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For Sergeeva
Graphic by RAC
Posted 17th September, 1999
I've never done a proper crossover story
before but it seemed like a fun idea. I was thinking about whether there was anybody in
Cult!Universe who really deserved my Walter, and I came up with this guy.
Well, he's smart, sensible, sane, spiritually sound, and not bad looking either ;) More
importantly, following a great personal tragedy, he's also available. An
Assistant Director could do worse...
Yes, I know it's absurd, but when has that
ever stopped a fanfic writer? I must say this crossover thing was great to try. Whether it
worked or not is another matter, but it sure as hell was fun. Hopefully it will cause
mirth for being silly, if nothing else :-)You should be grateful really - the other person
on my list for Walter was Captain Janeway...
Cheerful apologies for getting anything in
the Star Wars universe wrong. I'm not completely well versed in its many and intricate
mysteries... Oh, and this wasn't beta'd, so mistakes undoubtedly abound. Warning:
This one's a bit sappy. I was in that kind of mood.
For more graphics, hop down to the bottom of
the page and see the pics Sergeeva made :-) They're wonderful!
LIFE - FORCE
BY XANTHE
The planet of Irudan was nothing but a giant
dustbowl. Nothing grew here, and the only movement was the wild flurrying of the light,
grainy soil as the wind ripped through it. Obi-Wan landed his small ship somewhat
clumsily, thinking wistfully that Anakin had made a much better landing on their last trip
here. There was no space-port on this world, nothing but one old hut, wherein lived the
strange Azhari woman - the last representative of her race, or so she claimed. Obi-Wan
wasn't so sure. He sensed she didn't lie, but then again, neither did she speak the whole
truth.
Obi-Wan covered his face with the corner of his
robe, lowered the ramp, and walked out into the dust storm. He ran towards the hut, and
found the door open, and the woman waiting for him.
"Obi-Wan." She didn't seem surprised to
see him. He felt she should be. It had surprised him that he had decided to return to this
place.
"Azhari." He bowed. He thought it
strange that she chose to call herself by the name of her race, and he wondered again at
the mystery of her people. She smiled at him, her deep grey eyes calm and clear. "You
were expecting me." It was a statement rather than a question.
"Yes, Obi-Wan. You have not been at peace
since you found me here last year. I knew you would return. Here, let me take your
cloak."
"At peace
" Obi-Wan mused, handing
her his cloak, and crouching for a moment beside her fire. "No, Honored Azhari, I
think that it has been many years since I knew peace."
"Agreed." Azhari hung up his cloak, and
poured him a glass of water from a large pitcher. Obi-Wan had no idea where she found food
and water on this arid desert. How did she manage to survive on such an inhospitable
world? He had asked her this question once, and she had merely smiled, and replied that
the Azhari were a resourceful people.
They were silent for a long while. Obi-Wan gazed
into the fire, and Azhari gazed at Obi-Wan. After many long hours, the woman spoke.
"You have come here seeking the Gate."
Obi-Wan hesitated. Was that why he was here?
Objectively he knew that it was, that it had to be, but why? He had so much in this
universe - the fellowship of his Jedi comrades, the friendship of his brilliant young
padawan, and yet
"You miss him still." Azhari murmured.
Obi-Wan looked up, startled. "How did
you
?" He began, then shook his head. "He was my everything. I find I miss
him more, not less with each day that passes."
"I understand. It was thus with me, when my
people died." Azhari said, her clear, deep voice, echoing like a mellow flute in the
small hut.
"To lose a whole race
" Obi-Wan
could not begin to conceive of her loss.
"To lose one, or many
grief is
grief." Azhari shook her head.
"It's been seven years." Obi-Wan got to
his feet angrily. "I'm a Jedi - I should be able to move beyond my own
feelings."
"You can, and you do. From what I see, you
do very well, Master Kenobi." Azhari told him.
Her blonde hair shone in the firelight. She
wasn't beautiful, but there was an ageless, timeless quality to her. He couldn't begin to
guess how old she was. She had, he sensed, always been here, always this age, since the
universe began, and she would always be here, unchanging, until it ended. It was a mystery
he could not hope to understand.
"You and Qui-Gon were pair bonded, a fusion
of flesh and spirit so deep as to form one being. No wonder you still mourn his loss,
Obi-Wan," she murmured softly.
"Yes." Obi-Wan plucked sadly at the hem
of his tunic, remembering his master, the feel of the other man's long hair beneath his
fingers, and the exquisite sensation of his master's lean, powerful body moving against
his as they made love. He could hear Qui-Gon's voice whispering to him in the privacy of
their rooms, speaking of a love more true than either of them had ever hoped to know.
"You're lonely." Azhari gently stroked
his hair, and he looked up into her eyes and saw himself reflected in them - lost and sad.
"Yes. People tell me there will be others,
that I'm young, that I should look for someone else, but
"
"Nobody is like Qui-Gon," she finished
for him.
"How could they be?" He asked in
despair. "He was a good man, the best. How could I ever find another with a heart as
noble and true?"
"Ah." Azhari held his head between her
pale fingers, and he trembled at the power of the force within her. This was not his force
though, nor any power he knew or understood - it was something utterly different,
completely alien, and it made him feel dizzy. "There are many worlds out there,
Obi-Wan. Many times, many places, and many people. I'm sure there must be one person with
as good a heart as your lost love."
He knew she was mocking him, although her tone
was gentle. "Maybe." Obi-Wan didn't want to hear her words.
"I seem to recall also that Master Jinn was
an obstinate man, and headstrong. Wilful and sometimes lacking in the proper attention to
his masters," she murmured, a wry smile playing around her lips.
Obi-Wan looked up angrily, then had to laugh.
"I agree he wasn't perfect," he acknowledged, "but I loved him."
"And can you truly find no purpose in your
life since he died?" She asked him. "What of your padawan?"
"Anakin? He's very much his own person. At
his age I followed my master around like a puppy, but Anakin can't wait to be free of
me."
"That's not true," Azhari reprimanded
gently. "He is a free spirit that one." Her eyes became dreamy for a moment, and
she gazed into space for several seconds. "Someone will tame him," she murmured,
stoking the fire, "but it will not be you, Obi-Wan."
"I wouldn't want to!" Obi-Wan retorted.
"That isn't the Jedi way."
"No." Azhari gave a sad smile.
"Where is your young apprentice now?"
"Visiting his friend, the Queen
Amidala." Obi-Wan shrugged. "It does us both good to have a few weeks apart each
year, and he always goes eagerly enough."
"I see - and you are at a loose end."
Azhari observed.
"I want my own destiny!" Obi-Wan cried.
"I agreed to train Anakin because my master laid an oath upon me, but the boy doesn't
need me any more. Master Yoda could finish his training. I need, I want
to find
myself again."
"And you thought to use the Gate to do
that?" Azhari asked. Obi-Wan looked up. Had he been that transparent? "I warned
you when you were here before - the Gate is not to be used lightly." Azhari's voice
was firm. "Many of those who go, never return."
There was silence for a moment, then Obi-Wan
looked up and said what was in his heart.
"I'm not sure that I want to return."
Azhari shook her head. "I'm not convinced,
Master Kenobi. Those who use the Gate out of grief, or to escape their sorrows, rarely
find what they seek. Sorrow and grief go with you, wherever you journey."
"Please
" Obi-Wan was surprised by
the force of his plea. "I'll take my chances, Azhari, but please, please let me
go."
"The Gate has been here since the beginning
of time, and will be here until the end - and beyond." Azhari said the words as if
intoning a prayer. "I could not sanction its misuse. Only the pure of heart may pass
through."
"You find me lacking?" Obi-Wan asked.
"No." Azhari shrugged. "Listen to
me though, Obi-Wan. This galaxy is a huge place - there is so much in the here and now
that you haven't explored. Why do you think that you would fare better throwing yourself
into the unknown? I have no control over your destination - you could literally end up
anywhere."
"I know." Obi-Wan assured her.
"And anywhen," she emphasised.
His eyes widened, and he knew that she saw what
he had tried to keep secret since his arrival - the hope he had kept in his heart since he
and Anakin had discovered this planet and its mysterious Gateway months ago.
"Oh, Obi-Wan! It is unlikely you'll find
your master in the past!" Azhari exclaimed, her gray eyes glowing in distress.
"But I can feel it!" Obi-Wan got up
excitedly, and paced around. " Before I came into Qui-Gon's life there were decades
when he was alone. I could find him then, when he was young. We could be together in the
past, as we cannot be in the present."
"Obi-Wan." Azhari raised her hand.
"It's not likely, my dear."
"But worth a try," Obi-Wan insisted
stubbornly.
"To give up your life here, to abandon your
oath, and your padawan, and chase a hope borne out of grief and loneliness?" Azhari
chided gently.
"Yes!" Obi-Wan exclaimed. "You do
not know what Qui-Gon meant to me!"
"I think I do."
"And you said before - that if someone is
truly pure of heart, if they go through the Gate full of hope for what they will find
there, then their deepest wish might be granted them!"
"I have heard oftentimes that people find
this is not what they thought it might be," Azhari told him, looking at him keenly.
"Give this up, Obi-Wan. Return to Coruscant, to your padawan, and your friends. Learn
to be happy with what you have, and stop chasing after ghosts."
Obi-Wan shook his head and they locked gazes for
what felt like an eternity. Finally she broke the eye contact, and chuckled ruefully.
"I see that Master Jinn was not the only one who is headstrong," she murmured.
"Does that mean you'll help me?" He
asked her.
"No," she replied. "Will that stop
you?" She inquired.
He thought about it for a moment. "No,"
he answered.
She nodded. "Farewell then, Obi-Wan. I will
keep a watch for your return, and pray that you may find whatever you seek on your
journey."
"Thank you." He stood, and bowed before
her, then looked around uncertainly.
"There is no great secret." She
shrugged, handing him his cloak. "I will give you no aid, but neither will I stop
you." She held open the door to the hut, and he gave her a determined smile, raised
his hood, then stepped out into the howling dust-storm.
Obi-Wan staggered across the plain towards the
rock that marked the Gateway. There was no altar here, no statues, no temple - nothing to
show that this was a place of such immense power and purpose. The keeper of this sacred
place held the mysteries of the universe in her hand, and yet she lived alone in a tiny
hut, condemned to spend an eternity on this ravaged world.
Obi-Wan stopped beside the rock, and knelt in the
dust. He tried to clear his mind, to ignore the swirling dirt, and to bring himself to a
state of purity. After several long minutes, he found himself calm in purpose and intent.
He held the wish of his heart deep within, and asked the blessing of the Guardians of this
place as he stepped across the sacred portal. Then he stood, took one step
forward
and disappeared.
Azhari stood in the doorway of her hut, and
watched the young man go. She offered up a prayer as he passed between the portals of time
and space. Of the many travelers she had seen, she held him dearest in her heart. She had
never seen one more good and true, more deserving of seeing his hopes realised. And
yet
Azhari crouched down and scooped up a handful of sand, then watched as it
trickled through her fingers.
"It is unlikely that he will find what he
seeks," a voice said.
"I know," she smiled at the unseen
speaker, "but he might find something else." Or someone else
"We must be hopeful."
"Is it fated?" Azhari asked.
"It is always fated," the voice
replied. "Whether for good or ill, remains to be seen."
Azhari nodded, then turned back to her hut, and
her lonely vigil, and waited to see if her traveller would return.
*****
There was a screech that rent the air, as if the
fabric of time itself had been torn, and then he was thrown forward, onto something hard
and unyielding. Obi-Wan felt a pain rip through his leg, and then he was knocked
backwards, onto the hard ground, hitting his head. He lay there for a moment, winded,
unable to take in the images that assaulted his senses.
"Are you all right?" A pair of anxious
brown eyes filled his vision, flashing their concern from behind a pair of spectacles.
"I'm sorry. I didn't see you
where did you come from? You just seemed to appear
out of nowhere. Shit, are you okay?"
The man crouched down beside him. He was dressed
in strange clothing, which barely concealed his solid, muscled form. Obi-Wan nodded,
feeling nauseous, and unable to focus. "I
" He began, then his vision
blurred, and he started to sway. "My leg
" he whispered. The big man
nodded, and began rolling back his trouser leg.
"There's some blood - it's a nasty gash, but
not serious," the man told him. His large hands brushed against Obi-Wan's head, and
fingered the bump there. His fingers were surprisingly gentle, and soft, like big cat's
paws. "It's not too bad, just a bruise, but you might have a concussion. I think I
should take you to the hospital. Are you able to walk? It'd be quicker than calling for
the paramedics, and besides
I kind of feel responsible for you seeing as it was my
car you walked into," the man said.
Obi-Wan managed a weak smile. He was all at sea
in this place, on this world, in this time, wherever and whenever it was, but this
man was offering him kindness, and he needed a friend right now.
"Thank-you," he whispered. "This
hospital
is it a place of healing?"
"Uh, you could call it that," the man
replied, looking puzzled.
"I would
is it necessary that I go
there?" Obi-Wan asked.
"I think so, yes," the stranger replied
firmly, in the tone of one used to being obeyed. Obi-Wan nodded, and his head protested
the movement.
The big man pulled him up, and half-walked,
half-carried him to the vehicle that had knocked Obi-Wan down, helping him to sit inside,
and fastening a cord around him to keep him safe. Obi-Wan leaned back in the seat and felt
his head lolling to one side, as if he had no control over it.
"I'm Walter Skinner. What's your name?"
His new friend asked. Obi-Wan had to think about it for several seconds.
"O
B
en
o
b" He
whispered, clutching onto the cord as the vehicle began to spin.
"Sorry - I didn't catch that. Was
it
Ben?" Walter Skinner leaned towards him, frowning. Obi-Wan gave him a faint
smile, and then lost consciousness.
Obi-Wan awoke to find himself lying on a bed. A
woman was leaning over him.
"Ben? Are you awake? I'm just going to clean
up your leg wound. Hold tight - this might sting a little."
Obi-Wan closed his eyes, and concentrated on
helping his body to heal. He had suffered far worse injuries in his time, and he guessed
that the journey through the Gateway had caused a large part of the disorientation he was
currently experiencing. "I've put a couple of stitches in it, and a dressing. You'll
need to have the stitches out in a few days," the woman told him. He nodded, although
he wasn't entirely sure what she meant. Had she been mending his clothes? He sat up,
slowly, and glanced around, searching for the man who had taken care of him, and brought
him here.
"Walter Skinner. Where is he?" He asked
the lady in white. She smiled, and nodded her head towards the door.
"He's waiting outside. He was a bit
concerned when you blacked out."
"Please - I would like to thank him,"
Obi-Wan told her. She smiled again, and nodded. A few seconds later, the door opened and
the big man walked in. He looked awkward.
"I'm sorry about this, Ben. I really didn't
see you. You seemed to appear from nowhere," Skinner said.
"Please - the fault was mine." Obi-Wan
inclined his head.
Skinner looked surprised. "You don't want to
make a big deal out of this? Claim on the insurance?" He asked.
Obi-Wan struggled with these concepts for a
moment, then gave up. "I bear no ill will. As I said - the fault was mine. I am sorry
for having inconvenienced you on your journey, and I'm grateful for your kindness,"
Obi-Wan told the other man sincerely.
Skinner shook his head, as if slightly stunned.
"Well, I'm glad you're okay," he
muttered. "Look, the doctor says you can leave. Can I give you a ride
somewhere?"
Obi-Wan shook his head. "I
have nowhere
to go," he murmured.
Skinner frowned. "You're dressed strangely,
but you don't exactly look like a homeless guy," he observed. "Ben, I hope you
don't mind, but when you were unconscious, I went through your pockets looking for some
ID. You don't have any - you don't have any cash either. Is there anyone I can contact
who'll be worried about you?"
"Worried about me?" Obi-Wan echoed, a
feeling of desolation sweeping through him. He suddenly realised that he was alone here,
and injured, in a strange place and time. Yet his own foolishness had led him down this
path, and he was a Jedi - the sense of adventure ran strong in him. Somehow he knew he'd
survive, even if he had to learn new skills in order to do so in this strange world.
"No," he answered at last, unable to keep the sadness out of his voice.
"There is nobody. I'm not
I'm not from this place."
Skinner laughed. "Well, I figured that out
from your accent. You're from England right?"
"England?" Obi-Wan echoed. "No,
that's not my home planet."
Skinner rocked back on his heels, looking
slightly exasperated, and Obi-Wan wondered what he had said that was wrong. "You're
sounding like Mulder on one of his bad days," he muttered.
"Mulder?"
"A colleague." Skinner said brusquely,
but his face had clouded over, as if the subject of this Mulder caused him some distress.
"Do you at least have a change of clothing?" He gestured at Obi-Wan's torn
pants.
"Regretfully, no." Obi-Wan sighed.
"I was ill-equipped for the journey I took, and now, I fear, I'm suffering the
consequences."
"Well, look
I probably have some old
sweat pants that will fit you, and then I could take you to a shelter, get you some help
from the authorities." Skinner said, then he clamped his jaw shut tightly, as if
regretting the offer.
"I would be most grateful," Obi-Wan
told him sincerely. He sensed that this man didn't find it easy to trust, so his offer of
aid wasn't easy for him. He wondered what had happened in this man's life, to cause him to
be in so torn about offering hospitality.
Skinner turned abruptly on his heel, and Obi-Wan
ran to catch up with him. Skinner's long, dark coat flapped around his ankles as he strode
ahead - he was a tall man, Obi-Wan only came up to his shoulders. Qui-Gon had been tall...
Obi-Wan fought back the memories of walking beside his master, Qui-Gon's cloak billowing
out around him. They were comfortable, familiar memories, and Obi-Wan felt the pain of his
loss stabbing deep inside him. He didn't know where this place was, but he sensed that his
old master, his one true love, was not here. This was a very different time and place
altogether. Azharia had warned him, but he had not listened.
"Too much the impatient one, you are."
Master Yoda's familiar admonition echoed in his mind. "Act first, you do. Think
later. Learn to consider things more carefully, you must."
Too late, Yoda. Too late
Obi-Wan stared out on this new world with wonder,
as they drove through a city that Walter Skinner called "Washington." Obi-Wan
had seen many places and planets in his life, with varying levels of technology, although
most had space travel. It soon became clear to him that the primitive level of
technological advancement on this world made space travel an unlikely possibility. His
heart sank as he realised that he was even more stuck than he had at first thought. If he
disliked this world, and what it offered him, then there was no way to escape to the next
world, or the next star system, to start again. Maybe that was the challenge - to be
satisfied with just one world, to make the most of it, discover and explore it, to fully
get to know it, and the many wonders it would surely contain. Obi-Wan tried, as always, to
seek out the future with an open heart. He felt sure that he was here for a reason,
whether that reason was clear to him or not. One way or another, he was needed here, and
he would do his best to live up to his destiny, whatever it might be.
Walter Skinner lived in a tall building, which
reminded him a little of Coruscant, though wrought on a miniature scale. The big man had
been silent during the drive, and he looked troubled. Obi-Wan wasn't sure whether it was
his presence that bothered Skinner or something else, but he had no wish to cause his new
friend any discomfort.
Skinner ushered him into his apartment, and then
winced. Obi-Wan surveyed the clutter of empty bottles of alcohol, and discarded socks
impassively, although he was somewhat surprised. Walter Skinner's clothing seemed so
precise and ordered that he had imagined that his dwelling would be the same. Judging by
the other man's reaction, he assumed that was generally the case - and this current state
of mess was an aberration.
"Sorry." Skinner muttered gruffly.
"I, uh, haven't had time
" He trailed off, strode over to a primitive
message-recording device, and retrieved his messages. Obi-Wan wandered over to the
balcony, and stepped outside. The cool air felt good against his skin, and beneath him the
bright lights of the city twinkled and winked. It wasn't home, but it had its own kind of
beauty.
"Here." Skinner stepped out onto the
balcony behind him, and handed him a pair of soft grey trousers. He gestured to Obi-Wan's
torn, blood-stained pants. "Those should probably be chucked," he said.
"I could wash and mend them," Obi-Wan
told him. "If you have needle and thread."
"Well, to be honest
" Skinner
hesitated, then ploughed on. "I don't mean to criticise but people don't tend to wear
stuff like this on the streets of DC."
"DC?" Obi-Wan frowned.
"Washington." Skinner clarified.
"Look, I could dig you out a tee shirt and sweater as well. If you want to take a
shower, or a bath, or something
" he trailed off again. Obi-Wan studied him,
finding the big man interesting. This was the first time he'd really had a chance to look
at his new friend. Skinner was almost bald, with a wide forehead, and expressive dark
eyes. There was a depth and sadness to those eyes that Obi-Wan wanted to understand.
"I would like that, thank you." Obi-Wan
bowed slightly. "I'm grateful for your kindness." He took the proffered garment
and followed Skinner back into the apartment.
The bath soothed away the aches and pains of the
day, and allowed Obi-Wan time for meditation and reflection. He examined the wound on his
leg, and decided it wasn't serious. The people on this world had sewed it together with
thread, which was a primitive practice, but one which worked well enough with this
particular kind of injury, although it would undoubtedly leave him with a slight scar.
Obi-Wan allowed the warm water to caress his
body, and wash away the grime and sweat. The dust from Irudan had permeated his very
pores, and he even found some between his toes and in his ears. It felt good to be clean.
He thought about Walter Skinner. The man was uneasy - he didn't like having a stranger in
his home, and yet he felt obligated to him because it was his vehicle that had caused
Obi-Wan injury.
Obi-Wan allowed his senses to wander
he
could sense the force on this world. It was strong, flowing through all living things.
Obi-Wan gasped, as an icy sensation washed over him - the dark side was strong here too,
and close. Too close. He allowed his mind to reach out and brush that nearest to him, but
he was relieved to find that Walter Skinner was not the source of the coldness. The big
man had many things on his mind - he was deeply troubled, and he walked on the edge of an
abyss, balancing precariously on the treacherous tightrope between the light and dark.
Obi-Wan looked deep into the man's soul, and feared for him
then he came to with a
start, shivering in the cool bath water.
"Ben!" Skinner was knocking on the
door. "Are you okay? You've been in there for a long time."
"I fell asleep," Obi-Wan called,
getting up hurriedly. He dried himself, and then dressed in the garments Walter Skinner
had left for him. They felt comfortable against his skin, although he missed his familiar
clothing, and there was nowhere to keep his light-sabre. He settled for pushing it into
the large pocket in his pants, hoping it wouldn't fall out. The pants were far too long
for him, and he folded up the hem carefully. He was reminded of a mission many years ago,
when circumstances had forced him to wear Qui-Gon's clothing. His master's pants had also
been too long. Obi-Wan looked at himself briefly in the mirror, to ensure that he had
dressed himself properly in this unfamiliar garb. His hair was still wet, and he looked
younger than he liked to think of himself. He was, after all, a fully-fledged Jedi knight
with a grown apprentice. There was a dark bruise on his forehead, and his face was pale.
He traced his image with his finger, startled by his changed appearance, and wondered how
Qui-Gon would have looked in this clothing. It would have fitted him better, with his
longer limbs. He touched his wet hair, and remembered how he would comb his master's hair,
and play with it, enjoying its scent, freshly washed. Then he pulled himself back to the
present. In trying to find a way to get closer to Qui-Gon, he had merely succeeded in
pushing himself even further away. It would do him no good to dwell on such thoughts.
Walter Skinner smiled at him as he returned to
the living room. It was, Obi-Wan thought, a nice smile, and he wondered why the big man
used it so rarely.
"I've made a fresh pot of coffee."
Skinner handed him a cup full of a dark, aromatic liquid. Obi-Wan sniffed at it
cautiously, and then took a sip. It was strong, and full of stimulants, but frankly, he
could do with that right now. Skinner also slapped a loaf of bread and some cheese on the
table. "I don't have much food in the house," he said apologetically. Obi-Wan
smiled and shook his head.
"Thank you. You're very kind," he
murmured, cutting the bread and taking a bite.
"It's pretty late." Skinner leaned in
the kitchen doorway, sipping his coffee. He had discarded his long coat, and removed the
strange strip of fabric from around his neck. "I have to be at work early tomorrow.
Look
" He hesitated. "I don't want to throw you out, Ben, but I work in a
highly sensitive area. I, uh, well, let's just say that the last unsolicited house guest I
had caused me some problems."
"I understand," Obi-Wan told him.
"You have no obligation to me, Walter Skinner. Besides - I can take care of
myself." He gave the other man a confident smile. He had taken care of himself in far
worse situations that this, after all.
"Good. Well, I was going to say, you can
spend the night in the spare room, as it's so late. Then tomorrow
"
"I'll leave." Obi-Wan assured him.
"You really don't have anywhere to go?"
Skinner asked.
"No, Walter Skinner. As I said, I am not
from this place, but I will make it my home. In time."
"Walter. Or Skinner. Not Walter Skinner. It
sounds
odd." Skinner told him, with a frown that was both amused and puzzled at
the same time.
"Walter then." Obi-Wan nodded.
"I never caught your last name."
"Kenobi." Obi-Wan briefly considered
enlightening Walter as to his first name as well, then decided against it. Ben was clearly
a name the other man was familiar with, and it was a good, plain name.
"Right. Okay, let me show you the spare
room."
Obi-Wan slept deeply, but his dreams were dark
and intense. He saw his master, seated by a fountain, his hand trailing through the water,
and he saw Walter Skinner, seated next to him, surrounded by darkness, the water rising
around him. <Help him, Obi-Wan,> Qui-Gon's voice whispered in his mind. <The dark
side is marshalling its forces. The battle between dark and light is strong here. Help
him
>
<Yes, Master,> he replied, as automatically
as always, waking up with a start.
When Skinner came to knock on his door the
following morning, Obi-Wan was already dressed.
"I can give you a ride to the homeless
shelter and
" Skinner paused, and blinked, as Obi-Wan raised his hand.
"I think it would be better if you stayed
here a while longer," Obi-Wan told him.
"I think it would be better if you stayed
here a while longer," Skinner repeated, looking bemused.
"My belongings will be safe. There's no need
to worry."
"My belongings will be safe. There's no need
to worry." Skinner nodded, looking satisfied. He turned to go, then glanced back, his
brown eyes still puzzled.
"Go." Obi-Wan said encouragingly.
Skinner gave a half smile, then left.
Obi-Wan went downstairs, and glanced around the
living room. There were several books, which he flicked through briefly, making a pile of
the ones he wished to examine in more detail. Then he glanced at the empty bottles on the
coffee table. He picked one up and sniffed at it: alcohol. He wondered what darkness
Walter was trying to escape from that he took refuge in the temporary respite of drink.
Obi-Wan opened the drawers in Walter's desk. He felt a small amount of guilt, rifling
through the man's belongings, but Qui-Gon had instructed him to help, and he couldn't do
that if he didn't understand what he was supposed to be doing, and why.
Walter was a tidy man - his papers were all in
neat bundles, clearly labelled. Obi-Wan found two photographs, and examined them
carefully. One was of a woman - quite a beauty too. She was smiling, her eyes full of
love. Turning it over, Obi-Wan read the writing on the back: Sharon, July 1989. The other
photograph seemed to have been taken without the knowledge of the two people in it - a
woman and a man. They were standing side by side, clearly arguing, and yet Obi-Wan could
tell, even from the photograph, that the two shared a deep bond. He frowned, wondering who
they were, and what they meant to Walter - they were too old to be the other man's
children.
Obi-Wan found a primitive device that he guessed
functioned as some kind of information resource. He turned it on, and quickly accessed a
basic network that linked Walter's machines to others on this planet. He explored as fast
as the machine would allow and then sat back with a sigh.
"Well at least you know where you are,
Obi-Wan, if not when," he murmured to himself. "Not that it's any use to you.
You're about as far from home as can be."
This galaxy was at the opposite end of the
universe to his own. It would take even the fastest of the Republic's ships over a million
light years to journey to the planet Earth, which was where he was now stranded. Obi-Wan
fought down the fear that rose inside him.
"Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate,
hate leads to the Dark Side," he intoned, calming himself. He sat for a moment,
puzzling the huge distances involved in his dislocation to this small, uncharted reach of
the universe, but his mind refused to process the information. He sent his thoughts out,
searching for someone, anyone that he knew, looking for Anakin's bright, shining,
mental signature, and for Master Yoda's deceptively light resonance, but found nothing.
Somehow he knew, deep inside, that they were long dead, and whatever part they had played
in the history of the universe, was now buried under the weight of time. He was about to
give up his search, when he sensed something else
Azharia still lived. Her
distinctive mental echo was still there, chiming like an undercurrent beneath the many
clamouring voices he could hear. He couldn't speak to her, but he drew comfort from
knowing that she was there.
When Walter returned home, he stopped in the
doorway looking surprised.
"You've cleaned the place up," he
commented, surveying the tidy apartment. The bottles had all been placed in one of the
sacks Obi-Wan had found in a cupboard beneath the sink, and the whole place had been
cleaned with various implements he had discovered. It had taken him a while to figure them
all out, but he was pretty pleased with the job he'd done.
Obi-Wan smiled. "You've been very kind to
me. It is not the custom of my people to take without offering something in return,
however small."
"Your people
I just love the way you
talk!" Walter exclaimed, shaking his head wryly and shrugging his coat off. "Is
that dinner I smell?"
"Yes. Despite your words last night, I found
some food in your cupboards. I'm not a great cook, but I hope you'll find my efforts
appetising." Obi-Wan grinned, remembering Qui-Gon's admonition on one of their early
missions, that if he was going to be his padawan, he'd have to damn well learn how not
to poison his master. Many of the items in Walter's cupboards had been unfamiliar to him,
but he'd proceeded by a method of trial and error and was satisfied with the result. He
set the dish down in front of Skinner, and ladled some of the broth into a bowl for him,
watching the other man. Walter seemed to sense the scrutiny, lifted the spoon cautiously
to his lips, and took a sip.
"Hmm
banana, ginger,
and
macaroni
Interesting." Walter said neutrally.
"But nice?" Obi-Wan picked up his own
spoon, and began to eat.
"Actually
yes." Walter sounded
surprised. "I've been wondering about you, Ben," he said, glancing up. His dark
brown gaze seemed to lance straight into Obi-Wan's soul, as if searching for something.
"You mean, who am I? Where do I come from?
And why the hell did you agree to let me stay here?" Obi-Wan offered, with a grin.
"Something like that, yes." Walter
broke off a piece of bread, and dipped it in the broth.
"Well, I'm a traveller
"
"And what do you do for a living?"
Walter interrupted.
"I suppose that you could say I'm a
teacher." Obi-Wan chose his words carefully. "I've lived in many places, and
seen many things."
"Hmm, that doesn't tell me much."
Walter snorted.
"My master always said that I could talk for
hours without saying anything when I tried." Obi-Wan laughed.
"Your master?" Walter raised any
eyebrow.
"My
tutor?" Obi-Wan suggested.
"His name was Qui-Gon. He was a good man."
"Was? He's dead?"
"Yes." Obi-Wan looked straight into
Walter's eyes, and knew that his expression made it clear how much saying that one word
hurt him. Walter grunted, and looked away. "Your turn now. Tell me about
yourself," Obi-Wan urged.
"I'm 47 years old, I work for the
FBI..." Walter paused, looking at Obi-Wan keenly, as if that information required
some reaction.
"Ah." Obi-Wan said. "And who is
Sharon?"
There was silence for a moment, then Walter got
up.
"You've been going through my belongings. I
want you to leave," he said, his whole body shaking, although whether in anger or
distress, Obi-Wan couldn't tell.
"I'm sorry. I found her photograph. She's
very beautiful," he whispered.
"Was beautiful. Was. She's
dead." Skinner snapped savagely. "The only damn woman I ever loved, and she's
dead. I killed her."
"I don't believe that," Obi-Wan said
softly.
Skinner leaned over the table, his body solid,
and overwhelming, and fixed Obi-Wan with a cold, deadly gaze. Another man might have
flinched, but Obi-Wan merely held Skinner's gaze with his own cool, steady look, searching
the other man's face for the truth.
"Believe it." Skinner hissed. "She
died because of me, and my work - because of Mulder and his damn crusade, a crusade
that'll get us all damn well killed in the end."
"Tell me." Obi-Wan said, his calm
leeching the sting from Skinner's angry words.
Skinner hesitated, then stepped back. "No. I
told you to go."
"I can't leave yet. My work here isn't
done," Obi-Wan told him.
"Oh, what the fuck are you? Some kind of
angel sent here to do good deeds?" Skinner sneered.
"No, I came though a Gate in time and space,
from a galaxy far, far away. My real name is Obi-Wan, and I'm a Jedi knight." Obi-Wan
waited impassively to see what the reaction to that piece of news would be.
Skinner rocked back on his heels, and shook his
head. "Is it me?" he asked the heavens despairingly. "Do I attract wackos
obsessed by little green men? Isn't life on this earth complicated enough without
inventing new galaxies, and a host of extra-terrestrial crazies hell bent on taking over
the planet?"
Obi-Wan laughed. He couldn't stop himself. Walter
looked so comical, standing there, his wide forehead creased into a puzzled frown, his
arms open wide as if in supplication.
"I'm sorry. It must sound far-fetched to
you. Please, tell me, who else amuses you with such tales?" He asked.
"Mulder." Skinner winced. He was about
to say something else, when there was a knock at the door.
Obi-Wan noticed that Skinner drew his weapon as
he went to answer it. He didn't know much about this world, or its customs, but all the
same, the gesture seemed strange to him. He watched as Skinner opened the door.
"I've been expecting you." Skinner
murmured to the unseen visitor.
"Good. I hope that means you've got what I
asked for," the man replied. Obi-Wan froze. He had never heard that voice before, but
he recognised the dark side in all its forms. "Well, aren't you going to let me
in?" The voice asked mockingly. "Or do I have to insist?"
"Be my guest, Krycek." Skinner opened
the door, and admitted a handsome, slender man, with sharp green eyes. The newcomer took
one look at Obi-Wan, and stiffened. Some ancient instinct arose in both of them, as dark
and light met, and silently declared its allegiance and intent.
"Well, what have we here?" Krycek
murmured, slinking stealthily across the room to stand in front of him. Obi-Wan's hand
went to the light-sabre in his pocket, and rested there.
"Leave him out of this - he has nothing to
do with it," Skinner snapped. Krycek ignored him, his eyes never leaving those of the
Jedi knight.
"Oh, but I think he does." Krycek
hissed.
Obi-Wan didn't say a word, but his eyes spoke for
him. He never allowed his gaze to drop, and he left the intruder in no doubt as to who and
what he was. Finally Krycek's face crumpled into something resembling a snarl.
"Do you have what I asked for,
Skinner?" He demanded, turning back to the big man. Obi-Wan watched Skinner's face,
wondering what deal could possibly exist between these two, and hoping that Skinner was
not somehow entangled with the dark purpose this man worked towards. Skinner's reluctance
was almost tangible, as he reached into his briefcase, drew out a parcel, and handed it to
Krycek.
"Thank you. You'll be hearing from me."
Krycek took the parcel, and as he did so, Obi-Wan noticed that he wore a prosthetic arm.
He felt time stand still, and an old evil, and one yet not come to pass merged in that
moment, causing a shiver of foreboding to run up his spine.
Krycek patted Skinner on the cheek, a humiliation
that the big man bore with a resigned and desperate stoicism. "I'll let myself out.
I'll leave you and your
boyfriend," the dark haired man sneered that
word, "to enjoy your little tryst."
Skinner's roar of sheer rage echoed in Obi-Wan's
ears, and the big man slammed the door shut after his unwelcome guest.
"I'm sorry." Skinner spat. "You
shouldn't have been involved in that."
"But I am." Obi-Wan shrugged. "I
think I was sent here for that purpose."
"Don't start all that crap again,"
Skinner snapped irritably, pacing the room like a caged tiger.
Obi-Wan sat cross-legged on the floor, and
surveyed him for several minutes.
"I don't need to warn you of the danger
you're in," Obi-Wan said at last. "That man, Krycek, has been seduced by the
dark side of the force."
"The dark side? What the hell is that
supposed to mean?" Skinner growled.
Obi-Wan considered the matter for a moment, then
got up, and placed his hands gently on Skinner's shoulders. At first the big man
stiffened, and Obi-Wan wondered if he was going to strike, then he calmed down, as the
Jedi poured a sense of calm reassurance into the light touch.
"The force is all around you, in every
living thing - with some it is stronger than others, but we can all feel it." Obi-Wan
said softly, moving his fingers gently over Skinner's tautly muscled back, softly
caressing him. "In my galaxy we can train to become Jedi knights, and learn how to
observe the rules of the light side of the force, in order to maintain harmony with
ourselves, and the universe around us." He walked around the big man, his fingers
still lightly touching those tense shoulders. "However, there are those who are
seduced by the dark side of the force - and they are a warning to all of us." He
looked up into Skinner's dark eyes, and gently touched the front of his shoulders, his
fingers sending sparks of healing, calming power deep into Skinner's body. "Krycek,
has gone over to the dark side, and you, Walter
you are a pawn between light and
dark, moved back and forth between them for a purpose you do not even fully
comprehend."
"Yes." Walter moved his shoulders,
rolling them back, and closed his eyes helplessly for a moment. When he opened them again,
they were bleak with despair. "I'm doing my best to fight him, the only way I know
how," he admitted. "But that means playing a waiting game, and
"
"You're not very good at that," Obi-Wan
supplied with a wry smile. "You're more of a man of action, Walter."
"Yes." Skinner looked into his eyes,
and shook his head. "I don't understand you, Ben," he whispered.
"I know." Obi-Wan nodded. "I'm not
entirely sure that matters," he replied. "The question is - do you trust
me?"
Skinner thought about it for a moment, then
finally, hesitantly, he nodded. "Yes. God knows why, but for some reason I do."
"Good. Then that is enough, for now,"
Obi-Wan murmured. "A word of warning though, Walter. Krycek is not the sum of your
problems. There are always two - a master and an apprentice. Which is he? Do you
know?"
"Oh yeah." Skinner gave a wry shake of
his head. "Krycek's the
apprentice." He inclined his head in Obi-Wan's
direction at the use of the unfamiliar word in this context.
"And the master?" Obi-Wan watched
Walter keenly.
"I don't know his name. I'm not sure anybody
does." Skinner shrugged. "He's a mean SOB though. I don't know what he wants, or
even what he expects to achieve, but I do know he's evil. The bastard gives me the creeps
whenever I see him."
"That's because the force is strong in you,
Walter." Obi-Wan laid his hand over Skinner's heart, and the big man started in
surprise as Obi-Wan amplified the force he felt flowing through him, making it beat
strongly in time to Skinner's heart, until the thrumming sound filled the room with its
roar. "You recognise it in others. That's why you seek to protect this
Mulder. I
expect the force is strong in him as well."
"Yes," Skinner whispered. Then he
moved, unexpectedly, and took Obi-Wan's face between his hands, holding him too tight.
"Who are you?" He asked, his eyes searching for an answer. Obi-Wan could
have easily broken the grip, but found himself caught up in that sweeping gaze. He felt
known, seen in a way he had not experienced since
since Qui-Gonn died.
"I told you," he said softly. "My
name is Obi-Wan Kenobi, I'm a Jedi knight. I come from a galaxy on the other side of the
universe
"
"Yes, but who are you?" Skinner
interrupted him. Obi-Wan felt the other man's soul reach out and envelop him, and he gave
himself up to that dark eyed gaze.
"I'm Ben," he whispered. The name
you gave me
Obi-Wan slept fitfully that night, disturbed by
his encounter with Skinner. He tried to meditate, to calm himself, but when he slept, his
dreams were jumbled, and disturbed. He saw Qui-Gon fighting Krycek, watched the dark
haired man wielding a light-sabre like an expert, and then saw the flash of the sword as
it pierced his Master's heart. He let out a cry, feeling the hopelessness, having to
watch, unable to help. He saw his master wrap himself in his cloak, and run down a dark
winding corridor. He ran after him, his breath catching in his throat. When he finally
caught up with him, he almost wept with relief, and placed a hand on the other man's
shoulder. Qui-Gonn turned, and removed his hood - to reveal that he was Walter Skinner.
Obi-Wan woke up, the cry still echoing on his lips. A light snapped on, and Skinner loomed
over him.
"Ben? Are you okay? You were screaming your
head off?"
"I'm fine." Obi-Wan sat up, feeling his
heart beating too fast. Skinner was dressed only in a pair of shorts, and it was
impossible not to notice some of the fine scars on his torso. "I'm sorry I disturbed
you," Obi-Wan murmured.
"No need. After 'Nam I woke up screaming
every night for 3 years." Skinner told him with a wry shrug. "Sometimes I still
do," he confided, flushing.
"'Nam?" Obi-Wan questioned.
Skinner hesitated. "I never know whether
you're kidding me with all this far away galaxy crap, but I guess I'll take you at face
value for now. You don't seem to mean any harm by it. I was in a war in Vietnam. I was 18.
It, uh, had a big effect on me."
"Yes. I understand." Obi-Wan nodded,
suspecting that Skinner's admission was a huge understatement. "You had to
kill?"
"Yes - or be killed." Skinner shrugged.
"It's the same for me," Obi-Wan told
him.
"That's what you were dreaming about? A
war?" Skinner asked him.
"No." Obi-Wan considered it for a
moment. "I dreamed about Qui-Gon."
"Your master?"
"And my lover - my bonded mate,"
Obi-Wan said with a nod. Skinner froze, looking uncomfortable, and Obi-Wan wondered what
he had said that could have caused offence.
"Okay, this just keeps getting more and more
way out," Skinner muttered at last. "Forgive me, Ben, I'm sure you mean well,
but it's one weird revelation after another right now, and I'm not sure I can handle any
more." He got up, passed a weary, disbelieving hand over his forehead, and left the
room. Obi-Wan stared after him in surprise. What on earth had he said that could have
confused and upset the other man in this way?
Skinner was already gone when he got up the next
day. Obi-Wan settled down to meditate but his thoughts were interrupted by an angry knock
on the door. He opened it, to admit a man he recognised from the photograph in Walter's
desk - a man who at this moment in time was hopping mad. Obi-Wan knew instinctively that
this was Mulder. The force ran through him so powerfully that it was almost visible, and
yet it was unchannelled, and uncontrolled - which was hardly surprising on a world without
Jedi masters to teach the talented.
"Who the hell are you, and where's
Skinner?" Mulder demanded rudely.
"I am Ben, and Walter isn't here,"
Obi-Wan replied calmly. "Would you like coffee?"
"No, I damn well wouldn't. You just give him
a message for me, will you?" Mulder snapped.
"That will depend on the message,"
Obi-Wan said, pouring a cup of coffee for himself.
"What the hell is that supposed to
mean?" Mulder demanded.
"It means that there are some messages that
should be given in person. I would not presume to pass such a message onto Walter,"
Obi-Wan replied, unruffled by Mulder's petulance.
"Well you just tell him this - tell him that
I know he's working for that smoking bastard, and that I know he's been spying on me. He
asked me once if we're done, and you can tell him from me, that we are now. We are. We're
done. Through." Mulder finished with a vicious shake of his head.
"Is that any way to speak to your master,
Mulder?" Obi-Wan inquired.
"My master? What are you talking about?
You're not my master."
"No, I'm not, but Walter is."
Mulder stopped pacing, and stood, with his hands
on his hips, looking utterly confused. "Now what the hell is that supposed to
mean? Listen, Ben, whoever you are, whatever kinky games you get up to with Skinner are
your affair, but he sure as hell isn't my master."
"Of course he is." Obi-Wan shrugged.
"I will give him your message, Mulder, but I'd advise you to search your heart.
Walter isn't your enemy. You must know that."
"No, I don't know that. And I don't damn
well know you," Mulder said pointedly. "Just give him the message."
"Very well." Obi-Wan agreed. "A
word of advice though, Mulder." He put a firm hand on Mulder's neck, and squeezed.
Mulder went still, like a stunned rabbit, his will utterly overwhelmed by Obi-Wan's power.
"Trust your instincts," Obi-Wan told the other man. "You know Walter would
never willingly betray you." Mulder opened his mouth, and tried to say something, but
the force of Obi-Wan's tightly controlled will was too much for him, and he only managed a
choking gasp. Obi-Wan smiled at him sweetly, and escorted him to the door, still holding
his neck tightly in his grasp.
"You have great gifts, but much to
learn," he told Mulder with a regretful sigh, "and you should have had the
coffee. It's nice. I'm getting quite a taste for it." He opened the door, and shooed
Mulder out as if he were an unwanted kitten. Mulder gaped at him for a moment, then, with
a puzzled look, turned on his heel and left.
Skinner returned earlier than Obi-Wan had
expected - and he wasn't alone. Trailing along behind him was a boy, about the same age as
Anakin had been when they'd found him - or a little older.
"This is Gibson Praise," Skinner told
him tersely. "He's
oh god, it's too complicated to explain. He's going to be
staying here for a while."
"He means that Krycek has asked him to keep
me out of the way for a few hours," Gibson said, walking over to Obi-Wan, and looking
him straight in the eye. "You're different." Gibson stated.
"So are you." Obi-Wan replied, looking
down at the boy, and sensing that the force was greatly disrupted around him - so badly
disrupted as to be almost something else. "Something was done to you," he said.
"Yes." Gibson shrugged, seating himself
on the couch. "And to you?" He asked.
"No." Obi-Wan managed a faint smile.
"You're appalled by me." Gibson told
him, without embarrassment.
"No, I'm appalled by what's been done to
you. And sorry." Obi-Wan reached out a finger to touch Gibson's scarred head, and
imparted the gesture with as much healing as he possessed. Healing had never been his
strong subject at the Temple, but he sensed this boy was in need of it, and longed to help
him in some way.
Gibson moved his head away. "It's too late
for me."
"I don't believe that." Obi-Wan looked
up at Walter. "What was done to him?" He asked.
"I don't know." Skinner shook his head
wearily. Obi-Wan felt anger and grief for both these people - both victims of the dark
side of the force in ways he could not comprehend.
"I have a message for you." Obi-Wan
drew Skinner away from the couch to speak to him privately. "From your padawan."
"My what?" Skinner frowned.
"Your apprentice," Obi-Wan supplied.
"Mulder," he added, and the light finally dawned.
"Mulder? My apprentice!" Skinner
snorted.
"Yes." Obi-Wan nodded. "Of course
he is."
"Don't let him hear you say that!"
Skinner gave a grim chuckle.
"I already did." Obi-Wan smiled.
"I'm surprised you don't see it. The force is strong in both of you. You have learned
to control it within yourself to a degree, through experience and some hard lessons, but
Mulder's talent is prodigious - and wild. You've tried to teach him patience, and the
value of knowledge and training."
"Well, yes, in a manner of speaking."
Skinner mused.
"Well then, these were lessons I learned
from my master, and he from his master before him." Obi-Wan told him. "I was the
apprentice, as Mulder is to you."
"And his message?" Skinner pressed,
glancing at Gibson.
"Was hasty and ill thought out. I said
something similar to my own master once, in anger and self-pity. It still grieves
me."
"What did Mulder say?" Skinner's face
had assumed a hard mask, as if to protect himself from the pain he saw coming a mile away.
"He said that he was aware that you are
working for the "smoking bastard", and that you and he are through."
Obi-Wan watched as Skinner's jaw tightened, and
the lines around his eyes seemed to deepen with sadness, combined with anger.
"It was inevitable." Skinner shrugged,
after several long minutes during which the Jedi knight saw him struggling with a
kaleidoscope of emotions. It was a fascinating sight, and Obi-Wan was intrigued by the
array of feelings that Skinner revealed only through a twitching of the nerve in his neck,
the slight movement of his jaw, and the intense charcoal depths of his eyes.
"Can't you tell him the truth - whatever it
may be?" Obi-Wan asked, placing a hand on Skinner's shoulder.
"No." Skinner looked up, his tone firm.
"This is the only way to protect him."
"I understand." Obi-Wan nodded. He
returned to the couch, to give Skinner some time alone.
Obi-Wan found it necessary to keep a firm clamp
on his thoughts in the presence of Gibson Praise. He guessed that the boy's talents had
arisen more by physical intervention, than by any naturally arising power of the force
within him, but the end result was much the same. It wasn't too late for him though -
Obi-Wan was sure of that. In time, with a good master, he could learn to control the power
within him, and to use it for good. In the wrong hands though
Obi-Wan shuddered. In
the wrong hands it was almost inevitable that the boy would turn to the dark side, and
Obi-Wan didn't like to think of the chaos that would be wreaked on this unsuspecting world
if a boy as talented as this one were to be turned. The fate of the whole world depended
on this damaged child. It was terrifying.
There was a knock on the door shortly after
midnight, and Krycek appeared.
"He's come for me," Gibson told
Obi-Wan.
"You don't want to go with him, do
you?" Obi-Wan asked.
"I don't care any more." Gibson
shrugged.
"After all that's been done to you, I don't
blame you."
"You though
you're not like any of the
others. I
maybe I could stay with you." Gibson bit on his lip.
"Do you trust me?" Obi-Wan asked.
Gibson nodded, thoughtfully. <Good. Maybe one day I can deserve that trust,> Obi-Wan
said silently. Gibson looked at him in surprise. <Forgive me for now?> He asked.
<Yes.> The boy nodded again, and limped
over to where Krycek stood, waiting.
Skinner handed over the boy with even more strain
showing in his face than had been evident the previous evening. Krycek smiled a
triumphant, evil smile, and Obi-Wan watched as the anger and hatred rose inside the big
man, until it almost spilled over, and threatened to disrupt his tightly controlled
façade. As soon as Krycek had gone, taking Gibson with him, Skinner slammed his fist into
the wall, pounding it hard, over and over again.
"That isn't the way," Obi-Wan told him
softly. "Anger, and hatred, cloud your mind. You need to be at peace in order to see
the way forward."
Skinner looked at him, and laughed out loud - a
bitter, ironic sound. "I told Scully something similar once. I know the truth of what
you're saying, Ben, but there are times when it just hurts too much."
"Yes. I know. When Qui-Gon was killed
I
pursued his killer, Darth Maul, with vengeance in my heart. I could feel the power of the
dark side in that moment."
"Did you kill him?" Skinner's dark eyes
were curious, and sympathetic.
"Darth Maul? Yes. I cut him in two."
Obi-Wan said with some degree of satisfaction but no great sense of pride.
"Good." Skinner grunted. "Don't
get me wrong - I'm not a great believer in people taking justice into their own hands, but
there are times when natural justice just seems
fitting."
"I agree." Obi-Wan saw the deep sense
of dejection in the other man, and wished he could help him in some way.
"Look, Ben, I need to get away,"
Skinner said. He strode up to his bedroom, and slung some clothes into a bag. Obi-Wan
followed him.
"You want to come to a decision - about what
to do?" He predicted.
"Yes." Skinner paused for a moment.
"Not that I exactly have a lot of options," he muttered. Obi-Wan felt a wave of
anxiety at those words. "I would like to come with you," he said quickly.
"I'd prefer to be alone." Skinner
snapped.
"And I would prefer that you were not,"
Obi-Wan replied forcefully.
Skinner looked up in surprise. "Ben, this is
my life. Butt out. Or are you going to pull that weird mind trick on me again?"
Obi-Wan looked at him in surprise. "Yeah, I figured that one out," Skinner said.
"Trust me - the last person I left on their own in my apartment was Krycek - and that
turned out very badly. There's no way I'd have agreed to leaving you here alone. I've been
trying to figure out why I did, and all I can think of is that thing you did with your
hand."
"Like this." Obi-Wan waved his hand in
the air. "Come with me, Ben, I need your help."
Skinner looked at him for a moment, his eyes
glazing over. He opened his mouth, then closed it again. "Nice try," he said,
with a snort. "But I think I'm getting the hang of this force of yours."
"I think that maybe you are," Obi-Wan
said with a smile. "I said the force was strong with you. You would have made a fine
Jedi knight, Walter."
"Yeah. Right." Skinner finished
packing. "You can stay here, Ben. I know you don't have anywhere else to go."
"On the contrary, I'm coming with you,"
Obi-Wan said insistently. "No mind tricks." He held out his hands. "But you
need a friend right now, Walter, and I'm going to make sure that's me. I don't care what
you've done in the past, I'm here to see you don't make an
irrevocable mistake in the
future."
"You think I'm going to kill myself?"
Skinner paused in the doorway.
"Are you saying it isn't on your list of
options?" Obi-Wan demanded.
Skinner put his bag down, and ran a hand over his
head. "Okay," he said at last, wearily. "It's on the list. I just need time
and space to think it through. You can come - but if I decide it's for the best, I need
you to honour that, and not try and stop me."
Obi-Wan thought about it for a moment then
nodded. "Agreed," he said.
This world, this "Earth" was so very
beautiful, Obi-Wan thought, as Skinner drove them through the mountains in his jeep. It
was a long drive, and Obi-Wan was surprised when they stopped in the middle of nowhere,
somewhere deep in the hills.
"We have to walk it from here," Skinner
told him. "I hope you're fit."
"I am." Obi-Wan suppressed a smile.
Apart from his healing leg, he suspected he was a good deal fitter than most people he had
encountered thus far on this planet - including Walter, who had clearly been allowing his
health to suffer recently, if those bottles of alcohol were anything to judge by.
Skinner handed him a pack, which Obi-Wan
shouldered without complaint, and then he strode off. Obi-Wan followed him. It was a nice
day, the sun was shining, and the scenery was spectacular. Obi-Wan couldn't help humming.
Despite the bleakness of their situation, there was always something to appreciate, and
the beauty of his surroundings seeped into his weary heart. He watched Walter move in
front of him, with all the pent-up aggression of a tiger searching for prey. His muscles
were bunched tight, and his movements were sharp and staccato, not free flowing and easy.
Obi-Wan longed to place a hand on the other man's shoulder, to smile into his eyes and
soothe him, as he used to with his master when the weight of his burdens grew too heavy.
"You always know the right things to say, my
padawan." Qui-Gon would smile, and allow himself to be distracted, even if just for a
moment. Obi-Wan enjoyed making his master relax, taking the other man's face between his
hands, and soothing his brow with kisses. Qui-Gon had always been a driven man. He found
it hard to switch off - and Obi-Wan always knew a way past his defences. He wished he knew
such a way with Walter. The other man had removed his sweater, and was now only wearing a
black vest, tucked into blue denim jeans, with sturdy walking boots on his feet. His neck
and shoulders glistened with sweat, and there was something about the raw grace of his
stance that made Obi-Wan stop short. Skinner wasn't like Qui-Gon - his master had walked
with the flowing ease of a Jedi knight, and yet
walking behind him, watching him,
Obi-Wan had, for a moment, experienced a sense of deja-vu. Trust your instincts, he had
told Mulder, and his instincts told him that being with this man felt right. Obi-Wan felt
as if he had been struck by some great revelation. He was unable to move, and instead just
kept watching as Walter walked, his long legs eating up the ground. Finally the big man
turned, a frown of concern creasing his wide forehead.
"Ben? Was I going too fast? Is your leg
hurting you?" Walter asked.
"No. I was
nothing."
Obi-Wan gazed into those quizzical brown eyes for
a long moment, wondering what was happening. He had been so sure that he had been sent to
this world in order to assist these people in the battle between the dark and light sides
of the force that was clearly brewing here. He hadn't expected to find another person to
love as much as he had loved his old master. His heart quickened, and he clung to the
memory of Qui-Gon, unwilling to relinquish it even after all these years.
The sun glanced through the trees, surrounding
Walter in a glowing halo, and Obi-Wan took a sharp intake of breath. Standing behind
Walter, with one hand on his shoulder, stood Qui-Gon. His master was smiling, and looked
younger and happier than Obi-Wan could ever remember seeing him. Obi-Wan blinked, and the
vision was gone, as quickly as it had arrived.
"Ben? What's the matter? You look like you
just saw a ghost." Walter said, starting to climb back down towards him.
"Maybe I did." Obi-Wan managed a faint
smile.
He resumed walking, stealing little glances at
Walter as he went. Was this really why he had been sent here? To meet this man? To fall in
love again? Could anybody really take Qui-Gon's place? And if so, could it possibly be
this grim, tense man, who was at this moment contemplating suicide as the solution to
problems so dark and twisted that Obi-Wan could hardly begin to understand them? He heard
the unsteady beat of Walter's heart, and sensed the fear and anger inside him. He was so
close to the dark side, and yet fought it so hard. Obi-Wan had a sudden mental image of
this big man, lying on his side in a cage, his arms and feet bound, while he continued to
roar his outrage, his defiance, even in the face of his captivity.
"I'll set you free," he whispered.
"What's that?" Skinner turned to look
down at him.
"We'll find a solution to your problem -
together," Obi-Wan told him. "I believe that's why I'm here."
Skinner opened his mouth, then closed it again,
and shook his head wryly. "You know, Ben, I wouldn't be surprised if you believed
that," he said.
Obi-Wan grinned, and was rewarded by the ghost of
a smile that tugged at Walter's lips.
They pressed on through the hills, passed through
a ridge of rocky scree, and arrived on the other side, beside a wide, glistening lake,
that shone like a circle of pure silver.
"Walter
this is beautiful."
Obi-Wan exclaimed, loosening his pack, and running down to the water's edge. He knelt
beside it, and ran his fingers through the cool, almost glacial water.
"Yeah. It's kind of a secret place."
Skinner grunted. "I trust you not to tell anyone," he muttered. Obi-Wan
suppressed a smile.
"Do we camp here?" He asked.
Skinner nodded. "I know it's basic, but it
makes me feel free - no buildings, just me and the sky. I can think out here. If you want
to go back, then be my guest."
"I've camped out before, Walter. I'm sure
I'll survive." Obi-Wan grinned. "Now, that water looks pretty good. Time for a
swim, I think." He stripped off his clothing and dived headfirst into the lake, his
body tingling as the icy water enveloped him. It felt so good to be able to stretch his
limbs, to kick and shout, beneath the bright blue sky. Walter grinned at him, making a
campfire. Obi-Wan wanted the big man to join him in the water, but sensed a resistance
from him, so he didn't invite him in. Finally, feeling cleansed after the long, sweaty
walk, he pulled himself out of the lake, and quickly got dressed to warm himself up.
Skinner had dinner cooking over the fire when he returned to their small camp, and the sun
was already fading. They ate in companionable silence, watching the magnificent sunset
casting crimson rays over the water.
"Did you bring Sharon up here?" Obi-Wan
asked, sensing Walter's melancholy.
"Yeah." Skinner shrugged. "She was
always a country girl at heart. She never got the hang of the big city - power dressing,
politicking, all that crap. My career kept me in DC, but I should have seen that Sharon
wasn't really happy there. We grew apart
" His voice faded.
"And you're more of a chameleon? At home in
the city, and in the wilderness?" Obi-Wan asked.
"I'm not sure. Sometimes my job makes me
feel
cramped," Skinner admitted. "I'm locked up in a room all day, sitting
behind my big desk, and I get restless. I need to get out, stretch my legs."
"Qui-Gon was the same. He hated to be still
- he always had to be on the move." Obi-Wan smiled. "He was the sort of man who
made things happen, whether for good or ill."
"Sounds like Mulder." Skinner commented
with a grunt. "He could never leave things alone either."
Obi-Wan laughed out loud. "There are
similarities, yes. Mulder - why does he think you've betrayed him?"
"Because I have?" Skinner's tone was
lightly ironic, but there was no mistaking the savage bite of his jaw as he said the
words.
"In order to save him from some greater
harm?" Obi-Wan probed.
"I tell myself that." Skinner sighed,
and stretched, his long body. "Or maybe because I'm too afraid to die."
"I don't believe that." Obi-Wan watched
Skinner absently rub his shoulders, as if trying to loosen a tight ache.
"Truly." Obi-Wan leaned forward, so the fire illuminated his face. "I see
many things in you, Walter, but I don't see a coward."
Skinner looked at him for a long moment, then
gave a brief, haunted smile that tugged at Obi-Wan's heart.
"Thank you, Ben. You're a good person,"
he muttered, in the embarrassed tone of one unused to receiving praise. He rolled his neck
again.
"Here. Your shoulders are stiff. Let
me." Obi-Wan stood up and went to kneel behind Walter, his firm, strong hands soon
finding the deep tension knots in the other man's shoulders. He loved the feel of
Skinner's taut muscles beneath his fingers, and the way the fire cast an orange glow over
his tanned flesh. "I have some salve I use on injuries. If you take off your shirt, I
could rub it into your back," Obi-Wan told the big man, reaching into his pack to
retrieve the salve. Skinner hesitated for a moment, then did as he was told, removing the
vest top to reveal his muscled torso, covered in fine curls of wiry hair. Obi-Wan felt his
mouth go dry - a sensation he remembered experiencing for the first time on a freighter en
route to Coruscant after a long, exhausting mission. He and Qui-Gon had just finished
eating, and his master had placed the bowl to one side, and asked him if there was
dessert, because if there was, perhaps it should wait until "after." When he had
naively asked "after what?" Qui-Gon had groaned, and covered his mouth with his
own, and Obi-Wan's knees had given way so Qui-Gon had been forced to swing him up into his
arms, and carry him to bed that first time - a fact he never let Obi-Wan forget.
Obi-Wan straddled Skinner's body, and warmed the
salve between his hands, then smoothed it onto the other man's broad back. He lost himself
in the moment, in the feel of Skinner's flesh beneath his fingers, and the scent of the
man - the dried sweat from the afternoon's walk still clung to him. Obi-Wan kneaded the
flesh, his fingers dancing their homage to his new found love, wondering if the other man
was oblivious to the chemistry between them, that sent sparks through his fingertips.
Finally he knelt to one side, and Skinner rolled
over.
"Thanks. That was good." Walter told
him, his voice deep and gruff.
"You're welcome." Obi-Wan wiped his
hands on the grass. Skinner was sitting, his face dappled by the dying embers of the fire,
and he looked so lost that Obi-Wan couldn't stop himself. He found himself moving forward,
and his lips touched against Skinner's for one brief second. The other man froze, but
didn't pull away. Obi-Wan drew back.
"Ben
" Skinner cleared his throat.
"I'm, uh
look, I'm not gay."
Obi-Wan considered this for a moment, trying to
look at it from all angles to see its relevance. Finally he gave up with a sigh.
"You certainly don't have much to be
cheerful about right now, Walter
" he began.
Skinner gave him a quizzical look. "What the
hell
?" Then he burst out laughing. "Ben, you're a constant source of
delight. I don't know if you're making all this stuff up, but what the hell - it's made me
laugh and I didn't think anything could do that right now. What I meant is
there's
only ever been women for me. Do you understand?"
Obi-Wan shook his head. "There have been
women for me too," he said.
"Hmm, but then you decided you were gay, and
you took up with this Qui-Gon who meant so much to you," Skinner commented.
"Qui-Gon and I were bonded - from the
soul." Obi-Wan stumbled with this conversation, feeling sure they were coming from
two such different viewpoints that there couldn't be any common understanding. "I
loved the person, Walter," he said, the light finally dawning. "That isn't the
way of your people? You love the gender, not the person?" He asked.
"Yes. I mean, no. I mean
" Skinner
floundered. "Shit, Ben, you make it sound like there's something wrong with
that," he exclaimed at last.
"Not wrong
" Obi-Wan mused.
"Just very different to what I'm used to. Where I come from it just isn't relevant -
a soul bond doesn't take age or gender into account, it just
is. Nobody thinks
anything of it. I can see that your society doesn't approve of such bonds?"
"Well, we're more enlightened than we used
to be." Skinner gave a wry smile. "But I don't think we've gone quite as far as
you people. Hell, Ben, you've even got me believing these delusions of yours now!" He
smiled ruefully.
"Not delusions, Walter." Obi-Wan
sighed. "We're very real, I can assure you. Or at least we were once, a long time
ago. When I left my galaxy, I did so hoping to find Qui-Gon, in a different time. Instead
I found you. I don't believe such things happen by chance."
"Ah, you believe in fate?" Skinner's
gaze was dark and intense in the firelight.
"In destiny - yes." Obi-Wan nodded.
"Destiny." Skinner shook his head.
"I don't believe in that crap. All I can say is that you must have really pissed
someone off if your destiny is to get involved in my problems. I'm on the last bus to
nowhere, Ben. There's no future for me."
"I don't believe that." Obi-Wan told
him.
"You're always damn well saying that!"
Skinner snapped. "What the hell do you believe then, Ben?"
"I believe in you." Obi-Wan shrugged.
He got up and rolled out his blanket, and then lay down, and pulled it around him. He lay
awake for a long time, watching as Walter stared morosely into the fire. Then, when the
big man thought Obi-Wan was asleep, he turned to stare at him. Obi-Wan closed his eyes,
and feigned sleep, but he was aware, through his closed eyelids of that intense scrutiny,
combined with something else - an emotion - regret maybe?
It was almost dawn when Obi-Wan was awakened by
the intruders. He opened his eyes blearily, and tried to scramble to his feet, only to
find his arms pinned roughly behind his back. He shook his head, coming to his full level
of alertness in time to see Walter being savagely punched in the gut by two unknown
assailants. One was holding the big man, while the other laid into him. Obi-Wan let out a
wordless cry of distress, and then kicked out at the two men holding him, landing a
graceful blow to the legs of one, which freed his arms to easily dispose of the other. He
glanced at his bag - his light-sabre was in there, and he needed it.
"Run!" Walter shouted. His face was
bleeding, and he was struggling with his captors. "It's me they want, Ben, just
go." Walter commanded.
Obi-Wan shook his head. "Your fight, is my
fight, Walter," he said, jumping high in the air and landing with unerring accuracy
on top of the man standing in front of Skinner. The man gave a startled cry of surprise,
and raised his fist, but was far to slow against a Jedi. Obi-Wan drop-kicked him to the
ground with no great effort, then turned his attention to the fourth man. The man
hesitated, then flung Walter forward, and drew a gun. Obi-Wan stopped.
"Not so fucking fast now, are you?" The
man gave a vicious grin, and waved the gun at Obi-Wan, who glanced again at his pack. He
could see his light-sabre peeping from the top, and he closed his eyes, and concentrated.
Walter gaped in surprise as the light-sabre suddenly zipped through the air, landing
unerringly in Obi-Wan's outstretched hand. Obi-Wan activated it, which drew a hiss from
the man holding the gun.
"A big flashlight? What the hell use is that?"
the man growled.
Obi-Wan smiled. "You're about to find
out," he replied, advancing on their attacker. The man hesitated, then lifted the gun
higher, aimed deliberately at Obi-Wan's chest, and fired.
"Ben!" Walter ran forward, but Obi-Wan
had easily deflected the bullet. He continued his slow advance, and their attacker was
looking distinctly nervous now. He emptied his entire magazine straight at Obi-Wan from
point blank range. Obi-Wan dismissed each bullet with a disdainful flourish of his wrist,
and kept advancing. Finally, the man raised his gun, and charged at Obi-Wan, aiming to hit
him across the side of the face with the weapon. Obi-Wan flashed the light-sabre through
the air, and the man howled in pain, huddling over his bloodied wrist and gazing at his
severed hand in disbelief.
"Take your comrades with you, and return to
your master." Obi-Wan told him, picking up the hand and tucking it tidily in the
man's jacket pocket. He waved his light-sabre at the other men, and they scrambled past
him hastily, helping their stricken comrade to his feet, and hurrying him away. When he
was sure they had gone, Obi-Wan deactivated his light-sabre, and ran to Walter's side.
"Walter? Hold still." Obi-Wan ran to
the lake, and dipped his shirt in the cool water, then returned to the big man, and gently
wiped the blood from his face.
"Ben - what the hell was that thing
and
how did you make it
?" Walter's dark eyes were wide with astonishment.
"I told you, Walter - I'm from a different
time and place. I have some special
talents." Obi-Wan smiled, softly caressing
the side of Walter's face. "Here, lean back - let me check your ribs." He ran
his fingers carefully over Skinner's torso, and the other man hissed in pain, and stopped
his fingers with a big hand, holding them tight.
"Ben - thanks," he said, his tone
sincere. "I owe you. You risked your life for me."
"I was protecting someone I care
about." Obi-Wan replied, finishing his examination and finding Skinner bruised, but
otherwise not greatly hurt. He noted the flush of confusion that rose to Skinner's face,
and smiled. "There's no obligation, Walter. You're a good man. It's easy to care
about you. You cared about me when we had barely met. I haven't forgotten your kindness in
taking me to the hospital, and then into your home. I was merely repaying the debt."
"Ben." Skinner cleared his throat.
"I think
I can hardly believe I'm saying this, but hell, I always told Mulder
I'd believe him if he could show me the evidence, and you sure as hell showed me something
just now
.I think I believe your story." He said it as it were a great
admission, and maybe, for this man, it was.
"Thank you, Walter." Obi-Wan grinned.
"Mulder is going to be so pissed."
Skinner returned the grin. "If anyone deserved to meet ET, it was him, not me. And
you sure as hell know how to fight," Skinner grimaced. "They took me by
surprise. I should have known that bastard Krycek would have me followed."
"Those men
?"
"Were sent to remind me who I belong to, and
who I should have checked in with before disappearing to my little hideaway. Yeah."
Skinner's eyes registered his anger at having his movements so curtailed.
"An object lesson." Obi-Wan sighed. He
got to his feet, and helped Skinner up. "Here. I can tell you're fascinated by
this." He placed the light-sabre carefully in Skinner's hand, then activated it on
its lowest setting. Skinner almost dropped it in surprise, but then clenched his fist hard
around it. "It's okay - even if it touches you it won't do more than burn - it's not
set for anything higher," Obi-Wan informed him. "Don't squeeze it like that -
just hold it loosely." He stood behind the big man, and placed his arms around him,
and his hands over Skinner's big paws. "Now close your eyes," he instructed.
Skinner hesitated, then did as he was told. "Now feel the force flowing through
you
" Obi-Wan concentrated, finding the jumbled eddies of the force inside
Skinner. "Imagine that you're a conduit, Walter. You do not control the force, but
neither does it control you - it's a thing of harmony. You can channel it, but first you
need to trust yourself, to feel the force sweep through you. Focus
" He slowed
his breathing and felt Walter do the same, until they were in synch, and then he felt a
great sense of peace wash over the other man.
"I can feel it
" Skinner said in
an awe-struck tone.
"That's right. Don't do anything
just
allow yourself to be
" Obi-Wan whispered. He savoured the moment, his cheek
pressed against Walter's, his body pressed tight against the other man's back, his hands
covering Walter's hands. Then he moved back, and picked up a rock from beside the lake.
"Now, keep your eyes closed, Walter, and act on instinct
" He threw the
rock towards the big man, and Skinner hesitated, then sliced the sabre through the air,
cutting the stone in two with a clean swipe. He opened his eyes and looked down in
disbelief at the shattered rock.
"I did that?" He asked, his face
widening into a grin.
"Yes, Walter." Obi-Wan laughed. "I
told you, the force is strong with you."
"I thought you said this "force"
is in everybody." Skinner frowned.
"It is, but in some it is like the faint
whisper of a heartbeat, and in others it is much louder - like a drum. On this world, its
power is mostly locked up - unfocused. Your people have no Jedi teachers, and you don't
know how to get in touch with the force. You
there is something that happened to you
that makes you different. Sometimes those who have experienced some profound event find
they are able to access the power of the force. Is this true of you?"
Skinner thought about it for a moment, then
nodded. "I've been declared technically dead on two separate occasions. After each
one, I
felt different." He shrugged. "It scared me. I didn't like to
examine it more closely."
"Ah." Obi-Wan smiled. "One day,
Walter, you will. I hope when that day comes, you will allow me to take the journey with
you - as your guide." Then he burst out laughing.
"What?" Skinner asked with a confused
frown. "What's so funny?"
"For a man who doesn't believe in destiny,
did it never strike you as strange that you have cheated death not once, but twice? I
would have said, Walter, that there is still something very specific that you have to do.
Why else would they keep sending you back?"
"Ben, you're so crazy you make Mulder look
sane." Skinner laughed.
"Mulder." Obi-Wan sighed. "He also
keeps avoiding his destiny."
"Which is?" Skinner raised an eyebrow.
Obi-Wan smiled, and shook his head. "I'm
hungry. I think we missed breakfast," he said mildly.
After breakfast, Obi-Wan took another swim. He
felt wild, and free, slipping through the water like a fish. He was pleased when Walter
finally stripped off his clothing, and joined him in the cold lake. The dark bruises on
the other man's torso were livid on his golden flesh as he walked naked towards the
water's edge. Obi-Wan watched, wanting to tear his eyes away, but too transfixed by those
long limbs. He loved the way Skinner's muscles moved beneath his skin, as the sunlight
beat down on his bald head, as if anointing him with its blessing. If Obi-Wan felt like a
fish, then Skinner was like a sea lion, his bald head bulldozing through the water,
pugnacious and graceful at one and the same time.
"Sharon used to love it in here."
Skinner said, emerging beside Obi-Wan, the water lacing his eyelashes, making him seem
very young, and curiously innocent.
"It's cold, but so refreshing." Obi-Wan
agreed. "The scars on your chest
?"
"From the war. And later, the FBI."
Skinner replied.
"I saw the warrior in you, the moment we
first met." Obi-Wan smiled. "Qui-Gon had a similar soul."
"What did he look like?" Skinner dived
under the surface of the water, eating up the distance with strong strokes of his arms, to
resurface behind Obi-Wan.
"Tall, slender
handsome." Obi-Wan
grinned.
"When she'd finished her swim, Sharon used
to lie out naked in the sun to dry off, and I'd comb her wet hair. She had long
hair," Skinner remembered.
"As did Qui-Gon." Obi-Wan recalled.
"How long since Sharon died?"
"Nearly three years," Skinner replied.
"And Qui-Gon?"
"Seven years. Has there been another for you
since then?"
"No." Skinner shivered. "It's cold
- time to dry off." He pulled himself out of the water, and went to lie down in the
sun. Obi-Wan joined him. "You?" Skinner asked.
"Since Qui-Gon died? No. Nobody else."
Obi-Wan shook his head.
"Seven years is a long time to be
lonely." Skinner mused.
"As is three." Obi-Wan shrugged.
"There was never anybody to compare with Qui-Gon, and I thought there never could be
again. Until now." Obi-Wan looked straight into Skinner's dark eyes, and the big man
flushed, and dropped his gaze.
"Ben, there have been times
when I've
felt attracted
that is
I had to fight it. It was disapproved of, but that
doesn't mean I didn't want to
I mean
"
"The taboo is strong among your people,
Walter. I understand that." Obi-Wan shrugged. "Your friendship is enough. I
don't ask for any more."
"I do."
Obi-Wan looked up to find Walter gazing at him
uncertainly, his eyes confused - part desire, part fear reflected in their charcoal
depths.
Obi-Wan reached out a careful hand, and gently
stroked the side of Skinner's face. The other man closed his eyes, and Obi-Wan deposited a
tender kiss on his lips. Skinner didn't move, but his lips parted a little, and, thus
encouraged, Obi-Wan dipped his head forward again, and kissed the other man with greater
passion. Skinner's mouth opened under his, and his big hands came up, and tangled in
Obi-Wan's hair. Obi-Wan's fingers played over Skinner's naked head, learning its curves
and contours.
"I guess we both have to get used to missing
hair." Skinner said, with a wry smile, as the kiss finished.
"I'm not unhappy with the difference. I do
not look for you to be Qui-Gon," Obi-Wan replied, pressing his lips against Skinner's
head. "And I think I could find this," he kissed the naked scalp again,
"to be quite as arousing as the feel of Qui-Gon's hair beneath my fingers."
"You speak as if we have time
together." Skinner shook his head sadly, his hand drawing Obi-Wan's lithe body close,
so that the Jedi could feel the hardness of the big man's erection against his thigh.
"One thing I learned from the loss of
Qui-Gon, is that you must make the most of however long you have with someone you
love," Obi-Wan murmured.
He traced gentle lips over Skinner's bruised
ribs, then ended his caress at the other man's hard, broad cock, sliding his mouth over
the crown, and taking it within him, warming the flesh with his tongue. Skinner moaned and
rocked forward, and Obi-Wan released him, and returned to his mouth for another deep kiss,
that left the Jedi breathless, his head spinning. If anything could have convinced him
that he had found someone who could mean as much to him as his lost love, it was the power
of that kiss. Skinner seemed to gain confidence from the embrace, and he wrapped Obi-Wan
in his muscled arms. The big man devoured the Jedi master with his mouth, his large body
covering the slighter man, making him moan, as they thrust against each other, flesh
warming flesh, naked under the blue sky and the hot rays of the sun.
Obi-Wan surrendered to those caresses, and cried
out as Skinner took his hard cock in his hand, and thumbed it along its entire length.
When he was on the verge of coming, he stopped Walter, with a smile.
"Lie down. I want to explore you," he
whispered. Skinner looked uncertain, so Obi-Wan touched his lips with his own, in a brief,
reassuring kiss.
"Trust me, Walter," he whispered.
Skinner nodded, and did as instructed, and Obi-Wan straddled the big man's back, and
sucked a trail down his spine. He inspected the grey fringe of hair around Skinner's head,
and the fleshy lobes of his ears, then licked his way down one solid, muscled arm, turned,
and did the same to the other, going up, until he was at the neck again, tickling it with
his tongue. He continued down, ending at Skinner's taut, golden buttocks, and dipped his
nose a little way inside the other man's crack, before thrusting his tongue inside, making
Skinner moan out loud. Obi-Wan made no comparisons between his new love, and the old.
Skinner's body was as pleasing to him as Qui-Gon's had been, and he took his time enjoying
the new sensations, loving the feel of sunlight on naked flesh, and skin against skin.
Finally he turned Walter over, and reached for the salve in his bag.
"I want you inside me. Hush." He placed
a finger over Skinner's lips. "Let me do this." He rubbed the salve on his
hands, and then used the slippery stuff to anoint Skinner's cock, sliding the hard length
between his fingers, until it glistened, upright and proud in his palm. Then he turned his
attention to his own body. Sitting astride Skinner, he pushed his lubricated fingers
inside himself, opening himself up, his tongue wetting his lips as he looked down on the
man he was preparing himself for, in anticipation. Skinner seemed to find the preparation
intensely arousing, and his cock hardened even more, and he reached out and grasped
Obi-Wan's penis, caressing it with a firm touch that made the younger man shiver on the
brink of coming. Finally, he was ready. He positioned himself over Skinner, and looked
down into the other man's dark eyes, then carefully lowered himself onto him, parting his
own flesh, so that Skinner's hard length could slip into him easily. Skinner's hips bucked
up to meet him, and clenched tightly around him, as Obi-Wan moved rhythmically on top of
him. His body exploded into a series of delicious ripples of pure pleasure as Skinner
filled him. He felt the other man's hands clutch his thighs, warm and sweaty against his
flesh, and smiled down on his lover. Skinner smiled back - the first truly relaxed,
genuine smile that Obi-Wan had ever seen on the other man. For a moment they were both
caught up in the intensity of their coupling, and then Skinner came inside him with a
shout of release, and Obi-Wan looked up to the sky, the sweat running down his face.
Obi-Wan stayed straddling his lover for a long
time, his hands resting on Skinner's chest as he felt the other man's cock soften inside
him. Skinner was smiling, and he reached up and pushed a lock of sweaty hair from
Obi-Wan's forehead.
"You looked as if you really enjoyed
that," Skinner murmured.
"Didn't you?" Obi-Wan teased.
"Oh yeah." Skinner chuckled. "But
you
" he gestured with his hand, and wrapped it around Obi-Wan's still hard
cock, but Obi-Wan stopped him.
"We could do this another way, if you wish
to," he suggested. Skinner hesitated, then nodded.
"Trust me." Obi-Wan kissed him firmly
on the lips, then moved back. He pressed Skinner's legs open, and applied more salve to
his fingers, then gently inserted them inside the other man, rubbing softly. Skinner was
tight, and his muscles clenched hard around Obi-Wan's fingers.
"Relax." Obi-Wan ran his free hand over
Skinner's thigh, gently caressing him, and fraction, by fraction, the tension left the
other man's body. Obi-Wan leaned forwards and bestowed a kiss on Skinner's balls, licking
them, and softly caressing his inner thigh. Skinner's whole body opened up beneath him,
and Obi-Wan carefully inserted another finger, and then another searching for the spot
that he knew would send Skinner into a tidal wave of ecstasy. He found it, and Skinner
gasped out loud, his whole body convulsing. Obi-Wan smiled, and calmed him with more
soothing strokes along his thigh. "Are you ready, Walter?" He asked, removing
his fingers from inside the big man's body, and coaxing his own erection back into full
hardness. Skinner nodded, and Obi-Wan took his face between his hands, and kissed him
again. Then he lifted Skinner's hips, and eased himself inside. For a moment, Skinner
panicked, and Obi-Wan soothed him again, gently running his hands over the big man's body.
Finally, when Skinner nodded to him, he resumed his gentle thrusting, until he was buried
to the hilt in his lover's willing warmth. He angled his thrust with precision, and
Skinner gasped, and clutched his thighs in surprise.
"Good?" Obi-Wan asked.
"Shit
yes. Damn good." Skinner put
his head back, the muscles in his neck straining as his body exploded with the pleasure of
Obi-Wan's hard cock rubbing his prostate. "Harder
"
Skinner pulled Obi-Wan's thighs again, bucking up
to meet Obi-Wan's thrusts, over and over again, until the Jedi couldn't hold on any more,
and he came with a satisfied sigh.
Obi-Wan withdrew, and threw himself down beside
Skinner, enveloped the big man in his arms, and kissed him, pressing his head against his
chest. They lay there, panting, for a long time, as the sun lulled them into a pleasant,
relaxed doze.
It was evening when Obi-Wan awoke. He was covered
in a blanket, and he could see the last rays of the sun casting a crimson glow over the
lake. There was no sign of Skinner. Obi-Wan got up, and went to the lake to clean himself,
before dressing quickly to ward off the chilly night air.
He wandered along the lake a little way, until he
found the big man seated on a large, flat rock, looking out into nothing, his expression
sad. Skinner looked up, but didn't speak. Instead he reached out a hand, and pulled
Obi-Wan up in front of him, nestling him between his legs. Then he lifted the blanket he
was wrapped in, and held Obi-Wan close, snuggling them both within it. Obi-Wan sat with
his back pressed against Skinner's chest, the big man's arms clasped tight around his
shoulders, his lover's chin resting on Obi-Wan's head, and they were silent for a long
time. Then Skinner cleared his throat.
"You've made your decision." Obi-Wan
pre-empted him.
"Yes." Skinner whispered, his breath
tickling Obi-Wan's ear.
"It's the wrong one." Obi-Wan stated.
"How did you
? Never mind."
Skinner chuckled. "I think I owe you an explanation, Ben. You've never asked for one,
but I think you deserve one."
Obi-Wan made no reply, just sank back deeper into
the warm depths of his lover's arms.
"Krycek has infected me with some kind of
nano-technology. If I don't do as he says, then he can just press a switch and I become
ill. Or worse. He made me die once before, then brought me back to life," Skinner
said. Obi-Wan nodded, and heard Skinner take a deep breath before continuing. "I'm
going along with him for now, because I'm no use to Mulder dead. Mulder has so many
enemies. I'm the only friend he has in a position of any power in the FBI. Without me to
protect him
" Skinner trailed off.
"Have you told Mulder about this?"
Obi-Wan asked.
"No." Skinner said softly. "If he
knew, he'd go after Krycek."
"And you don't think he could win?"
Obi-Wan looked up. "There comes a time when the master has to let the apprentice go,
Walter."
"I know, but
Mulder has so many battles
to fight. I don't want him fighting mine," Skinner told him. "I suppose
that
protecting him has become a way of life for me. I thought that I could use
Krycek as he was using me
that I could use him to find out more information about the
Consortium, and their plans, but it's not that simple."
"I understand." Obi-Wan nodded.
"But Walter - if you kill yourself, your death won't count for anything."
"At least I won't be a pawn in someone
else's game any more - a pawn they use to get at Mulder, and destroy him." Skinner
snapped.
"No - but if you must die, why not do so
because you've defied them?" Obi-Wan said. He got up, and turned to face Skinner,
kneeling between the big man's legs, and looking at him intently. "Walter - I think I
was sent to this world to find you, but also to help change things here. This battle is
stuck, and it needs someone to alter the pieces, to look at the board in a different way.
You, and your apprentice, are integral to the fight between the light and dark sides of
the force in this world. I know that you would die before you went over to the dark side,
but give your death meaning, Walter. Use it to fight the evil that threatens this
world."
"How?" Skinner frowned, and Obi-Wan
took his face between his hands, and kissed him on the lips.
"Trust me," he said.
Obi-Wan sat on the couch, with one arm curled
negligently around Skinner's shoulders, as the big man sat cross-legged on the floor in
front of him. The Jedi had changed back into his tunic, and pants, which had made Skinner
raise a questioning eyebrow.
"If we are to face ordeals, I would rather
do so in my own clothes." Obi-Wan told him.
They had been back in DC for a few hours, and
Obi-Wan was stunned by the change in Skinner's whole demeanour. The idea of action, of
fighting back, had liberated his lover, and Skinner had spent the entire journey home
whistling, talking, and generally behaving in a more animated way than Obi-Wan would have
believed possible. He tried not to compare Skinner with Qui-Gon, but there were certain
similarities that made him smile. Both were men who preferred to be doing, rather than
sitting on the sidelines, whatever problems that led them into. Qui-Gon always hated to be
still - only years of rigorous Jedi training had worked to at least make his pursuit of
his quests less frenetic than they otherwise would have been. Skinner was also a thinker -
and prone to dark doubts, but like Qui-Gon he rose to whatever the occasion required.
"How long do you think we'll have to
wait?" Obi-Wan asked, his fingers combing through the small fringe of hair at the
back of Skinner's neck.
"Not very long." Skinner shrugged.
"I'll imagine that Krycek is hopping mad. My guess is that he's just itching to get
around here and pull me back into line."
"He'll know you're back?"
"Yeah." Skinner sighed. "He'll
know."
He was right. Krycek showed up at the door a few hours later. Obi-Wan stood back as
Skinner let him into the apartment, and locked the door firmly behind the dark haired man.
Krycek looked at Obi-Wan, then back to Skinner.
"It seems your boyfriend is less of a pansy
than he looks," he remarked. Obi-Wan had no idea what a pansy was, but guessed that
he wasn't being complimented.
"Would you care to take a seat, Mr.
Krycek." Obi-Wan gestured to a chair.
"No. I'm not stopping. I'm just here to give
him," he nodded at Skinner, "a painful little reminder about who pulls his
strings." He reached into his pocket and took out a small box. Obi-Wan held out his
hand, and the box sprang out of Krycek's grasp, and into his own. Obi-Wan drew his light
sabre, threw the box into the air, then sliced it through. It gave a sizzling moan, then
the lights winked out.
"What the fuck
?" Krycek looked at
Skinner who shrugged.
"My boyfriend is a man of many
talents," the big man grinned.
"You're dead, Skinner. Do you think that's
the only control box?" Krycek hissed.
"No, but I suspect it's the only one you
carry around with you." Skinner drew a gun, put a big hand on Krycek's shoulder and
pressed him down into a chair. Then he retrieved a pair of handcuffs from his pocket, and
fastened Krycek's good hand to the other man's own ankle, effectively hobbling him.
"What the hell are you playing at?" Krycek demanded. "You are so
dead, Skinner."
"I know. Liberating, isn't it?" Skinner
grinned.
"We want information from you." Obi-Wan
walked over to Krycek, and looked deep into those green eyes. They widened for a moment,
as if in recognition of Obi-Wan's power, and then narrowed.
"You can go to hell." Krycek spat.
Obi-Wan ignored him.
"You've already seen what this can do."
He raised the light-sabre. "I'm going to give you another demonstration." He
brought the sabre down on Krycek's prosthetic, severing it from his body. Krycek's head
snapped up, his eyes wide in panic as he smelled the burning plastic. "The good thing
about this weapon is
" Obi-Wan smiled, "that it cauterises as it cuts.
So
when I cut off your other arm, it's most unlikely that you'll bleed to
death. This means that you'll still be alive to give us the information we require. Of
course, if you refuse, I'm happy to move on to your legs."
Krycek's green eyes spat an angry fire. "If
you want me to tell you how to cure him," he nodded at Skinner, "forget
it. There isn't a cure, and I don't have the key to the main control box."
"I understand that. I suspect that only your
master has that. Walter accepts that a cure is unlikely - that isn't the purpose of our
questioning," Obi-Wan told him. "We want to know the location of the boy, Gibson
Praise."
"Gibson?" Krycek looked startled.
"What the hell do you want with him?"
"That's not important," Skinner said.
He crossed his arms over his chest, and leaned against the wall. "I'd advise you to
tell him, though, Krycek. He's very
determined when he wants to be." He flashed
a private grin at Obi-Wan who returned it.
Krycek thought about it for a moment, then gave
in, and spat out the information they required.
"This isn't the end of it though,
Skinner," he growled. "This is just one battle in a big war. I haven't finished
with you yet."
"Understood." Skinner nodded. Obi-Wan
handed him the rope, and gag, and then picked up his cloak and went to the door.
"Where are you going?" Skinner asked, as he began tying Krycek.
"I think that we are going to need
help," Obi-Wan replied, opening the door. He thought about it for a moment, then
turned. "Perhaps you could give me an address?" He asked.
Obi-Wan enjoyed his journey to Alexandria.
Skinner's vehicle was slow, primitive, and basic, but he survived the little expedition
without coming to any harm. He abandoned the jeep outside Mulder's apartment block,
located Mulder's door without an |