t
*Gibbs*, and wasn’t what Tony deserved
right now, so he was confused. He
suspected that whatever “it” was, would
take place after they’d eaten.
He therefore wasn’t surprised when Gibbs
returned to the living room after he’d
cleared their plates away and gestured
with his head in the direction of the
back yard.
“With me.”
So this was it. Finally. Tony had no
idea what it could be. He gave Gibbs a
grim nod and got up and followed his dom
to the back door. Maybe Gibbs intended
for him to sleep out here tonight. It
was cold – but then again Gibbs had told
him he wouldn’t like it, and he
definitely didn’t like the idea of
spending a night outdoors, naked, at
this time of year.
"Here." Gibbs removed Tony's wrist and
ankle cuffs and chains, much to Tony's
surprise, leaving him in just his
collar, with the leash hanging from it.
Then Gibbs surprised Tony even more by
stripping off his own clothes and
leaving them in a pile by the door. Tony
stood there, uncertainly, wondering what
the hell was going on. Gibbs gestured
with his head towards the yard. "Follow
me."
“Is the yard secluded?” Tony hesitated
in the doorway, aware of his own nudity.
Gibbs grinned. “Nobody can see ya. Or
me.”
Gibbs walked out into the yard, and Tony
followed him around the corner of the
house to a…hot tub. There was a head of
steam rising up out of it, and it looked
warm and inviting. Tony looked at it,
and then at Gibbs, as if his dom had
gone insane.
“You have a hot tub? You? That doesn’t
compute, Boss. It’s kind of like McGee
having a hot girlfriend. You and hot
tubs really don’t go together.
Gibbs laughed. “Made it myself. Get in.”
He climbed into the tub and gazed at
Tony expectantly.
“Wasn’t a request, Tony. I want to play
with my sub.”
Tony was even more confused now. He
climbed into the tub and gave a
satisfied groan as the warm water
soothed his aching muscles. Gibbs
fastened Tony’s leash to the handle of
the tub, meaning that Tony was
effectively tied in place. Then he
straddled Tony and began gently playing
with his body.
He swept his fingers over Tony’s chest,
teasing his nipples lightly. Then he
leaned down and kissed Tony’s collar
bone.
“What are you doing?” Tony asked,
gasping as Gibbs went lower and sucked a
nipple gently into his mouth.
“Playing with you. Like I said.”
Tony stiffened. Gibbs drew back, one
eyebrow raised.
“Your body belongs to me, Tony. I can
play with it if I want,” he said in a
silky voice.
“But…”
“Yeah?”
“It’s nice,” Tony blurted.
“Good. I want it to be nice.”
Gibbs returned to his gentle sucking.
Tony felt a wave of rebellion. He put
his hands up and pushed against Gibbs’s
shoulders, forcing him back. Gibbs's
raised eyebrow looked more dangerous
this time.
“Why are you doing this to me?” Tony
asked pathetically.
“Doing what, Tony?”
“Being nice. Talking to me, holding me,
stroking me – hell, *reading* to me so I
could get to sleep and now…now this?
Why?”
Gibbs took hold of his chin and looked
at him. “I told you this wouldn’t be
easy, Tony, and you promised me your
obedience.”
“This? This is it? This is the thing?”
Tony asked in disbelief.
“Yeah – it’s been the thing all day,
Tony.”
“But…”
“You wanted it to hurt? Not gonna
happen.” Gibbs shook his head. “This is
what I’m gonna make you take. Think you
can handle it?”
Tony stared at him in mute horror. Why
was Gibbs being this way now, when Tony
deserved to be yelled at and kicked
around for screwing up? It didn’t make
any sense.
“Don’t do this, Boss,” he begged.
“My call,” Gibbs shrugged. “You could
have died in that car wreck yesterday,
Tony. And this is what I wanna do to you
because I'm pretty damn happy that
you're alive.”
He tilted Tony’s chin and claimed a
sweet kiss from Tony’s stunned mouth.
Tony couldn’t fight him. He never could
fight Gibbs. And he *had* promised that
he’d take whatever his dom wanted to
hand out – he’d just never imagined it
would be *this*.
Gibbs kissed him for a long time, until
Tony couldn’t think straight any more.
He couldn’t go anywhere, because he was
tied to the damn hot tub; all he could
do was sit here, in the warm water, and
accept his dom’s gentle, loving
caresses.
Gibbs tangled his fingers in Tony’s
chest hair and then slid them lower,
taking hold of Tony’s cock. “Get hard
for me, Tony.”
He fisted Tony’s cock as he said that,
and Tony moaned, unable to resist how
good that felt. Gibbs knew how to move
his hand expertly along Tony’s shaft,
and all that warm water swirling around
made it feel even better.
He was soon fully erect, and Gibbs
continued to stroke him with long,
languid movements of his hand. There was
something powerfully dominant about
Gibbs as he worked. He hovered over
Tony, kissing his mouth repeatedly as he
gently but firmly stroked his cock. Tony
began to shiver – and it wasn’t from
cold. Nobody had ever treated him this
way before. When he screwed up, he got
slapped down, and that was the way it
should be. Why was Gibbs – Gibbs of all
people – being nice to him? It wasn’t as
if the guy had a reputation for being
nice; everyone knew what a bastard he
was.
Gibbs released his cock, but only so
that he could run his fingers over
Tony’s body instead. He seemed to find
every sore spot Tony possessed, digging
in just enough to make Tony wince.
“Muscles got pulled in the car crash.
Need to work on them,” Gibbs informed
him. “Get out.”
He untied Tony and pulled him back into
the house by his leash. Tony saw a pile
of towels by the door that he hadn’t
noticed earlier. Gibbs wrapped him up in
one, snagged one for himself, and then
led Tony up the stairs and into the
bedroom.
He dried Tony and then gestured to the
bed. “Get on it. On your front.”
Tony did as he was told, in a kind of
daze. Gibbs found a bottle of some kind
of oil in the nightstand drawer. He
opened it and sniffed it cautiously.
“One of the ex-wives left it hanging
around, but it smells okay. Might as
well make use of it.” He grinned.
He straddled Tony on the bed and poured
some oil into his hands, warming them.
Then he placed them gently on Tony’s
back. He worked slowly, avoiding the
worst of Tony's burns, and Tony felt his
sore muscles gradually begin to loosen.
He buried his face in his pillow. He
wasn’t sure how much of all this gentle
loving care he could take, and he began
to tremble in earnest.
“Tony – what’s going on?” Gibbs asked as
he worked him with those gently soothing
fingers.
“Dunno,” Tony muttered. He raised his
head. “Please, Boss. I can’t take much
more of this.”
“It hurting?”
“No. It's not that.”
"Does it feel good?"
Tony closed his eyes. "Yes." It did. It
was tender and kind, gentle and
relaxing. It soothed and calmed him,
making him feel loved, and he wished he
didn't like it so much.
“Want to say your safe word, Tony?”
Gibbs asked.
Did he? It was the closest he’d ever
come to it. “No,” he whispered into the
pillow.
He willed himself to just enjoy the
attention that he knew he didn’t
deserve. He felt Gibbs’s hands on his
buttocks, parting them, and then he felt
those skilful fingers slip inside him.
His treacherous cock hardened again as
Gibbs oiled and stretched his hole.
Gibbs turned him onto his back and
straddled him again. He took another
handful of the oil and lubed his own
hard cock, keeping eye contact with Tony
the entire time.
“Please, Boss, please don’t be nice to
me like this,” Tony begged.
“You’re my sub, and I want to make love
to you,” Gibbs replied. "You know the
word to use if you want me to stop."
He parted Tony’s legs and settled down
between them, then gently opened his
buttocks and snubbed his cock into
Tony’s entrance. The oil made it slip in
easily, and Tony gave a gasp of pleasure
as Gibbs inserted himself fully with a
little push. Gibbs rested his arms on
the bed on either side of Tony's
shoulders and lowered his head to kiss
him gently, his cock fully inserted in
Tony’s body. It felt so good. Too good.
Gibbs drew back, moving his hips slowly,
and then he slid just as slowly back in
again. It was lazy and gentle, tender
and sweet. Gibbs kissed Tony on every
inward stroke and kept eye contact every
time he slid back out.
“Why?” Tony gasped, gazing up at him.
“Why are you doing this to me, Boss?”
“Because you’re mine, and I want you to
relax and feel happy.”
Tony looked at him blankly as Gibbs
continued his tender love-making.
“Boss…please,” he whimpered, as Gibbs
took his cock in his oiled hand and
began stroking him towards climax.
“Come for me, Tony,” Gibbs urged. “Come
for me, boy.”
Tony spurted out over Gibbs’s hand with
a helpless shout of pleasure. Gibbs
grinned down on him and claimed another
kiss, then moved faster in Tony’s body
until he too came, with a little gasp of
satisfaction. He pulled out, settled
down beside his sub, and drew the sheets
over them both.
Tony rolled onto his side so that he was
facing his dom.
“I don’t understand,” he said.
“Yeah. I know. That’s the problem,
Tony.”
“I know you. I know what a hard-assed
bastard you are. Why did you do this to
me today? Why? Why were you so nice to
me? Why didn’t you give me what I
deserve?”
Gibbs gently stroked the wet ends of
Tony’s hair away from his face.
"Who says I didn't, Tony?"
~*~
Gibbs woke the next morning with his
usual morning hard-on. His sub was still
asleep, but Gibbs didn't intend to let
him sleep in again this morning. He had
a plan for today, and it depended on him
taking Tony deep into his sub space to
make it work.
He ran his hands over Tony's naked butt
and moved Tony's leg forward to gain
better access to his sub's hole. Then he
rubbed lubricant on his hard cock and
pushed himself into Tony's body.
Gibbs loved this part of their morning
ritual, rousing a sleeping Tony to
wakefulness. Tony sighed and muttered
something – after several weeks as
Gibbs's sub he was getting used to being
woken like this, and Gibbs knew how much
he loved it. Being woken in this way
seemed to cure him of his morning
surliness.
Gibbs started out slow, giving Tony time
to wake up – he wasn't always so
merciful. Sometimes he rolled over and
entered his sub hard and fast, taking
Tony from fast asleep to wide awake in
three seconds flat. He always liked the
hoarse shout of befuddled surprise Tony
gave when that happened.
Today he took his time. He ran his hand
over Tony's chest and fondled his right