Title: 24/7 - Part
26: Here, There And Everywhere
Fandom: The X Files
Pairing: Mulder/Skinner
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Summary: Master and slave
face a final crisis in their relationship that may change things between
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24/7
By Xanthe
"A
truth, still apparent, though disregarded, that
things move violently to their place, but calmly in
their place. To put it another way, everything has
its right home, the region that suits it, and, unless
forcibly restrained, will move thither by a kind of
homing instinct."
J. Winterson
"Art and Lies"
Chapter 26: Here, There and Everywhere
"I want you to get
dressed," Skinner told his slave early one evening, a week after he had
branded him. Mulder gazed up at his Master in surprise from where he was
lying, naked, on the bed. The last week had passed in something of a haze
for him; he and his Master had been in love for a long time now, but they
had never been this close or as intimate with each other as they had since
the branding. Still on vacation, they had spent every day for the last
week completely wrapped up in each other, making love, talking, or just
lying in each other's arms lazily, enjoying their closeness.
Mulder felt more
than happy – he felt deeply and profoundly contented, existing in a state
of total bliss. It both was and wasn't the branding – he had loved his
Master before he had been branded, and they had been happy before his
branding too, but somehow the branding was a culmination of all those
feelings that had gradually been building inside him since Skinner had
taken him as his slave ten months previously. Now he knew, beyond a shadow
of a doubt, that he not only belonged to and with his Master, but that
Skinner understood him down to his core and was strong enough to take him
and all the emotional baggage that came with him, and to love him no
matter what.
Strangely, the
branding had not, in Mulder's mind, been so much about himself proving his
love to his Master by taking his mark on his body, but instead it had
confirmed to him that Skinner was strong enough to be his Master - and so
much more besides. Skinner hadn't backed down from such a challenging
expression of his love for his slave, and Mulder had known in that moment
of being branded, that he had at last found someone strong enough to be
his soulmate.
"Dressed?" Mulder
blinked, feeling confused. He hadn't been clothed all week, save for the
dressing covering his brand, and he would, quite happily, never be clothed
again. He felt free in his nudity, and he loved the sensation of being
constantly available for his Master's use.
"Yes. We're having
a few guests around later," Skinner told him, striding over to the
closet.
"We are?" Mulder
got up, feeling like an idiot for being so slow on the uptake.
"Yeah." Skinner
glanced over his shoulder and grinned at his slave. "You don't have any
idea what day it is today do you?" He said.
"No." Mulder
shrugged. "Should I?" He asked with a frown.
"It's New Year's
Eve," Skinner told him. "And since you missed out on your branding party,
I thought you'd be dying to show off that brand of yours to at least some
of your friends."
Mulder's stomach did a flip; he had been enjoying his closeness with
Skinner so much that he didn't want to be jolted out of it in this way.
The thought of the apartment being crowded with people was unbearable, and
made him feel stifled. Skinner must have noticed his expression because he
caught hold of Mulder's shoulders and held them firmly.
"Don't panic. It's
just a few of our closest friends," he told his slave. Mulder brightened.
"Ian and Perry?" He asked eagerly.
"Yes." Skinner
nodded. "And Elaine and David."
"That's it?"
"Yes…well, except
for a couple of mystery guests who may or may not show up." Skinner smiled
mysteriously.
"Mystery guests?" Mulder frowned. "You know how I hate mysteries,
Master."
"Hmmm, yes I do.
You seem to have built a whole career on that particular character quirk,"
Skinner grinned. "But I'm afraid you'll have to wait. Now go and take a
shower while I lay out the clothes I want you to wear."
He turned Mulder around, pointed him in the direction of the bathroom, and
gave his ass a hearty slap for good measure. Mulder gave a little yelp of
complaint but he was grinning as he scampered to the shower. He wasn't
sure when Skinner had organised this little party, as he was sure that
they hadn't spent a second outside of each other's company for the past
week, but then his Master moved in mysterious ways his wonders to perform,
and Mulder knew better than to question him on the subject.
He showered and
washed his hair swiftly, suddenly excited at the prospect of being able to
show off his brand to their friends. He'd only been able to see the brand
when his Master had changed the dressing covering it, but he got a thrill
out of it every time and was looking forward to being able to dispense
with the dressing for good soon. True, the brand wasn't exactly looking
very beautiful at the moment, being scabbed over as it healed, but he was
too proud of it to care much about that. Nobody had yet seen the brand
except for himself and his Master; Perry and Ian had been supposed to drop
by the day after Christmas, but Skinner had felt that Mulder was still on
too much of a post-branding high to receive visitors. Beside, it just felt
right that Master and slave spend some time alone together after the
branding. However, their vacation time was drawing to a close, and
although Skinner had been able to finagle them a few extra days they had
to return to work shortly, so Mulder supposed now was a good time for his
Master to re-acclimatise them both back to the everyday world again.
Mulder skipped out
of the bathroom, full of excited anticipation – only to stop short when he
saw the outfit his Master had laid out for him on the bed.
"No!" He said. "No,
no, no, no, no. Absolutely not."
Skinner grinned at him. "Ah, the little slave thinks he has a choice about
what he's going to wear this evening. How amusing."
"I'm not little,
it's not amusing and I'm not wearing this!" Mulder said firmly, waving his
hand at the turquoise, gold-trimmed, gauzy and totally transparent harem
pants lying on the bed, together with a gold harness. A pair of aqua blue,
pointy-toed slippers was laid out on the floor beside the bed. This wasn't
the outfit that Skinner had dressed him in when they'd stayed at Murray's
beach house, but it was very similar, and, to Mulder's eyes at least, just
as repulsive.
"Of course you
are." Skinner gave an infuriating beam of a smile.
"What are you
wearing?" Mulder's eyes narrowed suspiciously.
"You're looking at
it." Skinner gestured to his chinos and the thin polo neck sweater he had
on.
"And Elaine, David,
Perry and Ian – they're just coming in jeans and casual stuff too, aren't
they?" Mulder demanded. Skinner's grin broadened.
"Yes, I should
think so." He nodded.
"So why do I have
to be dressed up like…like…?" Mulder glanced at the obnoxious outfit
again, floundering for words.
"Like some kind of exotic slaveboy?" Skinner raised an eyebrow. "Oh, I
don't know – maybe because that's exactly what you *are*, boy. My exotic,
branded, *obedient* slaveboy." The inflection on the word obedient wasn't
lost on Mulder. He had only been seen by one other person apart from his
Master in a harem pant outfit and that had been someone Mulder didn't
know, so although it had been embarrassing, it wasn't nearly as bad as
this…and yet…on some level, Mulder knew himself to be deeply turned on by
the scenario. He wasn't seriously questioning his Master's orders – they
both knew he'd wear the harem pants but they both enjoyed his protests all
the same – it added spice to their relationship. Skinner reached out and
placed a hand on the back of his slave's neck, both reassuring and
threatening at the same time. "You know, I could have sworn that you
signed a contract submitting yourself and your body to my total care and
control," he murmured, in a deep, sexy voice. "Hmm?"
"Yes, Master," Mulder whispered, completely in thrall to that rich, dark,
masterful voice. He loved it when his Master got all uber-top on him; it
made his spine tingle and his stomach do somersaults.
"So," Skinner
purred, running a hand possessively over Mulder's body. "I think it's time
you got dressed in this nice outfit your Master has so thoughtfully
provided for you. Right, boy?" His hand closed over one of Mulder's butt
cheeks and squeezed, firmly and affectionately, just enough to make Mulder
squirm. Mulder considered continuing with his protest but he was too
turned on by the way Skinner was holding him.
"Yes, Master," he
murmured meekly. Skinner released his slave, giving him a firm little push
in the direction of the bed, and Mulder went and picked up the gauzy
fabric laid out for him. There was a time when he would have been
horrified to be displayed publicly in such a costume, but now that he was
being more honest with himself, and he was more relaxed in his slavery, he
couldn't deny that he felt a sexual thrill at the thought. He was glad his
Master always insisted on him obeying his orders even when he baulked;
Skinner usually knew what was best for his slave - and Mulder invariably
ended up enjoying whatever his Master demanded of him.
"I thought the
harem pants would be best because they'd show off your brand," Skinner
told him, in a low, husky, seductive voice, coming up behind him and
caressing his buttocks again with the casual caress of an owner touching
his property. "And I want everyone to see your brand so there's no point
in you wearing jeans. Besides, I've always wanted to show you off in harem
pants to a wider audience."
Mulder made a
little face, but only for the sake of it. Skinner roared with laughter and
turned his slave around to face him.
"Okay, little one,
I'm going to take your dressing off. You can keep it off all evening – I
want Perry to examine how it's healing in any case. Remember that you
don't have the dressing on though – don't go bumping into things or it'll
hurt."
"Trust me, Master,
I know exactly how much it hurts," Mulder said in a heartfelt tone.
Skinner stopped
what he was doing and bestowed a gentle kiss on his slave's lips. There
was no need for him to say anything; he was simply acknowledging what
Mulder had gone through in order to have his Master's mark imprinted so
permanently on his skin, and what it meant to both of them that he did.
"All right – get
dressed," Skinner said when he released his slave. Mulder glanced down at
his newly revealed brand with a dreamy sigh.
"You'll be able to see it just as well through the harem pants," Skinner
pointed out, holding up the virtually transparent scrap of gauzy fabric.
"In fact, it'll look even better seen through the gauze while it's still
healing."
"Yes, Master,"
Mulder agreed softly, unable to continue pretending that he wasn't
enjoying every single second of this. "Uh, Master…will there be any
other…uh, accoutrements you'd like me to wear." He thought of the butt
plug his Master had inserted last time he had worn harem pants.
"No." Skinner shook his head. "I don't want anything to detract from that
brand – or your pride in bearing it on your flesh. Enjoy tonight, Fox. You
have my permission to show off."
Mulder gave a
little grin of delight at that news and began to dress himself swiftly in
the outfit he both loved and hated.
"You will have to
wear make up though," Skinner added, just as Mulder finished dressing
himself. "Mascara, eyeliner and some lip gloss to make that pouty lower
lip of yours shine and shimmer so appealingly."
"Oh god," Mulder
sighed, but he was grinning despite himself and submitted quite happily to
his Master's ministrations until Skinner was finally satisfied with him.
Then his Master stood Mulder in front of the mirror and had him take a
good look at himself. Mulder's heart usually sank at moments like this,
but now it did a flip of excitement. He did, he had to admit, look pretty
damn good. The harem pants clung to his long legs, accentuating them, and
the brand was visible through the transparent fabric, yet also
tantalisingly covered, so you could only get little glimpses of it as the
fabric rustled and rippled when Mulder moved. The little gold harness
showed off his nipple rings to perfection, and his gold collar nestled at
his throat, complementing the harness. The pants weren't open at the
crotch and buttocks like the pair he'd worn at the beach house, and Mulder
guessed that was why Skinner had selected them for this evening –
beautiful those his slave was, it might be a little distracting if his
charms were so completely on display during a casual dinner party. The
slippers finished the outfit, and Mulder had to admit that he did look
fabulously exotic with the eyeliner and the lush lips. He totally
understood why his Master couldn't resist kissing him passionately several
times, resulting in him having to reapply the lip gloss as a result.
Mulder had never had much interest in his physical appearance before
becoming Skinner's slave, but his Master was beginning to make him
understand the importance of presenting himself to his best advantage, so
that his Master always had something good to look at. Mulder had never
viewed himself as a particularly good looking man, but over the past year
he had gradually come to see himself through his Master's eyes and now he
was ready to admit that it was a compelling sight. He was so shocked by
his lush appearance that he was still busy gazing at himself when the
doorbell rang. Skinner grinned.
"That will be Ian
and Perry – I told Perry to get here early so he could take a look at how
your brand is healing. Why don't you go and greet your guests?"
"*My* guests?"
Mulder grumbled good-naturedly as he went to open the door, wincing
dramatically at the way his pants flowed with his legs as he walked,
making him feel utterly ridiculous. "Yeah, right, because I invited them,
didn't I? I had a choice in the guest list. I…" He gave a yelp as his
Master delivered a firm slap to his backside which felt almost naked,
covered only by the thin layer of gauze, and then grinned and cast Skinner
a delighted glance over his shoulder. The truth was that he loved acting
up just a little, in order to get his Master's attention – and it was rare
for him not to have his Master's attention, as he well knew. Mulder
scampered along the hallway and opened the door to his guests without so
much as a twinge of embarrassment. He knew that not so long ago he'd have
found being dressed like this in front of others excruciating, but the
last ten months with his Master had shown him he had an exhibitionist
streak, and he had stopped being ashamed of that fact.
His Master was right – it was Ian and Perry. Ian took one look at him and
his face broke into a huge grin.
"Oh god. Your
Master is fiendish!" He proclaimed, stepping inside and motioning Mulder
to do a twirl. Mulder obliged, grinning himself. Yes, this was ridiculous,
but it was amusing too, and these were his closest scene friends who had
seen him at both his best and worst – and in various stages of undress as
well. There was nothing about his current costume that would shock them –
although he did feel a twinge of humiliation at the way his virtually
transparent outfit displayed his body so publicly while everyone else was
comfortably covered up.
Perry raised his
eyebrows heavenwards at Mulder's costume, and stepped around the two subs
to present Skinner with a bottle of wine. The tops chatted for a few
minutes while Mulder submitted to the indignity of having Ian laugh
shamelessly over his costume, and then Skinner beckoned Mulder over.
"Fox, come here - I
want Perry to check out your scar," he said with a click of his fingers.
Mulder went obediently to where his Master was standing and knelt beside
him.
"Ah. You'll have to
teach me that trick," Perry muttered with a rueful glance in Ian's
direction. "*My* sub just laughs when I give him orders."
"Well, it does take some discipline – and a considerable amount
of training," Skinner commented, glancing down at Mulder who felt his ears
beginning to flush. "It's hard work…but the rewards make it worthwhile I
think. Don't they, boy?" His hand brushed Mulder's head and Mulder leaned
into his Master's blunt, caressing fingers. He never could resist it when
Skinner fondled him.
"Yes, Master," he
replied, smiling up at Skinner somewhat hazily.
"Hmm, well, he
seems different…" Perry mused. "Not that he wasn't obedient before
but…well, no, let's be honest, he did have his bad days." He glanced at
Skinner and Mulder remembered all too well the dark days after he'd
mutilated the wound Krycek had left on his chest. "But…I don't know, he
seems to be practically glowing this evening. Can a branding make that
much difference, Walter?" Perry frowned.
Skinner shook his
head. "I don't think it was the branding so much as what it symbolised for
both of us after all we've been through, Perry," he replied. "But we're in
a good place right now. It feels as if everything finally came together
last week when I branded Fox. We're both still a little high on those
feelings I guess."
"I can see that." Perry glanced down at Mulder appreciatively. "Okay…well,
let's take a look at the brand in question, shall we?"
Skinner nodded,
clicking his fingers at Mulder again, and pointing to the couch. Mulder
slid his harem pants down a little way and sat on the couch, and Perry
fished his glasses out of his pocket, perched them on his nose, and sat
down beside him. He leaned forward and examined the brand silently,
without touching it. He observed it for several long seconds, before
finally glancing back up at Skinner again.
"Is it okay?"
Skinner asked, and Mulder didn't miss the note of anxiety in his Master's
voice. Perry smiled, and removed his glasses.
"It's healing perfectly, Walter," he proclaimed. "I can see you've been
following my instructions to the letter. There's no infection – it all
looks like it should…and it's very well done too. A nice, clear mark." He
nodded approvingly.
"Ah, I love it when
he's in Doctor mode," Ian murmured to Mulder conspiratorially, leaning
over his shoulder to gaze at the brand. "He's so…"
"Masterful?" Mulder raised an eyebrow. Ian grinned.
"Well, I guess it
shouldn't come as any surprise that *that* turns me on," he said with a
shrug. "Seriously though, Mulder – the brand is beautiful." There was a
note of reverence in his voice.
"You'll be wanting one now," Mulder replied. Ian glanced at Perry who had
stood up and was busy talking animatedly to Skinner, and then back at
Mulder.
"I don't think
that's something I could persuade Perry to do," he said with a little
shrug. "He's great, Mulder, but let's not pretend he's anything like the
great god of a Master you've landed yourself with. Perry…" Ian shrugged
again. "We get on really well, Mulder. He's the nicest person – incredibly
easy going and we have a lot in common, but he's never pretended to be as
into the scene as I am. He does things to please me, but, well, I think
branding would be a step too far…" He paused, and then gave a little sigh,
"For me as well as for him," he finished. Mulder frowned.
"I thought…"
"I know…but the truth is that I think I prefer living vicariously through
you than actually doing some of this stuff myself. It's a good
fantasy…but, not many of us can pull it off in real life the way you and
Walter have, Mulder. It took me a long time to admit that to myself but
it's true. Some of us have to settle for being mere mortals, and for
living a more normal kind of life. There have been times I've envied you
so much, my friend, but the truth is that I couldn't handle the kind of
relationship you have with Walter. It works for you two, but it'd be too
much for me. I'm glad someone is out there doing it, and I'm glad that
I've stopped beating myself up about the fact that it isn't me." He gave a
wistful little smile. Mulder gazed at him, still frowning.
"I had no idea you
were envious of me…Christ, when I think how badly and how often I've
screwed up…"
"Oh, you've screwed
up spectacularly!" Ian agreed, with a laugh. "You've lived the life for
all of us, Mulder, screw-ups not withstanding. Your life has been a
rollercoaster, one huge drama after another, but I'm more of a steady,
even keel kind of guy and I couldn't cope with all the shit you've been
through. It's taken me a long time to appreciate that fact."
Mulder gazed at his
friend uncertainly. Ian's words bothered him on some level. He knew what
Ian meant – his life thus far, and not just the past ten months either,
*had* been a rollercoaster ride. Maybe he was addicted to the constant
dramas and thrills, but, as he gazed across the room at his Master, he had
the sudden sure knowledge that Skinner was not, and he felt a pang of
guilt for taking this basically quiet, kind, steady person, and dragging
him into the endless highs and lows that life with Fox Mulder entailed. He
hadn't thought about his life in these terms before, but suddenly he
wondered whether Ian might be the one who had got it right, who had a
sense of proportion about his sexual needs…and yet, he wouldn't give up
being his Master's slave for anything.
"Being Walter's
slave isn't *what* I am," he murmured to his friend, "It's *who* I am.
Everything that's happened over the past ten months has basically arisen
from me struggling to come to terms with that essential fact. Ian, you
might have envied me all this time, but I envy you the way you've always
been so comfortable with your sexuality. I might have Walter, but I've
been all over the place emotionally on this journey I've been on. I've
only recently come to terms with the more…uh, extreme aspects of what I
need, and what he gives me. I couldn't have sat here, dressed like this, a
few months ago, and yet the truth is that I love it, deep inside. I'd have
fought him about it not so long ago though – fought myself really I
suppose, because I didn't like myself for having these fantasies."
Ian's eyes were
suspiciously misty and he patted Mulder awkwardly on the shoulder.
"Maybe we should
talk about football or something now," he said, in a slightly choked
voice.
Mulder laughed out loud at that and they changed the subject but he was
still mulling over what Ian had told him. Supposing, he wondered to
himself, that he was addicted to this kind of life, to the rollercoaster,
the constant highs and lows? Supposing he was incapable of ever just
settling down and living peacefully? Supposing he would always keep on
sabotaging this relationship by continually creating some new crisis for
himself and his Master to deal with? Mulder didn't want to put either
himself or Skinner through some of the wilder stunts he'd pulled over the
past 10 months ever again and yet…the profiler in him was worried that it
was so much a part of his pattern of behaviour that he'd never be able to
break it.
The doorbell rang
again a few minutes later and he jumped, startled out of his reverie. He
was pleased to be able to push these troubling thoughts aside, and was
keen to show off his brand to the new visitors so he got to his feet
eagerly and went to the door to find Elaine standing there, with her sub,
David, in tow. Elaine rarely ever dressed informally – she was a woman who
loved to show off her voluptuous figure and long, golden hair whenever she
could, and she was therefore clad in a tight-fitting, blue velvet dress
that matched the colour of her eyes – it was very similar to the one she'd
worn to his abortive branding party only not as dressy. She wasn't a
slender woman, and the dress hugged all her curves in a way that was
incredibly sexy. David certainly couldn't take his eyes off her. He was
dressed impeccably too, in charcoal chinos and a shirt the exact same
shade of blue as his Mistress's dress – although Mulder had the feeling
that, like himself, David might have been ordered what to wear.
"Well, you're
looking better than when I last saw you, Mulder," Elaine said, sweeping
him up against her ample bosom and bestowing a firm kiss on his cheek.
Mulder shook David's hand and then allowed Elaine to examine his brand
through the gauzy fabric of his harem pants. "It's beautiful, my dear,"
she told him, patting his arm fondly. "And thank god it finally happened.
I always said you wouldn’t really be content until Walter put his brand on
you and now…well, looking at you now, I know I was right."
"Yeah." Mulder
could feel himself flushing slightly. "It's such a big deal, Elaine. I had
no idea how much of a big deal until it happened."
"I knew, and I
think Walter knew…but you've always been a little clueless about your own
needs, my dear," she said gently. Mulder couldn't argue with that
statement, and at that moment the doorbell rang again.
"Ah, that'll be Walter's mystery guests," he grinned. His Master appeared
in the hallway, and Mulder glanced at him for permission to greet their
new guests. Skinner nodded, and Mulder took a deep breath and then opened
the door. Hammer was standing in the hallway, and, next to him, leaning
heavily on a walking cane, was Murray. He was dressed in one of his usual
flowing kaftans, in a bright red and gold pattern, but even the voluminous
folds of the garment couldn't hide the fact that he had lost weight during
his recent serious illness. His cheeks were a little pale and sunken, but
his eyes sparkled as brightly as ever with that insatiable zest for living
that nothing, not even a serious heart attack, could suppress.
"Ah, I see that the
young cub has been taken by the scruff of his neck and finally offered up
to the fiery kiss of the iron!" He proclaimed loudly, pointing at Mulder's
brand with his walking cane.
"Oh god!" Hammer
raised his eyes heavenwards. "This is the first time he's been out since I
got him back from the hospital, and I knew he'd ham it up."
"Murray?" Mulder
shook the grizzled top enthusiastically by the hand. "Are you okay?"
"Yes, my dear boy!
I'm back! The rumours of my death were greatly exaggerated," Murray
announced, in a loud, stage whisper.
"I don't think
anyone thought you were dead, Murray," Skinner disputed, laughing as he
came forward to greet his friends. "But you're certainly looking a damn
sight better than you did when I last saw you."
"And that," Murray declared in a loud voice, "is despite the true
hideousness of hospital food, and this new diet Hammer has me on which is
fare only suitable for those of the lapine persuasion."
"He means rabbits,"
Hammer said, making a face. "He's been complaining about the new diet
non-stop from the moment I got him home."
"There was a time,"
Murray said, in that deep, booming, dramatic voice of his, "when a
submissive knew his place – but this boy here," He tapped Hammer lightly
with his walking cane on his backside, "Hardly even listens to his Master
these days," he lamented.
"Murray, when you
talk everyone listens as you well know," Hammer replied, and Mulder
noticed how tenderly he took Murray's arm, and helped him slowly into the
other room. Murray might be able to put on a good show, but it was clear
that he was still recuperating from his heart attack.
At some point, and
Mulder didn't know when as he was sure he hadn't let his Master out of his
sight for the past week since his branding, Skinner had managed to stock
the fridge with food. Maybe he'd ordered it online one night while his
slave slept, Mulder thought as they ate a simple pasta dish with salad,
followed by a delicious chocolate and coconut pie. The conversation around
the dinner table was lively, and Mulder felt himself falling silent. He
gazed at the talking, laughing faces around him and wondered whether he'd
ever get used to this kind of easy normality. These people, somehow,
slowly, and without him even realising it, had become his friends, and
he'd never really had any friends before, except for Scully and Skinner
himself. He felt as if he was really part of this gathering, that he
actually belonged in this easy, dinner party intimacy, and yet that tiny,
doubtful voice inside questioned whether he could be happy like this in
the long term. If occasions like this were his life, instead of the dramas
that had marked it so far, would that be enough? Would simple friendship
and the company of people who knew and accepted him be sufficient for him,
or would he always hanker after something more? Did he need those battles
with Krycek, and his endless quest to chase his own tail looking for
answers to questions he had long since stopped understanding? He didn't
know the answer even to that question, and was relieved when his Master
noticed his silence and clicked his fingers to call his slave to his side
and kneel beside to him. Mulder felt a sense of calm seep into his bones
as he knelt there, excused from any obligation to be sociable, but all the
same he knew this wasn't the answer he had been looking for. He couldn't
use his Master to hide from the doubts he had about himself and his own
personality, but for now, at least, it was relaxing to have permission to
switch off from his problems. He enjoyed listening to his friends'
conversation, and it was easier not to feel he had to contribute; with
Murray and Elaine present it was hard for anyone to get a word in edgeways
in any case. After dinner their guests went to sit in the living room, but
Skinner hung back and looked down on his slave.
"Is everything all right, Fox?" He asked softly. "You went very quiet."
"I know. I was…a
bit overwhelmed," Mulder admitted.
"That's fair
enough." Skinner nodded. "It's been just you and me all week and it must
have felt strange to you suddenly seeing all these people."
"Yeah." Mulder
managed a wry smile. He hadn't lied to his Master, but he hadn't told him
the whole truth either – he wasn't ready to share these doubts just yet.
He wanted his Master to have some peace, and he didn't want to worry
Skinner that there was even a possibility that he'd take off at any moment
and embroil them both in another crisis just because he was addicted to a
rollercoaster kind of lifestyle.
"Come on - we've left our guests for long enough."
Skinner motioned
with his head and they walked into the living room, where Ian was giggling
hysterically over something Murray had said, while Hammer was shaking his
head in mock embarrassment. Mulder waited until Skinner was seated, and
then knelt beside his Master, resting his chin on Skinner's thigh as he
usually did.
"I have an announcement to make," Elaine proclaimed when everyone was
settled. Mulder lifted his head, feeling like a curious puppy. Elaine
glanced at David and Mulder lifted his head even higher – David had an
expression of anticipation in his eyes as he gazed back at his Mistress.
"I'm delighted to announce that there's going to be a wedding!" Elaine
said. "A scene wedding of course!" She added with a grin. "I've decided to
make an honest man of David and take him as my husband." There was silence
for a moment and then the room reverberated to the sound of
congratulations, and Murray saying over and over again, "My, my, my!" as
if he'd never heard such extraordinary news although he didn't *look* very
surprised so Mulder guessed that he probably already knew.
"A scene wedding?"
Mulder questioned, wondering what that would entail.
"Oh yes." Elaine
gave a broad grin. "Murray and Hammer have kindly lent us the use of their
house for the ceremony, and Murray is doing us the honour of conducting
the ceremony himself." She leaned over and patted Murray's hand
affectionately and Mulder couldn't help smiling at how delighted Murray
looked. He guessed that having something like this to prepare for, and an
audience to impress, was exactly what Murray required to aid in his
recuperation. "I will have a carriage, drawn by real human horses…" Elaine
continued.
"Can I volunteer to be one of your ponies?" Ian interrupted eagerly.
"I'd be delighted, dear," she replied, patting his head fondly. "You'll
have to be dressed appropriately of course." Ian's beaming smile made it
clear that he had been hoping that would be part of the deal. "I'm having
my dress made especially for the occasion – and David is working on his
own outfit." She paused, and brushed her hand gently over her sub's cheek.
Mulder was grinning inanely now; David was a quiet kind of person, but
Mulder had no doubt that the other sub adored his Mistress with every bone
in his body – and that he was exactly the right man for Elaine. "I'm
hoping that that all my dear friends here today will join us on our big
day," Elaine said, glancing around the room.
"When is it?"
Walter asked, a note of anxiety in his voice. Mulder frowned, wondering
what *that* was about, and watched as his Master got out his diary and
started flicking through it.
"Six weeks." Elaine
pointed to the date in Skinner's diary over his shoulder, and he breathed
a visible sigh of relief.
"We will be going, won't we, Walter?" Muder asked softly.
"You bet," Skinner
replied, squeezing his slave's shoulder affectionately. "Elaine, David,
this is wonderful news. I'm delighted for you both."
"I had one more thing I wanted to ask of you, Walter dear," Elaine said.
"You and I have been friends for a long time, and while this won't be a
conventional wedding, I would be very pleased if you'd walk me to the
altar."
Skinner got to his
feet, and bestowed a little kiss on Elaine's hand. "I'd be delighted," he
said in a suspiciously husky voice. "I'll visit Elliott next week and ask
him to make me something…" He paused, and grinned, "appropriate to wear,"
he finished. "And I'll ask Donald to make something equally fitting for my
slave," he added, casting a glance at Mulder.
"Oh god," Mulder
muttered under his breath.
At that moment they
were all distracted by Murray's booming voice informing them that it was
exactly midnight and the new year was upon them, and there was a wild
scramble to fill glasses with champagne and make a toast. Then, finally,
an hour or so later, their guests took their leave of them, and Mulder and
Skinner were alone together once more.
"Thank you,
Master," Mulder said, as he closed the door behind Ian. "I enjoyed this
evening."
"You're welcome,
boy." Skinner bestowed a kiss on Mulder's cheek as he passed him on his
way back into the living room. Mulder hesitated, and then ducked into the
hall cupboard, and drew out a large package, bound up with string. He
followed Skinner into the living room, and handed him the parcel. "What's
this?" Skinner frowned.
"Your Christmas
present," Mulder replied, with a guilty grimace. "I'm sorry – I've been
meaning to give it to you all week but we were so…" He waved his hand in
the air and Skinner grinned in acknowledgement, understanding the gesture,
"That I kept forgetting. Then I thought that as it was a bit late for
Christmas, it'd make a good New Year present instead. So - Happy New Year,
Walter." He settled down at his Master's feet to watch him open the
parcel. Skinner's blunt fingers made short work of it, and he peeled back
the paper to reveal the painting underneath. Mulder held his breath,
hoping that his Master would like it. Skinner gazed at it wordlessly, but
the expression in his eyes told Mulder all he needed to know.
"Fox…how…no, *when* did you…?" Skinner glanced from the painting to Mulder
and back again. The picture depicted, in a few skilful lines, Skinner,
gazing down lovingly and protectively at his slave, who was staring back
up at him with an expression of appropriately worshipful adulation on his
face.
"There was an
artist at that fetish fair you took me to," Mulder grinned. "I
commissioned him to do it and he made a few sketches without you noticing.
I also sent him some polaroids so he could flesh it out some more. It
isn't as perfect as if we'd sat for him but I wanted it to be a surprise,
and…"
"It's beautiful,"
Skinner said, shaking his head as he gazed at the picture. It *was* pretty
good in Mulder's opinion. He'd been very impressed when he'd first opened
the package; it wasn't so much the details of their features that the
artist had captured, as the expressions in their eyes, and the way they
were looking at each other. It was the perfect representation of the
Master/slave bond, and that was why Mulder loved it so much.
"I thought we could
hang it in the Playroom," Mulder suggested.
"I think I'd prefer
to hang it in the bedroom – where we can see it every day," Skinner
replied. "Come here." Skinner beckoned him over, and planted a loving kiss
on his slave's mouth. "Thank you," he said softly, and then, without
missing a beat, he said, in the same breath: "Wanda."
Mulder was
surprised by the command, but he knew better than to hesitate or question
the order, and immediately knelt down in front of his Master, lowered his
harem pants, and held his butt cheeks open so that Skinner could enter him
and use him. He loved being used like this, and his cock was half hard
just from hearing the command and knowing the intent behind it. He leaned
his upper body against the coffee table, and waited to feel his Master's
hard cock pushing into his ass – so he was completely taken by surprise
when he felt a warm, wet tongue pushing inside him instead. He gave a
little squawk and almost lost his balance, but his Master's hands on his
hips kept him steady. Skinner was an expert rimmer, and Mulder quickly
surrendered to the sheer pleasure that skilful tongue was giving him. He
moaned, and his cock was so hard it was leaking, but he knew better than
to expect it to be given any release.
"Keep holding
yourself open for me," Skinner growled, drawing back a little. "I want to
really taste my slave's fine ass."
Mulder shivered,
desperately turned on, and then moaned as Skinner's tongue dipped back
inside him again, reaching even further this time, and exciting him even
more. A few minutes later, after he'd been thoroughly rimmed, Skinner drew
back, and Mulder opened up his legs and anus even further as he felt his
Master's hands on his buttocks and then the familiar sensation of
Skinner's thick, stiff cock sliding into his body. Usually his Master went
hard and fast during these Wanda sessions, but on this occasion he went
slowly, almost gently, his hands playing over his slave's body like a
musical instrument as he slid in and out of his anus. Mulder moved his
hands forwards and gripped the coffee table desperately as Skinner's slow,
gentle thrusting reached a climax.
"You can come,
Fox," Skinner said and for a moment Mulder wasn't sure he'd heard him
right. He was rarely allowed to take his own pleasure during a Wanda
session – the whole point of them was for him to make himself available to
his Master for Skinner to use for his own pleasure, with no thought for
his slave's enjoyment.
"Master?" Mulder
panted, wanting to be sure that he'd heard correctly.
"I said you can
come," Skinner purred into his ear on a forward thrust. "Any time you
like, boy. Consider it a New Year's present."
Mulder didn't need
telling twice. He reached down and massaged his hard cock to climax with a
few strokes. He heard and felt his Master come inside him, and then
Skinner rolled over onto the floor, taking his slave with him, his big
arms pulling Mulder close against his chest.
"Oh god that was
good, Master," Mulder murmured.
"Mmmm. It was,"
Skinner grinned.
"If surprising."
Mulder glanced at his Master. "You've often given me the Wanda command,
Master, but you've never varied how you use that command - until tonight."
"Tonight I thought I'd surprise you, the way you surprised me with that
beautiful present," Skinner said, tracing a finger over his slave's lush
mouth and inserting it a little way inside. "It was also something by way
of a reward. You've improved a lot since the early days but I never
thought I'd get you to the stage where you submitted so quickly and
obediently, and so often, to that particular command. I always said that
when you did it would show how completely and happily you had accepted
your slavery - and it looks like we've reached that stage. Happy New Year,
Fox."
Mulder smiled, and
snuggled in close to his Master. "Happy New Year, Walter," he replied
softly, tracing the outline of one of Skinner's nipples through his
sweater. "You know, this time last year I wasn't your slave. I didn't even
know you hid this surprising alter ego under those stiff white shirts and
that surly office demeanour."
"I'm not surly!" Skinner protested mildly.
"Sure you are,"
Mulder grinned. "That's partly why I fell in love with you. Doesn't it
freak you out though, thinking back to just a year ago and realising we
weren't together then? I spent last New Year's Eve on my own, staking out
a haunted house and freezing my ass off in the middle of nowhere…"
"On your own? Without backup?" Skinner gave him a dangerous nudge.
"It was a year ago,
Master, before I became your slave," Mulder said quickly. "I was *bad*
then."
"Hmmm," Skinner said, giving him a speculative look, as if he wasn't
entirely sure that Mulder was exactly *good* now.
"Anyway," Mulder
said, continuing hurriedly, "My point is that I had no idea that in just a
year's time…" He hesitated. "My life would go from being a train wreck to
being pretty damn perfect," he finished with a grin.
Skinner grinned
back at him. "If I had the energy I'd fuck you again, right now, just
because you're mine and I can and yes, *that* still gives me a thrill,
boy."
"Ah, and I thought
my Master, the sex god, was always up for it." Mulder snaked his hand down
the front of Skinner's pants to his cock. Skinner stopped it on its way
there with his own hand.
"I might be too
exhausted to fuck you, but you can rest assured that my right arm is
*always* available to hand out a good spanking," he warned.
"Ah, promises,
promises," Mulder teased, and then wished he hadn't as Skinner suddenly
sat up, pulled his slave over his knee, and administered several hard
spanks to his backside. Skinner hadn't spanked him for over a week, as he
had been very wary about damaging his slave's healing brand, but he
arranged Mulder carefully over his lap and laid into his ass with a very
firm hand until Mulder was wriggling animatedly.
"I'm sorry! I take
it back!" He hollered.
"Now I bet you wish
you were back staking out haunted houses on your own without backup,"
Skinner commented. Mulder went suddenly still.
"No," he said
softly, his ass glowing with pleasure at being so roundly and thoroughly
chastised. "I'm exactly where I want to be, Master."
Skinner gave a
little laugh, and his spanks degenerated into more playful caressing of
his slave's bottom, until finally he just sat there, stroking Mulder's ass
with those big, strong hands of his. "Me too, boy," he murmured softly.
"Me too.
It felt strange to
go back to work a couple of days later, dressed in his usual work suit,
knowing that he wore his Master's brand on his skin. Mulder couldn't help
brushing his hand casually over his thigh when he was walking, and got a
thrill each time as he remembered that he was an owned, branded slave,
with the most magnificent Master in the world. It had taken him a long
time to reach this stage, where he was so happy in his slavery and no
longer fought it, and he wondered, as he bounced down the stairs to his
office, whether his new found peace of mind would alter his thirst for his
work. He knew he had thrown himself into the X Files in order to both
pursue and avoid some of the big questions he had about himself, and now
he was so content, and his Master had helped him to figure out his
feelings both about his sexuality and his guilt over his lost sister, he
wondered whether he might have lost his edge.
"Hey stranger…how
was your Christmas?" Scully asked him the moment he stepped through the
door.
"My Christmas was…"
Mulder paused and gave a stupid smile. "Fantastic," he finished.
"Hmmm, I can see
that. You're looking all…goofy."
"Goofy?" Mulder
questioned in an outraged tone. "I don't DO goofy, Scully. I'm far too
cool."
He ignored her giggle of sheer disbelief, and her muttered, "Dream on,
Agent Mulder, dream on," and sat down at his desk and began sifting
through the paperwork that had built up in his absence.
"Ahem," Scully said. Mulder glanced up. Scully raised an eyebrow.
"Oh. Uh, how was
your Christmas, Scully?" Mulder asked hurriedly.
"Busy," she replied
mysteriously. Mulder sighed.
"Okay. I'll bite. Why was it busy?"
"Because I moved
into John's apartment," she told him.
"You moved in?" Mulder asked in mock-incredulous tones. "Without a wedding
ring on your finger, Dana Scully? And I thought you were a good little
catholic girl!"
"Well…" Scully
actually blushed, "We did think - should I move in with him, or should he
move in with me - but there's more room at his place for a baby…so his
place won…" She trailed off, blushing even more furiously.
Mulder stared at her. "A baby?" He repeated, stunned. She bit on her lip,
still flushing from the roots of her red hair to the tip of her chin.
"A baby," she
repeated softly, her eyes shyly finding his.
Mulder just sat
there, trying to figure out how he felt about this. She stood by her desk,
staunchly holding her ground and yet clearly worried about what his
reaction would be. He would be lying if he said he didn’t feel a pang of
something deep inside. He'd always had the feeling that in a different
universe he and Scully might have been together and then this baby would
be his… and yet, he knew that he wouldn't trade the life he had with his
Master for anything. Maybe many other universes existed, and in one of
them he and Scully were together and had a baby, but he wondered whether,
fundamentally, he could ever be happy in such a world, the way he was
happy in this one. He suspected not, and felt a shiver run down his spine
– it was the same feeling he'd had when he learned about the spaceship
that had abducted Gibson Praise; he'd felt the strangest sensation that in
another universe he had been taken by that ship. He felt the same way
about Scully's baby. It was as if they were all acting out variations on a
theme, and some constants came up, like the spaceship and the baby, while
others varied wildly, like his relationship with Skinner, and Scully's
with Doggett.
"Scully, that's
wonderful," he said, quietly and sincerely, getting up and taking her in
his arms. He buried his face in her soft, red hair and inhaled the scent
of her, a scent he knew so well. "I'm so happy for you," he whispered.
"Thank you," she
replied, rubbing his back with her hands. "I'm glad. I wasn't sure how
you'd feel about it. I know you have so much going on in your own life
right now…but all the same…there was a time when…"
"When it could have been you and me? Yes. I know." He nodded. "But I think
that would've been wrong, Scully. This is right. This is the right way for
it to have happened."
She gazed at him,
startled. "You say the strangest things, Mulder."
"I just have this feeling." He waved his arms around helplessly. "Don't
you have it too, Scully?"
He stared at her and she bit down on her lip, and then took a deep breath.
"I…I have to admit…Mulder,
you probably know this but John had a son with his ex-wife…and the little
boy was abducted and murdered. When I found out I was pregnant…I didn't
understand how it could have happened. You and I both know that…" She
gazed at him, and then shook her head. "Well we both know it *shouldn't*
be possible, but somehow it's happened, and so easily…I have to wonder
whether this child was meant to be, for John as well as for me. For him
because he lost Luke, and for me because I thought that after all that's
happened to me I couldn't have children." Her eyes were bright with tears
which she blinked back. He knew how much this admission had cost her, and
gave a little nod.
"It's not so hard
to believe, Scully," he told her simply. "After all we've seen, how can it
be so hard to believe?" He thought of himself just under a year ago,
running around blindly on a mission to self-destruct, and ending up,
somehow, at the feet of the one person in the world who was strong enough
and who cared enough to pick him up, take care of him, and help him sort
out his life. What were the chances of that happening? Sometimes it was
hard not to believe in the guiding hand of fate.
She gave a sigh of relief. "That's just it, Mulder. That's how I feel. I'm
not questioning this – I feel too happy."
"Good. That makes
two of us then," Mulder said, squeezing her hand and then releasing her.
"I'm gonna be an Uncle!"
Scully giggled at
that and Mulder sat back down at his desk. He started working his way
through the pile of paperwork that had built up in his absence, and then
came across a stack of files, opened a couple of them, and frowned.
"What are these?" He asked, holding up the contents of one of the files.
"Those? Resumes!"
Scully told him cheerfully.
"And why would I need to wade through resumes?" Mulder asked ominously.
"You're not leaving me are you, Scully?"
"No." She shook her head. "But we're busy down here, Mulder, and I'll need
to go on maternity leave in a few months so you'll need some help, and…"
"I managed fine
before you showed up, I'm sure I can manage fine again when you go off and
have your baby," he said with a frown. "I don't want anyone new in here
asking stupid questions. It took me long enough to train you," he added
slyly.
"Hah! It was the other way around more like," she muttered. "Mulder, I'm
sorry, but we're having help and that's that."
Mulder's eyes
narrowed. "Did you go over my head on this?" He demanded. Scully pursed
her lips and made no reply. "Oh god. You went to Skinner didn't you?" He
sighed. "And he approved this?"
"Yes. He thought it
was a good idea. He thinks you work too hard," Scully said.
"We'll see about
that." Mulder reached out a hand to pick up the phone when there was a
brief knock at the door and his Master entered the tiny basement office.
"Agent Scully.
Agent Mulder." Skinner nodded at each of them. "Ah, I see you've found the
resumes, Agent Mulder. I thought you'd be calling me about now so I
decided to save you the effort."
"There have been
times, god knows, when the X Files department has needed help – usually
when I have to go through my expenses report in front of that strange
committee you always bring in when I go particularly over-budget." Mulder
frowned meaningfully at his boss and Master. "So if there's any extra
money going around I'd rather it was channelled into the work and not into
hiring another person."
"I thought you'd
say that, but there are more X Files cases now than ever before, and you
could do with an extra pair of hands around here," Skinner said
pleasantly. "You work too hard, Agent Mulder, and while you might have
been happy running yourself into the ground before, now that you're more,
uh, settled, in your home life, you aren't putting in the hours you once
were – so the cases are building up. To be honest, the X Files department
has always been undermanned – but while you were doing the work of two
people the FBI was taking advantage of that fact. It's time that stopped.
You're too important to us for us to mis-use that unique mind of yours.
Accept the help, Agent."
"Is that an order?" Mulder challenged, suddenly acutely aware of the terms
of his contract. He knew what his Master would say if he argued with him
privately about this: You're my slave everywhere, boy, not just at home
or in the bedroom – you knew what the deal was when you signed on, and I
expect your obedience here, there and everywhere. And, in truth, was
Skinner even saying anything unreasonable? He was actually paying Mulder a
compliment by giving his department more help – and Mulder had to admit
that it would be useful having someone else to handle the workload.
"This one is called
Monica Reyes and she supposedly specialises in satanic cults," Mulder
groaned, holding up a resume. "I bet all these resumes are similarly
kooky. I'll get applications from every nutcase working in law
enforcement."
"Hey, spooky, who
are you calling a nutcase?" Scully said. "I came to work here didn't I?
And you started the department and look at all the names you've been
called."
Mulder glared at
Scully and then tried to glare at his Master, only to find Skinner's dark
brown eyes gazing back at him with just a hint of danger in them. Mulder
swallowed hard, and tried to think this through. He trusted his Master to
know what was best for him at home, and Skinner had never let him down
there – maybe it was time to trust that he knew what was best at work too.
Mulder knew he had a tendency to throw himself into his work to the
exclusion of everything else in his life, and he also knew that his Master
would only let him do that up to a point; the moment Mulder looked as if
he was heading for self-destruct, Skinner would haul him back in.
Sometimes that experience was painful, and sometimes it just made him
angry, but Mulder knew that he trusted his Master with all of his life,
and not just his sex life.
"Okay, okay." Mulder held up his hands with a sigh. "I give in."
"Thank you, Agent,"
Skinner said softly.
Mulder glanced at
his Master from under his eyelashes, and then brushed his hand
meaningfully over his thigh, just where his brand was. Skinner smiled,
noticing the gesture, and briefly touched his fingers to his stiff white
shirt, which Mulder knew hid the exquisitely beautiful fox tattoo on his
chest. They shared a little moment, just the two of them, both of them
acknowledging the bond between them and how that had influenced Mulder's
decision, and then Skinner nodded at his agents, and left the room.
Mulder spent the
next few days alternately interviewing candidates for the new position in
the X Files department and catching up on the case files that had been
left on his desk over the holidays. He fell back into his work so quickly
that he knew he had been worrying about nothing before; he still loved his
job, only now he'd achieved a better balance between his work and his home
life. He was surprised to find that Monica Reyes actually turned out to be
a fascinating woman with a lot of relevant experience and an open mind –
and she won him over, much to Scully's disgust, by telling him how she had
been following his work for years, and how in awe of him she was. He gave
her the job on the spot.
Later that week,
Skinner took his slave to be measured for his wedding outfit. Mulder
almost laughed out loud when he saw his old friend Donald, now looking for
all the world like a younger Elliott. The two men wore matching grey
suits, with the same pink handkerchiefs and ties. They looked immaculate -
and completely and utterly besotted with each other.
"So, how's it
working out, Donny?" Mulder asked as Donald measured him for whatever
outlandish outfit he was sure his Master was going to make him wear. "I
mean, with Elliott?"
"It's perfect,"
Donald breathed, a rather silly smile spreading across his face. "Thank
you so much, Mulder."
"Don't thank me –
I'm pretty sure it was Walter who got you two together. I just got you
drunk." Mulder grinned, remembering that entirely memorable night. "Did
Elliott tan your hide for that by the way?"
Donald flushed a shade of vivid pink, all the way up to his earlobes. "Mulder!"
He hissed.
"Well, you watched my Master spank the hell out of me, so I don't see why
you should be so coy about it," Mulder chided. "Come on, Donny – spill the
beans."
"It's private,"
Donald hissed. "But yes…he was a little, uh, firm with me. He still is –
but only when I play up for his attention and I don't usually because…
spanking *hurts*, Mulder. You never told me that!"
"Well, duh!" Mulder shook his head. "It does hurt, Don, but…it's a good
hurt." He grinned.
"Well, I like the
idea of it more than the reality…although I love it when we play act it. I
hate it when he does it for real because I don't like knowing that I've
upset him or disappointed him in some way. I just want him to be proud of
me."
"Hell, I'm sure he
is, Don," Mulder grinned. "I can tell just by the way he looks at you."
Donald gave a cheerful little smile in return and his cheeks flushed an
even deeper shade of bubble gum pink. Mulder chuckled – Donald was the
easiest person in the world to tease.
"So, tell me, Don,"
Mulder said, lowering his voice into a whisper, "what does Walter have
planned for me to wear to this wedding?"
Donald straightened up and put away his tape measure. "I can't tell you
that I'm afraid, Mulder," he said, with a totally professional, and
entirely evil smile. "I've been sworn to secrecy. One thing I do know
though is that you're going to attract one hell of a lot of admiring
glances." And with that he sauntered out of the cubicle, leaving Mulder to
reflect on the fact that Donald wasn't the only one who was easily teased.
Mulder spent a busy
few days in New Orleans with Monica Reyes, investigating a case of
apparent bodily possession by an otherworldly entity. Reyes proved to be
an able, if sometimes slightly annoying person to have around, with her
endless questions and sunny disposition. Mulder found her new-age outlook
on life thoroughly exasperating, and was keen to dispel any preconceptions
she might have that working on the X Files was going to be some kind of a
spiritual journey. In his experience, the X Files were about getting your
shoes covered in acidic green slime and taking regular trips to the
hospital, and he didn't want her to be in any doubt about the reality of
their work. A part of him was secretly hoping she'd give up and he'd be
able to report back to Skinner and Scully that she hadn't worked out, but,
much to his annoyance, she seemed to love her first case, despite his best
efforts to make the whole thing seem ten times more frightening than it
actually was.
They returned to
the office, where Monica began submitting the usual expenses report for a
new pair of shoes and a cell phone, under Scully's expert and well
practiced tutelage, and Mulder began typing up the case report. He waited
until Scully and Monica had left the office to visit the cafeteria, and
then reached for the phone.
"Skinner," his
Master answered tersely.
"Hey. It's me – I'm
home," Mulder replied. "Miss me?"
"You've only been gone 3 days," Skinner pointed out.
"Bet the bed's been
kinda cold without me though."
"Wanda functions very well as a hot water bottle."
"Hah. Well, I know
you missed me, and I'm sure as hell you missed my, uh, more personal
services," Mulder riposted seductively.
"And I sure as hell
hope Scully and Reyes aren't there with you right now listening to this,"
Skinner replied.
"Nah - they went in
search of muffins…which is, of and by itself, an X File. Before Reyes came
along Scully only ate low fat yoghurt – now she can't exist without
regular infusions of pastries every few hours. There used to be a time
when I could bribe her with muffins but now she eats several a day that
just doesn't work any more," Mulder said mournfully.
"She *is* pregnant," Skinner reminded him. "She's eating for two now."
"Hmmm. So what have
you been doing in my absence?"
"I went back to my
old gym – did some boxing." Skinner's voice sounded distracted.
"You beat someone
to a pulp without taking me along to watch?" Mulder asked mournfully. "You
know I love it when you do all that he-man stuff."
"I didn't beat
anybody to a pulp. I got creamed. I'm completely out of practice."
"You okay? Were you
hurt?" Mulder frowned, finding it hard to imagine anyone besting his tall,
strong Master in a fight.
"Just a little
banged up. A couple of bruises but I'm fine," Skinner said dismissively.
"So, any chance of
you leaving early tonight?" Mulder asked, with what he hoped was a purr in
his voice. "I could rub something into those bruises…"
"Sorry, Fox,"
Skinner said, with a regretful little sigh. "But I'm snowed under here – I
can't seem to finish this mountain of paperwork, and I've got one hell of
a headache that won't go away."
"Sounds to me like you need some attention from your favourite slaveboy to
relax you," Mulder suggested in a throaty voice. Skinner gave a wry, deep
chuckle but it sounded strained. "You sure you're okay?" Mulder asked
anxiously.
"What? Yes…just…I
have to work, Fox," Skinner said in a distant tone of voice, and with that
he finished the call.
Mulder sat and
stared at the phone despondently. That wasn't the welcome home he'd been
hoping for; he knew he'd only been away for a few days but right now, as
in love with his Master as he was, that felt like a lifetime.
With a sigh, he
turned in his chair and began wading his way through the little pile of
case notes and evidence he had brought back with him. He worked steadily
throughout the afternoon, until the phone interrupted him at about 4pm.
"Agent Mulder!" A
breathless, frantic voice said on the other end of the line.
"Yes…who is this…?"
Mulder stood up, a cold premonition seizing him. He had the feeling that
something was wrong - very wrong.
"It's me…it's
Kim…I…Agent Mulder…" She sounded distressed and tearful.
"Kim – what the
hell is happening?"
"It's the Assistant
Director," she whispered, and Mulder felt his heart fall several feet into
the soles of his shoes – and stay there.
"What's happened…?
No, wait…I'm coming up there."
Mulder dropped the
phone and ran for the elevator. He waited for it to arrive for all of 6
seconds before deciding he couldn't stand there any longer and took the
stairs instead, climbing them 3 at a time. As he ran, a hundred worse case
scenarios flitted through his mind, the worst of them all shoving their
way to the front and refusing to go away: Maybe Krycek was back…maybe he'd
come back seeking revenge, had somehow got access to the building and had
put a bullet through Skinner's head. Or maybe those bruises Skinner had
mentioned were more serious than he'd realised. Maybe he had damaged his
heart. Mulder charged along the 5th floor corridor, barely able
to breathe from anxiety, ran towards Skinner's office, threw open the
door, charged inside, and stopped short, utterly shocked.
His Master was
lying on the carpet in his office, with a makeshift pillow under his head.
His face was white, the colour of chalk, and his eyes were closed, but
what was truly shocking was the network of dark purple veins that
criss-crossed his face, like a lattice. Mulder had never seen anything
like them in his life before.
"He just
collapsed," Kim said tearfully, from where she was kneeling beside
Skinner's body. "One minute I was talking to him, and the next…his face
started to go like this…" She waved a hand at the dark lines covering
Skinner's face, "…and he went down like someone physically yanked his legs
out from under his body. I've called for the paramedics…I put my sweater
under his head…"
"Walter?" Mulder
ran forward and knelt down beside his Master. "Master?" He whispered
softly, placing his fingers against the big man's neck. The raised dark
veins pulsed almost obscenely beneath his fingers, but he was relieved
that at least his Master was still alive. Skinner made no move though, and
he didn't open his eyes. "Walter?!" Mulder said again, more firmly this
time, taking his Master's head in his hands. There was still no response
and he looked up helplessly at Kim.
"Damnit, where are
those paramedics?" He yelled.
"They're on their
way," she replied, her voice catching in her throat. "Will he be okay? He
has to be okay. He's the nicest man…the best boss I've ever worked for…"
Mulder grabbed one
of Skinner's hands and held it tight, not caring whether Kim or anyone
else saw or heard him. "You can't die now, Walter," he hissed. "Not now.
Not when everything's so good. Christ, we went through all the shit we've
been through just so we could reach this point, and you are not going to
die on me now. You are NOT!" He said forcefully. There was no reply;
Skinner remained oblivious to his slave's entreaties. "Christ, what the
hell *is* this?" Mulder wondered out loud, his long fingers sweeping
across the broad expanse of his Master's head again, examining the raised,
pulsating veins. "I've never seen anything like it." It had the feeling of
an X File – and Mulder had encountered enough of those in his time to be
able to identify one when it was right beneath his nose. He tried
desperately to remember whether any of the files in his basement office
contained information on something like this, but his worry made it
impossible for him to focus, and a few seconds later he was pushed out of
the way as the paramedics swept into the room. He watched, helplessly, as
they examined his Master and then
strapped Skinner onto a gurney. Mulder jogged alongside his Master as they
took Skinner downstairs and into a waiting ambulance.
"Sorry, sir," one
of the paramedics said, blocking his way as he tried to get into the
ambulance. "You'll have to follow on behind."
"Like fucking hell! I'm coming with him," Mulder replied, in a tone of
voice that sent shivers even up his own spine, and seemed to have a
similar effect on the paramedic, who backed away, startled. "I'm his next
of kin," he said firmly, suddenly thankful for the fact that Skinner had
been so insistent on clarifying his slave's legal status in the wake of
Murray's heart attack.
Skinner didn't move
during the journey to the hospital, and he was still comatose when they
wheeled him into the ER. Even then, Mulder refused to be separated from
his Master. When they tried to get him to go into another room he point
blank refused.
"I won't leave his
side," he said, shaking his head. I'm his slave, he thought to
himself. If he dies I'll sit beside his goddamn grave until I die too.
He felt a stab of intense pain in his chest at the thought of his Master
dying. He wasn't sure he could live without Skinner – he couldn't
physically imagine a life without his Master in it, not after all they'd
been through this past year, and not now, when he was more in love with
his Master than at any point before. Supposing there was some kind of
hideous symmetry about all this? Andrew Linker, Skinner's top, had died
after helping Skinner towards an understanding and acceptance of himself
and his sexuality. Supposing this was history repeating itself? He pushed
that thought away, and watched, as if from a great distance, as the
doctors swarmed all over his Master.
"Sir?" A sturdy,
no-nonsense, black doctor took hold of his arm and forced him to look away
from the scene in front of him, where his Master was having tubes inserted
into his arms, and to look into her eyes instead.
"What is it? What's
happened to him?" Mulder asked.
"We don't know,"
the doctor said gently, seeing his obvious distress.
"You don't know
what's wrong with him?" Mulder shook his head incredulously. "Christ –
surely he can't look like that and it not be obvious what the hell is
wrong with him!"
"Nobody's seen anything like it, sir," the doctor told him. "We're making
him more comfortable while we wait for the results of some tests."
Mulder couldn't
even follow what she was talking about. Everything seemed hazy. All he
could see was his Master, lying pale and prone under a hospital sheet.
"But…he was fine…I spoke to him earlier. He had a headache…he said he had
a headache but he was fine…I don't…" He paused and pulled himself
together. "Is he going to be okay?" He asked quietly.
"We don't know yet," she replied honestly. "It's touch and go right now
but we'll do all we can for him."
"Touch and go…" Mulder repeated. "Are you saying that he could die from
this? Could it kill him?"
"Yes, Mr. Mulder. He could die," she told him quietly, and Mulder felt the
icy fist that had been wrapped around his heart since he got Kim's frantic
phone call, tighten its grip. "He's got severe circulatory problems to the
extent where…" The doctor opened her mouth again, hesitated, and then
continued. "It might be necessary for us to amputate his extremities," she
told him.
"What?" Mulder stared at her blankly. "What the hell do you mean?"
"His arms and
legs…if the blood flow gets worse then there will be tissue death – we
might have to amputate his legs, and possibly his arms, to save his life.
It might be necessary. We might need you to agree to the operation." Her
brown eyes were sympathetic but that did nothing to lessen the horrific
import of what she was saying.
Mulder closed his
eyes and tried to visualise how his Master would feel about that. So much
of Skinner's personality was invested in his sheer, physical presence – he
couldn't imagine how his Master would cope with being disabled. Would he
rather be dead than crippled for life? Or would he prefer to survive,
whatever the price? Would he blame Mulder for giving them permission to
operate? Or would he be grateful that Mulder had made such a hard decision
for him? How would it affect their relationship, Mulder wondered? Not in a
selfish sense, but simply in terms of practicalities. Could Skinner even
*be* his Master in such circumstances? And could Mulder treat him as one?
How much of both their perceptions of their roles rested on the fact that
Skinner was able to physically subdue Mulder as part of a sex game and
simply in the course of their daily lives, even down to the spanking he
handed out to Mulder every day? Mulder knew it would alter their
relationship irrevocably, but he also knew that he didn't care about that.
He loved Walter Skinner, the man, and not just the Master, and Mulder knew
he wanted to keep the man he loved alive at any price. It didn't bother
him that Skinner would be handicapped – he just wasn't sure that he could
face life without the other man's calm, sturdy presence. He knew that was
selfish, and that made this decision even harder for him. Would Skinner
want to be kept alive at any price? What would the other man want? He
trusted Mulder to make this decision for him, and if he couldn't then who
the hell could? Who knew Skinner as well as he did? He'd lived with the
man for nearly a year; lived with him, worshipped him, loved him…he was
Skinner's slave for god's sake! If he didn't know then nobody would. If
only it wasn't such a hard decision to make.
"Will it keep him
alive?" He demanded, opening his eyes again.
"We're not sure. We
think it'll help improve his chances…" The doctor began but Mulder
interrupted her, shaking his head violently.
"No – if you don't
know what's causing this, if you can't even be sure that this will help,
then no. There's no way I'm authorising you to chop off his damn legs if
you can't tell me it'll save his life. I'm not putting him through that."
She backed away,
perhaps shocked by his vehemence, but he knew that in this instance he'd
made the right decision. It might get harder if the option was raised
again, if and when they had any more information, but for now he knew this
was the right decision to make.
They transferred
Skinner to the ICU, and Mulder took up position in a chair beside his
Master's bed, unable to take his eyes off Skinner's chalky white face,
with those throbbing dark veins as raised and as angry looking as ever,
hoping to see some sign of life. The hospital staff kept pumping the big
man full of a cocktail of different drugs but still Skinner remained
unconscious. The longer the hapless medical staff was unable to identify
the cause of Skinner's illness, or an effective treatment for it, the more
Mulder was convinced that they wouldn't find an answer in conventional
medicine.
He made what felt
like hundreds of calls – to Scully first, and then to Perry, because they
were both doctors. Scully told him she'd come straight over. Perry
couldn't leave work immediately, but he made Mulder outline
what had happened – and couldn't find any fault with the treatment Skinner
was receiving. In fact, he seemed as flummoxed by it as the hospital
staff. Mulder had never heard the laid back doctor sound so concerned –
usually nothing could phase him, but on this occasion he had no answers.
Mulder phoned his
Master's sister, Tabi, next. If this really was life threatening then
Skinner's family should be here. He hated the way her voice broke in
distress when he gave her the news. She said she'd be there as soon as she
could, and Mulder left contacting the rest of Skinner's family up to her.
From what he'd learned about them, he doubted whether they'd rush to be at
his Master's bedside, and that made him so furious he didn't even want to
think about it with everything else that was going on.
Various other
people started to arrive in response to his calls; first Scully,
accompanied by Doggett, and then Elaine swooped in, clutching a thick,
navy blue cardigan around her ample curves. All around him there was a
haze of shocked faces, and all he could hear was the sound of his own
monotone voice, explaining and explaining and explaining, telling the same
story over and over again as if it wasn't happening to him, as if none of
this was real.
Scully scanned
Skinner's medical notes with a professional eye and then turned back to
Mulder.
"Mulder, these
readings are impossible. It's almost as if he's been infected by some kind
of poison – but an active one – the readings keep changing all the time,
as if someone is pumping doses of it into him which is impossible." She
glanced around the hospital room.
"That sounds
familiar. I think I've read…" Mulder paused, trying to recall something
he'd seen in one of his files. "Shit…I think I know what this is…" He
strode towards the door but when he got half way there he paused,
faltered, and glanced back. His Master was still comatose and Mulder was
torn. He didn't trust anyone else to solve this. Nobody was as good an
investigator as he was, and yet…he didn't want to leave his Master either.
Supposing Skinner died, and Mulder wasn't there with him when it happened?
Or supposing that scalpel-happy doctor stuck her knife into him when he
wasn't there to agree to an operation – or to refuse one either? Or
supposing Skinner woke up and asked for him? Supposing he woke up to find
his slave wasn't there? Mulder couldn't think of a greater failure of his
duty as a slave to not be there for his Master when Skinner called for
him.
"I can't go," he
said, turning back to Scully. "I can't leave him. Scully, you have to do
this for me. You and Monica – and John too if you'll help?" Mulder glanced
at Doggett. The ex-marine nodded firmly.
"We're here for you, buddy – and for him." He jerked his head in Skinner's
direction. "We'll do whatever it takes."
"There's a file – something about nanotechnology," Mulder told them.
"Nanotechnology on
a biological level is still in the theoretical stages," Scully frowned.
"Officially."
Mulder shrugged. "Unofficially…" He shrugged again. "There was an X File
about 18 months ago, Scully. A woman in Tahoma died and her body looked
pretty much like his does right now. Her arteries had literally been
packed with carbon – you could have used them as a pencil. Suppose she was
a test subject? Supposing they were trying to see just how much damage
they could do with the technology?"
"But – how would Skinner have been infected, Mulder?" Doggett asked,
frowning.
"No – that's the
wrong question," Mulder replied brusquely, meeting Scully's shocked, blue
eyed gaze. She knew. "The right question is *why* was Skinner infected.
The how is easy enough – if this is what I think it is then someone
wearing contaminated gloves could have brushed next to Skinner anywhere –
on the metro, in an elevator – all it would take is contact with his bare
skin – his hand, or wrist. Scully, you need to check 'nanotechnology' in
my files. I've got it cross referenced on microfiche," Mulder told her.
She managed a faint smile at that. She often teased him about the
incomprehensibility of his microfiche filing system but he always knew
where everything was. "Look it up," he instructed. "Find that file. Follow
any leads you have on it. I think…no, I'm fairly positive, he *has* been
poisoned, Scully."
She nodded, and
hustled off with Doggett by her side. Mulder watched her go, still
seriously torn. Perhaps he was wrong. Perhaps he *should* go. Supposing
they were unable to solve this case without the benefit of his genius in
this particular line of work? Supposing his Master died because Mulder
hadn't taken on the case himself?
"Hush," Elaine
said, putting a hand on his shoulder, and he turned and gazed at her
blankly. "You're doing the right thing," she said soothingly, and he
wondered whether the machinations of his brain were that transparent,
written all over his face.
"I'm trying," he
said hoarsely. "It isn't easy. All my natural instincts are…" He shook his
head. He'd always been active, restless, needing to seek out the truth –
that was as much part of his personality as his new persona as Skinner's
slave. Now he was seriously torn between the two warring parts of his
personality. The slave wanted to stay with his Master. The investigator,
the FBI agent, the relentless seeker after truth, wanted to get out there,
and do something useful.
"No, it isn't
easy," Elaine told him, squeezing his shoulder softly. "But you're doing
everything right, Mulder. I'm proud of you – and he would be too if he
knew how well you were handling this."
"I don't feel like
I'm handling anything. I feel like I'm holding on by the skin of my
teeth," he growled, turning back to Skinner and sitting down beside him
again. He had become so accustomed to the ugly dark veins throbbing in his
Master's face that it took him a moment to realise that something had
changed; the veins were darker, standing out more on the other man's face,
raised, livid and black, in stark contrast to his Master's pale skin, and
Skinner's breathing was becoming more laborious.
"Oh shit!" He hissed.
"What is it?"
Elaine was by his side in seconds.
"Call the medical staff in here…no! Wait!" Mulder hesitated, something
Scully had said to him coming back to him. "She said it looked as if
someone was pumping doses of it into his bloodstream and that's the only
thing that can explain the fact that his condition is worsening like this.
There's someone here. Someone is doing this to him right now," he said,
racing towards the door.
"Mulder! There's nobody here!" Elaine protested, glancing around the room.
"You don't understand – once the nanocytes are in his bloodstream there
doesn't have to be someone physically standing next to him to activate
them. They have a range so whoever is doing this has to be in the
building, but they could be in the hallway, or in the elevator, or
anywhere nearby," Mulder told her in rapid tones. "Elaine – stay with
him."
He ran out of the
door and into the hallway, drawing his gun as he went. He was barely out
of the door when he caught sight of a man disappearing around a corner. He
shouted at the man to stop but he just burst into a run. Mulder followed
him, running as hard as he could. His Master's life was at stake here, and
that lent him speed. He saw the man disappear into a stairwell and ran
after him, chasing him all the way down to the parking garage four floors
below. Mulder emerged into the dimly lit garage, panting hard but grateful
for the fact that he was in such good shape, owing partly to his Master's
excellent care of him and carefully prescripted diet and exercise regime.
He had lost sight of the man, and walked cautiously between the cars, his
gun raised. A sound alerted him and he threw himself down, slid across the
garage, and ended up crouched behind a car, using it for cover. There was
silence, and then a car slowly purred across the garage towards him, and
stopped right next to the car he was hidden behind. A door was opened, a
silent invitation to him, and he stood, equally silently accepting it.
He stepped inside
the car, and wasn't surprised when the doors closed smoothly behind him,
and he heard the click of a lock. The man who had lured him down here was
seated in the front seat, next to the chauffeur – Mulder didn't recognise
either of them but he knew the man in the back seat – not well enough to
know his name, but sure as hell well enough to know that he was an enemy.
"Good day to you,
Agent Mulder," the man said, in his usual exquisitely cultured tones.
"I'm surprised,"
Mulder drawled in return. "I thought they'd send that cigarette smoking
son of a bitch to have this particular conversation."
The Englishman gave
a wry little smile. "I do hope I'm not a disappointment," he said, those
smooth tones hiding a core of hard, cold steel. Mulder sat back in his
seat.
"That depends on
what you want," he replied.
"We heard you were
back on the X Files. You've been poking around again. It's tiresome." All
pretence at civility was gone – the voice was as hard as the snap of his
Master's cane.
"I've been doing
this for a long time. It's always been tiresome for you," Mulder replied.
"Ah, yes, but over
the past year you've been…" the Englishman paused and then gave a
deliberate little smile, "shall we say distracted? We've enjoyed not
having you on the X Files but whenever you returned…" He gave a heavy
sigh. "Well, you've become less…predictable than you used to be," the
Englishman murmured. Mulder gave a short bark of laughter.
"You mean I haven't been as easy to manipulate," he replied, thinking of
the plane ticket Krycek had bought to try and get him to investigate that
UFO in Oregon a few months previously. "Maybe I finally learned my
lesson." And it had been learned the hard way, he thought to himself,
remembering a warehouse in Seattle, the sharp blade of Krycek's knife
slicing into his chest, and that long dark night of the soul as he waited
for his Master to find him.
"We did prefer you
when you were more…suggestible, yes." The Englishman inclined his head.
"So you did this?"
Mulder felt a tide of icy anger rise inside him. "You poisoned Skinner in
order to manipulate me?"
"Poison is a strong
word." The Englishman shrugged. "What we did was implant several thousand
dollars worth of very expensive technology into his bloodstream."
"You're killing
him," Mulder snapped.
"We can reverse the
effects at any time – he might be left with a few, minor side effects,
but…" The Englishman shrugged. "Basically he'll be unharmed." He reached
into his pocket and pulled out a small palm pilot which he placed on his
knee. "With one press of this button, we can reduce the carbon build up in
his bloodstream," he said, fingering the palm pilot with one elegantly
manicured fingernail.
"It's a leash,"
Mulder said slowly. "You're leashing me – if I don't do what you say, then
you'll hurt him."
"Ah, well, I've
heard you understand all about leashes," the Englishman said, in a
knowing, smirking tone. "This shouldn't be such a difficult concept for
you to grasp."
"For how long?"
Mulder asked, keeping a tight grip on his anger.
The Englishman
raised an eyebrow. "We won't be asking for our expensive technology back
immediately," he commented. "In fact, there's no reason why it can't
remain in Assistant Director Skinner's bloodstream for a very long time."
"You've gotta be
kidding me." Mulder shook his head. "You're leashing me for an entire
lifetime?"
"I've heard that
you're not averse to such arrangements," the Englishman replied, with just
a hint of prurience in his voice. "Who knows, you might find our leash
more comfortable than his. I'm sure we can duplicate your current
contractual circumstances if you'd care to leave him and come into our
warm and welcoming fold."
"What?" Mulder
could hardly believe what he was hearing.
"You have certain needs. We can take care of them." The Englishman
shrugged. "We've always been very good at taking care of those who help
us," he continued, with an air of lofty superiority.
"You wouldn't know
where to fucking start," Mulder growled. Did it always have to come back
to this? Was his sexuality such a problem? Did the outside world really
think he could be manipulated, judged and held hostage because of who he
chose to sleep with and the way he chose to enjoy sex? Did this man in
front of him really think his entire life revolved around his sexuality to
such an extent that he'd trade someone he loved for it?
Mulder bit back his
anger and despair, and tried to think this through rationally. What would
his Master want him to do? What did *he* want to do? What were the
implications for their future together if he agreed? He clenched his fists
uselessly as he pondered that – did he and his Master even have a future
together if he refused? And yet…Skinner had always refused to be held
hostage, over his sexuality or anything else. That wasn't something he'd
found easy but it was something Andrew Linker had taught him, and he'd
taught him well. Mulder knew that a life with them both dangling on the
end of the Consortium string would be no life at all – for either of them
- and he knew what Skinner would instruct him to do if he was here right
now. The question was – could he do it?
"No," Mulder said
finally, needing to say the word, to make it too late to take it back,
knowing he could be condemning his Master to death. The Englishman raised
an eyebrow.
"No?" He queried.
"No," Mulder said,
with more finality in his voice. He leaned forward. "I'm sure you've heard
the phrase, 'a servant cannot serve two masters'," he said. "It simply
isn't possible for me to be what I am to him, and to work for you. He
wouldn't tolerate that and neither could I."
"Then join us.
We'll find you a new Master." The Englishman looked as if he found the
idea appealing. Mulder shuddered.
"Not on your
fucking life," he snapped.
"The alternative
is…extreme." The Englishman fingered the palm pilot menacingly.
"Kill him then,"
Mulder replied, and this time, it was *his* voice which held a core of
pure, raw steel. "But if you do," he continued, "I will hunt you down, all
of you, and I will kill you myself, with my own hands, starting with you.
You know a little of my capacity to love – I'm sure you know what losing
my sister did to me, and how I devoted my whole life to tracking her down.
I have this amazing capacity for obsession you see, and I never have been
and never will be as obsessed with anyone else or as in love with anyone
else the way I am with Walter Skinner, so if you kill him my own life
won't matter to me. I'll pursue you until the end of my days, and, if I
die in the process, I'll make damn sure that every single newspaper in the
world understands why - and who killed me." His voice was a savage, even
monotone, and he meant every single word of what he said.
"Very impressive."
The Englishman sat back, and gazed at Mulder with eyes full of a new
respect. "It would seem that you've changed, Mr. Mulder. However, this new
maturity you're showing leaves us at something of an impasse."
"Agreed." Mulder
nodded.
"So…perhaps I could
suggest a compromise?" The Englishman gazed at Mulder thoughtfully.
Mulder inclined his
head. "I'll accept nothing less than a total cure for him – you give me
the means to clear the nanocytes from his blood totally and completely. I
won't have this hanging over him," he said firmly.
"In exchange for
what?" The Englisham enquired. "You've already told us that you're not for
sale – so what else do you have to offer?"
Mulder took a deep
breath. "The X Files," he replied. "Or at least, my presence on them. I'll
resign. Immediately. Someone else will take over but that'll be your
problem, not mine."
"You'd give up the
X Files?" The Englishman looked intrigued.
"Yes. I don't promise to stop investigating anything I damn well choose,
but I'll do it without my FBI badge, and without the power and authority
of the FBI behind me," Mulder replied.
"You've fought for
years to keep the X Files," the Englishman said, pursing his lips as he
considered this. "Are we really to believe you'd give them up like this,
without a fight?"
"To save his life?
Yes. I would. Without even thinking about it - but that's the last goddamn
concession you bastards get out of me," Mulder replied, in a low, deadly
tone. "Well? Is this a decision you can make yourself, or do you need to
call someone?"
The Englishman
refused to rise to that bait. He just chuckled and shook his head. "Oh,
I'm perfectly qualified to speak on behalf of my associates. You have
yourself a deal, Agent…no, *Mr* Mulder," he grinned. "It's been a pleasure
doing business with you."
"I wish I could say
the same," Mulder replied grimly.
The Englishman
snapped the palm pilot shut and then held it out. "Everything you need to
know is detailed in here," he said.
"Fine. The minute
the doctors have confirmed that his blood is clear, my resignation will
be…" Mulder paused, and then sighed, and passed a hand over his eyes, "On
his desk," he finished, wondering whether Skinner would even accept the
letter he had to write, and yet knowing that neither of them, Master or
slave, had a choice. His hand closed around the palm pilot, and it was
only then that he felt a pang of finality about his decision. Had he done
the right thing? He wasn't sure he could imagine a life without the X
Files – they had defined him for so long. What was he without them? *Who*
was he without them?
Your Master's
slave – what else do you need to be?
A little voice whispered inside his head. Was that enough though, Mulder
wondered to himself? Or had he, in saving Skinner's life, somehow
destroyed the glue that helped keep Master and slave together?
It took the
doctors, working closely with Scully, 12 hours to reduce the nanocyte
activity in Skinner's bloodstream and another 12 to eliminate it
altogether - yet still his Master remained unconscious.
"Why the hell
doesn't he wake up?" Mulder snapped at the doctor, wondering whether
somehow the Englishman had double crossed him. Sleep deprivation was
making him more paranoid than usual, and he longed to have his Master
back.
"His body has been
badly stressed by the experience," the doctor replied. "We can't tell if
he'll regain consciousness after what's been done to him – we just don't
know. We don't have any data to go on."
"Christ, this is a
fucking nightmare!" Mulder growled, slamming his hand against a wall.
"Even if he does
wake up…we don't know what residual effects the nanocytes might have left
him with," the doctor told him softly. "This is so completely outside our
experience."
"He's strong,
Mulder," Scully added, and he could tell she was trying to reassure him by
the tone of her voice, but she didn't know anything either – nobody did.
Nanotechnology on this level didn't even officially exist yet so how could
they know for sure that Skinner would recover from what had been done to
him? The Englishman had mentioned 'a few, minor side effects' but what the
hell did that mean?
"If he's so strong
why the hell hasn't he woken up?" Mulder demanded of |