Summary: In the aftermath of Existence, Doggett discovers the secret that Skinner has been hiding for so long. Masses of Skinnerangst. Some Doggett damage.
Extract: “Don’t ever do this to me again,” Doggett said as he frantically continued rubbing the towel over Skinner’s cold flesh. “…Are you listening to me? Huh?” He stopped his frenzied movements and took Skinner’s face between his hands. “Whatever is going on inside that thick skull of yours, this is no way to deal with it. We have to find a better way. D’you understand that? I’m not going to let you do this to yourself. Even if you don’t give a damn, I do.”Skinner’s dark, glazed eyes suddenly focussed on Doggett as if those words had penetrated his foggy mind.”I mean it,” Doggett said. He pulled Skinner against him, wrapped his arms around the big man’s shoulders and held him tight against his body to share his own warmth, all the time running his hands over Skinner’s back as he rocked him to and fro, still trying to rub some life back into the listless, shaking man. Skinner’s bald head was pressed into his shoulder and the big man seemed to be drawing some kind of comfort from the contact as he slowly came to. “Hold on. Just keep holding on, Walter, because I’m not going to let you fall, I’m not going to let them destroy you…just keeping hanging on in there.”
Characters: John Doggett, Walter Skinner
Story Type: Angst, BDSM, Hurt/Comfort, Romance, Spanking Rated: NC-17 Spoilers: Existence Warnings: Part Three: Scenes of graphic Dom/sub sex and bondage (and loving, erotic spanking!) in his part. Personally I don’t think it’s remotely frightening but it’s up to you!
Word Count: 101,268
Recommendations: Award Winner, Xanthe’s Recommendation
Published: December 23, 2001
Notes: As you know, I’m a Skinner-with-anyone girl. I’ve written him with Mulder, Scully, Krycek, Twin Peaks‘s Dale Cooper, my original male character, Geri Warner (Crush), and even Obi-Wan Kenobi! (Life-force) So, I thought I should try my hand at Skinner/Doggett – and this story, Personal Time, grew and grew and grew, so I hope you’ll give it a try. It’s very angsty, with lots of sex (of course!!!), a spanking or two (ditto!) but most of all it’s a romance, with lots of emotional connection, because that’s what 1013 rarely give us. It’s my first ambitious, long story in quite a while, so I hope you enjoy it Because it’s a very long story I think it should have very long author’s notes to go with it, so there’s more below1.) Doggett: Doggett…hmmm. I know some people have a problem with him, and it’s certainly true that while I liked the character well enough onscreen I didn’t feel moved to write fanfic about him for a long time. Then I had a dream…and to cut a long story short started to think that *maybe*, if I had the time and could be bothered, I might be able to write something about him. Then dot began talking enthusiastically about honest John and how he seemed like a good partner for Walter, and we had a long discussion about Dom/sub relationships and who would be the top Then Sergeeva wrote her wonderful Mistress Xanthe and the Good Boys Club and I was finally convinced enough to write my own exploration of this pairing. Still, I didn’t have much time and wasn’t sure I was able to produce anything and then dot started the Skinner/Doggett list and I fished out what I’d started and looked at it again and thought maybe I could work it up into a little something for dot’s list and 60,000 or so words later…here it is! 2.) Skinner: Skinner’s personality is very different now to how he came across in the early seasons. I tend to think of Season 2’s more severe and strict personality as Discipline!Skinner but as the years have passed and he’s come under more and more pressure, he’s changed and developed and now shows a much softer, even hesitant side. Whatever you may think of Season 8 and 9 Skinner (and I do have some problems with the way they’ve portrayed him of late, particularly in the way he’s treated by the other characters, to say nothing of his fluctuating intelligence level) he’s clearly a man at the end of his tether. If 1013 won’t explore the emotional and psychological reasons behind their recent characterisation of the man, then I’m just going to have to do it for them, aren’t I? And in as slashy a way as possible! So, here is my first Skinner/Doggett fic. It’s heavy on the angstorama and features a loving, consensual Dom/sub relationship between the two men as Doggett tries desperately to haul Skinner back from the brink of self-destruction. This is less about BDSM and more about romance with some Dom/sub dynamics thrown in.
Dedication: This fic is dedicated to all the girls in the Walterzone for being such great friends, and encouraging, supportive and feedbacking readers. Special thanks to Phoebe for the intelligent beta and for knowing all those obscure little details! To dot for starting the Skinner/Doggett list and getting me inspired again after a long dry spell, to Sergeeva whose wonderful Mistress Xanthe and the Good Boys Club made me resurrect this story, and to Kristen for being so encouraging and supportive Huge thanks to Phoebe for doing the beta for Part 4 at a very difficult time – you’re a star