Pic courtesy of CDavis99@prodigy.net
Posted 21st May, 2000.
Quotation courtesy of my sweet Alex.
None of this is beta'd. It's far too much fun to take seriously.
Many thanks to Emma, who told me a
very intriguing tale that sparked this story off, and for the long discussions over high
calorie snacks.
Thanks to CDavis for the tapes and
the pics :-) Special thanks to Gaby for having the biggest brain in the entire
universe...and for the title. Big thanks to Phoebe for her help and to Twisted Sister for
her suggestion.
24/7 is an
erotic fantasy and NOT a BDSM resource guide. The truth is sometimes exagerrated, or
played with, for dramatic effect. For more information, please visit the 24/7 BDSM Glossary.
24/7
By Xanthe
"A truth, still apparent,
though disregarded, that
things move violently to their place, but calmly in
their place. To put it another way, everything has
its right home, the region that suits it, and, unless
forcibly restrained, will move thither by a kind of
homing instinct."
J. Winterson
"Art and Lies"
Chapter 17: Slaveless In Seattle
FROM: Ian@Anomaly.net
TO: Fox@slavecity.com
FW: Things you don't want to hear your top say
when you are naked and tied up
Hey buddy - are you bored investigating blood-sucking
mutant pigs? Here's something to distract ya! Maybe you should forward it to Walter (I bet
he doesn't have such an interesting email addy, although Walter@whips.com
has a nice ring to it ;-)) On second thoughts, maybe you *shouldn't* forward this to the
big guy. Or if you do, don't tell him I sent it! Does he know that you download crap like
this while you should be working on Important Government Business? I think it's
disgusting. We at Anomaly Magazine are shocked to think what government employees
get up to on our dollars - hmm, maybe I should write an article on that...
Ian, who is in a Good Mood owing to a night spent in the
arms of a tall, blond, handsome Master :-)
Mulder smiled to himself, and scrolled down the
screen to see what his friend had sent him.
Things you don't want to hear your top say when
you are naked and tied up
1. "Um, I *think* I have another key around here
somewhere..."
2. "Oops."
3. "Don't worry. I'm sure there's a locksmith
somewhere that's open at 2AM..."
4. "And this is my German Shepherd, Ralph. I know
you'll just love Ralph."
Mulder gave a strangled sob of mirth, and shot
Scully a glance. She looked up at him and raised an eyebrow.
"Reading something interesting,
Mulder?"
"Just going through the FBI manual. You
wouldn't believe how many procedures in here we don't follow, Scully," he grinned at
her.
"Oh, I think I would," she replied
pointedly.
Mulder gave a little chuckle and turned his
attention back to Ian's email.
5. "Heh heh heh. You didn't tell anybody else you
were coming here, did you?"
6. "Now, where DID I put that extra attachment for
the chainsaw?"
7. "Uh oh. If this is the tube of Superglue, where's
the KY?"
8. "Did I ever mention that little fantasy I have
about tennis balls?"
9. "No, really. Trust me. I saw this work in a movie
once."
10. "You like my straitjacket? Cool; I'm glad they
let me keep it."
11. "Oh mighty Azathoth, accept this sacrifice I
offer to You...."
Mulder snorted into his coffee at that one, and
had to act quickly to wipe the resulting mess off of his keyboard. Scully looked at him
speculatively.
"I didn't realize the FBI manual was such a
good read," she murmured skeptically.
"Oh it's great. You should check it out
sometime," he announced, turning back to the screen.
12. "I'm not crazy. Yes I am. Shut up, all of
you."
13. "I always keep the speculum in the freezer. It's
more fun that way."
14. "Don't worry if your hands go numb. You won't be
needing those."
15. "Bye. I'm taking off for the weekend. Isn't
suspension bondage fun?"
Mulder dissolved into a fit of helpless laughter
at that last one, and was so distracted that he didn't see Scully sneak out from her seat
and slip around behind him.
"Mulder, what the hell is so funny?"
Scully asked suspiciously, glancing over his shoulder. Mulder did a superbly executed and
well-practiced mouse click to reveal a page of guidelines on the subject of search and
arrest warrants.
"Too late, Fox@slavecity.com," she
said, her eyes glowing with mischief. "Hmm, are you sure you're not taking this whole
slaveboy thing a bit too far, Mulder?" She asked, raising an eyebrow. "And who
is this Ian person? Is he your, uh, Master?" she stressed the last word in a tone of
amusement.
"No, he's a friend," Mulder replied,
sobering up, and wondering if she'd managed to read down far enough to see the references
to "Walter". If she had, she didn't mention it.
"You haven't brought up that whole Master
thing in ages," Scully mused. "I suppose you spent the entire time I was away
setting up this email account and forwarding yourself these messages just because you
can't accept that I've won this particular round of 'gotcha'. I'm not biting,
slaveboy." She cuffed him across the back of his head with a grin. "I totally
believe you." She gave a little giggle and went to sit back down at her desk.
"Uh good." Mulder winced, hating the
fact that she thought he was lying to her, but not wanting to address the issue of who
exactly his Master was, and the nature of his current lifestyle. "You know, it's good
to have you back, Scully. I missed you." He gazed at his diminutive partner
affectionately. "Don't abandon me to go off on vacation again," he said
mournfully. "It was so boring here without you."
"Boring? When you had all those reports to
catch up on?" Scully raised an eyebrow of teasing disbelief. "And Skinner
breathing down your neck every five minutes chasing you for them?"
Mulder made a face. "It was hell," he
said dramatically.
"Aw, poor Mulder - he has a Master at home
and a taskmaster at work," Scully giggled.
"You have no idea!" He grinned back.
"Seriously though - I missed you."
"You missed me editing your reports to make
them into something Skinner would sign off on without a huge inquisition," she
snorted.
"Ah - you know me too well," he
lamented. "Lunch today?"
"Your treat?"
"Of course." Mulder nodded gravely.
"Two weeks without you - we need to catch up!"
"Hmm, and perhaps you can tell me what
you've been doing at the weekend these days," she said, glancing at him over the top
of her reading glasses. "I rang you three times on your cell phone on Saturday to ask
if you wanted to go and see a movie with me, and you didn't have it switched on the whole
time. I mean, this is Mulder! The man who'll have to have his phone surgically removed
from his hand when they bury him."
"Hey - I want it in the coffin with
me," Mulder protested. "I mean, you never know who you might want to call from
beyond the grave. Heh, heh, heh
" He waggled his eyebrows at her and gave a
demonic laugh. She rolled her eyes, giggling to herself as she turned back to her
work, but they both knew that he hadn't answered her question about his weekend's
activities.
How the hell do you tell someone you spent
the entire weekend at a BDSM party, alternately being dressed as a pony, sold at a slave
auction, and nailed to the mattress by your sexy as all hell Master? he thought to
himself wryly as he turned his attention back to his computer screen and began typing a
reply to Ian.
TO: Ian@Anomaly.net
FROM: Fox@slavecity.com
RE: Fw: Things you don't want to hear your top
say when you are naked and tied up
"Very funny. Number 11 was scarily familiar - hey,
you try working on the X Files for 7 years. You run into these Azathoth type guys the whole
time.
And no, I won't be forwarding them onto He Who Must Be
Obeyed. Like I'd want to give him any ideas. And this is my secret account so he doesn't
know about it - and no, he doesn't know I do this on Bureau time either, but hell, I've
given the Bureau my life and soul for years so I figure I'm owed.
So - you and Perry hooked up together, huh? I trust you
ache this morning???? Can't have been a very good night if you don't...
Mulder.
He pressed the send key and glanced up to see
that Scully was looking at him.
"What?" He asked.
"I was wondering
" she hesitated.
"Hmm?" He shut down his email account,
and opened up a file containing his unfinished report.
"Mulder, I know you found out where that
phone number was registered to - I just wondered if you followed it up at all."
"What phone number?" He frowned.
"Hello? Mulder? It's me - Scully. Your
partner for the past 7 years. I do know a few things about the way your mind works."
"Okay." Mulder looked up with a sigh.
"I almost went there, Scully - while you were away. I almost just upped and went to
Seattle to see what was there."
"And what stopped you?" She asked.
Mulder thought about it for a moment, then
shrugged. "My Master," he said honestly.
Scully sighed. "If you don't want to tell me
then just say so," she said, looking hurt, "but don't throw all this Master
bullshit at me."
"Scully, I'm not. Look - someone who is very
close to me, who knows me at least as well as you do, told me not to go."
"So you didn't?" Scully raised an
incredulous eyebrow. "Just like that? Who is this person and what hell have they done
with my Fox Mulder?"
"Taught him not to throw himself into every
passing trap maybe?" Mulder suggested.
"Or given him something else to think
about?" Scully asked softly. "Something sufficiently interesting to distract him
from the one thing he's been obsessed with all his life?"
"Yes," Mulder replied, his hazel eyes
meeting her blue ones without flinching. "Someone who did exactly that. Scully I know
you think I'm holding out on you. I just
it's very complicated," he finished
lamely.
"It must be," she commented with a
shrug. "Mulder, does this mean that you've given up on Samantha?"
He flinched at her words. Had he? After all these
years searching for her, had Skinner woven a spell of sex around him that stopped him
caring about his little sister any more? Had he finally abandoned her, and all hope of
ever finding out what had happened to her?
"It's just that I've never seen you like
this before," Scully continued. "I'm not sure it would be a bad thing, Mulder.
I've watched you put your life on hold for Samantha. Always chasing after ghosts and
illusions, being fed half truths by your enemies
maybe you've moved on. Maybe you
needed to."
"Maybe." Mulder stared blankly at his
computer screen.
Scully's words stayed with him all week. It
didn't help that Skinner was so busy at work that he barely saw his Master. He felt that
he needed to speak to the other man about what was going on in his head - the longer he
spent alone with himself, the more he brooded, and, conversely, the harder it was to
broach the subject. It was like the old days, before his slavery, when he'd dealt with
this issue alone. The difference was that he actively missed Skinner's input, his calm way
of looking at the facts, and the knowledge and experience that had helped make him an AD.
Skinner was rational, and objective - two things Mulder could never rely on being on the
subject of his sister. He sorely needed his Master's advice, but Skinner was busy working
on an important Federal case against a scientist suspected of illegal drug
experimentation. It was a complex case, and Skinner was working day and night, both with
the FDA and his own agents. He frequently brought home case-loads of documentation to look
at and he was too tired and distracted to notice that his slave was subdued.
Mulder struggled with the issue, waking early for
the next few days, and taking his swim at 4 am, often swimming for a couple of hours, just
trying to calm himself, and figure out what to do next, until matters came to a head on
Thursday night. Mulder went to bed at 10, feeling exhausted, but was unable to switch off.
He tossed and turned, and dozed until 2, then finally got up and tip-toed down the stairs.
He had intended to chain himself to Skinner's bed, to find the peace that he always felt
there. He was surprised to see a light on under Skinner's door, and pushed it open,
hesitantly. His Master was sitting up in bed, wearing his glasses, several papers spread
out on the bed around him, Wanda tucked against one of his forearms, enjoying her slave's
unexpected nocturnal wakefulness. Skinner looked as tired as Mulder felt and he glanced
up, and frowned when he saw Mulder, then his face softened into a faint smile, and he
beckoned Mulder into the room with his head.
"Trouble sleeping, little one?" He
asked.
Mulder shook his head, unsure whether now was a
good time to burden his Master with his worries. He hovered beside the bed for a moment,
wondering whether he should just turn around and go, but Skinner patted the empty space
beside him, and invited him in. Mulder didn't need asking twice. No matter how many times
he got to spend the night in his Master's bed, he still craved it and it was usually the
ultimate objective of his slavehood. He slipped into the warm bed feeling better just for
being near his Master.
"I'm worried about you working so
hard," he said, which was the truth, although not the whole truth.
Skinner smiled down at him through his glasses.
"No need. It just has to be done. This guy is hiding something even bigger than the
charges we have him arraigned for, I'm convinced of it," he murmured, gesturing to
the papers.
"Have you interviewed him?" Mulder
glanced at some of the paperwork with an inner groan. This was his least favorite kind of
FBI work. He liked to act on intuition, and had a hands on approach to his work. Sifting
painstakingly through papers trying to find evidence, or at least a pointer as to where
the metaphorical bodies were hidden was Mulder's idea of purgatory. He'd already offered
to help Skinner, and had scanned several of the documents, but he was the first to admit
that it wasn't his particular forte and he hadn't been able to help as much as he would
have liked. It was far removed from his realm of expertise as well, although he'd tried to
apply himself to the complex legal and technical issues involved.
"Yes - and he's hiding something - but I'm
not convinced it's what we're charging him with."
"Do you have enough to get him on that at
least?" Mulder asked. "That could buy you some time to investigate the other
stuff."
"It's not as safe a prosecution as I'd
like," Skinner sighed. "At the moment we don't have enough solid evidence to
make me confident we'll secure a conviction."
"But you do have a lot of circumstantial
evidence," Mulder mused.
"Yeah," Skinner sighed, rubbing a weary
hand over his forehead.
"You can't keep working like this - you've
hardly slept for days," Mulder said. "Isn't there anyone else who can share the
workload?"
"Unfortunately not," Skinner frowned,
picking up his pen and turning his attention back to the documentation. "I'm the only
one with a complete knowledge of this case and a lot will rest on the evidence I give in
court next week."
"You're the government's primary
witness?" Mulder asked in surprise. While it wasn't unusual for Skinner to give
evidence in court, it was something he was rarely called upon to do.
"I'm giving a substantial portion of the
evidence, yes," Skinner murmured absently.
Mulder snuggled under the sheets, glaring at
Wanda who was occupying the position opposite. She glared back, her ears flattening
slightly. Skinner rested his hand absently on his slave's body and stroked him
rhythmically as he worked. Mulder sighed, and laid his head on Skinner's chest, closing
his eyes and dozing. It felt so good to be here. When he was here, he could forget about
the other problems and issues he couldn't solve, issues that went around in his head until
he thought he'd go nuts. Here he felt at peace. He exhaled deeply, as if he had been
holding his breath, feeling his body relax, and a few seconds later he felt Skinner's lips
brush against his forehead. He opened his eyes to find his Master looking down on him.
"Are you sure you didn't come down here to
talk to me about something?" Skinner asked.
Mulder looked at the familiar, beloved features
for a long time. Skinner's face was paler than usual, and there were dark shadows under
his eyes. He looked stressed, and tired. The last thing he needed to deal with right now
were his slave's problems. Mulder smiled.
"No, Walter. I was just worried about you.
That's all," he murmured. Skinner smiled back, and played with his slave's nipple
ring, rolling it between his big, blunt fingertips.
"I'm fine - but there's no need for both of
us to lose sleep over this. You should get some rest too. You know how cranky you get when
you're tired," Skinner grinned.
"I do not!" Mulder retorted. Skinner
twisted the nipple ring just enough to sting. "Master," Mulder added sheepishly.
"Sleep, boy," Skinner growled, and
Mulder smiled to himself, and closed his eyes, feeling serene for the first time in days,
all the tension leaving his body. He was asleep within minutes.
Skinner was gone when he awoke the next morning,
although he'd left a note.
"Fox - I'm going to need to go out of town
today. I'll be back sometime on Saturday - which I believe is Slave's Day, boy, so we can
catch up then. Remember to feed Wanda and don't get into any trouble while I'm gone.
WSS."
Mulder sighed. Trouble. He was already in trouble
and he knew it. He couldn't figure out the questions in his own mind and he was sure he'd
go crazy and do something really stupid if he didn't speak to Skinner about it soon.
In the absence of his Master, Mulder spent the
next two days quietly going off the rails. He didn't bother with his morning swim, and
snapped at Scully constantly in the office until she crept back up to the bullpen to seek
more congenial company. When he got home on Friday evening, he went straight up to the
18th floor apartment, and raided the bar that Skinner kept well stocked in the plush
upstairs lounge. He retired to the beautiful cream colored couch for a thorough drinking
session, lying on his back with one hand listlessly clasped around the television remote
control, switching channels aimlessly as he stared absently at the screen, barely
concentrating on the garbage he was watching. Wanda somehow managed to negotiate the doors
between the two apartments, and she came up to sniff his hand aimlessly. He was heartened
for a moment, relishing the company, until he realized that she was just nosing around for
food as he'd forgotten to give her any, although she had plenty of dried food to stave off
what was hardly encroaching starvation.
"Go and catch a mouse or something," he
hissed at her. "Earn your keep the time-honored way, cat."
She looked at him uncertainly, then turned on her
heel and wandered off down the corridor which for some reason just made him feel even more
abandoned. He realized that this was the first time that Skinner had left him alone in the
apartments since he had arrived here, and at some point in the middle of Friday night, he
woke up, with a pounding headache, and a desire to make the most of his freedom. It was
too late to call Ian over to party, and his friend was probably wrapped up in the arms of
his non-absentee Master anyway, so he staggered down to Skinner's study,
to nose around and see what he could find.
Skinner's study was normally off limits, but
Mulder didn't care. He hated it when he wasn't allowed to investigate mysteries, and his
Master's study was one mystery he hadn't yet had a chance to fully explore. He let himself
in, and turned the light on, then glanced through Skinner's books. He'd looked at them
once before and they were a more eclectic selection than Mulder had expected, but the more
he got to know his Master, the less surprised he was by anything about him. Tiring of the
bookcase, he wandered over to the desk, where he had sat so many times at his Master's
knee. Mulder dropped to the floor in his normal position, and placed his chin on his
Master's empty chair.
"I really wish you were here right
now," he muttered. "You told me not to get into trouble, but there's all this
stuff in my head I need to talk about. Let's face it," he sighed, "I'm going to
get into trouble. Hell, I'm already in trouble. If you could see me now, to say nothing of
the mess upstairs, and the dent in your vodka supply
you'd have me over your knee in
seconds." He stared into space gloomily. "Which might be nice," he added.
Then, feeling strangely light-headed, and with
the air of someone breaking a dark taboo, he got up and sat in his Master's chair. It gave
him the same thrill as sitting in Skinner's office chair. It was a big, old, threadbare
brown chair, and Mulder frowned as he sat down.
"You really need a new chair y'know,
Walt!" He proclaimed loudly and drunkenly. "This one's no good." He rocked
back and forward in it for a while, idly opening the desk drawers and examining the none
too interesting contents. Maybe he'd uncovered all his Master's mysteries, he thought
mournfully to himself. Maybe there wasn't anything left.
"Maybe you're not interested in mysteries
any more, Mulder," he growled at himself. "Not Skinner's mysteries, or
Samantha's, not even the stupid, fucking pointless mystery that is Fox Mulder." He
found a key in one of the drawers that he recognized as belonging to the Playroom, and
fingered it thoughtfully. The Playroom still had mystery. It had cupboards full of the
most beautiful, exquisite toys - toys which his Master only allowed him to touch or look
at while in his presence. Mulder's fingers fastened around the key and he clenched it
tight in his fist.
"Some mysteries still hold their appeal
then," he murmured to himself, sliding out from behind Skinner's desk and lurching
out of the room and back up the stairs towards the Playroom.
Mulder held his breath as he fumbled around
trying to fit the key in the lock. It turned easily, and the door swung open. Mulder
hesitated on the threshold, holding his breath. This was like going into Bluebeard's
castle or something. The room was in darkness, but he could just make out the sinister
shape of the massage table, and the harness, hanging lifeless from the ceiling. Usually
this room was rendered dramatic, or sensual, or even terrifying by his Master's design,
and he had never spent any time here without Skinner also being in attendance,
stage-managing the many erotic delights this room both promised and delivered. Mulder
tip-toed, almost reverentially, inside and turned one of the lights on. He jumped as the
room came into sharp focus: wooden flooring, tall windows, plain walls. He wandered slowly
around the Playroom, fingering the velvet upholstery of the throne, noticing a tiny tear,
listening to the sound of his own footsteps echoing in the empty chamber. There was no
sense of eroticism here, none of the usual sensations he felt as he knelt before the
throne at his Master's feet, or allowed his Master to strap him down onto the black
leather massage table, or push him over the spanking horse. In the harsh, artificial
light, the Playroom was stripped of any mystery - it was just a room. There was nothing
here but emptiness.
Mulder grew bolder, and flung open the cupboards.
He tore through them like a hurricane, dragging the contents out into the light, exposing
them for what they were: tawdry sex toys.
"This is what you gave up Samantha
for?" he asked himself incredulously, sitting in a sea of silk clothing, polished
boots, harnesses, butt plugs, canes and straps. "Christ, Mulder, what a fucking
useless bastard you are," he muttered, his fingers closing around a set of nipple
clamps. Pain
the memory of the eroticism of his own suffering distracted him, and he
gazed at the clamps thoughtfully. Then, slowly, purposefully, he removed his shirt, and
examined his pierced nipples. He fingered them, rolling the gold ring inside his own
flesh, and then, without hesitating, he fastened one of the clamps onto the nub and bit
down hard on his lips as the pain cut in, banishing everything else but the immediacy of
his own discomfort. These were particularly vicious clamps - Skinner had never used them
on him, and they pinched so tight that he was sure they must be drawing blood although he
couldn't see any. The pain faded to a deep, dull ache, and he turned his attention to the
other nipple, moving fast, in case he was too much of a coward to go through with it. The
pain seemed even more intense the second time around and he bit down even harder on his
lip to stop himself screaming. He sat for a moment, shocked into numbness by the agony of
the action, then lay back on one of Skinner's silk shirts and gazed at the mirrored
ceiling. He missed his Master's loving embrace - he missed Skinner whispering to him,
touching him, stroking him, taking him to a place where this kind of torture was an
exquisite pleasure, not an agonizing torment. He imagined floating in his Master's arms;
kissed, loved, wanted, and finally, exhausted, he fell asleep just as the rays of the sun
crept through the huge Playroom windows.
Mulder awoke several hours later feeling stiff
and uncomfortable. It was already the middle of the afternoon, and his chest was radiating
a numb ache. He looked down to see the clamps still in position.
"You stupid, self-pitying bastard," he
growled, the memory of the previous night's drunken excesses coming back to him. He
steeled himself to remove the clamps, knowing from experience that they hurt more when
they were removed than when they were first put in place. He closed his eyes, counted to
ten, and then whipped both of them off at the same time. There was a few seconds when he
thought he might have got away with it, and then the pain kicked in with a vengeance and
he howled out loud. He sat there, winded, waiting for the torment to subside, and after
several long minutes it did. Then he turned his attention to the Playroom, his expression
one of horror. Skinner had said only that he'd be back today - he hadn't said when, and
Mulder suddenly knew, without a shadow of a doubt, that if his Master saw the mess in the
Playroom, then his slave's life wouldn't be worth living. He got up, and frenziedly
started stuffing the equipment back into the cupboards, then slowed down, and thought
about it. Skinner would know if everything was put back in the wrong place, so he'd just
have to take it slowly, and hope he got it right.
An hour later, Mulder cast a satisfied look
around the Playroom, and then quietly shut the door, and locked it behind him. Skinner
need never know. He went back to his bedroom and took a shower, holding a cold washcloth
over his nipples until they stopped looking so red and angry, although they ached like
hell. He got dressed and went back downstairs to replace the key in Skinner's desk drawer.
He felt like an idiot now, and was kicking himself for losing control. Last night he had
behaved like the old Mulder, back in his apartment at Alexandria, lying half comatose on
the couch, struggling with issues until he couldn't bear the pressure inside his own head
and did something stupid. He vividly remembered one night sat holding his gun,
seriously considering whether to use it or not. He thought he'd put that behind him -
grown beyond it, but as soon as Skinner was out of town he had slipped back all too easily
into old patterns of behavior. He was angry and frustrated with himself. For the first
time since he had sold himself into slavery, he had woken up with that old self-loathing
and fear of his own failures and shortcomings that often led him to despair. Today, maybe
he would die. Or maybe he'd run off to Seattle. Or just stay here and go quietly insane.
Either way, he wasn't sure that he cared.
Mulder wandered back into the downstairs lounge
just in time to hear his Master's key in the lock. He was surprised to feel something
apart from numbness. He felt
hopeful - and in the circumstances that was the better
than nothing. Skinner was shaking his umbrella, mumbling something about the weather, and
Mulder saw a way out from his own emotions in the serenity of his servitude. He quickly
took Skinner's coat and hung it up, then sat his Master down, removed his shoes, poured
him a drink, and disposed of his own clothing. He knelt obediently, and contentedly at his
Master's feet, in the submissive position - eyes down, shoulders back, cock displayed
proudly within its gold ring.
"You're a sight for sore eyes,
sweetheart," Skinner murmured, absently stroking his slave's hair. "I'm sorry I
had to leave so suddenly. Has everything been okay here?" Mulder smiled and nodded,
hoping his eyes didn't betray him. "Have you been okay?" Skinner pressed, his
dark eyes questioning. "I haven't spent enough time with you recently."
"I've been fine," Mulder said smoothly.
"I missed you though," he added with a mischievous grin.
Skinner laughed out loud, and undid his tie.
"I've missed you too, boy," he growled in the low sexy voice that he usually
saved for hot sex sessions. Mulder's cock responded to the tone the way it always did,
leaping up hopefully, eager for attention. "I see that you haven't forgotten it's
slave's day," Skinner said, glancing at his slave's wildly rampant erection.
"No, Master. How could I?" Mulder
grinned.
"I think that you and I need to become
re-acquainted, boy," Skinner said, standing up, and stretching. "I've missed
you," he muttered, grabbing hold of his slave, and pulling Mulder's acquiescent body
close to his own. Mulder threaded his hands together behind his Master's back, enjoying
the feel of such solid, reassuring flesh next to his own naked body. Skinner would take
him away from his stupid doubts. He'd take him to that place where he could fly, and
everything would be fine. His Master kissed him with some passion, his hands roving over
his slave's body possessively, as if he'd been away for a month, not just a couple of
days.
"I'm going to get changed," Skinner
said when he released his slave. "Go and wait for me upstairs."
Mulder nodded and sped off up the stairs. As he
wandered along the corridor, he remembered the mess he'd left in the upstairs lounge and
his stomach lurched. He broke into a run, and skidded to a halt outside the lounge, took
one look at it and then slammed his fist into the wall. It was even more of a mess than
the Playroom. He had to tidy it before Skinner came up here. He ran around the place
frantically, trying to stuff the remains of last night's pizza and vodkafest into a
garbage sack, as well as tidy away his socks and shoes, to say nothing of the entire
sports section of the paper which was spread out all over the room. He was so busy that he
didn't hear the footstep on the stairs, and so nearly jumped out of his skin when he heard
a voice behind him.
"Fox?"
He stood up guiltily, and turned, making a face.
"Sorry, Master. I slept in here last night.
I forgot it was a mess. I was just
" he waved his hand around. "Tidying
up?" He finished feebly. Skinner was dressed in tight black jeans, and an even
tighter black tee shirt, and there was a very definite scowl on his face.
"Shit," Mulder whispered. Well, you
wanted to be distracted, Mulder told himself. And there was surely nothing more
distracting than a Master catching his slave in the act of covering up the evidence of a
night of drunken disobedience.
"You slept here?" Skinner raised an
eyebrow, his tone dangerous. "You do have a bed. And a bedroom," he said
pointedly.
"I know. I was watching TV. I fell
asleep," Mulder gave a lame shrug.
"Hmm." Skinner crossed his arms over
his chest. "You know that this area is out of bounds to you unless I'm here?"
"Yes, Master," Mulder shrugged again
and bit his lip. "Sorry, Master," he added.
"Is there anything else about last night
that you wish to tell me?" Skinner asked. "Any other rules that you broke in my
absence?"
"No, Master," Mulder said in a low
voice, crossing his fingers behind his back. He was sure that Skinner wouldn't find
anything amiss in the Playroom. He'd been so careful when he'd tidied up in there.
"Very well. I can see that we have some
areas of discipline to address," Skinner said, although from his tone of voice Mulder
could sense that he was mildly amused. He clearly intended to use the infraction as no
more than a backdrop to an erotic punishment scenario and Mulder was all in favor of that.
"The Playroom. Now!" Skinner ordered and Mulder dumped the garbage sack and
tried to sidle through the doorway past his Master without getting a slapped backside. It
was a pointless exercise - Skinner's hard, heavy hand dropped on his butt with a
resounding thwack.
"It's really good to have
you home, Master," Mulder grinned, as he hurried along the corridor.
He waited impatiently while Skinner took out the
key to the Playroom, and inserted it in the lock. He wanted to get in there. He wanted to
be transported away from his problems, safe and secure in his Master's strong arms. He
despised himself for needing the escape, but he was too weary with the struggle inside his
head to put up any resistance. He needed this, damnit!
Skinner swung the door open, and they both
stepped inside
to be greeted by a flying bundle of golden fur who threw herself into
her slave's arms with a squawk of protest at having been locked away for so long. Mulder's
heart sank. Trust the stupid, goddamn cat to ruin everything. Skinner gave the agitated
creature a soothing cuddle, and fixed his slave with a cool look over Wanda's soft, furry,
butting head.
"I'm waiting," he said ominously.
"Waiting, Master?" Mulder bluffed,
giving Wanda the look hitherto reserved only for Tom Colton, Alex Krycek and any of
Scully's boyfriends who didn't treat her properly, which was most of them in his opinion.
"Waiting," Skinner continued in a
deceptively pleasant tone, "for an explanation as to the lie you told me about 3
minutes ago that you hadn't broken any other rules."
"Oh. That." Mulder croaked, his stomach
sinking down to its familiar habitat at such moments, in the soles of his feet.
"Yes. That," Skinner said. "When I
left this apartment, Wanda was most definitely not locked up in this room, so in order to
get in here..." He paused meaningfully, and then continued. "Well, let's see. I
have only two keys to the Playroom, one of which is always on my person. The other I keep
in the desk drawer in my study. So, either you went into my study, took the key, and let
yourself in here, or, your old friend the lock pick has been in action again. Either of
which options leaves you, boy, up shit creek without a paddle," Skinner growled.
"Although unluckily for you, paddles are not something that are in short supply
around here." He strode over to the door and placed Wanda firmly outside it, then
closed it and turned back to deal with his disobedient slave.
"There is another option," Mulder
suggested as he Master advanced on him.
"Really?" Skinner crossed his hands
over his chest menacingly as he surveyed his slave. "Do, please, enlighten me then.
I'd be so interested to hear your other option." His tone dripped sarcasm.
"Don't mind me," he said over his shoulder as he walked towards the cupboard and
began removing certain implements of discipline that made Mulder shiver in trepidation
just looking at them.
"Well
cats have many special
powers
" Mulder began, deciding that he was in big shit anyway, so delaying the
moment of retribution was probably the best result he was going to get. "Did you know
that the cat used to be worshipped in Ancient Egypt as a symbol of mystery and good
fortune?" He said. Skinner found a solid wooden paddle, and slapped it against his
thigh. Mulder swallowed hard and continued, warming to his theme. "They've been known
to save people from earthquakes and fires, and have long been acknowledged to have special
sensory powers that humans don't understand
"
"And your point is?" Skinner asked,
marching across the room, and placing one big hand on his slave's neck, then walking him
over towards the chair.
"That Wanda, who we all know is a
particularly gifted creature," Mulder managed to say that with just
too much sincerity to be believable, "is very possibly capable of translocation. I
have many X Files devoted to just this phenomena," he finished, gazing at his Master
expectantly.
"Translocation?" Skinner sat down on
the throne and regarded his slave without expression.
"Yup." Mulder nodded. "The ability
to transport yourself from one place to another," he added helpfully. "Um, other
than just by walking there, obviously," he continued. "Or taking a car or
something," he finished, barely daring to look at his Master. Somehow he didn't think
that explanation had gone down well.
"And these cases of translocation in your
files - was there any actual proof there of this, phenomenon as you call
it?" Skinner asked pleasantly.
Mulder winced. "Not proof as
such
" he hedged.
"I see. Well, in the absence of proof, I
must just assume that the truth lies in the more mundane explanation that you let yourself
in here last night and snooped around. Is that the truth, Fox?"
Mulder jumped. Skinner's tone suddenly had bite.
He thought about it for a moment, then sighed. "Yes, Master," he replied.
Skinner put his hand up, and beckoned very slowly
with his index finger. "Come here," he ordered. Mulder swallowed hard, and crept
forward so that he was between his Master's knees. Skinner placed the paddle on one of the
arms of the throne and put his big hands on his slave's shoulders, then looked intently
into Mulder's eyes.
"I'm sorry," Skinner said suddenly,
confusing his slave.
"For what, Master?" Mulder asked in
surprise.
"Quote me Clause number 2 of the Master
contract," Skinner ordered.
Mulder gabbled the Clause off quickly, the words
almost engraved on his very soul: "I will provide the physical and emotional
necessities of life for my slave, and
"
"How long has it been since I last spanked
you?" Skinner interrupted him.
Mulder looked startled. "Six days,
Master," he replied.
"Exactly." Skinner shook his head.
"Spanking, for you, Fox, is both a physical and emotional necessity of life."
"It is?" Mulder blinked.
"Yes. It is. I've failed in my duty and must
therefore take part of the responsibility for what happened here last night. You need to
feel the weight of my hand on your backside every day - come what may. I promised you that
when I accepted you into my service, and I've been remiss in not keeping to that promise.
I can't expect your obedience if I don't enforce it in such a way as to keep your status
constantly fresh in your mind."
"It wasn't your fault. You were busy,"
Mulder protested, kneeling between his Master's feet, and looking up at him, as if in
supplication.
"I know - but that's no excuse."
Skinner's hands were firm on his slave's shoulders. "You have to be taken down, boy,
every day, or you forget who you are and start spinning out of control."
Mulder felt all the breath leave his body. He
felt light-headed at not only being so known but also so well understood. His hair stood
up on his body and he felt goosebumps break out on his flesh. He hung his head, and placed
his hands on his Master's knees.
"I'm sorry. You're right. I should have
asked you
" he whispered.
"Like I said, it's my fault, and I'm not
angry - at least not too angry," Skinner amended, his eyes flashing just enough to
remind Mulder that he was still in trouble. Skinner placed a finger under his slave's chin
and drew it up, making him look directly into his Master's eyes. "This reminds me of
my early days with you. When you pushed the limits and boundaries to see where they lay,
fighting yourself and your slavery."
Mulder bit on his lip, and nodded.
"You must be feeling tired of that fight,
boy. I think you want to give it all up to me," Skinner said in a low, silky voice.
Mulder melted against his Master's knee, and nodded again, not trusting himself to
speak."This won't be easy - I won't stop until you're back where you need to
be," Skinner warned. "It'll be a long, painful ride, Fox, but rewarding in the
end."
"Yes, Master," Mulder croaked,
spellbound by the sound of his Master's voice.
"Good, then get your ass over my knee, and
let's start," Skinner commanded. Mulder got up slowly, and did as he'd been ordered.
He felt the usual dual emotions of trepidation and need that accompanied such moments.
When he was being spanked he would have done anything, and said anything, to escape the
relentless assault on his backside. However, when it was over, he was invariably glad that
his Master hadn't listened to his pleas, and had continued to blister his ass until his
slave was where he needed to be.
Skinner's knees and thighs were hard, and
muscular beneath his torso. Although it was a familiar position for Mulder, his Master
more often spanked him in the bedroom with pillows under his body, supporting him. This
felt more raw, and basic and certainly less comfortable, yet was curiously intimate too.
Skinner opened his legs, and placed one of them over the back of Mulder's knees, holding
him in position. He planted a hand firmly on Mulder's back pinning him securely in place,
and then rested his other hand on Mulder's backside. Mulder trembled, hating the wait,
wanting it all to be over, needing to go where only Skinner could take him, to find the
serenity he'd been missing for the past few days. Skinner didn't start spanking him
though. Instead he ran his hand lightly over Mulder's backside, smoothing the skin,
pinching it here and there, cupping his slave's buttocks lightly in his big hand, and
caressing them with his thumb.
"What are you, Fox?" Skinner asked as
he stroked his slave into a state of relaxation.
"Yours, Master," Mulder whispered.
"Do you understand why you're going to be
punished?" Skinner asked.
"Yes, Master. For lying to you, and
disobeying you," Mulder said softly.
"What lesson will you take from this
punishment?" Skinner asked him.
"I'm not sure," Mulder confessed.
"Not to lie to you or disobey you again?" He ventured, hesitantly.
"That would be nice, but you've promised
both before," Skinner said.
"To
tell you next time, before it gets
this bad?" Mulder offered.
"That's better." Skinner raised his
hand.
"Master - you were working hard. You were
tired," Mulder interrupted the moment. The hand didn't fall. Instead it gently
dropped back on his backside and started to stroke again. "I meant to talk to
you
but you had enough to worry about. I'm sorry that I've added to your workload
with all my crap."
Mulder was surprised to find that he was pulled
up, and pushed down on his knees in front of his Master again.
"Fox - you aren't my 'workload'. You aren't
a case file - you're my beloved slave. I signed that contract knowing what I was doing. If
I'm going to ask you to keep up your side of the deal, then I have to do the same and I
didn't. I failed you. Next time, just talk to me, all right?"
"Yes, Master." Mulder nodded.
"Good." Skinner caressed the side of
his slave's face with his hand, then dropped a light, chaste kiss on Mulder's lips.
"Now
" His Master's tone changed radically as he drew away. "Get your
ass into position again, boy. We'll address this situation in the old fashioned
way."
Mulder quickly scrambled into position again and
there was no preamble this time. Skinner's hand connected with his slave's bare flesh as
soon as Mulder was in place. He winced - Skinner clearly meant business and he had a
feeling that this would be a long, painful spanking, going far beyond any erotic enjoyment
and taking him to a different place entirely. Skinner's hand was relentless. His Master
worked in a slow, steady pattern around his slave's butt, leaving no inch of it uncovered
by his large palm. There was an almost hypnotic rhythm to the rise and fall of Skinner's
hand against his slave's bottom, and soon the slaps started to sting, then to hurt, until
Mulder was gasping for air, moving his legs to try and escape the unceasing rise and fall
of that hand on his backside.
"Shit! Please, Master
stop
"
he begged.
"I've only just begun," Skinner
informed him tersely. "You have a long way to go yet, boy."
Mulder struggled to get up, panicked by his
Master's words, but Skinner held him securely in place and he was unable to do more than
twist under his Master's hand and imprisoning leg. The spanking took on a new pace, and
the build-up of fire in Mulder's backside grew worse. It was as if Skinner was finding a
way deep into his flesh, embedding the palm of his large, flat hand several inches into
his slave's skin. Then, suddenly, just when Mulder was sure he couldn't take any more, it
stopped. Mulder's breathing slowed and he tensed as his Master gently rubbed his sore
flesh, taking away some of the sting, and calming his slave. Mulder started to relax,
pleased that it was over, and that he'd survived without disgracing himself, but then, out
of the corner of his eye, he saw Skinner pick up the wooden paddle.
"NO!" He choked, hating the thought of
that hard implement impacting on his already sore backside.
"Yes," Skinner said firmly, holding him
in place, and resting the cool, grainy surface of the wood against Mulder's flaming
buttocks. There was silence for a moment, and then a whoosh and a resounding crack that
took Mulder by surprise. The pain kicked in a split second later and he howled out loud,
before he could stop himself. The paddle was a flat, unforgiving implement, practical and
workmanlike. There was nothing fancy, exotic or even erotic about it. It was a tool for
meting out punishment, pure and simple. Skinner didn't even give his slave a chance to get
his breath back after the last stroke before applying the next. The paddle moved like
wildfire across Mulder's ass, burning up every single inch of his already sore flesh. He
raged for a moment, against the pain, against the imprisonment, against the big man who
commanded his obedience, and that was when Skinner moved the spanking up a pace. The slaps
became harder, and faster, not slow and loving, or sensual and caressing, but just
painful, and unrelenting. Mulder fought it. He knew he was shouting, although he had no
idea what he was saying, just that he was angry and resentful.
"Who are you shouting at?" Skinner
demanded.
"You, fuck it, stop!" Mulder yelled.
"Who are you angry with?" Skinner
asked, his pace swift, unconcerned by his slave's display of temper.
Mulder somehow managed to free his hand and put
it back to protect his burning buttocks. Skinner delivered a resounding thwack to the
offending hand and Mulder howled.
"Leave it there and I'll do that
again," Skinner warned. Mulder fought with the choice - his butt or his hand, but the
split second of decision-making took too long and Skinner delivered another sound lick to
his hand. Angrily, Mulder tried to get up, struggling both against his Master's superior
strength and the advantage that his position gave him.
"Keep still. Who are you angry with?"
Skinner asked, as Mulder became a spitting, exploding mass of incoherent expletives.
"You. I fucking hate you!" Mulder
screamed at the top of his voice. The paddle connected with the top of his thighs, making
him yelp. It fell there again and again, and Mulder writhed beneath it.
"Who are you angry with?" Skinner asked
again, his tone firm, and unchanging.
"The whole fucking world!" Mulder
yelled. "You, Krycek, my mother, Scully, Samantha!" He screamed, not even aware
who was included in the litany. The paddle cracked down even harder on his unprotected
buttocks and he wasn't sure what he was saying any more.
"Who are you angry with?" Skinner asked
again. Mulder felt all the anchors that tied himself to time and place snap, like a
balloon being released into the air.
"Me, fuck it. I'm angry with me! Are you
fucking happy now, you bastard?" Mulder began to sob, openly, something he always
hated doing, but the rage inside him was still unabated; however far and hard he tried to
outdistance it - it was always there.
Skinner's pace changed, abruptly. For a moment,
Mulder thought with relief that the spanking was at an end, but it wasn't. Instead, it
became more subtle. Skinner moved his hand down to the cleft between his slave's buttocks
and parted them. Then he aimed the paddle at the sensitive inner flesh between the ass
cheeks, which had hitherto been untouched.
"No," Mulder cried, not having the
energy left to fight any more, lying over Skinner's knee like a stranded fish, accepting
each carefully aimed swat. "Please
" he croaked, as the paddle found his
most tender areas, each stinging stroke bringing fresh tears to his eyes.
"Why are you angry with yourself?"
Skinner asked, his voice implacable, low, and yet clearly audible over the sound of the
paddle.
"I don't fucking know," Mulder seethed
into his Master's knee. He felt Skinner spread his thighs, and then the paddle cracked
against the sensitive flesh between his legs. "Shit, not there," he panted.
"Please, Master
not there. Please
" he sobbed.
"Why, Fox?" Skinner pressed, peppering
his slave's inner thighs with more hard swats of the paddle.
"For giving up, for not being good enough,
for being angry with her when it isn't her fault
" Mulder said, his words
jumbled and only just coherent.
"Her?" Skinner asked, his hand rising
and falling steadily, the paddle firm and unyielding in his grasp.
"Samantha," Mulder said, his anger
dissipating in a haze of pain. "Take me away from myself, Master," he whispered.
"Please
"
He lay still over his Master's knee, accepting
the gentle rise and fall of the paddle as it slowed down, still delivering swats on
Mulder's glowing, upturned butt, but softer ones. This continued for several minutes,
while Mulder got his breath back, and his Master alternated a sharp, stinging swat, with a
stroke of his hand over the reddened butt in front of him. Finally, it came to an end, and
the paddle was placed on one side. Skinner kept Mulder over his knee until his slave's
breathing evened out, and then he helped him to his feet and looked at him steadily for a
long time. Mulder flushed, and glanced down, unwilling to meet his Master's eyes. Skinner
shook his head ruefully, and gently brushed a lock of Mulder's dark hair away from his
sweaty forehead.
"Go to the bathroom and get me the lotion in
the cupboard," Skinner instructed in a soft, low tone.
Mulder nodded, trembling slightly, not entirely
sure whether his legs would work. He walked unsteadily to the bathroom, then returned to
the Playroom, and approached the throne. Skinner didn't speak, he just swung his tired
slave back over his knee, and then dropped a small dollop of the lotion onto Mulder's hot
buttocks. Mulder almost jumped out of his skin as the cold lotion made contact with his
flesh, but Skinner continued rubbing the soothing balm gently into Mulder's flaming
buttocks, gradually cooling them. He took his time, applying and reapplying the lotion and
massaging it into his slave's flesh with long strokes of his thumbs that made Mulder sink
his teeth into the fabric of his Master's jeans to stop himself crying out loud. He had to
admit that his buttocks soon started to feel better, and the horrific sting had faded into
just a dull, throbbing ache that filled him with a endorphin rush. He felt wrung out,
physically, and emotionally, and he didn't even realize that he was crying silently until
his Master wiped one of his fingers over his cheeks.
"Fox - come here," Skinner ordered. He
moved Mulder off from his knee, and pulled him between his open legs, holding him, his
arms capturing his slave within their tightly muscled circle. Mulder rested his head
against his Master's shoulder, and cried silently into Skinner's tee shirt.
"I don't understand," Skinner said
softly. "Where did that come from? When I went away you seemed fine
"
"I was fine," Mulder
muttered, still hating himself for having allowed his mood to take him so low that he had
screwed up like this. "I'm fine now. It's nothing."
"I doubt that. It took a long time for you
to give it up," Skinner said gently, pushing Mulder back so that he could look at
him. "Who do you belong to, Fox?" He asked, his dark eyes boring holes into
Mulder's soul.
"You, Master," Mulder said easily,
without hesitation.
"What are you?" Skinner asked.
"Your slave." Mulder knelt down, and
hid his face in the carpet. He didn't want to talk about it any more. He was just relieved
that the tension of last night had gone. He felt tired, but, conversely, almost rested. It
felt good to be kneeling here; in his service he could find his serenity again.
"Very well." There was an odd,
unsatisfied tone to Skinner's voice, as if that wasn't enough.
Mulder looked up, a faint shadow of a grin
passing across his face. "I never thought I'd be grateful for my daily
spankings," he said, "but if they save me from that kind of ordeal, then I'll
take them gladly."
"I don't like handing out that kind of
ordeal either - especially not on slave's day when I'd much prefer to be playing with my
slave rather than disciplining him," Skinner said.
"Damn. I missed out on whatever you had
planned," Mulder groused, glancing around the room, wondering what erotic pleasures
Skinner would have visited on his body if he hadn't screwed up so badly.
"Well - I could do with some recreation
after that," Skinner said, getting up, and rolling his shoulders back and forth,
trying to release some invisible kink.
Mulder's eyes lit up. "You mean
you'd
still give me my slave's day reward even after I screwed up?" He asked hopefully.
"A truncated form of it maybe," Skinner
said. "I don't think you deserve the full thing and I'm certainly too tired to
deliver it now." He moved his head from side to side, and Mulder heard his Master's
neck crack, audibly. "However
the idea of using my naked, tied slave
appeals," Skinner murmured, giving Mulder a speculative look. "I think we could
both do with some release before bed."
"Thank you, Master." Mulder pressed his
lips to Skinner's feet.
"Go and lie on the massage table - face
up," Skinner ordered.
Mulder nodded and eagerly ran over to the table.
He still felt light-headed, but good, and full of anticipation. He longed to feel his
Master's hard cock inside him, claiming him, and finally banishing his dark mood.
Skinner approached the table a few moments later,
and Mulder glanced up at the other man through his damp eyelashes. Skinner looked tired,
but clearly not too tired to enjoy his slave, if the bulge in his Master's black jeans was
anything to go by. Mulder's own cock rose against its golden ring and Skinner chuckled.
"Yeah - we definitely both need this,"
he said, grabbing hold of Mulder's arms and pinning them above his head, then fastening
them into cuffs. "Hard, and rough, and fast
" Skinner said in a growl,
opening Mulder's legs wide and pushing them up so that his knees were bent, then cuffing
his ankles to the table. He pulled Mulder's torso down, so that his slave's ass was close
to the edge of the table, his touch purposeful and questing as he handled his slave's
body. Mulder closed his eyes, and drifted off into space, as his Master caressed him.
"My naked, willing slave boy," Skinner murmured, his mouth roving over Mulder's
stomach. He pressed his lips to one of Mulder's nipples and Mulder bit down a yelp of
pain. He'd forgotten about those clamps he'd used last night, and somehow he knew it
wouldn't be a good idea to tell Skinner what he'd done.
"All right?" Skinner asked, sounding
surprised.
"Yes
fine
" Mulder tried to
relax, but even the lightest pressure of Skinner's fingertips or tongue on his sore
nipples hurt, and he had to inhibit his pained response, which made him feel tense. He
tried to relax again, closing his eyes, but was immediately assaulted by an image of
Samantha. Krycek had told him that she'd been experimented upon. Had they tied her down?
Had she been held motionless while they hurt her? He gave an involuntary shudder, opened
his eyes and saw a dark shadow move beside him. It was only Skinner but it made him jump,
and he panicked, tearing against the cuffs holding him downl. He could see Samantha in his
mind's eye, trying to do the same, trying desperately to escape from the people who were
hurting her, and he twisted in his bonds, frantically struggling against them.
"Hush, boy," Skinner said, pushing him
back down.
"No
" Mulder yelled, no longer
able to breathe, feeling as if he was about to black out.
"Be still. Do what I tell you, slave,"
Skinner hissed.
"Shit, no, let me go!" Mulder moved his
whole body from side to side in an effort to escape, no longer able to think clearly,
fighting a rising sense of panic that was threatening to obscure his senses.
"Walter!" He gasped.
The cuffs were released with a single snap of his
Master's fingers and within seconds he was free. He sat on the side of the massage table,
breathing heavily, but feeling stupid for making such a fuss. Skinner was nowhere in
sight. He wondered where his Master had gone, and felt a sense of dread at having refused
the other man his pleasure, wondering what the penalty for that was. It had to be the
worst thing a slave could do to his Master.
Skinner returned a second later and pressed a
glass of water into Mulder's hand. His Master didn't touch him, he just looked at him, his
eyes dark, and unreadable.
"Drink it," Skinner said softly. Then
he crouched down so that he was at eye-level with Mulder, and placed a hand on his knee.
"All right now, Fox?" He asked.
Mulder nodded uncertainly. "Sorry," he
muttered, between hitching breaths.
"That was a full-blown panic attack,"
Skinner commented, taking the empty glass Mulder handed to him. He got up and gently
caressed Mulder's back, stroking his slave for several minutes while Mulder rested his
head against his Master's chest. Then Skinner pushed him away, and looked at him
intently. "Get your breath back. I'm going to run us both a bath. Then you're
going to talk."
It wasn't a request. It was an order. Mulder
nodded, his jaw clenching in a gesture worthy of his Master.
A few minutes later, Skinner helped him into a
bath full of warm water, and drew his stricken slave between his legs. He ran a warm wash
cloth over his slave's body, idly tracing circles on Mulder's flesh.
"I've tied you many times before and you've
never reacted like that," Skinner said softly, still keeping up the soothing caress
on his slave's body. "What was the trigger, Fox?"
"I thought about Samantha. Krycek told me
she'd been experimented upon. I felt
for a moment as if I were her. Unable to move,
or breathe."
"Samantha is on your mind a lot at the
moment," Skinner commented, his arms resting lightly but securely around his slave's
body. "Explain, Fox."
"It was something Scully said - about me
giving up on her. Is that what I've done?" Mulder twisted and looked up at his
Master.
"Is that what you feel you've done?"
Skinner asked. "Is that why you hate yourself so much right now?"
"Yes." Mulder shrugged. "She's
always been my constant, Walter. She's always been here, inside me, guiding me in
everything I do, like the North Star
but since I gave myself to you
"
"You haven't spent so much time thinking
about her," Skinner finished for him.
"Yes." Mulder bit on his lip. "One
snap of your fingers and it's as if she meant nothing to me. Am I really so shallow? Can I
forget about her that easily?"
"No. Never." Skinner tightened his arms
protectively around his slave. "She's a part of you, Fox, an important part. I told
you when I made you my slave, that I'd never take your quest away from you
"
"But? I sense a 'but.'" Mulder smiled
wryly.
"But I've made no secret of the fact that
inasmuch as that quest hurts you, or makes you risk your life in stupid, ill-planned
ventures, then yes, I will interfere. I'll do everything in my power to stop your quest
killing you."
"Keep the quest but lose the self-destruct
button that comes with it, huh?" Mulder shook his head ruefully. If only it were that
easy.
"Yes," Skinner said firmly. He planted
a kiss on the top of his slave's head. "You're mine, boy. I won't let you kill my
property," he growled into Mulder's ear.
Mulder shivered. "Well then, I'll try and
stay alive," he murmured in reply.
"You'll do more than try." Skinner's
arms tightened around him again. "I mean it, Fox. Samantha has always been your weak
spot. Just admitting that you might never find her doesn't mean you've given up on her,
but do you think she'd want you to give up your life either, chasing after every clue or
half-clue that gets thrown in your path?"
"I don't know. She was 8 years old when I
last saw her. For all I know she prays every night that I'll find her and release her from
whatever prison they're holding her in," Mulder said.
"Or maybe she's dead. Or abducted by those
aliens you used to be so sure had taken her," Skinner replied.
"Maybe." Mulder bowed his head, and his
Master made the most of the opportunity to press a kiss on the back of his neck.
"You're thinking about Seattle,"
Skinner commented.
Mulder sighed, and lay back in his Master's arms,
accepting both their warmth and comfort. "Yeah," he admitted.
"I'm surprised you didn't just go there
while I was away," Skinner said.
"You are?" Mulder turned his head to
look at his Master again. "After all the training you've given me?" Skinner
raised an eyebrow, and Mulder sighed. "Okay, I'll admit it was hard not to. That's
partly why I went stir crazy while you were gone, and why I stole the key to the
Playroom."
"But you didn't go. I'm proud of you,
boy." Skinner's hands ran gently over his slave's body, ending up at his cock,
playing with it until it hardened under his caress. "Look," he said. "I
know the Seattle issue won't go away. I also know that I think it's a pointless exercise
to go there - if there ever was anything there, the trail's long gone cold.
However
" He put up a hand to still his slave's protest. "I don't think
you'll be able to rest easily until you at least check it out, and I'm not prepared to let
you go there without me. You know I'm busy with the case next week, but when it's over, I
suggest we take a trip up to Seattle and slay this particular ghost once and for
all."
"You mean that?" Mulder asked, a smile
wreathing his face. "You'd do that for me?"
"Of course. I want you to be happy,"
Skinner replied, his fingers fondling his slave affectionately. "Okay, and obedient
too - and this seems as if it'll kill those two birds with one stone."
Mulder laughed, and his laugh became a moan as
Skinner's hand slowly pumped his cock. He kicked around in the water, throwing his head
back over Skinner's shoulder, and his Master made the most of the opportunity to kiss his
slave's exposed throat. His free hand found Mulder's nipple and rubbed it gently, and
Mulder arched his back and made a mewling sound in the back of his throat. Skinner pinched
gently and Mulder yelped.
"Why does that hurt so much?" Skinner
asked, moving his hand to caress Mulder's other nipple. Mulder tensed, not wanting Skinner
to stop his insistent caress on his cock but not comfortable having his nipples touched.
"Please
now
" Mulder moaned,
and Skinner brought his slave to climax with a swift, long stroke of his hand on Mulder's
hard cock. Mulder pumped out into the warm bath water, and then fell back on his Master's
chest, with a contented sigh. Skinner's wrapped his arm around his slave's body and held
him there, then his fingers returned to his slave's nipples, and he held one lightly
between his forefinger and thumb.
"Tell me why these hurt or I'll
squeeze," he threatened.
Mulder opened his eyes and glanced up at his
Master, his body tensing. "They don't hurt, Master," he lied.
"Then you won't mind me playing with
them, will you?" Skinner said in a deceptively light tone. "Just a little
squeeze - not something that would normally cause you any discomfort," Skinner
continued. His fingers slowly, imperceptibly, began to tighten around Mulder's flesh.
Mulder steeled himself to relax, but even the lightest touch on his tender nipples hurt
too much.
"Fuck! Stop - I'm sorry," he said
wretchedly.
"For what?" Skinner pushed him away and
looked at him, frowning.
"When I was in the Playroom
well I was
drunk," Mulder shrugged.
"What did you do?" Skinner demanded.
"Clamps." Mulder shrugged.
"Which ones?" Skinner asked, not
looking remotely startled by this news.
"The ones with the little black plastic
tips. Hurt like hell," Mulder sighed.
"I'm not surprised. How long did you wear
them?" Skinner asked.
Mulder winced. "I fell asleep in them.
Nearly passed out when I took them off."
"Fox, this is serious." Skinner got up
abruptly, and stepped out of the bath. Mulder hurried to follow him.
"I know, it was stupid. I
"
"No, not just that. I've learned how to use
every single item in that Playroom - and I've learned the hard way, believe me."
Skinner's eyes were dark.
"I know, and I
"
Skinner quelled his protest with one look.
"Listen to me, Fox - if I'd used clamps on you today, not knowing that you'd already
had them on half the night, then I might have seriously hurt you. It's not a game - it's
important. Your safety is important. Will you never understand that?" Skinner was
furious - his whole body was shaking, and Mulder nodded silently.
"I'm sorry," he said miserably.
"Fuck, I keep screwing up. How many times before you decide this particular slave is
never going to get it right?" he asked with a grimace.
"Never," Skinner told him firmly.
"I told you before - we'll go right down together, and then I'll bring you back up -
but I won't ever stop trying and I'll make sure you don't either." He paused, and
glanced at his disheartened slave, then gave a wry laugh, and shook his head. "Come
here." He opened his arms and Mulder walked into them, relieved to be back in their
safe, protective circle. "You scared me, sweetheart. First in the Playroom, then now,
hearing this," Skinner said. "I made mistakes here tonight. I knew that there
was something more going on with you after the spanking, but I didn't push you when I
should have done. Maybe I thought it would go away. If I'd pushed you then, you wouldn't
have gone into the session with the cuffs in such a jumpy mood. Damn." Skinner's body
was tense under Mulder's hands and he looked up, concerned. He'd never seen his Master
like this before. "I lost touch with you - I've been too busy," Skinner growled,
clearly still pissed off with himself. He pushed Mulder away and ran his hand over his
forehead, frowning.
"You can't guess what's in my head,"
Mulder shrugged. "I kept you out. I'm sorry. I suppose trust is still an issue for
me. It just seems like one step forward, two steps back," he sighed. "Sometimes
I don't think I'll ever get it."
Skinner shook his head. "Fox, I didn't get
everything right either when I started out on this path. Not by a long way. What I'm
taking you through, is a similar process to that which Andrew made me go through too. When
I arrived on his doorstep that night I was, frankly, a mess."
Mulder edged close with a towel, and began to dry
his Master. He loved hearing about Skinner's past, and especially about Andrew Linker.
"I can't imagine you ever fucking up, Master," he said softly, patting his
Master's damp flesh. Skinner laughed out loud.
"I did. Many times. Not in the same way as
you, little one, but in my own way."
"Tell me," Mulder asked. He finished
drying his Master and tied the towel around the other man's waist.
"I'm tired. Let's go to bed," Skinner
said. Mulder opened his mouth to protest that he wanted to hear the story, but Skinner
stopped him with a look. "You'll sleep in my bed tonight, and I'll tell you the
goddamn story," he growled. Mulder grinned and ran ahead to open the door, eager to
find out how his perfect Master had ever angered his Master.
They got into bed, and Skinner switched off the
light and turned over as if to go to sleep. Mulder propped his head up on his hand and
gazed at his Master expectantly in the dark, clearing his throat pointedly. Skinner
sighed.
"All right. The story," he grumbled,
turning back. "There was once a slave who was wild, headstrong, and almost
untamable
" He grinned at Mulder in the dark.
"You?" Mulder asked in disbelief.
"No," Skinner snorted. "This slave
thought he was the only one who'd ever fucked up, maybe he even thought Masters are born
fully formed, and completely in charge from the moment they pick up their first
whip," he chided. It was Mulder's turn to snort now.
"I don't think this slave is that
naïve," he said.
"Do you want to hear the story or not?"
Skinner demanded.
"Yes. Please." Mulder slid down further
in the bed, and rested his head on his Master's shoulder.
"All right then. A good Master is made, just
like a good slave can be made
with sweat, tears, training, and a large dose of
discipline. It's not an easy process. I'm not infallible, as tonight proved only too well.
This slave
" Skinner's hands caressed his slave's body, gently, "has a lot
to learn. It isn't a crime. His Master did too, once, and maybe still does."
"This is where you say 'Once upon a time,'
isn't it?" Mulder asked, with a grin. Skinner pinched his butt unexpectedly, making
him squeal.
"No. Although I will now, just to spite you.
Once upon a time
" Skinner began, in solemn tones. Mulder tried his best to
suppress a giggle, and failed, which earned him another pinch. "
there was a
very different kind of sub. He wasn't wild, or headstrong, although he was definitely a
trial to his Master because he was obstinate, pig-headed, and obsessive."
"Obsessive?" Mulder looked up.
"Yeah - he was a perfectionist. He didn't
like to get anything wrong, and if he did, he obsessed about it for days. He made
non-communication into an art-form. He could be surly, and sullen, and he was so stubborn
that it sometimes took all his Master's patience and skill, and sometimes his strong right
arm, to get his sub to open up and admit that there was anything wrong." He sighed,
ruefully. Mulder grabbed his Master's hand, and caressed it between his long fingers.
"So, being wild, and headstrong aren't the only faults in the world," Skinner
said, squeezing Mulder's fingers, "and you're probably no more exasperating to me
than I was to my Master," he added. Mulder had to laugh at the thought of his Master
being a handful to Andrew Linker. He found it hard to picture Skinner serving anyone,
although if it had to be someone, he was glad that it was the mysterious and charismatic
former Guardian.
"So, how did this stubborn sub screw
up?" Mulder asked.
"He shared his slave's fascination with the
Playroom," Skinner said. "Not from a genuine interest in what it contained, or
even what it stood for, but because he had to be the most perfect expert in the world at
using everything in that room. He practiced for hours, becoming familiar with every single
damn thing in that room, from the bullwhip, to the nipple clamps
" he squeezed
his slave's hand again.
"You used them on yourself?" Mulder
asked in surprise.
"Yes. I needed to know how each set felt,
and how long they could be used for. I could use the harness blindfolded, and I could cut
a piece of paper in two with the bullwhip from across the room. There wasn't an implement
in that room that I wasn't an expert on."
"What's wrong with that?" Mulder asked.
"Patience, grasshopper," Skinner
teased, "I'm coming to that bit. Andrew sought me out one day and found me taking the
harness apart, link by link. He looked at me, perplexed, and asked me what I was doing. I
told him that it was important that I be a totally perfect Master, that I knew not only
how each piece of equipment worked, but also how it could be taken apart and put back
together again, and so on. Andrew gave the deepest, most heartfelt sigh - and looked at me
as if I were a small child who'd completely missed the point."
"Why?" Mulder asked, frowning.
"Well, he agreed with me that it's important
to know how the equipment works, but he took issue with my need to be perfect. He reminded
me that I wasn't perfect, however much I might wish otherwise," Skinner winced.
"And also that I would make mistakes, from time to time, because I was human, and
that when I did, it wasn't an excuse for me to beat myself up endlessly, and go into a
morose period of self-examination, and then he asked me if I was having fun."
Skinner paused, and Mulder looked up to find his
Master smiling to himself.
"Fun?" Mulder asked.
Skinner grinned. "Yeah. Fun. I repeated the
word as if I didn't even know what it meant, and that's when he laughed. I don't think it
ever occurred to me that I should be having fun. Like you, I took it too seriously. When
he'd finished laughing, Andrew took away my key to the Playroom. Then he led me to his
bedroom, ordered me onto the bed, and told me he was going to have a full sub/dom sex
session with me without using any equipment at all - and I was going to come. Boy, was I
gonna come!" Skinner laughed out loud at the memory.
"And did you?" Mulder asked.
"Did I hell!" Skinner retorted.
"Andrew could reduce me to Jell-O just by using his voice - and he did. He took me
into subspace, and kept me there by the force of his personality alone. Then, afterwards,
when I was lying naked, sweaty and completely sated in his arms, he asked me what I'd
learned."
"What did you say?" Mulder turned onto
his stomach, and looked at his Master expectantly.
"The truth. That the mind is the sexiest
instrument of all and that none of that equipment upstairs is any kind of substitute for
affection, trust and a good erotic imagination. Andrew refused to let me practice with the
equipment for weeks after that - in fact he denied me access to the Playroom. Instead, he
made me use my mind, to think up erotic games, and then to try them out in the bedroom -
and most of all, I had to play. I had to have fun with it, and make it fun for him.
Illusion, personality, setting a scene or mood with my voice, and gestures
I learned
all that from Andrew. Being a Master is more than just the A, B, and C of how to wield a
cane, and where to place a stroke. There are things you must know about your craft, of
course, but that's only a small part of being a good top - and I learned from being a sub
to the best top in the country," Skinner said proudly.
"And the moral of the story is?" Mulder
asked, propping up his head on his hand again and looking down on his Master.
"You tell me," Skinner grinned.
"Only belong to the best top in the
country?" Mulder hazarded.
Skinner growled, and pulled his slave over and
held him tight while he delivered a light swat to his ass. Mulder wriggled, laughing
helplessly.
"Try again," Skinner commanded.
"Hmm
I dunno. How about: learn from
your mistakes?" Mulder suggested.
"Sounds good to me. Will you?" Skinner
asked.
"As long as you're here to point them out to
me and take me back down like you did today, painful though it was, then yeah, I think
so," Mulder nodded. "And I'm kind of glad that you do know your way around the
stuff in the Playroom," he added thoughtfully. "Those cuffs were off my wrists
and ankles in seconds when I panicked."
"Of course," Skinner said. "In a
way, maybe it was a good thing it happened. You've never had an adverse reaction before
because I've always prepared you well and been in tune with you enough to know how you're
experiencing the sensations of what I'm doing to you. Now you know that I'll stop if
you're in genuine distress."
"I don't think I ever really doubted
that," Mulder said quietly. He felt his Master's hard cock digging into his buttocks,
aroused by his slave's proximity. "Will you use me, Master?" He asked hopefully.
"I wanted to feel you inside me earlier in the Playroom, before I screwed up,"
he said.
Skinner looked at him searchingly for a moment.
"I'm not going to have another panic attack
if that's what you're thinking," Mulder said softly.
"Very well then, boy
I believe that I
promised you that I'd use you at least once a day, so you're owed," Skinner growled.
Mulder smiled. He still felt fully sated after
Skinner's attentions in the bath, but he loved it when his Master touched his slave. He
lay on his side, and felt Skinner part his legs with his knee. Then he jumped as he felt a
cool, lubed finger enter his anus. He moaned as his Master unerringly found his prostate,
and opened up further. The finger was removed, and his sore buttocks grasped, and parted,
making him gasp. He felt his Master's cock slipping into his entrance, and then sliding
smoothly home. Skinner gathered Mulder up and pulled him back so that he was close. Mulder
loved this moment, before his Master started to move inside him. He loved feeling Skinner
this big, and hard and strong within his own body, the two of them bonded in this way.
Then Skinner started to thrust, with short, slow movements of his hips, taking his time,
his large hands drawing his slave's body onto his large cock. Mulder gave himself up to
the moment, his head thrown back, his body arched as he surrendered to his Master's
pleasure. It felt so good. It was where he belonged. He couldn't think of anywhere else
he'd rather be than here, in this bed, serving his Master with his naked, willing body.
Skinner came a few minutes later with a decided
grunt, then they both lay there, Mulder wrapped up in his Master's arms, too weary to
move. He vaguely felt Skinner's lips brush the back of his neck, then his Master's weight
leaning on him, and the deepening of Skinner's breathing. He could still feel his Master's
cock, deep inside him, growing soft, but still warm, throbbing slightly, and he smiled,
and didn't draw away. This felt so good. They had come through a mini-crisis, and soon his
Master would accompany him to Seattle. Life was good. A few seconds later he was as fast
asleep as his Master, their bodies still joined.
Mulder arrived at work on Monday morning
convinced that his recent crisis was over. Scully looked relieved to see that his mood had
changed for the better, and he brought her in four different kinds of muffins and a mocha
latte to make up for his mood the previous week.
"One muffin would have done fine," she
told him, rolling her eyes.
"I was a bastard for four days, so - four
muffins!" he grinned.
"That is such Mulder logic," she
grinned back.
"Ah, so you admit I can be logical, oh Queen
of Scientific Reasoning." He plunked himself down behind his desk and turned on his
computer.
"In your own way you're the most logical
person I know," she mused, "it just happens to be alien logic, not human."
She threw him a cranberry and walnut muffin to quell his expression of outrage.
Mulder logged onto his Slavecity account. He
hadn't been in touch with Ian for days, and the other man had sent him an email inquiring
if he was okay, or whether the blood-sucking mutant pigs had got him. Mulder grinned, then
frowned as he saw the other message in his inbox. Nobody else had this account name so who
the hell could it be? There wasn't any clue in the sender's name, which was a collection
of letters and numbers, and he would have dismissed it as junk mail if it hadn't been for
the subject title which was just one word - but it was a word that made his blood run
cold:
Samantha.
He opened the message, but there was no text,
just a URL:
http://www.Samantha2000.com
Mulder followed the link, and waited impatiently
for his browser to locate the page. A dark screen was painted, overlaid by a picture of an
eight year old girl that he recognized all too well, but he barely noticed that because a
few seconds later the sound kicked in.
He was aware of Scully looking up from her desk,
as the screams rent through the air in the tiny basement office.
"Please
let me go back to my room.
Please
don't inject me again
it hurts
please
NO!" The
child's voice faded into a low whimpering sob.
"Mulder?" He looked up into Scully's
eyes, to find them wide with worry. She came around to stare at the picture on the screen.
"It could all be a fake, Mulder. A set up," she said to him, putting a hand on
his shoulder.
"There's a link," he said numbly,
accessing it. The next page showed a picture of a woman in her early thirties. She was
wearing a hospital gown and her face looked pale, and pinched, but her dark eyes shone
out, full of a quiet strength combined with desperation.
"Samantha?" Mulder's fingers touched
the screen, falteringly.
"It could be anyone," Scully told him.
"It's her," Mulder said emphatically.
"You can't know that," Scully said
softly.
"I do," Mulder looked up at her.
"I do," he repeated firmly. He scrolled down the page but there was nothing
else. No more information. Nothing.
"I'm going to find out who that website is
registered to," Scully told him but Mulder was barely listening. Instead he reached
for the phone and called Skinner's office.
"He's in a meeting
" Kim began,
but Mulder cut her off curtly.
"Tell him it's urgent. Tell him I need him
in my office - now!" he snapped at her, slamming the telephone down.
His Master didn't let him down. Skinner strode
into the basement office less than 4 minutes later, an expression of concern creasing his
blunt features.
"Agent Mulder - this had better be
important," he said, shutting the door firmly and glancing at Scully who was
desperately making calls.
"It is." Mulder paged back, then pushed
his chair away and pointed at the computer screen. Frowning, Skinner came over to look at
it. He heard the screams and his eyes darkened behind his spectacles.
"Who is this?" he asked, looking up,
first at Mulder, and then at Scully for confirmation when he saw that his slave was in no
condition to answer him. Mulder just pointed at the little girl on the screen.
"He was sent an email," Scully began,
putting her hand over the phone.
"Who from?" Skinner snapped.
"That's what I'm trying to find out,"
Scully said.
"It was a private account." Mulder
clenched his fists. "Nobody knows about it
unless someone's been in
here
been at my desk
?" He looked at Skinner and Scully, almost as if he
was accusing them. "Who would do that?" he asked.
"I can think of one person who seems to
possess the ability to come and go within this building without authorization,"
Skinner replied tersely.
"Just the one?" Mulder spat. "I
thought there was a whole army of Consortium bastards working out of the FBI."
"Agent Mulder sit down," Skinner said
in a low, even tone. "Someone is clearly yanking your chain
"
"No. That was Samantha's voice. I recognize
it - and that's her in that second picture. I know it is!"
"Fox, it's been thirty years since you last
saw Samantha," Skinner told him in a low, urgent tone. "You can't know that's
her."
"I know!" Mulder retorted angrily. His
Master's eyes flashed behind his glasses. "I know," Mulder repeated in a
whisper.
"Got it!" Scully scribbled something
down on a piece of paper, and then opened her mouth in surprise.
"What is it?" Mulder grabbed the paper
and read the address on it, his expression one of shock. "This is where the website
is registered?" he asked Scully. She nodded, and exchanged a glance with Skinner.
Mulder grabbed his jacket and ran towards the door but his Master's big hand crashed it
shut before he got there.
"Where is it?" Skinner asked.
"It's that address in Seattle," Mulder
replied, pushing past his Master and opening the door. Skinner placed a hand on his
slave's shoulder, and Mulder half turned to face him. "I have to go there, sir. You
can see that, can't you? I'm going to go there," Mulder told his Master in a
determined tone. Slave looked at Master for a moment, and Master looked back at slave,
both of them resolutely committed to a certain course of action. The tension in the room
crackled almost tangibly, but Mulder's resolve was more than equal to his Master's in this
instance.
"It's a trap," Skinner said in a flat
tone.
"I don't care," Mulder replied,
reaching for the door again.
"Well I do." Skinner's eyes were the
darkest Mulder had ever seen them.
"You won't stop me," Mulder snapped.
"You can't stop me."
"I have no intention of even trying,"
Skinner retorted, "but I'm sure as hell going with you."
Mulder pulled up short. "What about your
case?" he asked.
"I have to be back to give evidence on
Wednesday. Until then - I'm with you." Skinner pulled the door open and ushered
Mulder through.
"Count me in too," Scully said in a
determined tone, grabbing her coat and following on behind Mulder.
"Good. I think it'll take both of us to
watch his back," Skinner murmured to her, as he brought up the rear.
*****
"It's wet." Scully surveyed the gray
evening sky and pulled up the collar of her raincoat.
"It's Seattle," Skinner replied grimly.
Both of them shot worried glances at Mulder, who hadn't said a word during the entire
journey. "Agent Mulder!" Skinner cracked out sharply. "We'll get a taxi to
our hotel and then
"
"If you don't mind, sir, I'd prefer to go
straight to the address
" Mulder began.
"I do mind," Skinner
barked back, asserting his authority in no uncertain terms. "Get your ass in the cab,
Agent." He held the taxi door open and glared at his slave and subordinate. Mulder
bit on his lip for a moment, clearly tempted to defy his Master and then sighed and gave
in, throwing himself into the taxi with a disgruntled and barely disguised expletive.
"We'll go to the hotel and dump our stuff. I've arranged for two agents from the
local field office to meet us there. They can fill us in on any information about the
house that they've been able to gather while we were traveling here," Skinner
informed his two agents tersely.
If Mulder had been in a less volatile mood he
would have realized that this made sense, but as it was, he was too caught up in his
desire to get to the house to think straight. This was almost the closest he'd ever been.
A voice, a photograph
a lead, damnit! And Skinner wanted him to sit down around a
table with the local agents, have a few beers, and discuss fucking real estate prices or
something?
It was late evening by the time they got to the
hotel. Scully checked them in at the desk.
"Three rooms in the name of Skinner,"
she said, glancing back at where Mulder and Skinner were standing, both men's stances full
of tension, neither of them speaking.
"I'm sorry, ma'am, but we only have two
rooms in that name," the receptionist said.
"That's okay, Agent Scully." Skinner
stepped in. "I had Kim just book the two rooms. It's not that I don't trust Agent
Mulder," he said, smiling faintly, "just that I think it might be safer if he
wasn't allowed to come and go on his own during this investigation."
Scully managed a faint smile as she accepted the
room cards. "A wise precaution, sir," she murmured.
Mulder's heart sank at Skinner's words. He had
assumed that his Master wouldn't be so blatant as to share his room with Scully along for
the ride, but Skinner had clearly thought this through, and now Mulder was likely to spend
his nights handcuffed to the bed.
They dumped their belongings, then met the two
local field agents in the bar. Neither of them had anything worthwhile to say, as far as
Mulder could see, and he barely heard a word they were saying in any case. After ten
minutes of pointless talk, he just got up and told them he was leaving.
"Agent Mulder
" Skinner was on his
feet,following, but he gave Mulder his head, and allowed him to charge outside to the car.
"I'm not sitting around while my sister
could be a few miles away waiting for me," Mulder seethed as Skinner caught up with
him, and grabbed his arm.
"Fine. We're all with you on this, Fox. Now
slow down and start thinking with your head and not your hopes," Skinner growled.
Mulder's face crumpled as his Master's words sank
in. "She's my sister," he hissed, in a heartfelt tone.
"I know that, son." Skinner grabbed the
back of Mulder's head and looked him straight in the eye. "I know that. And we'll do
our best to find her. I promise. Okay?"
Mulder looked at him then nodded.
"Okay," he whispered, getting into the car.
Scully arrived just in time to see this exchange,
and she gave Mulder a questioning look, which he ignored.
The journey to the house took less than twenty
minutes, and Mulder was out of the car and running up the driveway before the car had
stopped moving, with Scully and Skinner hard on his heels. while the local agents brought
up the rear. All of the FBI agents had their guns in their hands as Mulder pounded on the
door. When there was no reply, he stood back and kicked his way in, while Scully made her
way around the back. Mulder crashed into the house, falling on his shoulder, and rolling
over, immediately getting back on his feet, and waving his gun in the air. Skinner was
behind him all the way, and Scully reached them in the hallway at the exact same moment as
they heard it. It was a scream, and it was coming from an upstairs room.
"FOX! Help me!" A woman's
voice cried.
Mulder took the stairs three at a time, and
smashed through another door, yelling at the top of his voice: "FBI, drop your
weapons."
There was no reply. Mulder stood in the room, his
arms held out stiffly in front of him, his gun poised, and ready, clutched in both his
hands, the sweat running down his face as he took in the scene in front of him.
"Fox
there's nobody here. It's a
tape," Skinner said gently, pushing Mulder's arms down, and pointing at the speakers
on the wall of the empty room. "She was never here. Someone's been playing with
you."
"NO! Please don't! I can't take any
more. Please!" The speakers wailed.
Mulder fired a single bullet into each of them,
killing the sound dead. Then, without saying a word, he turned on his heel and went
downstairs.
"Fox
" He was dimly aware of his
Master's hand on his shoulder, pulling him close, and Skinner's warm, solid body pressed
tightly against his own.
"She might have been here. Just because
she's not here now doesn't mean anything. We have the picture. I'm going to do a house to
house. I'm going to
" Mulder mumbled.
"Fox
look at me, little one,"
Skinner said softly, grabbing hold of Mulder's face and making him focus on his Master.
"She's not here. She never was. This is someone's idea of a sick joke."
"No." Mulder's body shook with the
effort of containing his wildly raging emotions.
"Fox." Skinner's tone was firmer now.
Mulder was dimly aware of Scully's footstep on the stair, and the startled look in her
eyes as she took in the sight of her boss and her partner locked in an embrace.
"Listen to me, sweetheart. It's late. You're tired. It's been a long day. We're going
back to the hotel, and you're going to get some sleep. That's an order." Skinner's
voice was gentle but firm, and it was the only anchor holding Mulder to reality in this
time and place.
"No. I'm going to knock on doors, ask
questions
" Mulder began.
"In the morning," Skinner interrupted
firmly. "I won't sanction you disturbing this neighborhood in the middle of the night
on a wild goose chase."
"You never believed," Mulder muttered
resentfully.
"No, but I'll come with you tomorrow. We'll
find her if she's here," Skinner said soothingly.
"We don't have time. You have to get back to
DC," Mulder said wearily.
"Not until the evening. I'll search with you
all day - but Fox, I won't go home alone. I'm not leaving you up here," Skinner said,
his dark eyes serious. "Do you understand me?" Mulder made no reply, but turned
his head away. Skinner grasped his slave's shoulders and shook him, forcing him to turn
back. "I said, do you understand me?" Skinner barked.
"Yes. Master." Mulder
made an ironic bow and then turned on his heel and left the house, slamming the door shut
with a resounding bang behind him.
They rode back to the hotel in an uncomfortable
silence. Skinner spoke to the two agents who had accompanied them to the house, then
allowed them to go with instructions to meet them the following morning. Then he bought
both Mulder and Scully a drink.
"I think we all could use one," he
said. Scully nursed hers between her hands, darting silent, speculative glances at Skinner
under her eyelashes every so often. Mulder wanted to say something to her, to clear up
this whole mess, but he couldn't think of anything that would make sense right now. He
downed his vodka in one gulp then got up.
"I'll go to bed now. If I have your
permission that is, sir," he growled. Skinner's dark eyes were intense, but he made
no reply, merely nodded.
Mulder walked stiffly up to their room, undid his
tie and pulled it off, and opened the top button of his shirt. Then he threw himself down
on one of the two beds, only to get straight up again, unable to relax. He paced for a few
minutes, thinking furiously, wondering what the hell to do next, when a knock on the door
broke into his reverie. He opened it to find Scully standing, hesitantly, outside.
"I'm not in the mood to talk," he told
her tersely.
"I need to understand something," she
told him, coming into the room anyway.
"What the fuck is there to understand?"
he said stiffly. "I told you the truth and you didn't believe me. That's not my
fault. Deal with it, Scully."
"Mulder - I'm not your enemy. Don't treat me
like this," she said, laying a hand on his arm.
"I'm sorry. Oh shit, I'm sorry." He
slumped against the wall, and looked at her in misery. "I didn't want to hurt you,
Scully. I tried to tell you, but
" He shrugged, and looked at her helplessly.
"Are you telling me that it's all
true?" She said softly.
He bit on his lip, then nodded, slowly.
"And that Skinner is
?" There was
a look of almost comic disbelief in her eyes as she trailed off, unable to complete the
sentence. Mulder didn't help her out. "Your
" She continued.
"Lover?" she finished at last, when he didn't break the silence.
"If you want to call it that. If it makes
you feel easier about it. I usually address him as 'Master'," Mulder snapped, really
not wanting this discussion right now.
"Mulder, this is serious. If he coerced you
in some way into
" Scully began, and Mulder gave a bitter, hollow laugh.
"Scully, nobody coerced anybody. In fact if
anyone made the moves in this relationship it was me. I hunted him down for over a year
before he gave in and agreed to take me on. His only condition was that I become his
slave. I agreed. Willingly. I even signed a contract," Mulder told her, his tone
savage, wanting to make her flinch. She obliged, and that just made him feel even worse.
"I'm his slave, Scully. He's my Master - those are the terms we use. That's what we
are to each other. Here. Look." He pulled open his shirt with one savage sweep of his
arm, popping a couple of buttons with the force of the gesture, and showed her the gold
chain around his neck. "He gave me this. It's his collar. I wear it all the time,
just like I wear his ring." He held up his hand. "It's engraved with my name. So
is the collar. They both belong to him. Just as I belong to him. Symbols of his ownership.
Does that shock you, Scully? Does what I am disgust you?" He asked her, looking into
her eyes, and fearing to see a mirror of the disgust that he felt for himself in their
blue depths. There was nothing there save concern, and he felt a stab of guilt for not
trusting her to care about him, after all they'd been through together.
"Disgust? No. How could you think
that?" Scully replied slowly. "It's just
a lot for a girl to get used
to," she tried to smile, feebly.
"Why? Don't you think it's possible for me
to be happy in this kind of relationship?" Mulder asked her.
"No
I don't think that," she said.
"In fact, you've been happier for these past few months than I've ever seen you
before and than I ever expected to ever see you. You're calmer. If I didn't know you
better I'd almost say that you were finally at peace with yourself. Until
"
"Until this crap started. Yes. I know. I
can't
" Mulder felt his legs gave way suddenly, and, without warning he fell
down onto the bed, and buried his face in his hands. "I'm sorry, Scully. I never,
ever, in a million years wanted to hurt you. You mean too much to me. You and
Walter
you're all I have, and all I ever do is push you away," he whispered.
"You shouldn't care, Scully. Not you. Not Walter. I am not fucking worth it."
"Mulder, that's not true." She sat down
next to him on the bed, and put an arm around his tense shoulders. "Of course we care
about you," she told him softly. "And do you think we'd care if you weren't
worth it?" she chided, kissing his forehead and drawing him close, rocking him
against her shoulder. He tried to blink back the tears that were threatening to fall.
"I don't know. I don't know
" he
whispered.
"Of course you are. I've never known anyone
more loyal, more passionate, and committed
"
"I sometimes think I should be
committed," he joked feebly. She smiled, and kissed his forehead again.
"Mulder, if he, I mean, Skinner
um,
Walter, makes you happy, then that's fine by me - whatever the nature of your
relationship. I'll admit, I thought it was all just a joke, but
it makes a strange
kind of sense. Somehow, although it's shocking - I'm not saying it isn't shocking - but
it's not
" She wrinkled her forehead for a moment, struggling to find the right
words. "It's not surprising," she finished at last. "I
don't understand why exactly, just that it makes a strange kind of sense. That somehow,
knowing, makes everything fall into place."
He smiled at her wanly, and took hold of her hand
and kissed her fingers.
She reached out a tentative finger, and touched
the gold collar around his neck. "As for being worth something
judging by all
the exquisite and expensive gold he's put on you, I'd say that your Master thinks his
slave is worth a great deal to him." She smiled at him, and gently touched the side
of his face.
"Are we going to be the same?" Mulder
asked anxiously. "Can we work together the same way again? Is this going to change
anything?"
"Apart from making me extremely nervous of
my boss you mean?" She grinned.
"You should be. Trust me. I know him,"
Mulder grinned back.
"No, Mulder. It won't change anything. Like
I said, I just want you to be happy." Scully got up, just as the door opened, and
Skinner walked into the room.
"Agent Scully." He gave her a strained
smile.
"Sir. I was just leaving. Agent Mulder was
explaining a few
things to me," she said, tiptoeing very carefully around
Skinner and edging towards the safety of the door with a wide-eyed look that almost made
Mulder laugh out loud.
"Agent Scully." Skinner held open the
door for her. "Please don't worry. Agent Mulder will be fine with me," he told
her sincerely, as she sidled past him.
"I hope so, sir," she said firmly, and
a knowing look passed between them. Skinner shut the door behind her and gave a loud
exhalation of breath.
"Something tells me that I'll have to live
without my kneecaps if I don't treat my slave in the way his partner approves of,"
Skinner commented.
"Yeah - she's even more scary than
Wanda," Mulder said with a faint smile.
"Oh, I've never doubted for a moment that
the female of the species is more deadly than the male," Skinner replied wryly.
"It doesn't matter which species. Feline, or Homo Sapiens. How are you feeling now,
Fox?"
"Better. I'm sorry, Master." Mulder
gazed at his Master helplessly.
"For what? I understand the pressures you've
been under, sweetheart. Just remember that I won't let you self-destruct. If you even
attempt it there'll be trouble," Skinner's threat was real, even if it was said in a
joking tone. Mulder nodded glumly.
"Are you going to handcuff me to the bed for
the night?" He asked.
"Do I need to?" Skinner replied with a
raised eyebrow.
Mulder thought about it for a moment, struggling
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